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reviving this tokyo ghoul tumblr i ran from back before my prefrontal cortex developed just to let yall know i’ll be going for the tokyo ghoul exhibition tomorrow and i’ll be posting some pictures!! ✨✨

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Do you take fic commissions?

never really done one before but would love to!

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im just really curious about this story you wrote

(Can’t Wait To Love You (ayahina smut))

what happened to it, it like disappeared *tears*

i think i deleted some of my oneshots at some point

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I think you could guess but I'm the same person on ao3 with the same name but are you ever going to finish sicilian defense (also ask if you can get ahold of ayahinas if they are going to finish fostered love that would be a huge favor)

ahhh that’s a fic i worked on together with alice and i haven’t really been in contact with her so i don’t think it’ll be finished unfortunately

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NOBODY KNOWS IS SO GOOD?!! THANK YOU FOR CONTINUING IT.

I AM SO GLAD YOU LIKE IT THANK YOU SO MUCH AKJHSFKLH

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i am going to need you to make them fuck in that fic! i cant believe we are getting ayahina from you again! it is like a dream come true. TT

ANON THANK YOU SO MUCH?????? I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU GUYS ARE READING AYAHINA STILL!!

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seeing shattered on my dash again made me so happy. i miss your fics so much. i hope you write more again TT

AHHHHHH thank youuuu!! i hope to write for choujin x too if i get invested enough in a ship. ishida has such a great inspiration on my writing it'll be a waste for me NOT to write lmaoo

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Is there a ship in Choujin x that you'd recommend? I was looking for a new ship and I trust Ishida lol

i think it's a little early on to really decide on ships but at the same time, i am a simple person and when i see two characters who resemble ayahina, i will ship them. therefore, anon, i recommend to you them:

ishida introduced them together and they're partners with clearly different worldviews but also trust each other a lot when it comes to their job so i think it has a lot of promise 👍👍

alternatively, i do think ishida would probably make the two mcs a ship as well. i don't exactly feel as strongly for them but knowing ishida, i bet he'll make it a very interesting pairing too.

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simon dick smaller than ayato’s for real

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I drew this drawing of hinami sucking on ayato’s dick except I wasn’t that experienced with drawing dicks (still not lol) and when I look at it now it’s so huge like hella girthy 😂 like larger than hinamis arm 😂 I’m

anon idk when you sent me this and if you’re still even here on tumblr but how can you say all that to me AND NOT SHOW ME THE PICTURE

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Are you ever going to finish nobody knows or not?

ohh yeah i think it’s up to chapter 25 (?) on ao3 now

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i haven’t known anything else except for them recently

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i heard that the choujin x fandom is more active here and just so you guys know i’ve been screaming about this manga to no ends recently and now i’m here to annoy the shit out of y’all again ✌️✌️

also not to be predictable af but yes i love simon and maiko and i’m already shipping the fuck out of them

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i love you mel MY TOUKEN QUEEN 😭😭💕 one day we shall take over tumblr with our fics again

Shattered (Chapter 1)

Summary: Hinami tries to deal with her sorrows through seeking Ayato out. Ayato can never turn away the girl he loves far more than he should. Two people with unrequited feelings, dealing with them in very different ways. Human AU. (7.9k words)

Warning: This fic contains unhealthy copic mechanisms, heavy sexual content, and plenty of problematic/ dubious things which I absolutely do not condone at all. This is a work of fiction that takes on a more mature, physical take on Ayahina’s relationship as opposed to the typical conventional one. Please feel free not to read this fic if it’s not your cup of tea! 

A/N: Yeah, there’s like 3 smut scenes in here. I decided to try and take on a very different approach to writing Ayahina. I know they’re mostly all vanilla and all, but I wanted to try a more physical-kind of relationship with the two of them. I’m writing a really unconventional way of presenting Hinami, so I should put it out here first in case anyone finds her OOC, but I think that when you’re so troubled and upset, it’s normal to seek out ways to try and make yourself feel better and in the process, hurt someone unintentionally, even if you’re the nicest, sweetest person in the world. I’m personally very insecure about how I presented her in here, because I don’t know if I took her too far. I’m worried that it might look like I ruined her to make Ayato look better, though really Ayato is far from doing the right things here as well. :/ 

This fic is also lowkey inspired by these three songs, which I had on repeat when I was writing this. I really love Highlight lmao.

I have more to say about this fic, but I’ll leave it to the end. Please do reblog this and feel free to leave some comments! 

Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 3.5 | Chapter 4

Preview:

“That’s fast,” he murmurs. He’s glaring at her from the corner of his eyes. Hinami feels the nausea worsen.

“You… you were so cruel… leaving me in there… I… I couldn’t help myself…” She forces out an excuse, a useless attempt at a lie.

Ayato watches her for a moment, dropping his bud into a tray he had on the cashier counter. He takes his time to saunter over to her, face blank and stoic, before he stops right before her, way too close for comfort. Hinami drops her head, turning aside to turn her attention to something else, but Ayato lifts his hand to take her by the chin and force her gaze back to him, locking eyes with her.

“I’m cruel?” he scoffs. “Is that really the case now? Me?”

“You… That—”

“You won’t even let me kiss you,” he cuts in.

“We’re not… like that…” she says weakly.

“That’s nice. We’re not like that, so you’re gonna let me fuck your brains out, but I can’t kiss you or hug you any other time… God forbids I want to sleep beside you rather than with you.”

“I like–”

“I know. And I also know that every time you have my dick up your pussy, you pretend it’s him instead.”

“I don’t do that!” That isn’t a lie, though she’s aware it might not be the complete truth as well.

“Oh really?” Ayato snorts, reaching out to pull her closer to him by her hips. Her eyes widen as he slowly lowers himself to his knees, pushing her skirt up by its hem. His fingers wander to her crotch and he tuts, looking up at her with a raised eyebrow. “You got this wet from thinking about him, huh?”

“No…”

“Does he look good when he does it? Does he feel good?” Ayato asks, pausing for a moment before continuing in a weaker, softer voice. “Better than me?”

Yes.

“I… try my best, you know… I try to be good enough for you…”

Her eyes burn. Ayato’s gaze soften, his brows furrowing a little more. He reaches for her hands and holds them gently in both of his, clasping them tightly. He looks like he’s begging, or praying even, and Hinami’s stomach lurches at the thought of him on his knees before someone like her.

“I don’t want to be second fiddle to anyone…”

“Ayato?” Her throat burns.

“Yeah?”

“Can… you do something for me?”

Ayato’s eyes widen for a moment, before he narrows them again. “Yes. Sure. Of course.”

Anything for you, she recalls him saying once.

“Let’s end this… for real this time. Don’t… look for me or anything.”

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hi tumblr

i’m just back to tell yall i’m taking writing requests if anyone wants me to write something. i’ll post it up on ao3 if i decide to take it up! you guys can send it onto my cc since i’m barely checking on here 

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BSD BEAST Chapter 8 - The Beast Called Myself

Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4

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And without further ado: here is chapter 8 of the beast manga, translated by me and typeset by caffeinatedseri. I hope you all enjoy! Look forward to the other translated chapters in the near future.