letters-to-charlie

[letters-to-charlie]

i couldnt allow myself to think about you in February

im sorry i missed your birthday

[letters-to-charlie]

i still love you

i don't have a lot of hope these days

[letters-to-charlie]

do you see me yet?

will you ever again?

[letters-to-charlie]

if something new

ever blooms

your roots remain

and i'll never be the same

[letters-to-charlie]

would you fall in love with me again?

[letters-to-charlie]

its Christmas

i hope youre warm

[letters-to-charlie]

i wish i were good at poetry so i could describe all the things im feeling

but maybe grief isnt meant to be describable

[letters-to-charlie]

please come back

please dont make me follow you

just come back

[letters-to-charlie]

"with my feet on the dash

the world doesnt matter"

it hits especially hard now that you're gone

because when im hiding in my memories nothing else is real

nothing else matters

[letters-to-charlie]

im so upset we dont get to spend forever together

where's our happy ending?

[letters-to-charlie]

i wish i could hear you sing

i am so grateful for your old YouTube videos of you reading poetry

they help me sleep some nights

[letters-to-charlie]

i have cats

i have a car that my dad co-signed on a loan for that he can't pay on his own

i have people to wait for even though they're never coming back

i have skills i have yet to learn

i haven't finished learning to play our song

i have people who claim they would miss me

i have dreams

despite it all god help me i have dreams

[letters-to-charlie]

i hate this i wanna die i hate you why did you have to leave me

i hate you

i hate you

i hate you

[letters-to-charlie]

you would hate to see what ive become

[letters-to-charlie]

please come back

[letters-to-charlie]

i think he can tell when im drifting and he gives me reasons to come back

sometimes i wish he wouldn't

maybe i just want to come home to you

is that such a bad idea

[letters-to-charlie]

no guys its okay heres a fun fact i learned

nothing is actually real

who cares if everything is completely and utterly fucked it doesnt matter nothing's real ots all just silly haha moments one after another nothing's real

its fine nothing is real

everything is fine