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(this includes all and any jackass and jackass presents movies, too <3)

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The truth we all believe'll by and by Outlive a lie For you and -

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Good bye Liam

Liam it feels unreal to even admit this to myself but i cant believe your gone, thank you for making my teenage years tolerable. You inspired me to become more creative and create my own songs and even start writing again.

The world will never forget the way you inspired a generation, your wicked sense of humour and your everlasting kindness.

Your legacy will not he forgotten and i hope bear knows how much we all loved his dad and how he will never be forgotten.

Thank you for all you did for us and the incredible music you left for us to remember you by, love you forever and i hope your finally at peace now.

Love from I

xxx

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Ed recovery- Headcanons

Jamie Campbell Bower x y/n

Ways jamie would help you through your Eating Disorder

‼️TW‼️ discussion of EDs and trauma

Hey loves! So i got a message request for Head canons on how jamie would be with someone who suffers with anorexia, the person wanted to remain anonymous so hence im not putting who requested it. As someone who has suffered with EDs in the past i cannot say enough how important it is that you get help, at the end of this post im going to put in some links to support networks that work wonders and that i have used before. Stay healthy bbys🖤

Would never make you feel like a burden EVER

Wouldn’t force you to eat but would encourage it with things like “angel i really think you should try and eat something today” and “you feeling okay my love? Do you want me to make you something?”

Becomes aware very quick of what triggers you and what to avoid saying or doing

If you manage to eat then then he SHOWERS you with praise

If you begin to feel self conscious (a/n weve all been there girly) and wish to hide yourself in hoodies etc. Of course jamie tells you and shows you how much he thinks your body is perfect, but if you want to snuggle about in his hoodie than he is not against it

Additionally he forever compliments you “your looking beautiful today my love, you do everyday just extra lovely today”

Poor boy gets frazzled sometimes as he would rather die than do anything to upset or trigger you

If you go out to eat with friends you establish a code word or something letting him know that your struggling and that tells him that you need to excuse yourself from the group so he can calm your anxieties.

Also with going out to eat, if your ed makes you extremely picky about food (a/n 16 year old me is nodding her head rn!!) than he ensures to double check with the waiter that what your asking for is whats going to be given to you.

If you refuse to go to any kind of therapy then he spends a long while discussing it with you “baby, therapy can do so much for you, just give it a chance for me?”

He so keeps a journal with you of how your doing with your eating and how your feeling

If ANYONE dares make a joke about your size, he is SO QUICK to shut that asshole down, and even after continues to shoot daggers at them because how dare they hurt his one and only.

Will forever tell you how beautiful you are and how your illness does not define you!

To the person who sent the request to me i really hope this helps in some way i know you mention that reading things like this on tumblr is your way of escaping so i hope this helps but please look after yourself im always here if you want to talk 🖤

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‘Forever’

Joseph Quinn x female actress y/n

The big Dayyyy

“Y/n!! Y/n wake upp!” My bridesmaid yells as she launches herself on my bed.

“Im up im up” i responded.

I looked around the room to see all my bridesmaids stood around with the happiest grins on their faces.

Maya (my maid of honor) sat next to me on the hotel rooms bed.

“You excited?”

“Of course i am! Marrying the man of my dreams” i responded, finally waking up fully.

After having room service delivered we were all getting our hair and make up done, obviously me being the bride i was sat right in front of the large windows having my bridemaids around me bringing me champagne etc.

After we had gotten ready we all got dressed and sat together for a while until.

“Knock knockk” i heard said from the other side of my door.

I opened it to see jamie (my best friend) smiling at me.

“How are you feeling love?” He asked me

“Amazing! I cant wait to be Mrs Y/n Quinn” i grinned at him.

He looked at me, full glam and in a wedding dress

“You look lovely y/n, im so proud of you”

We sat around and chatted for a while until one of my bridesmaids made a dumb joke about him running last minute.

“Fuck off” i brushed it off.

“You have no clue how josephs been acting, omg look” jamie said as he got his phone out.

He started playing the video.

“Shes just so amazing isnt she though, like you can say it mate. She so beautiful, and kind and sweet and i cant believe i convinced her to marry me” joseph said as he stood in front of the mirror fixing his tie.

“Yeah she certainly is something mate” jamie responded sat on the bed in josephs hotel room

“I dont think we have to worry about him running” jamie giggled

“Right i best be off to calm down the groom”jamie added as he stood.

I gave him a hug before he left.

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I stood at the entrance of the wedding, brushing down my dress, all my bridesmaids had been down already and all were waiting for me.

The instrumental of ‘Make you feel my love’ by Adele started playing as i stood at the end of the aisle.

I saw at the other end of the aisle, the love of my life stood with his eyes already watering which only got worse as he locked eyes with me.

I began walking down the aisle while linking arms with my father.

I was about four steps away from joseph to see him look into my eyes and whisper “i love you so much”

My eyes started watering, this is so sureal!

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“And now joseph your vows to y/n” the preist smiles at him as he gets a piece of paper out of his pocket and take a deep breathe before saying.

“Y/n, i cant believe today is happening, it feels like yesterday jamie introduced us to each other and i knew from the second i met you… that you were the girl for me, i cant see my future in any way that hasnt got you in it, i am forever going to choose to share my happiness with you, every part of you i love, and i will always love. You are my every dream come true and i cant wait to cherish our lives together”

He looks up from his paper to suck in a breathe and look around, i reached to the pockets in my dress and pulled out a tissue and wiped his eyes gently before he continued.

“I am yours, forever and always and i am so honoured that you chose me to share your life with, because of you i am slowly but surely becoming the person i always dreamed of being. I will fight with you and for you, and i will forever be open to any challenges we may face as we will face them together”

He took a pause and giggled slightly before continuing.

“I promise to never watch an episode on netflix without you, no matter how much it tempts me.I promise to unclog the drains even though your the only one of us with long hair. I promise to make you a bacon sandwich whenever your hungover, additionally, i promise to not open the curtains, turn the light on or deliberately clatter when your hungover. I promise that if it ever comes down to choosing between you and the dog, ill let you down gently. I promise to always notice when you get a hair cut. I promise ill always let you try my food even though i told you to order your own. I promise to open jars for you and say that you loosened it for me and most of all i promise to love you, all of you for the rest of time”

Throughout this part i had been giggling along with the guests to how well he knows me and even though my eyes were flooding i still smiled up at him.

I took a deep breathe as i got the piece of paper out of the pocket of my dress.

“Joe, i cannot believe i am standing in front of the most beautiful, kind and understanding man and am about to say i do. Thank you for being there whenever i need you, thank you for being the person i can run to when i feel sad and in need of a shoulder to cry on. But most of all thank you for loving the parts of me that aren’t easy to love. I remember our first date, in a run down little pub in south london, and while i was sat there pretending i liked watching rugby and you brought me a drink over with that cheeky little grin of yours, i knew in that moment that you were the man i was going to spend the rest of my life with”

“Since we’ve been together Ive never felt unloved or unwanted and i never want that to change. I promise to love you and care for you until my dying breath, i vow to always stand beside you through thick and thin, to always hold your hand through every challenge we face and to support you in whatever you choose to do. For us, home isnt a place but a person and i think we’re both finally home”

I paused to wipe my eyes and look up above before carrying on

“I can only thank you for putting up with me because im a mess all the time and im so grateful to have you with me, when you met me i was a broken vase and you took the time to lovingly glue me back together, i love you so much joey, all of you, forever and always. I love you for all the reasons you dont love yourself and i can only hope to raise your self esteem so that you can see yourself the way i see you. My love for you will never falter and i cannot wait to take on the rest of our lives together, i love you joseph”

After our vows, both of us aswell as the majority of the guests were in floods of tears.

“Joseph Anthony Francis Quinn do you take y/n l/n to be your lawful wedded wife?” The priest says

“I do” joseph said while looking into my eyes

“And do you y/n m/n l/n take Joseph Anthony Francis Quinn to be your lawful wedded husband”

“I do” i said with a smile

“Then by the power vested in me i now pronounce you husband and wife, joseph you may now kiss your bride”

With that joseph held me close to him and kissed me, we kissed for around 20 seconds before breaking to look out at the cheering guests.

When we pulled away joseph whispered to my lips

“I cant wait to get you out of that dress later tonight”

I gasped and said

“Joseph we are in a church” we both giggled at his boyish charm.

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“Alright Alright! Quieten down everyone its speech time!” Jamie stood from the long table we were on ( me and joe obvs, joes mum and dad and my parents, followed by Maya my maid of honore and jamie the best man)

“Now i did ask for a microphone however there wasnt one available so those in the back if the people in front of you arent laughing then that just reassures that your not missing out on much. So obviously i dont need to do a whole speech about how perfect these two are for each other, because just look at them, theyre like a pair of teenagers all over each other. I feel immense pride that i am the one who set these two up, y/n i remember working together on sweeney todd and i just knew we were going to be friends forever, and i am aware that sounds incredibly cheesey. And joe, my brother from another mother, like it or not your stuck with me for life. Your two are the ultimate power couple, and i am so happy for you both because your love is one to be envied” jamie got serious then looked down and laughed before saying

“Right enough from me, im gonna keep this speech like y/n short but funny, thank you everyone. To joseph and y/n!” Jamie toasted before raising his non alcoholic drink meaning everyone did the same.

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Joseph held his hand over mine and we slid the knife down to cut our beautiful wedding cake.

We had placed the slice on a plate and joseph grabbed a fork and got a bit of it and raised it to my mouth, i smiled up at him and ate the cake before smiling at him before saying

“Oh love its fucking gorgeous”

“And that is why i love you” he giggled before having some too.

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“And now Joseph and y/n will take to the floor for their first dance!” Jamie announced through the microphone at our after party.

Joseph stood up from his chair and held his hand out for me, which i gladly accepted.

We got to the dance floor as our song began playing

Heart beats fast

Colors and promises

How to be brave?

How can I love when I'm afraid to fall?

But watching you stand alone

All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

I have died every day waiting for you

Darling, don't be afraid

I have loved you for a thousand years

I'll love you for a thousand more

Time stands still

Beauty in all she is

I will be brave

I will not let anything take away

What's standing in front of me

Every breath, every hour has come to this

One step closer

I have died every day waiting for you

Darling, don't be afraid

I have loved you for a thousand years

I'll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you

Time has brought your heart to me

I have loved you for a thousand years

I'll love you for a thousand more

One step closer

One step closer

I have died every day waiting for you

Darling, don't be afraid

I have loved you for a thousand years

I'll love you for a thousand more.

And all along I believed I would find you

Time has brought your heart to me.

I have loved you for a thousand years.

I'll love you for a thousand more

After our slow dance had ended everyone cheered and the next song played this one being

“Wonderwall”

To which everyone had joined us on the dance floor and we all jumped,sang and danced to the iconic song

“I love y/n” joseph said to me in my ear

“I love you more joseph” i said back

“Not possible” he responded with a smirk

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‘How to Save a Life’

Joseph Quinn x female Y/n

‼️TW: suicide, cursing‼️

Step one you say

"We need to talk" Joseph says as they sit on the sofa together, he wants to address why Y/ns been so distant lately, the reason being she was suffering severely with her depression and  seeing as he's always on set he didn't notice

You walk he says

"Sit down its just a talk" he says as she stands up

He smiles politely back at you

You stare politely right on through

Some sort of window to your right as he goes left and you stay right

Joe sighs in frustration and walks away.

Y/n runs to their bathroom and lock herself in the room as she heard joe storm out of our apartment

Y/n feels her anxiety burning in her chest

Between the lines of fear and blame. You begin to wonder why you came.

"Where did i go wrong" y/n sobs as she fall to the ground.

I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness

"And i would of stayed up with her all night"Joseph says to Jamie sitting in Jamies apartment explaining everything thats happened between him and y/n

Y/n grabs pill bottles and down them all without a second thought wanting the pain to end and to be able to slip away.

Had i known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best cause after all you do know best

Try to slip past his defence without granting innocence

Lay down a list of what is wrong the things you've told him all along

"Im sorry joey " y/n cries as she felt the pills take over as her skin was met with the cold flooring of our bathroom.

And i pray to god he heard you

I pray to god he hears you

"Mate you gotta go back around there ill come with to make sure it doesn't get too argumentative " Jamie suggests to joe as he agrees and they both walk back to his and y/n's apartment.

Joseph and jamie were terrified of what they saw when they opened the door of the bathroom and saw y/n laying unconscious.

Jamie immediately called an ambulance.

Joe held y/n's weak frame and cried

"Where did i go wrong?!" He sobbed as jamie ran a comforting hand along his shoulder as he was on hold with the ambulance.

I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness

And i would of stayed up with you all night

The paramedics arrived and pulled joe away from y/n as they tried to save her and bring her back to him.

Had i known

They shocked her twice but there was nothing

How to save a life

"Okay I've got a pulse lets get her in the ambulance and get her to the hospital!" The female paramedic ordered.

Joseph sighed a sigh of relief but remembered its not over yet.

On the car ride there he thought of every-time he treated y/n not as well as she deserved.

As he begins to raise his voice you lower yours and grant him one last choice

Drive until you loose the road or break with the ones you've followed

He will do one of two things, he will admit to everything

Or he'll say he's just not the same and you'll begin to wonder why you came

Watching the doctors try to keep y/n alive was heart breaking as she had lost her pulse on the ride here.

"Where did i go wrong" joseph whispered to jamie

"No where man, she couldnt tell you she needed help shell pull through" jamie reassured.

"Mr Quinn, we have to take you girlfriend to surgery as her heart has been deeply affected by the drugs she took"a doctor said to the crying man.

Joe and Jamie sat for what felt like hours waiting for the news that y/n was okay.

I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness

And i would have stayed up with you all night.

Had i known

"Poor girl, must of had a really bad fight with her boyfriend for her to do this" the surgeon muttered as she performed on y/n.

How to save a life

The doctors all swarmed y/n as they heard her heartbeat monitor go unsteady again

"Where did i go wrong?!" Joseph repeated to jamie as his emotions were getting the best of him

I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness

And i would have stayed up with you all night.

Had i known how to save a life

"Heartbeats back to normal shes steady for now" the lead surgeon announced.

"Alright lets close her up and get her back to her room" the less enthusiastic surgeon said

How to save a life

Joe finally broke down as Jamie comforts his friend

"Shes gonna be okay mate, y/ns a tough cookie shes gonna pull through" jamie tried to make the best of a bad situation.

"Mr Quinn, you can be with your girlfriend now" a doctor said to joe as he rose from his seat and went straight to the room that the doctor was referencing to.

When joe approached the room he immediately went to y/ns side and held her hand that had an IV in it and her face was a sickly pale he had never seen before.

"Look joe, you stay here ill go to you guys apartment and get some stuff for you both" jamie said after seeing that y/n was okay for now.

"Thanks man, i would of fallen apart without you today" joe smiled at him.

"Hey your alright, its what im here for" jamie smiled before leaving the room to go grab stuff.

"Darling i need you to stay alive" joe said to the lifeless y/n.

"Can you live for me? Please?"he added

"Where did i go wrong?" Joe asked for what felt like the 100th time this night

I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness

"And i would of stayed up with you all night"he added

Had i know

How to save a life.

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Emetophobia

Joseph Quinn x y/n

Joe helping you through your struggles with emetophobia

“Joey i-i cant, i dont wanna throw up” i sobbed as i was hunched over the toilet in our shared apartment.

We had been out all day and all day i’ve felt so sick, it might just be a viral flu but i have an extreme phobia of being ill and vomiting.

I had originally kept joe out of the bathroom by locking the door, i hate my phobia and i dont want him to see me like this. However with some kind words (and a screwdriver) he got through and was now sat on the floor with me rubbing my back and encouraging me through it.

“Cmon baby, it’ll be 5 minutes and you’ll feel better” he said gently in my ear.

“I-i cant, i-im scared” i started having a panic attack as i felt like i was going to throw up.

“Hey- hey cmon sweetheart, you’re okay darling” he said as he held my shoulders gently and took my hand and held it on his chest.

“Follow my breathing my love, your okay, you just need to throw up, your bodys telling you what it needs and it needs to be sick” he comforted me.

“Joey im scared- throwing up makes me stop breathing and i hate-i hate it” i sobbed into his neck.

“I know darling- i know, you’re not gonna feel any better unless you get whatever’s making you sick out of your tummy” he said as he gently rubbed my stomach.

He raised his arm above my head and grabbed the glass of water he had gotten me.

He held the glass to my lips and said

“Sip a little bit my love it’ll help” he almost whispered in my ear.

I did as he asked and we sat there for around 10 more minutes with my stomach cramping from the sickness.

“Joey” i mumbled as i readjusted

He looked down at me and said

“Yes my love”

I felt it again and lunged forward while saying “m gonna throw up”

He immediately grabbed my hair back as i emptied my stomach with him holding my hair up with one hand and rubbing my back, as i took breaks from vomiting he held the glass of water to my mouth again.

I eventually sat back against his chest

“Do you think your all done baby?” He asked

“Yeah i think so” i mumbled to him.

“Good girl, your so brave i love you so much, my brave girl” he said to me as he kissed my neck.

“Cmon lets get you back to bed” he said as he picked me up with one arm below my back and the other below my behind.

He sat me on the bed and thats when i realised i had puke on my shirt.

“Arms up my love” he said to me, i did as he asked and he took my shirt off along with my shorts and got me dressed into one of his shirts and left me in my panties as i was boiling.

I stood up about to take the dirty clothes straight to the wash.

“What do you think your doing love?” He smiled at me

“Leave that for me, i was going to get you your bottle of water anyway” he said as he let me lay in our bed and he passed me the remote.

He returned minutes later with my big bottle of water, and we sat together in our bed and watched whatever was on tv.

I love this man so much, he loves me for all the reasons i dont love myself and i couldnt thank him enough for that.

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Beach Day

Jamie Campbell Bower x female y/n

Jamie takes y/n to the beach for a relaxing day together

I woke up to the gentle, italian breeze flowing through my window, me and Jamie have been on holiday for a week now and we have another 6 days in paradise before returning home.

“Wake up Darling” i heard a gentle voice down my ear and opened my eyes to see my blonde blue eyed boyfriend smiling at me. He must of been up for a while because he had gotten dressed into denim shorts and a band t shirt.

“I brought you a tea my love” he smiled at me as he realised how groggy i was.

“Thank you baby” i smiled at him as i had a sip of it, he sat next to me in bed with his head in my neck and he was stroking my collarbone, as i drank my tea.

“You excited for today love?” I asked him, knowing he was so excited for the beach day.

“Yes!” He asked as if it was an obvious answer.

“ i best get ready then” seeing his excitement, as i had gotten of the bed i felt a playful smack land on my ass, i turned my head to him.

“Excuse you mr bower” i scolded playfully, to which he giggled and stood in front of me and said.

“Cant help when you look this good” he moved us so we were in front of the floor length mirror as he had his arms around me and was kissing my neck.

“Jamiee” i playfully whined at him.

“Y/nnn” he copied

“I need to get ready” i answered

“But you look great like this” he reasoned

I turned to look at him

“In your shirt, my hair up and in a pair of panties?” I asked with a giggle.

“Just like that” he nodded, smirking at me and kissed me one last time before sitting on the chair of the dressing table i have claimed as mine since being here.

I walked to the cabinet to get my swimming costume out and started getting dressed on our bed, not anxious to jamie still being in the room. At the start of our relationship i would get dressed in the bathroom, but now? That man knows my body like the back of my hand, and i feel no need to hide from him.

After getting in my two piece swimming costume i walked past jamie intending to get an oversized white button up sheer shirt.

As i walked past him once again i felt a slap hit my ass again

“Jamie Bower i swear to god” i said laughing at him.

“Im sorry love im just so excited” he replied giggling like a school boy.

I sat on his lap at the dressing table and began putting my hair in two dutch braids, theres no point doing make up as jamie will most likely persuade me to get in the ocean.

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“Cmon y/n!” Jamie yelled as he ran to the cabana, basically a little beach hut that jamie had hired for the day.

We both got to the cabana and immediately i threw myself onto the couch seats that surrounded the inside of little hut.

It was a large frame one with sheer white fabric attached to three of the sides, leaving the front open so we could walk in and out, the middle of the hut was dipped down with a cooler full of different kinds of drinks (alcohol free of course) and a basket of different Italian snacks.

“Oh babe it looks amazing” i said in awe as i actually looked around the cabana.

I looked to see Jamie take his shorts of which had his swimming trunks underneath, as he takes off his shirt, revealing his sharp v-line, i add

“Oh but this looks even better” i giggle, referencing his current state, as i take off my shirt revealing my swimming costume.

“We getting in the water?” He asked excitedly.

“Erm first things first bower” i say to him as i get sunscreen out of my bag and motioned for him to sit in front of me between my legs.

“Yes mum” he groaned jokingly.

I gently rubbed the sun screen on his visible skin making sure to get everywhere.

“Your turn” he says to me smiling as we switch places and repeats my actions.

I feel his hand slip into the top of my bathing suit and hold my boob giving it a gentle squeeze.

I look up to see him smirk down at me, oh the things this man does to me.

“Are we getting in then?” He asked smiling, how can he go from doing somethings so sexual to immediately going back to his boyish charm.

I nodded and he took my hand and dan with my to the water, the beach was almost empty and security patrolled often to so we weren’t worried about any of out stuff getting taken.

As we got into the water i walked off slightly and felt a big splash of water crash into my back, i turned to see jamie running, knowing i was gonna get him.

“Bower!”

I caught up to him and he held me with my legs straddling his hips as he went in for a sweet little kiss. I took my chance for revenge and dunked his head into the water, as i did this i tried to swim away and he caught me and brought me down with him.

“Truce?” He asked as we got up

“Truce” i smiled at him and gave him a kiss before we carried on swimming, well he was tall enough to reach the bottom however i was floating about.

“Jamie helpp” i joked with him as he was able to walk so easily.

He simply put his hands under my armpit and lifted me to have me wrap my legs around him again.

I felt his hand travel up my back and unclip the back of my swimming costume, i gasp and push my chest against his, as i felt him grab my bikini top and put it in his pocket.

“Jamie!” I laughed.

“Relax no ones here my love” he looked around to see the two other families at the beach who were miles away.

“What if someone sees?” I ask him

“Well then we have a problem, because your mine”

After staying in each other hold for a while, him kissing my neck. We decided to return to the cabana, after i convinced him to give me my bikini top.

We got back to the cabana and i decided to lay on one of the sunbeds outside of it.

“Want a drink love?” I heard jamie ask.

“Ooh yeah please, what’ve we got?” I asked him as i flipped on my stomach and watched him look through the cooler.

“Cola,Sprite, Fanta, water, sparkling water and- ooh- theres even an ice tea” he said knowing ice teas my favourite.

“I think you know my answer baby” i smile up to him

He laughed as he picked up the iced tea and a cola for himself.

He returned to me and instead of laying on the sun-bed next to me, he decided to lay between my legs on his back with his head resting on my stomach.

“Ive loved today baby, thank you so much” i smiled down at him

“As long as your happy my love, ive enjoyed it too, wanna stay here forever” he added as we drank our drinks and reached for my hand and laid gentle kisses on my knuckles.

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Cigarettes on the Balcony

Jamie campbell Bower x y/n

-first of yall definitely sit ont your balcony like every night for cigarettes

-you and Jamie arguing about who lost the lighter, jokingly obvs

“Jamie you had it last!”

“I gave it to you to put in your bag when we got to the pub!”

*silence*

“You havent checked your bag yet, have you?”

“I found it!”

“Course you did angel”

-leaving your phones inside and just enjoying each other company

-you'd maybe have music but again you sit and talk about the days you've had

-you make plans for the next day and talk about literally everything

-sometimes your share cigarettes, like he'd ask if you want one you'd say no then end up sharing it but he doesnt mind yall can grab another one

-some nights when you dont sit outside for long (if its raining etc) you sit inside and talk while a movies playing

-baso its a necessity for you two to talk about stuff, its you guys time!

-OML if your sharing a cig he wont take it off you to have a drag hell just gently grab your hand pull it to his mouth and have a drag, EYE CONTACT the whole time he does that!!

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~~~~~Masterlist~~~~~

Jamie Campbell Bower

Head canons

Cigarettes on the Balcony-fluff

Ed recovery- fluff / sad

Imagines

Love me instead-angst/fluff

Cant keep kissing strangers-angst

Dancing queen-fluff

Beach day- fluff

Blurbs

Nsfw

Nsfw Alphabet

Joseph Quinn

Head canons

Dating him-fluff

Imagines

We dont have to take out clothes off-angst/fluff/smut

Emetophobia- fluff

How to save a life-angst

Forever- pure fluff

Blurbs

Lazy Sundays

Nsfw

Balcony fun- angst / smut

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Dating Him Head canons

Joseph Quinn x y/n

- The most level headed person you will meet… until someone screws you over, he’s pissed and lets that be known if that happens!

- Treats you SO WELL!! His momma raised him so right!

- Will do anything to make you happy, your hungry at 2am? Well get your hoodie on and he’ll get his car keys bc he’s driving you both to McDonalds

- You becoming BEST FRIENDS with jamie due to how often they meet up

- Joseph always having his hands on you, in interviews? His hands around your waist. Walking down the street? He’s holding your hand the whole way. Also definitely follows the sidewalk rule and will never let you walk on the roadside

- You meeting his family and them LOVING YOU!

- When you move into your own place he 100% follows the rule of ‘happy wife,happy life’

- Omfg y’all’s favourite holiday is Christmas for sure! He loves having his family around and the fact you enjoy spending time with them too!!

- Also Joseph loves summer time!! Having a BBQ in the back garden, couple drinks, and omg if Jamie comes round he definitely takes the piss out of joseph saying things as such ‘ we need to get you a kiss the cook apron mate’ to which joseph raises his middle finger at him and laughs

- Also joseph is always nominated head chef on BBQ days and you either lounge in the pool or sit and natter to him

- Being such a power couple to where fans cant eve be jealous they love you both so much

- BIG SPOON!! BIG SPOON!! And if you ever wanna be big spoon he gets jokingly offended

- Him calling you ‘babe,sweetheart,Darling, love’

- You never feeling alone with him

- He always makes a point to stop conversations if someone interrupts you when talking so you feel seen and heard

- You both always go to local theatres to watch plays and support the arts

- People always clipping the way he looks at you in interviews, a look of pure love and admiration

- Always bring you up in interviews if you aren’t there

- If you met on set of stranger things he always thanks eddie munson for getting you

- No matter what you do as a career he supports you 10000%

- When you have been together for around 2-3 years you discuss the idea of having kids, he obviously does bc he’s SO GOOD with kids whereas your a little more reserved

- However at a specific comic con where joseph interacted with a child it made your heart melt and you knew in that moment that if you both have a kid he’ll be with you for the long run

[lildashofheaven1]

‘We dont have to take our clothes off’

Joseph Quinn x female y/n

‼️TW‼️ SA, talk of sex, 18+, swearing

Friday night, my friends had convinced me to go out in south london on a night out to get over my shitty ex.

I dolled myself up and tried to make it look like i have my life together, im wearing a short red dress with my hair half up and tied a black silk bow to tie it with, i also paired it with natural ish make up and added a red lip.

Not a word from your lips, you took for granted that i want to skinny dip.

A quick hit, thats your game. But i’m not a piece of meat, stimulate my brain.

I sat on my sofa in silence as i mindlessly scrolled instagram and saw my ex post a pic of him and his new girl which made me feel awful, awful as he cheated on me and awful as i know he wont change and she will have to endure what i did.

I was interrupted with my thoughts by a knock on my front door, i walked to the door and was met with my best friend Ziggy wearing a pink dress shirt and flared blue jeans.

“Sup slut!” He said in a road-man voice and burst out laughing, i faked a laugh before saying, “Do we have to go out zigs? I dont know if im feeling it” to this his face fell, i know how much he loves to go out and the thought of ruining this night for him made me feel awful.

“The night is young, and so are we” Ziggy answered with ‘if you hate it that bad when were out then we can come home, i promise’ he added as he held out his pinky, we pinky swore then headed out after i grabbed a black YSL clutch bag.

We made it to the club which i hadn’t been to since breaking up with my ex, Ziggy reached for my hand and said ‘cmon, he wont be in here’ i nodded and we walked in.

We went to the bar to get a drink and i saw all these people around me, desperate for attention and wanting to be the only person in the room.

At one point, a man walked towards me saying “y’alright darlin? Wanna give man your number? stilll” i looked to Ziggy for help and he put his arm around me saying

“This bloke bothering you babe?” In his as he called it ‘straight man voice’ eventually the guy got the hint and left to stalk his next prey.

Lets just get to know each other slow and easy

“Take my hand” Ziggy said as we moved to the middle of the dance floor.

let's hit the floor

Shake our bodies to the music. Maybe then you’ll score

So come on baby wont you show some class

Why’d you have to move so fast

We dont have to take our clothes off

To have a good time

We can dance and party all night and drink some cherry wine

After dancing for around an hour i got into my groove and was even doing shot after shot with Ziggy.

“Check out the brunette bloke in a nice shirt and looking fine!” Ziggy said and pointed at a bloke stood at the bar with another mad who’s dressed in all black with blonde hair tied into a small bun, i cant take my eyes off of the brunette man.

“He’s so fit!!” I shouted back to Ziggy as the music was so loud. “Go chat to him!” “No way!” “Y/n you’ve waited so long for this!! Go and get laid by the fit bloke!” The alcohol is starting to hit us very clearly at this point, im gonna regret this tomorrow.

I stood quiet, Ziggy then shouted again “if you dont shag him i will!” And pointed yet again at the brunette. The man at the bar thought Ziggy was calling him over so he came over and i felt my face turn bright red.

“Y’alright mate?” The brunette asked

“My mate fancies you!” Ziggy yelled again, i dont know whether it was the alcohol or Ziggy being a complete twat. The brunette had a look of confusion until he looked down at me slightly and his gaze softened as we made eye contact, it immediately clicked.

This is Joseph-fucking-Quinn!

Despite my best thoughts, the alcohol didn’t stop me from saying to him “your Eddie Munson!” To that Joseph shook his head while laughing. “Y’alright joe? Whos your friends?” Omfg its jamie! I sobered up at the realisation that two celebs know of my existance?! The two of them, clearly less drunk than me and Ziggy ended up being such nice guys and invited us to the VIP area to have a couple drinks.

As me and Ziggy sat down with them, he pulled me towards him and whispered (which was not quiet at all)

“They’re the guys from the show, ain’t they?” I jokingly shoved him away while laughing. Thankfully the VIP area was a lot quieter than the main part meaning we could actually have a conversation, it resembled more of a quiet pub due to how little people were there.

“Whatre we wanting to drink?” Jamie asked as he got his wallet out. “You dont have to honestly..” i started but Ziggys face lit up and said

“Well if you’re offering handsome ill take a double vodka coke” winking at him at the end. “And mard-arse over here will have a single vodka lemonade” Ziggy added while nudging me, i then slapped him upside the head.

I smiled at Jamie and said thank you.

“So Y/n, where abouts are you from?” Joseph asked as Ziggy went to help Jamie carry the drinks.“Originally im from Brighton, i moved down a few years ago for university” i said with a chuckle.

His smile lit up the bloody room and i added “i study, performing arts, music and art” i noticed he looked intrigued, “sorry i need to learn when to stop talking, honestly i end up just blabbing and its probably why Ziggys the only one to put up with me?” I laughed, i had complete word vomit, why wasn’t Ziggy there to slap his hand round my mouth to stop me?!

“Thats interesting, what do you do in art?” Joseph asked almost knowing the panic i was feeling, wanting me to know he cares and is interested.

After chatting with him for a few more minutes jamie and ziggy returned with the drinks, including a coke for jamie.

“Im gonna run to the toilet ill be back in a sec” i said as i stood up“Want me to stand guard again?” Ziggy asked“No im okay, it seems nice enough in this bit, ill be fine” i smiled at them all and went to the toilet

Just slow down if you want me A man wants to be approached cool and romantically, oh-oh I've got needs, I'm just like you And if the conversation's good vibrations through and through

I was leaving the toilets when i felt a cold hand grab my wrist and dragged me back against the wall, i slammed my head against the wall due to the force.I looked up to see who it was and it was the guy from earlier, a man i now recognise was my exes best friend, Brian.

“You know you always wanted me y/n” he slurred, how the fuck did he get in here?!He dragged me back into the bathroom that was empty and started kissing my neck i tried to get him off

“So come on baby wont you show some class?” He sneered

We don't have to take our clothes off To have a good time, no-oh We could dance and party all night. And drink some cherry wine

Ziggy Pov

“Im gonna go check on y/n, shes usually less time than this” i know my best friend like the back of my hand, somethings wrong Joe and jamie nodded as i walked towards the bathroom. I opened the door and saw that piece of shit pinning my best friend against the wall where she was sobbing and frozen in fear.

Y/n Pov

The door opened and ziggy stood still for a second until he pounced and ripped him off of me and threw him on the ground so hard he flew through the push door and landed on the floor next to the bar.

“You fucking piece of shit! What do you think your doing?!” Ziggy screamed at him as i walked out the bathroom with tears flooding and i was moving my dress straps that he had tried ripping off.

Ziggy pulled Brian out of the bathroom mid way through his attack so he had his jeans undone and halfway down and he was escaped his underwear during his attack on me.

Joseph and Jamie leaped out fo their seats and ran towards us. Jamie was helping Ziggy get rid of Brian. Whereas Joseph was holding me and helping me through my panic attack.

“Are you okay? Y/n cmon breathe for me darling” he said as he held my head to his chest so i could ground myself with his heartbeat.

Jamie and Ziggy had gotten Brian on his feet and yelled for security. Before security had gotten to them. They had a field day beating the shit out of Brian.

When Brian got escorted out he was spitting blood and Definitely had a broken nose. A nice touch was Ziggy was wearing a ring with the word ‘BITCH’ imprinted on it. After punching Brian the word bitch had been stamped-onto his cheek.

After we were sure he was gone i went straight to the bar and asked for two shots of vodka, throwing them back straight away. “She had a shitty ex and the fact that he will stop at nothing to make her life hell, its all my fault i borderline forced her to come out tonight” i heard ziggy say to them as i was at the bar.

As the night died down i had sobered up a lot so i had counteracted that by ordering shot after shot and wanting to forget the pain. Joseph had a few beers, however he wasn’t nearly as drunk as i was, Jamie didn’t drink so obviously he was his usual self. But me, i was wasted and i knew i was going to regret it tomorrow

I had my arm around josephs shoulder for support as we left the club. Ziggy had left sometime earlier as he met someone he was planning on spending the night with, i never felt so comfortable than with these two men so i assured him i was completely fine.

As we went outside, joseph and Jamie stopped for a cigarette “you smoke?” Jaime offered his pack, i nodded and took one while saying thank you. Joseph handed me his lighter as we all stood outside enjoying our cigs.

“Come back to mine y/n not sure if i love the idea of you alone in london at this time” joseph offered with a smile. I was honestly too tired to argue so i agreed, after our cigs me and joseph got into an uber and headed for his apartment after saying goodbye to jamie

“Its been lovely meeting you y/n, and im so sorry about your exes friend” jamie hugged and smiled at me as i said goodbye to him.

As we entered josephs flat, i had this wave of confidence hit me as i stopped us walking in his flat to kiss him. He broke the kiss and said “ i dont want you to regret this tomorrow y/n”

“I doubt i will” i whispered sultrily in his ear as he continued the kiss and picked me up so i was straddling him as he took me to his room and lay me on the bed, he then got on top of me and took his shirt off.We made out for minutes but it ended way too soon as he broke the kiss again and said “y/n your drunk i cant do it to you, especially after what happened tonight i just wouldn’t be right. I mean, we dont have to take out clothes off to have a good time”

I respected his morals and agreed that we shouldn’t do it. He stood up as i sat on his bed, he walked back holding a large bang t shirt saying “you can get dressed in the bathroom if you like? The second door on the right” he smiled at me.

I took the shirt while saying thank you, i headed to the bathroom while walking past photos on his wall of him and his friends on set, him with his family. After changing i returned to his room to see him lay on his bed wearing nothing but grey joggers, his face lit up as he saw me.

We spent the night together with movies on in the background playing on his tv while we spoke about anything and everything, getting to know each other more.

Safe to say i did not regret the night i spent with him

[lildashofheaven1]

“Love me Instead”

Jamie Campbell Bower x female y/n

Jamie confesses his love for y/n on the ‘happiest day of her life’

Todays the day, im marrying mathew.

We met while i was working on sweeney todd where i played Johanna. Recently im part of the stranger things season 4 cast where i get to work with one of my best friends, Jamie Campbell bower.

Its not secret that we have a past together, we dated during filming of Sweeney Todd then we broke up after two years. We’ve kept in touch as friends however I’ve always had a thing for him.

“Knock knockkk” i heard from the other side of my hotel room door, everyone invited to the wedding has been staying at the venue which is also a hotel.

I open the door to see my bridesmaids, Maya Hawke, Millie Bobby Brown, and two childhood friends called emma and grace, as the girls walked in i saw joseph quinn and joe keery also walk in with jamie trailing behind similar to how a toddler acts when not given a toy.

“You excited?” Millie beemed up at me, throughout filming season 4 we have all become so close and i see millie as a little sister at this point.

“Yeah mathews great, i cant wait” i smiled at her as i resumed getting my and make up done.

“Never heard more bullshit” jamie scoffed to which he was met with all of us to look at him.

“Im just gonna go” jamie mumbled and left the room, why is he being so pissy?!

“Ignore him y/n, we have no clue whats up with him” joseph said smiling at me.

For a second i pondered the idea of Jamie being jealous of me and mathew, sureley not right? We broke up two years ago.

After i had gotten ready my bridesmaids left to get ready for the wedding, before the others left i said

“Joseph, would mind if i had a word?” He smiled at me and nodded while everyone else left

“Whats up?” He smiled and sat on the bed.

“Weve known each other for a while right” i said to which he nodded

“And you know how my dad isnt here today?”

“Yeah”

“I was wondering, if you would walk me down the aisle?” I said nervously looking down at my hands

He stood up next to me and hugged me

“I would honoured to y/n, you ready for this?” He asked

“Yeah, i think, am i doing the right thing? I mean jamie always says that mathews gonna disappear as soon as he looses interest, and that hes using me and i.. i just” i cut myself off with a sigh.

“Y/n, dont let jamie decide for you, this is entirely your decision, you want me to tell you your beautiful then shove you down the aisle? Your beautiful now start walking or else, you want me to phone someone just to yell? Im your guy, you wanna freak out and call it off and run away? I have my car keys ready, this is a big decision y/n whatever you want to do, ill back you 100%” i smiled at me.

“Im ready” i said confidently and got ready to go to the ceremony

Meanwhile-Jamies pov

“ Im just gonna go” i muttered and left the room.

I walked along the hallyways until i saw my dad walking out of his room, seeing as me and y/n were so close, she grew close with my family.

“You okay son?” He asked me

I wasnt facing him,

“Jamie?..”

“I love her” i blurted out, tears in my eyes

Dad just sighed,knowing the pain

“Why didnt i let her love me? I kept my gaurd up and she never felt like i heard or saw her, if she could just give me another chance, i can show her that shes my biggest priority and that i will never put work before her ever again” i ranted as he put his hand on my shoulder.

“I love her dad, please tell me its not too late” i said as he hugged me.

“You love someone, you tell them, doesnt matter if you think its going to make things 100% worse and like itll make the world explode, you love them you tell them” dad said to me as i sat and thought about what i can do.

I caught a glimpse of my watch and said “shit it starts in 2 minutes” we near enough ran to the ceremony.

Me and my dad searched to find where mum and sam were sat, we sat down with them.

“Yalright mate?” Sam asked me as i sat next to him.

I just nod, im not letting this happen.

Y/ns pov

All of the bridesmaid and groomsmen had been down the aisle and now its me and joseph turns to me

“Your ready?” I nod back as he held hands and began to walk down the aisle.

As i walked in, everyone stood up and looked towards me as i walked down in my long white dress, it was the most beautiful dress I’ve ever seen, lace and sweetheart neckline with sparkles dotted through the skirt. I walked calmly while smiling, i turned slightly and saw Jamie on the seat closest to the aisle, his eyes held so much pain and hurt, and almost longing.

I looked forward and saw mathew stood looking almost bored?

I looked at jamie one more time as i got to the altar, i tried to show him that i was happy but that man knew me like the back of his hand, he could see through my charade.

“Take care of her yeah? She means so much to so many of us” joseph said sternly at Matthew, i gave him a hug as he went to sit on front row.

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“If anyone has any rightful excuse as to why y/n m/n l/n and Mathew Jean Robinson shouldnt me united in holy matrimony, speak now or forever hold your piece” as the preacher said this jamie stood up.

Everyone looked at him and he obviously had moved before his brain caught up.

“Sit down you bastard, were happy thats all that matters!” Mathew snapped at him, as he said this i smelt the alcohol on his breathe, i looked at jamie, unable to read him.

As jamie sat back down the preacher repeated himself. “Or for ever hold your pie-“.

“I love you, y/n”

Jamie stood again and was met with everyone staring at him and gasps where heard

“I love you, i love everything about you

Even the things i dont necesarily like, i love

And i want you to be with me” his eyes watered and his voice broke slightly

“I love you since the day i met you and i will love you for for ever more”

“I love you for all the reasons that you dont love yourself. When i think of you marrying him, it breaks my heart. Lifes too short not to say that you are with the person you love”

“ i promise you, i swear to you, my love for you will never falter”

“I love you and i think that you love me?” He added

Everyone started looking at me.

I looked down but looked back up at him when he said

“Do you? Do you love me?” He said looking me in the eye, tears began falling on both of our sides.

I felt an unsteady hand shove me aside as mathew walks towards jamie saying

“Your that selfish you cant let people be in love, me and y/n are meant to be so why dont you take yourself and g-“

“ I love you Jamie!!” I yelled over mathews arguing.

Mathew swayed about next to jamie, how had no one noticed how drunk he was?!

“I love you! I love you!” I said again to jamie as he ran towards me and picked me up.

After i was in his arms he span us around while kissing.

“You bitch!! I was that close! Just marry you, divorce and i would be minted!!” Mathew yelled having an actual tantrum. Joseph looked disgusted as he and Joe Keery went to Mathew and dragged him out of the ceremony, they were later followed by Mathews family and friends.

I looked up to see Jamie’s piercing blue eyes full of love.

“Ive loved you since we were 17” i whispered to him.

“And i will love you forever more” he whispered back to me.

We kissed at the altar and Jamies dad and brother stood up cheering first.

“Shall we?” Jamie asked, nodding to the door at the back of the room.

“We shall” i smiled at him as he held his hand out for me.

We both ran out the ceremony laughing and smiling.

I texted the wedding group chat saying the after part was still on, i was getting into my second outfit, a shorter one meant for the party.

I was stood looking in the mirror when Jamie came behind me, still in his white shirt and black trousers with his black tie from earlier, and wrapped his arms snaked around me and he smiled and whispered into my neck.

“Cant wait to plan out wedding my love, thank you so much for giving me another chance”.

I looked up and said “what convinced you to speak up”.

“You love someone, you tell them, doesnt matter if you think its going to make things 100% worse and like itll make the world explode, you love them you tell them”.

We walked hand in hand to the after party, ready to spend the rest of our loves together.

[lildashofheaven1]

‘Dancing Queen’

Jamie Campbell Bower x Dancer Reader

Reader is a dancer and Jamie is there for her when she gets injured

“Y/n we’re ready for your tech run in 5!’ I hear getting yelled outside my dressing room

Before i left the room i sat on my chair and got my pointe shoes on.

I heard a knock on my door

“Ill be out in a second!” I reply

The door opened to see my blonde,blue eyed boyfriend smiling at me

“Oh hi love” i smiled as i tied up my second shoe

“Hi darling, you okay?” I stood next to him

“Yeah just kind of nervous, havent properly performed in months” i say as i stroke my leotard ridding it of any fluff etc.

Jamie noticed me looking in the mirror anxiously, fixing my hair and make up etc.

He gently grabbed my hands and said

“Your going to do amazing my love, you always do, your a beautiful dancer and i cant wait to see you in the actual show tonight, now go out there and show everyone what you do best” he said quietly down my ear and he walked me to the door

“Ill be sat in the audience watching my love, break a leg” he smiled as i walked to backstage.

“Jamie took his seat in the audience, he was here because i was only needed to run through my performance and then he’s driving me back to our house.

Tech days simply weren’t fun, i’ve been here for hours just waiting for my turn to run through my performance making sure the lights and music are correct.

As i was stood in the wings, i looked out to see family members and partners sat waiting for my cast mates to be done here.I saw Jamie sat on the third row from the front waiting for me to get on stage, he looked around and saw me in the wings.He smiled and waved at me, i waved back and he blew me a kiss.I heard the performer before me’s music end so it was my turn to go on stage.

I walked on confidently and waited for my music to start

Come on, skinny love, just last the year

Pour a little salt, we were never here

For the first two lines of the song, i start centre stage on my knees with my head in my hands, i raise one arm at a time and lift myself up onto my pointe shoes and begin travelling the stage with grace, i begin my sequence of 6 pirouette’s

My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my, my, my

After the pirhouettes i got to downstage left and do an arabesque and the run into my Jeté leap across the stage and end the leap with 2 pirouettes.

Staring at the sink of blood and crushed veneer I tell my love to wreck it all

Cut out all the ropes and let me fall

On these three lines i travel across downstage spinning and when i reach centre stage, i perform a Sauté.

My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my, my, my

On this line i repeat the 6 pirouettes.

Right in this moment, this order's tall

For this line i run upstage onto the raised segment of the stage and prepare to do the biggest trick in my performance. A double pirouette on the small platform and then leap off of it and land into a split.

While in the air i was supposed to raise my leg above my head and land on my hands and then get into the split.

And I told you to be patient

And I told you to be fine

And I told you to be balanced.

On these lines i started the pirouettes and go to do the leap off of the platform. While im mid air, i try to raise my leg above my head however i underestimated how little amount of time i would have and didn’t raise it high enough in time and landed on my knee fully shattering it on the floor.

3rd person Pov

As y/n landed on her knee on stage, the scream of pain the followed alerted everyone in the theatre that the leap had gone terribly wrong.

Jamie leaped out of his seat at the immediate sign of his lover in pain.

“Y/n!” He yelled out as he jumped over the two rows of seats in front of him and threw himself on the stage with a jump to be with her.

“Y/n my love, where does it hurt?” He said as he moved a few strands of hair from her face.

“My k-knee” she replied in floods of tears.

Both of them knew how bad an injury can be for a dancer, both of them silently praying this wasnt serious.

“Y/n we’ve got medics on the way!” Anthony (the choreographer) said as he walked over and knelt next the girl who was writhing in pain with her head resting on Jamie’s lap.

A few minutes later, we were informed that the medics wouldn’t be able to get into the theatre, so they were going to have to get y/n to the ambulance another way.

“Y/n your gonna have to stand up darling, now if you stand on your other leg ill pick you up okay?” Jamie said to the terrified girl, to which she nodded silently, eyes wide with pain.

Y/n struggled to stand on her other leg while using Jamies arm to steady herself. As soon as they both were up, Jamie lifted her up and carried her bridal style into the ambulance.

“Your gonna be okay my love, you did so well, your gonna be okay” Jamie said as he planted gentle kisses on her knuckles as they drove to the hospital.

[lildashofheaven1]

Balcony Fun

‼️18+ Minors DNI‼️

Joseph Quinn x Female Y/n

Joseph and y/n get into in argument but manage to settle it fairly quickly….. and roughly

“She was all over you Joseph! Dont act like you didn’t notice!” I yelled as we walked into out hotel room. Me and joseph are in america for the filming of stranger things. We had all gone out to a bar and a fan girl was literally drooling over Joseph, he was too damn polite to tell her to go away!

“She was a fan y/n i have to be polite!” Joseph argued back.

“You’re so right joseph! Next time why dont you just screw her over the bar, that’d be great!” Admittedly we were both pretty drunk so thats most likely the fuel behind this argument.

“Oh dont be so childish!” He said before he sighed and ran his hand over his face and added. “Im going on the balcony, come let me know when you want to talk, like adults” and with that he threw his jacket on the table and grabbed his pack of cigarettes and lighter along with his phone and walked to the balcony.

Frustrated, i stomped to our bedroom and got out of the short red dress i was wearing. Getting into my pj shorts and tank top, i went over to my dressing table and took off my make up and threw my hair into a ponytail. After 10 minutes of a tense atmosphere within our hotel room i went out onto the balcony to see joseph, sat in a chair, top shirt buttons undone and a lit cigarette in his hand.

“Joey… im sorry, i was being stupid and childish, and im sorry for picking fights” i said quietly unsure if he was still mad at me. I was met with silence “Look i know you might not forgive me just yet but can you at least answer me” i added. Once again, nothing. I began walking to the door to our room.

I heard him stand up and before i could turn around to see him, i felt a harsh hand grab my hair and spin me round so my back was against the balcony railing, with his arms now either side of me, trapping me.

“Its such a fucking turn on when your jealous baby” he mumbled against my lips. “Want me to show you, show you that your the only girl for me?” He asked me. All i could do was nod at him as his hand had made its way onto my throat,

“Use your words princess” he ordered

“Yes Joseph, god yes please” i begged He roughly grabbed my hips and turned me around so i was looking out onto the dark, quiet streets. He grabbed my hair again and pulled my head back until his face made contact with my neck. “Such a jealous little slut, huh?” He said, he ripped my shorts down to the ground and unbuckled his belt and tied my hands behind my back with it. Just as i thought he was going to put me out of my misery and fuck me, he spun me around and then sat back on his chair, undoing his trousers. “Get here” he ordered and i obliged.

I got on my knees in front him, hands tied behind me as he freed his dick from his boxers, “suck” he said as shoved my head towards his throbbing dick. I followed his orders and began sucking his dick, feeling it hit the back of my throat made me moan around him. He began using his hand to choose his rhythm my shoving my head down as fast as he wanted.

“Oh angel, your so good for me” he moaned as i began picking up the pace on my own. I felt him twitch in my mouth and seconds later i felt the memorable warm, thick liquid shoot down my throat and as i let him fall out of me, i stuck my tongue out to show him all the cum i had gathered onto it and swallowed it all. “Mmh good fucking girl, still think i have eyes for anyone else” he smirked at me as he stood up. I followed him and once again he pinned me against the balcony, he lifted me so i was sat on the railing. “Gonna show you how much i love you sweet thing, okay?” He mumbled into my neck. “Mmhmm joey please, please fuck me” i whined to him.

He took his trousers off completely and said “anything for my girl” I felt his dick rub against my clit, which had been throbbing while i was giving him head, i was already so wet. I felt him slip into me a few times before i let out a frustrated whine. “Joey please dont tease me” “Be a good girl or i wont fuck you at all, leave you out here a wet, whining mess” he snapped at me. He finally shoved his dick into my pussy and began thrusting into me at an inhumane pace. “Oh i’ll never get used to how tight you are princess, such a tight little slut, just for me” I was desperate to reach for his curls and tug on them as he kept fucking me ungodly. “Joey…please, i-i wanna touch you” i begged him as he kept fucking me. “Awh poor baby, still think id want any other girl like this?” He asked me. “No, no im yours baby” i answered him, desperate to be let free. “And im all yours angel” he answered as he paused breifly and untied to belt from around my wrists. My hands flew to his head and began tugging on his hair, his thrust began sloppier as this went on. “Ngh… im gonna cum joey!” I cried out. “Cum for me sweetheart, make a mess, fucking cover me in it” he encouraged as his hand made its way to my clit and began rubbing harsh circles on it. That was all i needed for the knot in my stomach to come undone, covering myself and him in my juices. “Oh thats it baby, thats a good girl, oh your gonna make me cum!” He cried out as i felt him twitch in me, i clenched around him at the overstimulation. “Oh thats it baby, oh your so tight” he strained a vein in his neck as his seed shot up into me. We both stayed close as possible, his dick still inside me as we both came down from our highs. “Im sorry joseph, i love you so much” i said against his lips. “I know princess, i love you too” he responded, taking his dick out of me and standing between my legs, not ready to separate just yet. “Joey?” I almost whispered. “Yes angel?” He answered, matching my volume.

“I cant walk, can you carry me to the shower? Please?” I asked him looking up using my big puppy dog eyes. “Would be my pleasure” he smirked as picked me up and carried me inside.

Safe to say, im not going to doubt his love for me again.

[lildashofheaven1]

‘Cant keep kissing strangers!’

Jamie Campbell Bower x reader

Jamie tries to fix his relationship with y/n

Knock knock knock

“Just go away Jamie!” I yelled to the front door of my apartment

“Y/n please, just let me in!” I heard him slightly shout back to me, we had broken up a week ago because rumours started spreading that Jamie had cheated on me.

“Please y/n just let me in and i can explain and if you still dont believe me then ill go and you’ll never have to see me again” he said almost in defeat.

I made my way to my front door and unlocked it to see Jamie stood with a slight smile of relief that im willing to hear him out.

“I still love you” he blurted out pretty much as soon as he walked in.

I stood in silence with my arms crossed

“Y/n i promise you, the stupid rumours that are going round aren’t true, your the most important thing in my life and i need you with me” he said tears starting to gather.

“I dont know Jamie, your the first person i ever trusted and to hav..”

“And you still can trust me, y/n darling please. I love you and nothing is going to change that” he said as he slowly took me into his embrace.

“Nothing and no one can replace you, all i know is that i cant keep kissing strangers and pretending they’re you. Im not ready to live my life without you in it. Please just give me another chance and i can promise you, everything will go back to the way it was” he explained

“I love you, please say you still love me?” He added, his blue eyes filled with hope and love.

“I love you too Jamie” i almost whispered against his lips.

He closed the gap between us by hugging me and continuing the kiss.

I trust this man with my life, why did i ever let some stupid rumour nearly destroy our love.

[lildashofheaven1]

Jamie nsfw alphabet

Jamie Campbell Bower x Y/n

A= after care

He is SO SWEET after sex, will go get you a glass of water, new clothes, wipes literally anything you need! He will always check in with you to make sure he didn’t hurt you or anything as well, if you feel like it, he will also help you into the shower.

B= body part

His favourite body part of yours is either your eyes or you tits because he could honestly look at either of them for hours, maybe even days. He honestly loves literally every part of your body but if he had to pick he’d say thos two. Your favourite part of his body has to be his arms as he always holds you and you love the feeling of safety they provide you and its his little reminder that he’s there. Additionally youve gotta give love to his hands because he can do magical things with them.

C= cum

With your permission, he would cum in you, nothings hotter to him than having his seed be inside you. The idea of having kids with you is such a turn on for him. If your not comfortable with him coming inside you this man will come up with new places to release on you and loves painting you wherever, if asked his favourite place is either your back or your face.

D= Dirty secret

A secret of jamies is that he secretly loves the thought of you tying him up and having your way with him, he loves the idea of you taking control and taking what you want from him. He would be open to any of your dirty secrets and want you want to try unless its where he has to purposefully hurt you as he wouldnt be able to do that to his little angel.

E=experience

Jamie was very experienced when you met, however if you were a virgin he wouldnt shame you at all and would teach you all about how to feel good and would never be against a lil demonstration all the time!😝

F=favourite position

May be a lil vanilla but he loves missionary, being able to see your eyes and your tits? Hell yes! Can safely say you’ve probably tried every different position in your time together because you’d be a very experimental couple

G= goofy

I dont see jamie being a goofy type during sex however if something had happened like if you knocked off something off the bedside table, he’d give it a little chuckle then continuing with where he was

H= hair

100% keeps it tidy, not clean shaved but definitly isnt a mfing jungle. Doesnt really care whether or not you shave, however if he was being truthful he prefers clean shaved because mans gonna spend a lot of time down there.

I= intimacy

Very intimate, you never feel rushed or uncomfortable and he makes it so romantic saying things such as “be a good girl for me” and “thats is angel let go for me” literally the most romantic person. If its a big occasion he is not opposed to having candles etc and music playing in the background

J= jack off

Honestly, doesnt do it that often when your with him at all (i mean he doesnt really have to😝) if hes away filming then its a different story he misses you so much that he has to jack off while having pics of you on his phone, sometimes y’all exchange nudes just to give each other material for while your apart

K=kink

He gives me vibes of loving teasing and edging, both giving and receiving, he also loves being dominant, its very rare that he lets you take control. Also i think we’ve all seen who he follows on insta… ill leave that there

L=location

Theres not a spot in your house where you havent done the deed, a random place youve had sex is a pub toilet when you were bothed wasted. However once you two had sex in an alley in london while out with friends

M= motivation

My mans gets turned on so easily because of you, your wearing a short skirt, hes re-arranging his trousers. Also he so strikes me as the type of boyfriend to pretend to rail you from behind if you lean down to pick something up.

N= No

Something i dont think he would do is purposefully hurt you, yeah he likes being dominant and kinky, and enjoys being rough. but he would never make himself hurt you in anyway. In another sense if one night you didnt feel like having sex then its off his mind in an instant and he would never pressure you to have sex if you didnt feel like it

O= Oral.

100% loves receiving but honestly this man is so skilled in giving!! He loves to hear and see you struggle to hold it together while hes between your thighs. Oh and if youve been apart for a while, clear out your evening plans because hes pinning you down and your not leaving until further notice, he thinks its the most intimate act you can do so if hes y/n deprived, then that is his first plan.

P=Pace.

Depends on his mood, if hes his usual self then he likes taking it slow and intimate. If somethings pissed him off then hes taking his anger and channelling it into fucking your brains out!😝.

Q=Quickie.

Hes not the biggest fan of quickies, he enjoys the risk that attached to them, however as mentioned earlier, he likes taking his time with you but if you both have like 5 mins and your hella horny then hes down to have a quickie.

R=Risk.

He LOVES taking risks!! The idea of getting caught turns him on so much!! I can so see him fucking in the car outside of a bar all you and your friends are at!

S=Stamina.

Most of the times he lasts longer than you and is able to go around 3-4 maybe 5 rounds before having to stop for a bit, is okay with however many rounds you want to do as long as your not in pain, after however many you both manage, you both get cleaned up and lay together.

T=Toys.

Has them and only uses them rarely on you, if he’s in a teasing mood then a vibrator is his best friend. He uses them on you when he wants to play around and eventually he cant take hearing your moans so he stops and replaces the toy!

U=Unfair

He L O V E S teasing you, hearing you moan and whine for him to give you what you want. He also adores teasing you in public, running his hand up your thigh under tables to get you riled up!

V=Volume

I dont see him being really loud during sex, he mainly whispers into your ear things like “your doing so well for me my love” “thats it baby tell me what you want” however when he finishes, the chesty bassy moan he lets out is enough to get you to finish on the spot!! He encourages you to let him know how good you feel, he will never get bored of hearing your moans and whines.

W=Wild card

Has definitely turned you on accidentally before, yall were laying watching a movie with his head in your lap, he was mindlessly running his hand up and down your leg, until his hand ventured very high and without thinking he slipped his hand up your shorts and began playing and tugging your panties.

He claims afterwards that he liked how the material feels. When he realised you curling your toes and pushing your legs together to try get friction he looks up at you, realising what he had done.

“Awh poor baby, im sorry i dont know what i do to you sometimes” he says while rubbing the side of his thumb on your jawline

“Cmon my love, ill give you what you want” he smiled as he sists up and takes your off shorts

X=Xray

at least AT LEAST 9-10 inches! If not more, im sorry i dont make the rules!!

Y=Yearning.

You both usually have sex like 2-3 times a week, if your together a lot more than you both find yourselves having casual sex just as something to do😝 however you ensure that you both have you special time together and make it memorable

Z=ZZZ

He falls asleep not long after sex, however before you do, he makes sure to clean you both up and get into clean clothes and change the sheets if necessary. You both fall asleep after this with your head on his chest as you sometimes both chat mindlessly to each other.