littleprincessmewmew

[littleprincessmewmew]

[littleprincessmewmew]

Fashion Goals 2025

Contacts~ I want to wear contacts so I can go crazy with my make up. I would also love to have lots of cute glasses options. I want to use my glasses and contacts as a way to spice up an outfit. I want it to be more than a means to see. I want it to be apart of my outfit.

Build up my accessories collection~ I think what really makes a great outfit is the accessories you add on after a outfit has been chosen. I think finding and making more things for myself would be my everything.

Add stickers and charms to EVERYTHING~ I love the junky, cluttered, and girlie look. I want all my bags covered in charms. I want all my journals and sketchbooks covered in stickers. I want cute wallpaper AND icons on all my electronics. I want everything I own to SCREAM my personality.

Experimental Make Up~ I want to go crazy and really indulge in gal and Chinese inspired make up. I think there is something so fun about doing more dramatic looks.

Upcycling and Making Clothes/Accessories~ I want to make my own outfits. I want to make cute prints and learn how to sew up some really cute things. I already know how to embroider a bit too so I can really go crazy with it. It's something that my boyfriend is also interested in so I think it would be a cute regular date night.

Explore different fashion substyles~ I want to explore the subcultures in gyaru, goth, and Chinese fashion. I think there is so much there to explore in all the categories as well as others that have yet to come to mind. I'm happy to know that there is so much to explore and I feel good about exploring it.

Look Book~ I want a space to reflect on all the fashion I love and record the fashion I've been indulging in.

[littleprincessmewmew]

Art Readings and Postcards to Spirit

Damn, my last post got deleted after my computer crashed. I was yapping too damn much, lol. I am currently in the mood for some mac and cheese, so I have the water boiling on the stove right now.

Back when I was living with my mom and had no job, I loved doing art divination readings for myself. They made me so happy to look at and kept me focused on my goals and eased a lot of the troubles I had swirling in my head. They are kind of similar to how my fortune bracelets work, but last long and are more sustainable. I've done two so far and I love it. I've been trying to get into better habits towards working on my business and I think I'm really starting to get into a groove. I've been pretty consistent with my daily reflection pages, It's a tiny notebook so it's fairly easy to keep up with. Then yesterday adding an art reading every day on a flashcard. It all just seems so easy slowly building onto each other.

The cards that I've currently made say that I need to work on my image and how I see myself. I already embody THAT GIRL, but I just have trouble believing it. I am in a constant state of consuming and creating things that fit into my favorite substyles and aesthetics. I crave fashion and spiritual content. It is the essence of my being. I am her, but I still feel like I'm not there yet. That I'm not doing enough. And it's crazy because I will do all these crazy funky things with my fashion, make up, nails, accessories, ete. Even often get complemented on my choices. I just make ugly fashion items work and that's how you truly know you are a fashion icon in my opinion. Classic styles are easy and formulaic, but when you get into street fashion, the things people come up with is endless and I love to keep up with it. Especially Chinese and Japanese street fashion and trends. I'm obsessed.

I think there is so much more that I can do and so many more pieces I need to feel like I've done enough. I feel like that's why I don't feel like that girl yet. But I always wear all my hand made and dramatic jewelry. I always have my cutest character accessories whenever I feel like wearing them. Hell, I could easily make any fashion accessory I want. The only thing that is stopping me is fear and time. Fear of all the steps of making something (even though I feel it always ends up being so easy) and not having the time or energy to get dressed because of how much I work. I'm exhausted and overwhelmed and all I can really do to satisfy the craving is to consume fashion content (which brings me absolute joy). I was thinking about making a look book. Saving all my favorite outfits and models and making notes on what makes me so happy about them. I think if I actively engage with all the things I love so much, it'll be easier for me to really start working on my wardrobe and really crafting and finding things that make my heart flutter. I found that annotating books made it so much more fun, enjoyable, and memorable. I feel that I might find the same joy and engagement in making a space to annotate and reflect on all my favorite art and fashion pieces.

I've also been having a lot of insecurities about my devotional work too. I just haven't had the time to really put my heart into it and my altar is outside and it's so cold. I miss having my own room and my own altar, but I've been making adjustments since I've moved in with my boyfriend. I love him and I love sharing a bed with him, but I need a girlie room for all the cute toys and clothes. I need a room for ME. Regardless, it's not avaliable to me right now and I have been adjusting very slowly. I've been trying to find easy ways to show my devotion, but I've been so depressed it's hard to get myself to move half of the time. I can't even bring myself to go on social media or listen to YouTube videos. It's been rough but I've slowly been coming out of my slump. To show a small form of gratitude and to get myself to draw more, I started making cute little post cards on my index cards to whatever saint I want to thank or petition. Just something short, sweet, and to the point. I honestly feel so much more connected to them and I can't wait to have a whole collection of cute post cards I've made over time. I'm thinking once I get a good amount of them for a certain deity, I might make a cute little oracle deck or something. I feel that would be so cute. I'll have to see where it goes in the future. Regardless of where it goes, I love doing it and it makes me so excited to do.

I'm almost done eating my mac and cheese. I put it some shredded rotisserie chicken and I like it. It satisfies my cravings.

I'm content right now and I'm so thankful for that.

[littleprincessmewmew]

Introduction

Hi! My name is Mew Mew. I'm 25 and had the worst year, yet best year of my life. Long story short, I was in a string of bad relationships, then left the last shit one and ended up homeless for a month. From there, I found a place, but it was a disgusting shithole full of roaches. The people there were nice, but I had to stay with my now boyfriend in order to keep my sanity. Can I also say that I've been working my ass off for so long. I had a little break when I was only working at a restaurant, but now I'm learning massage and barely have time for anything. I'm exhausted. It's either massage or work. I don't even know what it's like to have girl friends any more and I fucking miss it. I love spending time with my boyfriend though. I'm obsessed with him and he treats me like a princess. Honestly, I have a hard time eating from trauma and such and he always makes sure I'm okay and fed. I'm very thankful to have him. Also, been going to weekly therapy and it has been helping me out a ton. I have a really terrible relationship with my mom and it's nice to finally go to someone and hear that I'm not crazy and that my mom is abusive. The more time I spend away from her and my mom's side of the family, the more I realize that I don't really like them. I can barely convince myself to love them. It's been a lot on me to do all this trauma work on top of constant school and work. Also, because I legally have a male name, I don't get booked as much (I'm a girl, but it's a pride thing and I refuse to change my name). Anyways, I just wanted to dump all of my current feelings and experiences just to get it off my chest and also to be more comfortable showing myself on social media. My family has taught me to be so ashamed of who I am and I want to come out of it. Whenever I shared my feelings, I have people come to me and tell me how thankful they are that I've shared my feelings because they can relate and find healing in my words, but I can't tell you all how many times I tell myself it's shit and just give up posting all together. I write constantly in my journal, constantly drawing up all the things I want to do, but I'm so fucking scared. I spend most of my free time lying in bed, paralyzed. Living fucking terrifies me; it always has. I want to be happy and fulfill all my dreams but it's just so fucking hard. So here is to my starting, typing out all the shit I would have written regardless here. I don't care about all that bullshit about having people steal my ideas or judging me. I don't care anymore. I have so many things I want to share with the world and I'm going to start right here. With something. If the public eye on social media is what I fear, I'm getting the fuck over it here and now!