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[lesbianyearning]

everybody knows the sea loves her things

filled with love, the song the ocean sings

she loves the shells, smooth and unique, the way you can hold them in your hand

she loves the beach itself, a beautiful stretch of pale sand

the tang of salt in the air is a favorite quality

of the ocean’s love, herself, the gorgeous roaring sea

you could even say she’s quite a thalassophile

for the sea has a sense of humor, she laughs with a pretty smile

everyone knows the sea loves her things 

much like i love you, my forever

darling

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wait i fucked up the math isn’t mathing here that is the last time i try to be poetic about time

counting down the minutes

till the clock turns 00:00

thinking “365 until i can feel safe again”

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screaming

dreaming

of an old love of mine.

stop paying me a visit

when i’m the most defenseless.

circle through my head

and treat me right,

the way i cried

i’m in love with a new girl,

and she’s too perfect,

too perfect for you.

don’t you dare touch her and ruin that too.

i won’t let you take control of my life

you keep what’s yours and i’ll keep what’s mine.

let’s both stay within our lines.

too loud, too hot,

too bothered, too tight

stop quickly, stop soon,

you old love of mine.

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darling, darling, this is dangerous

what’s gonna happen if we get caught undressed?

i couldn’t guess what would happen next…

darling, darling, let’s do something dangerous

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their eyes lit up like a sunset

their exit was as passionate as one too.

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he told me that

he loved her

just yesterday.

how could i

ever explain

that my feelings never

went away?

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counting down the minutes

till the clock turns 00:00

thinking “365 until i can feel safe again”

[lesbianyearning]

not a day goes by

that i don’t think about you.

and i like to think

you’re thinking of me everyday too.

and even if you aren’t,

i hope i cross your mind at least once in a while.

you certainly won’t be leaving mine,

at least for a long time.

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and everyday i think about you and him,

i follow it up with a quick “at least you’re happy.”

you’ll never know, but it satisfies me.

[lesbianyearning]

see, we’re talking constantly.

and, well, i think it’s mutual chemistry.

you still haven’t told me.

i knew from a friend.

i think you’re ashamed of how you let things come to an end.

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here’s the thing:

i know you’ve got a boyfriend.

but i think it’s really

me you depend on.

i’m the one who’s texting you until you fall asleep.

i think i’m the one who’s really making you happy.

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and, well,

i know you don’t want me.

but, wow,

your smiles are haunting.

and you know,

you don’t know what you do to me

when you give me that smile,

i’m in ecstasy.

but, well,

you keep texting me.

and i just

wish i was free.

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stars in my fingers,

stars on my wrist.

stars blessed with your touch of a kiss.

stars on my forearms,

stars on my wrist,

stars in the sky on which i

make my wish.

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i think it would be funny if we could just

be happy.

no work,

just free.

no others,

you and me.

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i can’t believe you still blame things on me.

if it’s true i did as you said i did,

why is it you who hides and lies and pokes and prods and runs.

darling, i think you flew too close to the sun.

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why do i still feel for you?

why after months of wishing and yearning and cursing and crying

do i still want you in my arms?

need you in my arms?

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and i just want to hold her hand one more time!

i’m gasping, crying, wailing in silence, anything thing that could relieve the way i feel.

i just want to hug her like we used to!

lying on the floor, pathetic, trying to remember that this is how it’s supposed to feel, at least I’m doing something right—

i just want her to say my name one last time!

and a moment of calm settles over me, a reminder that you didn’t mean to do this, you didn’t want me to feel this level of pain, anymore than i would want you to feel it.

but then the moment’s gone, and I’m crying crying

crying

crying

trying

to burn the memory of having you in my mind because the only thing more painful than losing you might be forgetting what we had.