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Aggravation, 1896 by Briton Rivière (English, 1840–1920)

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It’s too much competition

I have to get better.

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The last three days been great I’m content rn. But right at this very moment, I’m experiencing a severe case of FOMO.  It is before 4:52 AM and I don’t want to sleep because I want to watch TV but I literally have nothing to watch. This has got to be some type of a dopamine or serotonin fixation I have. an addiction of some sort.

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I’m way less frantic when I’m creating, my boy kept watching these basquat documentaries and then this came out my head - www.shiestymoves.com

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Katsuya Terada, zenbu (1999)

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BURST vol.4 2001

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Adam Whyte (2019)

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Bar 'FAKE' - Motomachi-dori Chuo-Ku Kobe, Japan (1997)

Designed by Tsuyoshi Mendori

Scanned from 'Shop Design Series - Design Elements 2: in Bars and Restaurants' (2001)

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Just existing

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The more out the way you try to be, it’s always some dick head coming to annoy you

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Am I on the spectrum or am I just a dick head ?

I often view myself as an empath. But at the same time I always feel a switch where I couldn’t POSSIBLY feel empathy for such idiots. You feel me? I constantly catch myself being emotionally inconsiderate and I always end up telling myself the same shit…”why is everybody so soft??!?!” But if EVERYONE is overly sensitive …then OBVIOUSLY I’m the common denominator right?

ADHD been kicking my ass for 27 years. But I genuinely sometimes think there’s something lacking or working different in my brain. Like worse than whatever’s been disagnosed. I get agitated that the weirdest shit.

Like for example: if you say a statement that leads me to ask you “what do you mean?” I’m automatically pissed off! Why the fuck do I need to ask you what you’re talking about when you began the dialogue you fuckin imbecile. In no world should a mf start a conversation like “you shoulda did that one shit were talking about earlier”

Like what the fuck does this even mean???? Don’t say ANYTHING that will lead your counterpart to ask your “what?” I’m very big in complete sentences with full thoughts and no vague words. Vague dialogue is my #1 trigger. If I feel like you’re beating around the bush with my I will roll some weed and go to my room and go YouTube in the middle of you talking. I’m almost 30. Be real.

Thanks for coming to my Ted talk 😌

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Alone is an understatement, I sometimes wonder if this is what Albert Einstein or Socrates. Ideas today has been so radicalized it makes everything so black and white.

Why is there a need to lend an opinion on everything? It’s to the point where if a pubic figure lends no opinion….AN OPINION IS ASSIGNED TO THEM BY THE PUBLIC!

The fucking gender wars back and forth on social media leads you to believe that all this shit is just on the internet but I SWEAR… at times in real life i can see the bullshit podcast points spewed on those shitty relationship/gender based talk spaces REPEATED in real time, sometimes verbatim.

And bro…do you see what the fuck masculinity has turned into? WHAT THE FUCKKKKKK why every single day there’s talk points in wtf an alpha is??? Bullshit reminds me of teen wolf, deadass. Corny ass shit lol

My reaction to all this is to do the opposite. Never lend opinion unless warranted. Don’t live by pre-created rules of masculinity but most importantly do what the fuck I want.

- we often are told to live our life freely but folks rarely truly 100% do. Since a jit I been doing what I want regardless of consequence. I just live with them.

No idea where I was going with this rant. I just hate the state of the world…right now atleast , I wish we all would just LITERALLY chill the fuck out and stop worrying so much, do what you want and the next mf mind they gatdamn business!

Anyways that was my Ted talk. Don’t really care who reads this 😂

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drop kick in tokyo, japan in new bar + club design - bethan ryder (2005)

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“POP” https://www.instagram.com/p/ClzbufwLuxE/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=