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What happened?

Sooo there was a post I done last year? The one about having my life together. Yeah that’s kind of changed. I don’t know if I have my life together recently so here’s some positive and negative points. 

Positive:

- I wasn’t alone on valentines day - I’ve been kissed as teenager - I fell for my best friend - I got new games - I got my provisional license - I got a A** in my Mock English Exam - I found out I’m graduating college with a diploma in employability skills - I’ve lost nearly 3 and 1/2 stone - I’ve made new friends - I got a new cat - I got my hair cut (I cried a little cause I don’t like getting my hair cut) - I baked brownies - I got a distinction in my English class presentation -

Negative: 

- My ex started negative drama with me - My depression came back - I self harmed again - I contemplated suicide (my best friend talked me out of it) - I’ve had night terrors about a guy from my past - I space out a lot now - I for the past few days have questioned if everything that I’m doing is real.  - I’ve been getting less and less sleep everyday - I can’t remember things as easily as I can - I almost failed my maths test - I quit my drama group half way through because I wasn’t comfortable with the production they wanted to act out - I lost a best friend - I’ve had 2 breakdowns at college in front of people

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Pingviini’s Boring Adventures

Since Thursday (15th Feb) I’ve been nearly losing my sanity because I for days find myself questioning if something is real or nor. I just have these moments more like hours where all of life feels fake and sensations like hugging someone or talking all feel like they don’t belong to me...

It also doesn’t help that I’ve been in a bad mental state for the past couple of months or that I’ve been spacey in everything. Nor does it help that I’m having 1 to 2 hours of sleep everyday.  

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It’s fun when you’ve accidentally insulted someone by trying to say something nice. Now I think that they hate me..... 

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I baked this!

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Yo!

Hey guys I’ve been off of this account for a long time. I’m disappointed in myself. I’ll post a photo of the cake I made last year. :D Hope you’ve all been well. Thank you for 23 followers. 

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Theres going to be some regular updates now that I’m in College. Expect some college tales and Theatre group shenanigans! 

Also photos of nature and my well overdue account of a holiday back in July. 

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Meet My Pets

All under cut! 

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Hello! I’m going to be posting much more when I start up my routine in September. Although I may not always post stuff on this blog. My other blogs will take some of my time too and I only have so much alotted time for social media. 

It will never be a Wednesday due to both College and Theatre company.

I’ll try and get a post a day out. Even if it’s just a little bit about what I’ve done that day. Thanks for understanding!

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I’m exactly where I want to be in life....

So I have everything together now. I’ve achieved what I wanted to achieve a few years back in this year. It’s a wonderful feeling to be back on a schedule after years of being away from one.

I’m more confident in myself, my beliefs and anything that I do and will try to do. 

I’ve applied for voting since you have to be approved for when you turn 18 (If you are new to voting). I’ve received my letter of confirmation about my place in college in September and have two days where I have to go in. Induction days. 

I’m going to apply for my Theatre company for the new term and see it out until next July. I’m also going to apply for my provisional drivers license in September since I can apply for it 2 months before my 17th Birthday. 

I’ll be cosplaying very soon and hopefully I can do a lot more cosplaying. I’m also picking up Youtube as a side hobby and hope to involve myself more in social situations. 

I’m much fitter and am nearing my goal weight. I’ve reconnected with an old friend and currently sorting something out for us to catch up and have a laugh about. 

I’ve caught up with an old relative that I hadn’t seen for years. Now all I have to do is make some plans with some of my other friends and I’ll be on my way back to socialising with them. Especially if we can go out easily next year when I’m able to drive. 

I’m making a cake for both my brother and my mum for their birthday. I’m much more tighter with my money and making sure I limit my stupid purchases. I’m also applying for a job to work over Christmas to get some more money. 

I plan to be able to drive by midway next year. I will study hard and get A*s/ 9s on my GCSE’s. I’ll get more pictures with my siblings and I aim to travel by the age of 20.

I also plan to make the most of my teen years and make memories for me to look back on when I’m older. 

I am exactly where I want to be in my life right now.  

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Galaxy Cupcakes

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Reblog if you’re gay as hell, tired, and/or just want a cute girlfriend

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Hey!

If you’re into Hetalia and wanna see all my writing then go follow @nordicswonderland cause that’s where I am like 80% of the time. I’m only on this account like 10% of the time and my other 10% is dedicated to @fan-writers-support 

So yeah, see you all when I update stuff to do with my holiday that I had in July!

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Sugar Cookie Dough Cups

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Floral Cake Art by Soo Cake on Instagram

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Kaspas!

So there was a newly opened Kaspas near my home and wow the food and drinks are lovely. Of course it’s all dessert. When I took these, I was with my Dad and we were out for Father’s Day in the UK. As you probably know from my last post, I have a very rocky relationship with my Father. Anyway this is the things we had. 

So I had a brownie waffle and ice cream (it had nutella and brownies on it!) and a Bubblegum flavoured milkshake. My dad had the Canadian Maple waffle and a chocolate milkshake which is not pictured. 

I might go again but with friends or my Mother! Maybe when I drive, I can take my two nieces to have a treat next summer.  

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Rant about my røvhul Far

I hate how I get super happy and chilled out and then my... dad comes home and it destroys my zen like peace. He’s so negative. Like he had a strop just because he was told that a programme wasn’t called what he thought it was. 

Then he swears at the games he plays on facebook. He uses my Mum’s laptop which should be her own personal thing but no. And he looks nothing but cars that are spares and repairs on ebay. He’s done this in the past and it’s the same old thing everyday. Moaning about his work, criticising me about what I do. 

He sets expectations for me too high. I swear he wants me to act like all of those posh ladies and be a snob. He wants everything to be about him. It’s like my Sister is moving in with her fiance. Well their moving to a house together and my dad just tells us all about his work colleague getting done over by a builder. 

Or when I’m upset or my sister is upset because of a depressive episode then he’ll make it all about him. When my nieces are round he never really interacts with them. He blames my oldest brother about something that went wrong in the old house we were renting to him when it wasn’t his fault. 

He annoys me so much. He acts like a child and expects to be treated with high respect when he doesn’t even deserve it. Honestly it’s like it’s his goal to make all of us pissed at him. I remember that every single thing I’ve done, he’s never seemed interested or proud of me. 

He laughs at me, makes fun of me and I just hate him. It’s not a thing like after so many years, girls look towards their Mother and things will go back to normal with their Father. It’s nothing like that. Literally even his face and voice annoys me. Arrogant, annoying arsehole. I just wish I was away from here but I don’t want to leave my Mor alone with him. 

I’ve told him time and time again that I feel so self-conscious when he makes fun of me and he still does it. He just makes me feel like shit all of the time even when he doesn’t say anything. I’m not one to hurt people’s feelings. Not deliberately but I really don’t want to talk to him ever. I just want his toxic attitude out of my life. I told him that once and I still think he hasn’t forgiven me for it. 

Like for fuck sakes. A girl who wants to strive far in life and do everything that she dreams of doesn’t need a father who always put her down. Every time I talk to my Mor about stuff he’s rolling his eyes and sighing. He says it’s because of his facebook but it’s not. He looks over at me before doing it. 

When I got took out of school he looked like he wanted to yell at me. I’m going to college soon and it’s only until I get my GCSE’s sorted. Then I’m going to be off travelling I think. I don’t know. I’ll see after this year of college. Then I’ll decide. My plans for travelling, getting jobs, first car, driving lessons, everything about my life, he degrades it. 

He tells me it’s unrealistic. 

I can’t even say anything without him saying that it’s attitude. My Mor says that whenever the røvhul has said something, I’m sneering. I really hope my dislike for him isn’t that visible. I mean I kind of hint that I don’t like him all that much but to show what I really think of him would kill him. 

When I hung out with my friends, he’d make comments about them. Saying that they were to blame for how I was supposedly ‘treating’ him. I was defending my friends. I don’t think I’ll ever have a normal relationship with that prick. 

There’s always something that’s gotta be wrong. He always thinks my Mor is cheating on him with someone else when she’s just at work or if she’s gone to the shop after work. He also says I don’t love him. I mean it’s true but just to hear him say that is really sad. I feel no empathy towards him. 

There’s also this woman he talks to from France that apparently his relative and he tells lies about it. He told my older brother that he didn’t want a rescue dog and that he hated having to put up with having a cat. 

All that comes out of his mouth is Bullshit and he expects me to take him seriously. I hate him. I hate how he is. It seems like there’s no redeeming features. 

Can’t move out cause my Mor is here, I have no income of my own, I’m still in law’s opinion a kid. And I have pets here that I’ve literally just gotten a month or two ago. My Family is in England but I just want to be in some other country right now. 

I swear. Everyday it gets harder to live with him. I really just want to move out. 

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