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[lightedbydark]

Since the duffers won't let Steve have a breakdown, i will, with the addition of sweet boy Eddie.

Tw: panick attacks, anxiety, breakdown

Steve just had an argument with his parents.

They told him that he's useless, an unlovable spoiled boy that isn't enough as a person and a waste of their time. Not something they never said, but this time it hit steve. He really doesn't know why, but he lets those words finally sink in, they echoe loud in his head. Between the poisonous words of his parents, he hears Nancy's voice too, saying that he is bullshit.

His limbs go numb, he's brought down to his knees, feeling powerless and beat down like in that Russian bunker. His ears are ringing, vision going blurry, pulse going uncontrollably fast.

Steve feels a sharp pain in his chest when the first tear rolls down his cheek, he finally allows himself to break into little pieces, incapable of keeping everything togheter. This hurts more of any punch he has ever taken.

Eddie finds Steve shaking, curled in a ball with his hands pressed on his ears, sobbing uncontrollably. He hears him mutter words between the desperate sobs: "i'm not enough, i'll never be" and again "i'm a failure to the kids and everyone around me, i'm still the same king Steve" and finally "what kind of son is not even enough for his parents?"

Eddie can't stand seeing him like this. Hurt fills him with every tear Steve lets out, watching as the shaking boy gets torn apart by despair, making him grasp for air. He wants to desperately take Steve's pain. He never saw him so vulnerable. The same Steve that is always brave and ready to face all the evil in the world, seemingly unbothered by danger and shielding others with his body. That kind and sweet boy that would give his life for the one he loves, is now destroyed and bleeding pain on the floor. So Eddie decides that this time he's going to be the brave one, fight all that is now hurting Steve, replacing it with love and caring hands.

Eddie kneels in front of Steve, he is now holding the other boy's face in his hands, the latter desperately trying to look away in a last attempt to hide the fragility that always ached inside of him.

"Listen to me Steve, please look at me sweetheart, take a deep breath for me okay? Breathe with me cmon, that's better. Now i want you to listen to me. You're more than enough. You're the most incredible human being i know, smart and capable of everything, you hear me Steve? Don't listen to the voices that are trying to drag you down, your parents are clearly morons, because they aren't capable of seeing the amazing person that you are, the most selfless bastard i know, with the heart the size of the moon. Please Steve, never let those voices win, let me fight them with you. I love you, you are important to me and the others, and i wish you could see yourself through my eyes, cause you're the most precious thing i've ever layed my gaze on. The world would be a dark place without you Steve Harrington, i want you to get this through your head. So please, always fight those voices and listen to mine instead."

Steve watches Eddie speechless, still teary-eyed and a mess. Eddie wipes his tears and kisses him on the forehead for what seems an eternity.

...

Yes, i love to destroy myself with these two. Going back to work now.