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“Violence is never the answer,” the monk says, pumping a shotgun. “But you don’t always have to be right.”

[lingeringmisery]

absolutely love reading such a well-written story and falling a bit in love with the author based solely on the way they write. like baby the way you italicize words makes my heartbeat quicken.

[lingeringmisery]

Admiration

Yandere Female Idol X Idol reader (GN)

Words 2k+

Warning! Stalking, Delusional.

Yandere idol who is popular in the industry and even known internationally, Yanna was performing her songs as the crowd screamed and sang praises to her as they were desperate for their beloved idol to hear their undying loyalty and admiration, Yanna would only smile at them as she continued her performance..

As her performance finally ended she bowed her head and thanked her fans for all the support, she really was living the life, she had everything she wanted, money, fame, looks, and support from her fans.

Yandere idol who was strolling in the city of tokyo in a disguise, her manager was very easy going with her and would let her go out and let her do the things she wants freely, since fans would always side with her if there were any controversies.

She was wearing a black cap, and white mask, with a simple black hoodie that was baggy with gray sweatpants as she was walking around with glasses to not get recognized.

She was buying snacks and desserts left and right, as she was enjoying her stroll.

She was then bumped into someone which made her drop the food she was holding as she fell down, she yelped a bit as she was going to make sure whoever bumped into them will.. as she then looked up, ready to shout at whoever bumped in to her, she freeze for a moment as she saw..

It was her very favorite idol..[Y/N] you were a solo artist just like her, but before she even debut she already admired your singing and songs, you were long already in the industry before she even debuted, she was shocked to see her very idol smiling at her, as you seemed have an apologetic expression, lending your hand to help her get up. Your cap was taken off from you after you bumped into her as your glasses were slightly messed up, she recognized those very bright, beautiful eyes..

She stared at you, mesmerized and absolutely shocked to even see you, and even meet you in the flesh too?? You were an international idol just like her but her popularity was higher than yours, but she admired you so much that she had posters of you in her dorm, she even bought all your merch, and dyed her hair the same as yours once which made her manager almost have a heart attack.

♡

*____________________________*

"Uh..hello? Are you all right?" You tried to call her as you were worried why she was staring at you with wide eyes, as you were lending your hand out, waiting for her to hold it.

she could only stare for a moment before her cheeks were slowly turning red before she looked away and quickly responded in a nervous tone.

"Ah! I..it's all right! I'm sorry I zoned out, ahaha.." she then grabbed your hand, your warm and soft hand..she was touching you! She was absolutely elevated, she is never going to wash her gloves now-

As she smiled at you nervously yet seemingly blushing? You chuckled a bit as you helped her up, her grip on your hand was tight?

"No, no! It's fine, seriously! I was just worried, are you hurt? I am so sorry for bumping into you, I was lost."

You smiled sheepishly as you told her, yanna was looking at you with such a warm and fond expression as if she knew you, you were a bit surprised but you didn't think too much about it.

Yanna could only smile widely and nod as she tried to assure you that she was not hurt at all. "You don't need to apologize at all, I should have looked my way, I am fine. Moreover.. you're lost? oh no, it must be difficult, especially how big Tokyo is."

Yanna spoke in a worried tone as she heard that you were lost? Oh no! It must felt so confusing trying to look around and especially the language barrier for you, fortunately yanna knew english, yanna was more than thankful that you bumped into her, oh grace lord she was going to be more religious now..as she then held your hand with both of her hands, squeezing your hands slightly as she had an worried expression, she didn't even have you a chance to respond as she quickly spoke with that very same smile.

"It must been overwhelming, I can help you! Where were you going? And, ah..my name is.."

Yanna tried to think of an alias name as she then smiled widely.

"My name is Yani, let me help you."

Yanna smiled at you ever so softly, as she then started to pull you closer and walk with you around the city..you were shocked at even how friendly this stranger was? She's even helping you! You felt a wave of relief and absolute comfort from her..but there was something familiar about you, especially when you saw her eyes, she seemed so familiar and her voice, it felt like that one popular idol from Korea, but you shrugged it off as 'yani' helped you.

You didn't even know how 'yani' knew where your manager was? Even bringing you to the exact location as if she already knew who you were..? Maybe it was just a coincidence of good luck, she really was so kind and nice to you. You thanked 'yani' as you bowed over and over again expressing your gratitude to her.

She was absolutely blushing, thank god she was wearing a mask, or else they would have suspected that she already recognize who you are, she said she only wanted to help as she smiled back at you.. yanna smile was still there as you bid her goodbye, she waved back as your van fading away from the distance..after you finally left. She stayed quiet all by herself before she started to blush and giggle to herself like a high-school girl who just saw her crush, as she was fan girling so much. It felt like an dream to talk, meet, and touch you in flesh! Idols rarely get the chance to even go to concerts of their fellow idols but such chance? God must be listening to her prayers. When she arrived back to the hotel she was staying she jumped to her bed as she was blushing and still replaying that moment with you earlier, after a while she remembered that you held her hands she immediately glanced at her gloves as she took it off and kissed so many times, her lipstick lightly staining her gloves but it didn't manner, you touched this, and she could still remember how your perfume smelled..you smelled so absolutely good and nice, vanilla scent perfume? Oh how she even loved you even more, she was turning more head over heels for you.

You thought about 'yani' at how nice and kind she was to help you, but you couldn't shake the feeling that she seemed to recognize who you were..but if she did she would have said so quickly when she saw your face, you decided to just smile at yourself as you thought you wouldn't meet her again, she was so nice too.

Oh how wrong you were.

You had a performance in Tokyo before the night when you got lost, you were performing your best hit songs as your fans were shouting and cheering for you so much, some even threw flowers at you and some even threw their phone, for you to put your number there and even take a selfie in it. It was still overwhelmingly good even though you experienced this so many times already.

Your performance finally ended, you bowed and thanked your fans for supporting you even here on stage.

After it you were then at the greet and meet your fans, there was a line as you were interacting with your fans..some gave you gifts, some tried to ask for your number or any private socials so they can be your friend, one even tried to give you money as a gift.

As the line was finally slowly growing little by little..you were relieved as you breath in as the last person was now walking to your table were you were sat.

You gave a wide smile as you went to your professional self once again.

*__________________________*

You smiled at this very last fan, you have them a wide smile as you looked at them, they were then sat down face to face to you..

You raised your eyebrows slightly as you recognize them.. you greeted them with your usual greeting for every greet and meet before you then spoke.

"Wait..Yani? Is that you"

You spoke up as your smile turned more genuine, your eyes slightly light up as you looked at "yani"

Yanna was surprised that you remembered yet absolute ecstatic.

Omg she remembered me? Oh my sweetheart really is so sweet to remember me, I just want to hold her hand and say all the things I feel for her, oh how she always keep me up in night as I can't stop thinking of her and only her. Oh gosh I to hold it in, I don't want to scare her!

She smiled widely at you as she then grab your hands and held it slightly tight.

"Omg, you remember me? It's really nice to see you again, I just wanted to see you again. Your performance is always a masterpiece."

Yani squeezed your hands slightly with both of her hands as she spoke happily, you were slightly taken back but nonetheless happy too, your guess was right..she knew who you were from the start, you laughed slightly as you then talk and talk with her for so long, it was even longer than your service was supposed to be..you were then stopped by your staff after 2 hours of talking to each other, 'Yani' seemed a bit disappointed as she glared at your staff who called you guys since the greet and meet was already done and 'yani' is supposed to leave already.

This is really pushing my buttons..I thought I could have spoke to her more longer, I really wanted to hear her voice more, she has such a lovely voice, it always calms me whenever she speaks.. I better make sure to teach that guy a lesson later.

Yanna thought to herself as you pouted slightly, yani eyes immediately looked at your expression..oh how cute you look whenever you're upset, your lips just looked so soft and sweet, I just want to kiss to pretty lips of hers..as Yanna was brought back to reality when you called her name..well fake name, she immediately went back to smiling.

"I still want to speak to you..this is unfair, ron!"

you pouted at your staff, he only chuckled a bit as you talked to him a bit..

Which made Yanna look at your staff and you for a moment..you were smiling and speaking so comfortably with him? You shouldn't be smiling to others.. you're too pretty for them to see. She kept a smiling expression as she watched you and your staff speak in front of her, as you're trying to tell your staff that you want to talk more to her. Oh how that made her heart beat faster! Ah.. She's so adorable, it really so hard to stop myself from being so attached to her, she's just as beautiful as she is..her whole being is absolute pure. But that bastard.. what's his name again..? Ah, Ron.. l'll make sure to talk to my manager later about him.

Yanna was brought back from her thoughts as you waved your hand slightly, and smiled widely.

"Yani, yani to earth? Earth to Yani? Ahahaha!"

your laugh was like a symphony to her, a beautiful song, it was music to her ears..your voice is so calming to hear. She couldn't help but smile so fondly at you, she really wanted to get you more, she wanted you to be with her, she wanted you to be close to her. She wanted you-

"Ah, I'm here, I'm here! Ahaha, yes? I apologize I zoned out again."

"You always zone out so much, maybe you haven't been sleeping well?"

you spoke in a worried tone as you were concerned for yani, she was one of the people who were kind to you because of you, and not because of your identity and fame.

Yanna felt her cheeks blushed more, as her eyes softened..oh how thankful she was that she was wearing a mask. You're just so precious.

"You're too nice, [Idol/name]..I just thought of something, but you were saying something? Please go on."

Yanna smiled at you, as she was slightly narrowing her eyes at Your staff, ron..which Ron raised his eyebrows at her..he thought 'Yani' looked familiar..

As you then giggled before speaking. "I was saying, maybe we can exchange socials? I can give you my Instagram, we can talk more there!"

You spoke happily, as you thought of how fun it would be to talk more to Yani, you're quite fond of her too..

This made yanna stare at you for a moment, as if she was trying to process what you said was real and she wasn't hearing things..oh how ecstatic she was, her smile widened more as the blush on her face turned deep red, she grew a bit more nervous…omg, omg omg omg. She's asking for my social?? And she wants to talk more to me? Ahhh..I can just die from happiness, she acknowledged me as a friend. She cares for me, oh how you're so precious and innocent y/n.. you're making me want you more, I think I wouldn't be able to control myself if you're so...

"O-of course!! I would love to, please!"

[lingeringmisery]

"Admiration"

Yandere Female Idol X Idol reader (GN)

Words 2k+!

Warning! stalking, delusion.

Yandere idol who is popular in the industry and even known internationally, Yanna was performing her songs as the crowd screamed and sang praises to her as they were desperate for their beloved idol to hear their undying loyalty and admiration, Yanna would only smile at them as she continued her performance..

As her performance finally ended she bowed her head and thanked her fans for all the support, she really was living the life, she had everything she wanted, money, fame, looks, and support from her fans.

Yandere idol who was strolling in the city of tokyo in a disguise, her manager was very easy going with her and would let her go out and let her do the things she wants freely, since fans would always side with her if there were any controversies.

She was wearing a black cap, and white mask, with a simple black hoodie that was baggy with gray sweatpants as she was walking around with glasses to not get recognized.

She was buying snacks and desserts left and right, as she was enjoying her stroll.

She was then bumped into someone which made her drop the food she was holding as she fell down, she yelped a bit as she was going to make sure whoever bumped into them will.. as she then looked up, ready to shout at whoever bumped in to her, she freeze for a moment as she saw..

It was her very favorite idol..[Y/N] you were a solo artist just like her, but before she even debut she already admired your singing and songs, you were long already in the industry before she even debuted, she was shocked to see her very idol smiling at her, as you seemed have an apologetic expression, lending your hand to help her get up. Your cap was taken off from you after you bumped into her as your glasses were slightly messed up, she recognized those very bright, beautiful eyes..

She stared at you, mesmerized and absolutely shocked to even see you, and even meet you in the flesh too?? You were an international idol just like her but her popularity was higher than yours, but she admired you so much that she had posters of you in her dorm, she even bought all your merch, and dyed her hair the same as yours once which made her manager almost have a heart attack.

♡

*_______________________________________*

"Uh..hello? Are you all right?" You tried to call her as you were worried why she was staring at you with wide eyes, as you were lending your hand out, waiting for her to hold it.

she could only stare for a moment before her cheeks were slowly turning red before she looked away and quickly responded in a nervous tone.

"Ah! I..it's all right! I'm sorry I zoned out, ahaha.." she then grabbed your hand, your warm and soft hand..she was touching you! She was absolutely elevated, she is never going to wash her gloves now-

As she smiled at you nervously yet seemingly blushing? You chuckled a bit as you helped her up, her grip on your hand was tight?

"No, no! It's fine, seriously! I was just worried, are you hurt? I am so sorry for bumping into you, I was lost."

You smiled sheepishly as you told her, yanna was looking at you with such a warm and fond expression as if she knew you, you were a bit surprised but you didn't think too much about it.

Yanna could only smile widely and nod as she tried to assure you that she was not hurt at all.

"You don't need to apologize at all, I should have looked my way, I am fine. Moreover.. you're lost? oh no, it must be difficult, especially how big Tokyo is."

Yanna spoke in a worried tone as she heard that you were lost? Oh no! It must felt so confusing trying to look around and especially the language barrier for you, fortunately yanna knew english, yanna was more than thankful that you bumped into her, oh grace lord she was going to be more religious now..as she then held your hand with both of her hands, squeezing your hands slightly as she had an worried expression, she didn't even have you a chance to respond as she quickly spoke with that very same smile.

"It must been overwhelming, I can help you! Where were you going? And, ah..my name is.."

Yanna tried to think of an alias name as she then smiled widely.

"My name is Yani, let me help you."

Yanna smiled at you ever so softly, as she then started to pull you closer and walk with you around the city..you were shocked at even how friendly this stranger was? She's even helping you! You felt a wave of relief and absolute comfort from her..but there was something familiar about you, especially when you saw her eyes, she seemed so familiar and her voice, it felt like that one popular idol from Korea, but you shrugged it off as 'yani' helped you.

You didn't even know how 'yani' knew where your manager was? Even bringing you to the exact location as if she already knew who you were..? Maybe it was just a coincidence of good luck, she really was so kind and nice to you. You thanked 'yani' as you bowed over and over again expressing your gratitude to her.

She was absolutely blushing, thank god she was wearing a mask, or else they would have suspected that she already recognize who you are, she said she only wanted to help as she smiled back at you.. yanna smile was still there as you bid her goodbye, she waved back as your van fading away from the distance..after you finally left. She stayed quiet all by herself before she started to blush and giggle to herself like a high-school girl who just saw her crush, as she was fan girling so much. It felt like an dream to talk, meet, and touch you in flesh! Idols rarely get the chance to even go to concerts of their fellow idols but such chance? God must be listening to her prayers. When she arrived back to the hotel she was staying she jumped to her bed as she was blushing and still replaying that moment with you earlier, after a while she remembered that you held her hands she immediately glanced at her gloves as she took it off and kissed so many times, her lipstick lightly staining her gloves but it didn't manner, you touched this, and she could still remember how your perfume smelled..you smelled so absolutely good and nice, vanilla scent perfume? Oh how she even loved you even more, she was turning more head over heels for you.

You thought about 'yani' at how nice and kind she was to help you, but you couldn't shake the feeling that she seemed to recognize who you were..but if she did she would have said so quickly when she saw your face, you decided to just smile at yourself as you thought you wouldn't meet her again, she was so nice too.

Oh how wrong you were.

You had a performance in Tokyo before the night when you got lost, you were performing your best hit songs as your fans were shouting and cheering for you so much, some even threw flowers at you and some even threw their phone, for you to put your number there and even take a selfie in it. It was still overwhelmingly good even though you experienced this so many times already.

Your performance finally ended, you bowed and thanked your fans for supporting you even here on stage.

After it you were then at the greet and meet your fans, there was a line as you were interacting with your fans..some gave you gifts, some tried to ask for your number or any private socials so they can be your friend, one even tried to give you money as a gift.

As the line was finally slowly growing little by little..you were relieved as you breath in as the last person was now walking to your table were you were sat.

You gave a wide smile as you went to your professional self once again.

*____________________________________*

You smiled at this very last fan, you have them a wide smile as you looked at them, they were then sat down face to face to you..

You raised your eyebrows slightly as you recognize them.. you greeted them with your usual greeting for every greet and meet before you then spoke.

"Wait..Yani? Is that you"

You spoke up as your smile turned more genuine, your eyes slightly light up as you looked at yani.

Yanna was surprised that you remembered yet absolute ecstatic.

Omg she remembered me? Oh my sweetheart really is so sweet to remember me, I just want to hold her hand and say all the things I feel for her, oh how she always keep me up in night as I can't stop thinking of her and only her. Oh gosh I to hold it in, I don't want to scare her!

She smiled widely at you as she then grab your hands and held it slightly tight.

"Omg, you remember me? It's really nice to see you again, I just wanted to see you again. Your performance is always a masterpiece."

Yani squeezed your hands slightly with both of her hands as she spoke happily, you were slightly taken back but nonetheless happy too, your guess was right..she knew who you were from the start, you laughed slightly as you then talk and talk with her for so long, it was even longer than your service was supposed to be..you were then stopped by your staff after 2 hours of talking to each other, 'Yani' seemed a bit disappointed as she glared at your staff who called you guys since the greet and meet was already done and 'yani' is supposed to leave already.

This is really pushing my buttons..I thought I could have spoke to her more longer, I really wanted to hear her voice more, she has such a lovely voice, it always calms me whenever she speaks.. I better make sure to teach who that is again..ah. ron, a lesson later.

Yanna thought to herself as you pouted slightly, yani eyes immediately looked at your expression..oh how cute you look whenever you're upset, your lips just looked so soft and sweet, I just want to kiss to pretty lips of hers..as Yanna was brought back to reality when you called her name..well fake name, she immediately went back to smiling.

"I still want to speak to you..this is unfair, ron!"

you pouted at your staff, he only chuckled a bit as you talked to him a bit..

Which made Yanna look at your staff and you for a moment..you were smiling and speaking so comfortably with him? You shouldn't be smiling to others.. you're too pretty for them to see. She kept a smiling expression as she watched you and your staff speak in front of her, as you're trying to tell your staff that you want to talk more to her. Oh how that made her heart beat faster! Ah.. She's so adorable, it really so hard to stop myself from being so attached to her, she's just as beautiful as she is..her whole being is absolute pure. But that bastard.. what's his name again..? Ah, Ron.. l'll make sure to talk to my manager later about him.

Yanna was brought back from her thoughts as you waved your hand slightly, and smiled widely.

"Yani, yani to earth? Earth to Yani? Ahahaha!"

your laugh was like a symphony to her, a beautiful song, it was music to her ears..your voice is so calming to hear. She couldn't help but smile so fondly at you, she really wanted to get you more, she wanted you to be with her, she wanted you to be close to her. She wanted you-

"Ah, I'm here, I'm here! Ahaha, yes? I apologize I zoned out again."

"You always zone out so much, maybe you haven't been sleeping well?"

you spoke in a worried tone as you were concerned for yani, she was one of the people who were kind to you because of you, and not because of your identity and fame.

Yanna felt her cheeks blushed more, as her eyes softened..oh how thankful she was that she was wearing a mask. You're just so precious.

"You're too nice, [Idol/name]..I just thought of something, but you were saying something? Please go on."

Yanna smiled at you, as she was slightly narrowing her eyes at Your staff, ron..which Ron raised his eyebrows at her..he thought 'Yani' looked familiar..

As you then giggled before speaking.

"I was saying, maybe we can exchange socials? I can give you my Instagram, we can talk more there!"

You spoke happily, as you thought of how fun it would be to talk more to Yani, you're quite fond of her too..

This made yanna stare at you for a moment, as if she was trying to process what you said was real and she wasn't hearing things..oh how ecstatic she was, her smile widened more as the blush on her face turned deep red, she grew a bit more nervous…omg, omg omg omg. She's asking for my social?? And she wants to talk more to me? Ahhh..I can just die from happiness, she acknowledged me as a friend. She cares for me, oh how you're so precious and innocent y/n.. you're making me want you more, I think I wouldn't be able to control myself if you're so..

"O-of course!! I would love to, please!"

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What is… a headcanon?

What is… a plot hole?

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Something I find absolutely fascinating is how Orpheus and Alice actually alternate between playing the roles of Orpheus and Eurydice.

We meet Orpheus in his namesake's role - a detective revisiting the place of his past, rediscovering his memories - venturing into the underworld to find what he's lost.

As we learn more about him, he seems to be more and more of the "Orpheus" - looking for his Eurydice in Memory, the fact that it's implied in the Memory Pages that he started everything for Alice - to try and get her out of the asylum when he was denied the right to adopt her. The fact that he loses sight of Alice, loses her as he loses himself in his reconstruction of "paradise" to the point where he might not even recognize her when she arrives at the manor.

But Alice is also looking for him. She returns to her place of memory, to the underworld, looking for him. Again, the Memory Pages tell us a lot - that once she knows he's here, she wants to save him. That she's willing to do anything for it. That they lose each other, in the end.

In mythology, Orpheus is a musician. The game makes a point that our Orpheus likes music, but he claims he isn't any good at playing it himself - Alice, however, is.

"Don't look back" and "Face it, and it'll all be over" - they seem like opposites, but they're two sides of the same coin. Because Orpheus does look back, he *keeps* looking back, and so does Alice. "Don't look back" is a warning that always goes ignored. In the new tutorial cutscenes, we see Alice able to leave, but when she hears Orpheus's voice, she *looks back.* Neither can leave the other behind in the underworld.

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'lingering'

𝑦𝑎𝑛 𝑡𝑜𝑚𝑖𝑒 𝑥 𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑑𝑒𝑟 (𝑔𝑒𝑛𝑑𝑒𝑟 𝑛𝑒𝑢𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑙)

Toxic relationship, toxic actions, manipulating, gaslighting.

(1.5k words or more?)

Tomie, the beauty that always 𝘨𝘦𝘵𝘴 what she wanted, what she desired in just one word.

May it be an object, money, or even someone, Anything.

She always gets it.

Every man, even woman, even anyone in general.

Men goes head over heels for her in just first sight.

Every woman stare at her with envy and admiration.

And she loved it.

She always got what her wanted and what she desired, anything that she just sees that piqued her intrest, she will get have it.

No matter what the cause.

But that all changed, everything came falling down. Nothing was going to way she expected.

Tomie met you in the museum, seeing your captivating eyes and gorgeous appearance.

She knew she wanted you over her grasp.

She wanted to see you fawn over her, she wanted your eyes to plead for her to even utter an word or to even 𝘣𝘦𝘨 for her attention.

Tomie approached you with her bewitching smile, and her alluring eyes.

As she was standing infront of you.

She expected you to stare at her.

She excepted you to even start singing her praises, to ask her number, to even drooling to her 𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘧𝘦𝘤𝘵 presence.

But, she was shocked. No she was baffled that you didn't even bat an eye, you didn't even noticed her presence. You were too focus gazing at the painting.

She stared at your figure, with widen eyes..as she composed herself quickly, '𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘪𝘴 𝘰𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘢𝘯 𝘮𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘬𝘦. 𝘐 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘯'𝘵 𝘴𝘱𝘰𝘬𝘦 𝘺𝘦𝘵, 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺'𝘭𝘭 𝘣𝘦 𝘪𝘯𝘧𝘢𝘶𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘮𝘦 𝘰𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘐 𝘴𝘱𝘦𝘢𝘬.'

tomie thought, she smirked to herself.

As she then smiled once again, she cleared her throat to speak cleary, she chuckled slightly.

"My, the painting is beautiful isn't it?"

She spoke, her voice was beautiful, alluring, bewitching voice, that people would even forget to breath once they hear her voice.

She awaited that you would finally stare and gaze at her with eyes full of desperation and yearning for her presence.

You finally glanced to tomie, as you were abit caught back from her voice.

She stared at you with smile.

'𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺. 𝘐 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘴𝘦𝘦 𝘢𝘯 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯.'

She giggled to herself lightly, as she then looked at your face to see your reaction to her.

She was once again taken back from your expression.. something is clearly wrong here.

You only glanced at her with an small smile..she didn't see any desperate nor infatuated gaze to her..your eyes were only an neutral expression.

As you spoke to her.

"Mhm, indeed."

You even spoke so shortly to her? You did not want to continue the conversation? You didn't even stare at her? You didn't ask for her number? You did not even bat an eye to her, as you glanced back to the painting.

𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘴𝘦𝘦𝘮𝘦𝘥 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘢𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘳𝘢𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘯 𝘩𝘦𝘳.

And she 𝘥𝘦𝘴𝘱𝘪𝘴𝘦𝘥 it.

How dare you? Why are you not reacting the way she excepted, were you not affected by her power? were you perhaps immune to it? 𝘩𝘢𝘩! 𝘰𝘧𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘴𝘦 𝘯𝘰𝘵, 𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘵𝘩? It can't be, there's no way anyone could even be immune..perhaps you were just slow? you'll love her sooner or later too.

As the past few weeks you would always coincidentally bump or see her, everywhere.

At the mall, the library, a restaurant.

She was always there, awaiting for you to be hungry for her. For you to yearn for her.

"Oh my, we meet again!"

"What a coincidence..it's nice to see you."

"Here you are again, what a wonderful day isn't it?"

"It's nice to see you again."

She tried everything. Why couldn't you just be like the others? why couldn't you be obsessed with her? Why isn't her powers affecting you?

Even once when she tried to invite you to eat to a famous restaurant, you declined

𝘩𝘦𝘳.

With a neutral expression. Nothing could be seen in your face nor eyes. You treated her like an normal person, an actual human being. You didn't worship her, you didnt got obsessed with her, you did not show any envy to her, nothing.

"I apologize, but I'm already going to eat out with a friend."

You even payed more attention to that plain looking friend of yours more.

She despised you. Your whole existence drove her to such resentment and confusion.

Why must you be not affected by her powers? Why must you be so captivating to her? No, It can't be. She's only interested in you because of your immunity to her.

That's what she thought.

She vowed to herself that she'll make you head over heels for her, she promised herself that this little chase will come to an end, and she will make you be infatuated with her.

She became more passive and more aggressive with approaching you. She started to order her men to approach you for her, to lure you to coming with the men.

And surprisingly it worked, a man who was quite handsome came to you and swooned you over with his words and looks.

Tomie was slightly annoyed that you were even more interested to the man, do you perhaps have low standards that you were much more interested those 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴?

She scoffed when the men swooned you over.

She was annoyed for some reasons, but she couldn't find why. Is it because you payed more attention to such low thing? Is it because you were so hard to get? Is it because you never looked at her? oh how this tormented her mind. She had a conclusion that she was even shocked to think of, was she perhaps 𝘫𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘰𝘶𝘴? No. Why would she even be jealous? What an insult to her, she could never feel such things, such ignoble feelings of jealously.

She tried to be ignorant to feelings she harbored for you. as she ordered to the men to break your heart.

She wanted to see you break down, to see you cry, to see you be vulnerable.

And she will come to be your Savior.

She will come to comfort you. She will lend an shoulder for you to cry on, for you to be vulnerable to her, for you to easily be on her grasp.

Tomie wanted the men to break your heart so she could arrive and put up an illusion to be seen as your savior.

The men had broke your heart. He torned it apart, he promised that he would always love you, he promised. And now he broke you so much, you were crying and sobbing at the park. Where he called you to tell you something 'important'

You were heart broken, you were at a state of vulnerability and hopelessness from your heart.

As you cried yourself at the bench, the very bench where he spoke to you as if you did not have any feelings, as if you didn't love eachother, as if you weren't human.

It broke your heart so much.

Tears wouldn't stop streaming down your cheeks, as you tried to wipe them off.

You cried your heart out.

After the men had left the park, you were still crying and weeping, tomie was absolutely delighted that her plan worked.

Oh how easy you are to trick, poor you.

The men informed her that you were crying at the bench.

Tomie was overjoyed, as she saw your crying figure.

She wanted to laugh out seeing you so vulnerable, seeing you so pitiful, but something also tugged her heart slightly.

She approached you slowly, she spoke, her voice was gentle and soft, as if it was a angel.

"Oh my..[Name?] What happened? You're crying.."

She spoke as if she was sympathizing with you, as if she was comforting you.

Her voice was soft and gentle.

You looked up to her, tear stained eyes, you complexion was so pale because of crying so much, your lips were so red from crying so much.

You looked up with her, an widen expression, an expression that was both surprised and shame.

Tomie smiled softly at you.

As she then sat next to you, she brought up an handkerchief near to your face.

"Why are you crying [Name?] And all alone in such a late time.."

Tomie spoke in an comforting and soft voice, she finally got you vulnerable. She can't mess this plan. This will surely work.

You glanced at her, with an solemn expression and your eyes was still tearing up, you spoke. Your voice was hoarse and weak.

"Tomie...my lover had left me."

After you spoke, tears spilled more as you remembered him, you stared down as tears was falling.

Tomie smiled gently at you, as she putted her hand to your back, Stroking your back gently and comfortingly, as she bought the handkerchief to your cheeks, she gently wiped your tears.

As you sniffed.

"He told me I was nothing without him, I was nothing but an accessory.."

She looked at you, her eyes full of worries, her gentle hand that was stroking your back comfortingly, as she listened to you, everything you wanted to let out in the moment, she listened. She didn't dare utter an word as she knew, that even just lending an ear to listen will be enough.

She listened to you, as she gazed at you with an gentle and warm smile.

After what seems to be even long hours of you weeping your heart out and expressing everything to tomie.

She was patient with you, she listened to every word you said, she smiled at every word you said, she lended an shoulder to cry on, and you were more than grateful for her, you felt as if you were indebted to her.

"I, I apologize for not even asking if you were comfortable with me expressing out my feelings, tomie.."

You apologized quickly as soon as you realized, you even pulled yourself away, you didn't realized that you were even leaning on her shoulder, you felt embrassed for only realizing it now.

But tomie just smiled at you, her smile as reassuring and gentle, she laughed slightly at you, you just looked so adorable for even shying it out now.

She slinged her arm around you as she pulled you closer, as she smiled warmly at youz her eyes squinting as she smiled at you.

"[Name..why are you apologizing? I wanted to listen to you, so please do not feel ashamed."

The smile that always captivated every man and woman she wanted.

But your eyes.. didn't even linger to her smile, as you glanced down out of embrassement.

She saw that you did not even stare long to her smile.. she bit the inside of her mouth as she noticed, this really was such a challenge.

But she still smiled to you, her smile not faltering even an inch, as she then gently started Patting your head.

You fliched slightly from her touch, you whipped your head quickly to tomies direction..as she only smiled at you, her smile was still the same..

You felt slightly flustered from her gesture..as your ears turned slightly red, your cheeks heating up, as you looked back down again from embrassement.

As soon as tomie saw your reaction.

Her smile turned into an smirk.. that smirk of awareness that she almost has you in her grasp.

She knew that she almost has you.

She almost has you, oh god the chase is almost over.

She'll soon finally lose interest.

'ah, she's finally coming to my grasp, l'll leave her broken and desperate after she's fully fallen for me.'

Tomie thought to herself, she'll finally lose interest to you, right?

Oh how 𝘸𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘨 she was.

She did not expected this herself too.

After you finally came to her on your own, her touch finally become familiar to you.

Her eyes that always smiled oh so gently to you, her warm voice, her presence that you started to yearn more and becoming closer.

As you would even just stare at her with eyes full of admiration and warm to her.

She finally knew she won this cat and mouse chase, you finally started to desire her presence, you finally started to come to her by yourself.

Oh how was overjoyed she was.

Seeing you come to her like a puppy that seemed to lost it owner, how you even started to sing praises to her, how you lean into her touch so much more.

She finally caught you.

You're finally at her grasp, she can finally smirk ever so wide when she sees you leaning to her.

She can finally leave you. She can finally leave you broken and miserable. Just like what she did to the others, leaving them desperate and starved for her.

Just like what she had planned.

She can finally do that to you, right?

Oh how wrong tomie was.

She thought that her interest would finally come to an end when you came to her.

She finally thought that this so called heart of her would finally stop being tugged when you doing look at her, she thought the torment to her mind would finally end, she 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩𝘵 that it was only an mere pique of her interest.

Oh, how she was so wrong.

The stinging on her heart never stopped, when you talk or look at others.

The thoughts that tormented her before, still continued.

The feeling of wanting to control you never stopped.

The feeling of wanting to own you never ever stopped.

The feeling of hunger for your presence, for your attention, for your love, for you to look at her, never stopped.

The 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨 of wanting you all to herself.

She thought that everything would finally come to an end when you're in her grasp, but it never did.

Her touch became more hungry and clingy, her so called 'facade' of kindness and love to you became real.

Her mood was always bright whenever you were there, she would always smile to gently.. something that she never thought she would be even able to do.

Did you do something to her? Do you also have perhaps powers of your own? Did you bewitched her? Did you use something to her?? She was utterly confused.

Why is she acting like this?

Why is she being like this?

Why is she doing all of this?

Oh how this tormented her mind so much.

She gravely almost despised you once more..but the resentment would disappear whenever she sees you.

This feelings..that were so unfamiliar to her. The feeling of her heart almost coming out when she's with you.

The warm smile she would always have whenever she sees you, the feeling of completeness when she's with you.

Oh how confused tomie Is.

She couldn't comprehend this feeling.

But she did not disliked it, she even started to come to love the feeling.

But everything went hell lose.

When she saw a man who was trying to seduce you. A man who was trying to swoon you over once more but this time, she did not order anyone.

When a man was touching you.

That man saying such things to you.

That man even coming near to you in the first place.

She felt something snapped in her.

A feeling something even more intense than what she ever felt.

She wanted to snap that man's neck.

She wanted to take that man's throat and kill him on spot.

She wanted to gouge his eyes out to never see your presence ever again.

Why did even such thing.

Even be able to be allowed with you.

The feeling..she never thought she would once felt again.

𝘑𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘰𝘶𝘴𝘺.

She wanted to pull her hair out.

She wanted to scream when she saw that man near you.

She wanted that man gone.

She wanted him gone from her sight.

She wanted that 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 gone.

She wanted it to be away from you.

But. She did not wanted to look like a monster infront of you.

She did not want to reveal her true self.

Of course, how could she forget.

She'll let her men do the job for her.

After just days later, you have not seen the man. You even haven't heard from him.

Not even a call from him that you would frequently get from him, not even the text he would always send to you.

As you thought about it.

A group of men then approached you.

You were confused..they looked so strange..their eyes were empty, something was Cleary wrong..your instict told you to run.

But..

Before you could even process anything, an piece of cloth that had an strange smell was suddenly forced to your nose and mouth, forcing you to smell the strange scent as you tried to trash around to escape..the men helded you tightly.

your vision was fading at you fell uncouncious.

You eyes flutter, as you woke up in an elegant room, it was filled with expensive interior and design's, even the bed that you woke up from..a king sized bed, it felt so soft, it felt as if you were sleeping on a feather.

Your eyes shifted around as you felt a hands stroking your hair Gently.

You shot up your eyes, as you met the familiar eyes.. that was staring back at you with an..love sick and proud expression?

"Tomie??"

You uttered out, tomie? Why would she be here? Were you not kidnapped? then, why is tomie here? Smiling and giggling as if nothing happened?

Your expression was just confusion, your eye brows were furrowed..

Tomie smiled at you, as she then caressed your cheeks softly...

Wait she's beside you too..

"Sweetheart..you seem confused? Is there something bothering you?"

Tomie spoke, as her eyes we're staring back at your confused ones.

You don't understand this...

Why is tomie acting as if nothing is wrong? Why is she just here.. shouldn't we both he panicking..

You pulled back quick from her hands that was caressing your cheeks, tomie stared at you her eye brows were raised, as her expression were slightly frowning from you pulling away from her touch.. she wanted to touch you more.

You stood up from the bed, you whipped your head to tomies.. she didn't even seemed scared nor anything at all.

"Tomie, aren't we kidnapped?? We should call the police! Quick do you have your phone?"

You asked with your eyes full of concern and distress for the both of you.

You wanted to get out of here..those strange men from ealier, they might come back and do something worse.

After you spoke...tomie just looked at you, as if she was holding back to laugh..wait why was she even gonna laugh? is this a prank or something?

You furrowed your brows, as you spoke once more.

"Tomie! You shouldn't be laughing! What if they do something to us, those strange men from ealier."

You spoke once again but your voice more stern. As you awaited for tomies respond.

She finally giggled out.

She giggled out so loudly, that it even made you froze in spot..why is she Laughing??

As her posture even started to slouch from her laughing..as if it was the funniest thing you ever have spoke.

Her eyes shut as she laughed more.

You were so confused...why is she Laughing?? You couldn't handle the confusion anymore as you yelled out slightly.

"Tomie! This isn't funny stop!"

You yelled out, tomie stopped laughing slightly, her expression was still seemed as if she was helding back from giggling once more.

Tomie smirked at you..?

Wait why is she... Why is tomie..

You couldn't understand..why is tomie laughing...why is she acting like this.

She then approached slowly walking up to you, as she helded both of your hands genlty.

She gazed at you with the same smirk..

Her eyes..they aren't the same kind and warm as you seen before..her eyes seemed like she was craving for something, her expression wasn't as kind as she would usually have..

She then spoke.

"My dear, Don't panic. Everything is all right, those men that came to you earlier saved you!" Tomie spoke in an overjoyed tone, as if she was so happy.

𝘚𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶? Didn't they abducted you..

Something is clearly wrong here.

You quickly pulled away from her touch, as you pulled your hands back, you stared back to tomie with an expression full of disbelief and shock.

Tomie slightly frowned once more at your sudden move..why did you pulled back? Did you not want to be with her? Did you not want to be near her? Didn't you want to he the only two of you?

Tomie attempted to walk close to you once more, forcing up an genlte smile. But this time you knew she was forcing that smile.

You knew she was hiding something.

You backed up more as you then slightly yelled.

"Don't come near me."

You spoke in an stern tone, you knew that there was something wrong. Something was clearly wrong here, as you gazed back up to her...you were taken back from her expression, it's something that you never saw from tomie.

She was scowling at you, her eye brow were furrowed, her lips were slightly parted open, her eyes seemed to be filled with annoyance and impatience.

You couldn't believe that tomie was acting like this..

She suddenly walked closer to you once more. But this time she grabbed your chin with her hand harshly, as she forced you to look at her. You winced at the sudden action from her.

"Tomie,what are you doing—"

You were abruptly cut out from your words as tomie silenced you with a kiss, she switfly kissed you. Her lips meeting yours.

You widen your eyes, you tried to pull back from her touch. But her hand was forcing your chin to not move an inch. Her eyes were shut and seemingly even with an pleased expression, as she were enjoying and melting into the kiss.

No matter how hard you tried to pull away though...her grip seemed to not even loosen from your chin. You even tried to use your arms to get her off you. But she quickly used her other arm to immobilized both of your wrists, her grip was tight and even strong..you didn't expect this from tomie.. especially from her figure..

You were completely helpless from her. Well that what's tomie thought, as she hummed pleasingly through the kiss, her lips still on yours.

As you then had enough, you bit her tongue that was forcing itself to you.

She pulled back slightly. Her grip on your chin loosening, as you managed to pull your face away from hers, but your wrists were still held tightly by her.

"What do you think are you doing tomie."

You yelled at her. Your expression was furious and confused, as your voice was loud and stern, she didn't hear the gentle and warm tone that she always heard from you.

And that made her upset.

She glared back at you after you spoke.

Her eyes narrowing at you, her eye brows were furrowed, as she glared at you, if looks could kill, she would have already killed you with it. With how cold and intimidating she glared at you.

Why are you being so difficult? she just wanted you to be alone together. Isn't that what you wanted? Did you not love her touch? Why must you be acting so difficult.

Tomie then pulled your hair roughly. As she pulled the roots harshly.

"Who do you think you are talking back to me?"

Tomie spoke in such a cold and harsh tone. One that you never heard from me, you were used to her loving and gentle tone. Her. facade that she made up to lure you In.

You grunted and winced at her. As you hissed slightly from the pain.

She then pulled your hair up harshly, forcing you to look up to her.

You could see her expression, her eyes full of annoyance and amusement from you even yelling at her.

"For you to even yell and look at me like that. You're feeling arrogant [Name]."

As she tugged at your hair harshly once more. Her other arm still holds your wrist ever so tightly.

You frowned from pain at her action, as your head was hurting so much.

"You think you can look at me like that? After I done so much for you? Why must you be so ignorant, [Name]?"

Tomie asked in a mocking, and disappointed tone. As if she was so baffled by the fact that you even dared to look at her like that after she did so much for you.

You felt as if she was using everything at you. You felt guilty and upset with her, did she not say that she did everything because she wanted to help you? Why is she now..

Before you could even think, she tugged harshly once more to your hair. Making you yell slightly.

"[Name]. Nothing is free In this world, I gave you so much and you gave me nothing back?"

Tomie spoke as if you were indebted to her, as if you took something from her.

You glared back at tomie as you hissed from the pain.

This angered tomie more.

She pulled your hair more harsh and rougher, she glared back at your eyes.

"it seems that we're gonna have to start from the very beginning again..well you'll learn to love me once more then."