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littlesadsailor · 6 months
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DO YOUR PART. USE THE PLATFORM YOU ARE STANDING ON. BE AGAINST GENOCIDE. BECAUSE THATS WHAT THIS IS. PALESTINE HAS NO ARMY. THEY HAVE NO NAVY. THEY HAVE NO AIR FORCES. THIS ISNT WAR. THIS IS GENOCIDE. SIGN THE PETITION. PRAY FOR PALESTINE. DO YOUR PART. THESE PEOPLE ARE TERRIFIED. THEY HAVE BEEN CUT OFF FROM THE INTERNET. FROM WATER. FROM ELECTRICITY. THEY DONT HAVE A VOICE. BE THEIR VOICE. SPREAD AWARENESS.
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littlesadsailor · 6 months
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STAND WITH PALESTINE. STAND AGAINST GENOCIDE. USE YOUR PLATFORM. YOU HAVE A VOICE THAT PALESTINIANS DO NOT. IT TAKES NOTHING TO SIGN A PETITION. PLEASE HELP PALESTINE. HOPE IS HOW TO HELP. BELIEVE THEY WILL BE FREE AND WORK TO HELP FREE THEM. ELEVATE PALESTINE. SIGN PETITIONS. CALL YOUR REPRESENTATIVES. TWEET. POST. REPOST. DO YOUR PART TO HELP THE INNOCENT LIVES BEING STOLEN AWAY. HELP CALL FOR A CEASE FIRE NOW.
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littlesadsailor · 10 months
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Awww i love this its so cute
Here’s a cassian story for the amazing @biggestsimponhere cause ily ❤️❤️
Also am I the only person who thinks cassian is totally Taylor swift coded? Also this story is totally based off a thing on Character.ai. Also I’m eating stale Oreo’s so I’m taking one for the team here.
Ignored orders
Cassian andor x reader
Warnings: to be honest I think it’s just depiction’s of violence and injuries xx stay safe guysies
Also this isn’t my gif I was on pintrest
This is totally a Drabble
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“Why didn’t you listen to my orders!” He says, quite frankly very angrily as you two board the ship.
“Because cassian since when do we take orders off captains if we are a captain?” You asked, obviously annoyed at his tone of voice.
“You’re so reckless it’s scary!” He yells, cassian never yells at you so you can really tell this is getting to him.
“As if you’re not!” You shoot back, you’re ready to ignore him now until he turns around and speaks.
“I’m reckless because I want to protect you!” His eyes are soft but also annoyed.
“I don’t need you to protect me Kassa! I’m not a little girl!” She groans and puts her head in her hands.
“Show me what they done to you!” He’s actually quite angry now as he makes a grab for your jacket.
He eventually gets you out of your jacket and he sees the blood drenched shirt you’re wearing and starts panicking.
“Oh my maker oh maker don’t die” he shakes your shoulders making you wince.
He eventually got you cleaned up and bandaged and he was running his hands through your hair softly.
“I love you,” he whispers softly making you smile.
“I love you too Kassa”
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GUYS IM SO SORRY I HAVE NO MOTIVATION
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littlesadsailor · 10 months
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“Would it be a sin? If i can’t help falling in love with you?”
Diego Luna is actually the love of my life fr
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littlesadsailor · 10 months
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“I’m in trouble, i’m an addict, i’m addicted to this boy”
Y’all need to make more posts for Gabriel Luna because i love him and none of us talk about him enough. Loml gabriel luna.
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littlesadsailor · 10 months
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awww this is so cute
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Cant wink - Cassian andor x reader, I don’t know what this is truly, i saw someone request it under a post i got tagged in except they made the comment in 2018 so this is for you, @dude-watchin-with-the-brontes , thank you for tagging me in that post ♥️ @hoeforevery1 , Gif from: @definitelyoneoftheguys
A/n - A little ooc cass at least i’m not sure if it’s really i’m character or not. Just enjoy it
When you’d entered the fresher shortly before lunch to find Cass looking in the mirror and blinking strangely you figured he had something in his eye. You didn’t mention it cause it didn’t seem worth mentioning so you just went about your day. When you’d caught him doing it a second time you assumed he must not have gotten it out of his eye. You didn’t know what he was trying to do until you all were sat trying to eat in the canteen.
He had attempted to wink following a flirtatious joke at you. Which he had failed the wink miserably. He had started eating a cookie before his lunch and you pointed it out. “Dessert before lunch is unusual for you cass” You said skeptically. “I know something else i could have for dessert before lunch” He commented before blinking strangely. You looked at him for a solid thirty seconds before bursting out laughing. In between breaths you spoke “Cass, did you just try to wink at me” you laughed breathing in heavily. Jyn laughed too. “Is that what you’ve been doing all day, i thought you had something in your eye” She said hitting him on the shoulder.
You continued laughing as you agreed with jyn. “If you’re just gonna make fun of me, i’ll leave” Cassian said pouting slightly. “I’m sorry honey, i just assumed with the fact that you’re such a good spy that you would know how to wink” You said taking his hand in yours. It only took a minute for everyone to start laughing again. “I can’t believe you can’t wink” Bodhi said snickering. “Alright i’m done” He said getting up and walking out of the canteen. You noticed he’d left his food so you slid your food onto his tray and then headed towards the kitchen.
Quickly asking if you could take the tray and the dishes the staff agreed as long as you promised to bring it back (you usually do). So you left the canteen with tray and went off in search of Cassian. He was right where you expected him to be. Sat on his bed absentmindedly drawing on the spare pieces of paper. “Cass” You said drawing out his name as you say by him. “I brought your lunch… and the rest of mine” You continued as you settled in next to him. He leaned in closer to your touch but otherwise didn’t say anything. “I’m sorry” You said quietly. He shook his head “No, no, it’s silly, you don’t have to apologize” He said rushing it out.
“Cass, it clearly affected you so i do have to apologize and i am sorry, if i knew it was gonna hurt you like that i wouldn’t have done it” You said leaning into him while wrapping an arm around him. He smiled and leaned into you. The two of you just sat together before he pointed out that the food was getting cold. You ate together before he stopped and looked at you. He stared at you a few seconds before you spoke up. “Yes cass?” He looked down and then back up quickly. “Will you help me learn how to wink?” He said fast as if the words wouldn’t come out any other way. “I can definitely try” You said brushing the hair off his forehead.
The rest of your time before dinner was spent laughing together as you attempted to wink at each other with his blushing and you actually winking while he continued to blink strangely. He’ll get it eventually.
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littlesadsailor · 10 months
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please some soul shattering luke angst i will combust!
Stop - Luke Skywalker x reader
“Luke” You called after him as he walked off into the forest. He ignored your calls as he continued further and further away from you. He could feel the pain radiating off of you but chose to ignore it as he continued walking. It was getting late and it was not safe for you to be alone out here and yet you continued walking into the forest until you realized you no longer knew where luke had gone. You were alone, in the dark, in a creepy forest on a planet you didn’t know very well.
The panic slowly began to set in as you realized you had nothing to see in the dark or contact anyone. You called out for luke a few times but he didn’t respond. You figured he probably wasn’t even around anymore. You’d found a rock to sit on one that was tall enough that you figured it would be harder for creatures to get you on.
A glow in the distance caught your eye and you breathed out a sigh of relief. That didn’t last very long as you realized what the glow was. A lightsaber. More specifically a red lightsaber. A sith was out there. You slid down the other side of the rock before emptying your head as much as you could. You were practically begging luke to come back in your mind but it was like he had cut off your bond. You could hear the sound of the lightsaber cutting the bushes as the sith approached the rock you had hid behind.
Before you even had time to run the saber pierced you in the gut. The man smiled as he stood over you. You held your hands to your stomach trying your hardest to stop the bleeding. The man laughed as you struggled before he walked off into the forest. Once he seemed far enough away it was like your bond with Luke had just reactivated. You called out to him. Screaming. He came running but he was bordering the too late side. He crouched next to you and you smiled up at him. “I’m sorry luke” You said cradling his face. “Stop, don’t speak, please. we have to get you help” He said tears streaming down his face.
“There’s n-nothing you can d-do Luke” You said softly pushing on your bond. “No, no, you can’t go, please don’t go” He said holding you close to him. You went to respond but you couldn’t speak. You coughed some of the blood out of your mouth before speaking again. “I love you Luke Skywalker” You said before softly closing your eyes. “Im sorry please, i love you. Please don’t go” He sobbed but you were already gone. He continued cradling you till Leia tugged on their bond. He called out to her and that’s where she found you two. Him cradling your body in the forest.
She wrapped her jacket around his shoulders and tried to pull him away. He just sat there motionless, crying. “Luke, come on, you’re too cold. It’s freezing out here” Leia said tugging on his arm. “I’m not leaving them” Luke said turning away from her. “Let’s take her back to the house then yeah?” Leia said as comfortingly as she could. They used the force to get your body outside the house. Luke laid a sheet over you before Leia dragged him inside. Now he had to go on. Live in a world without love. A world without you.
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littlesadsailor · 10 months
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hey! i wanted to send a request, no pressure obvi! fluff 17/angst 6 w/ poe dameron, i was thinking enemies to lovers hurt/comfort. i loce your work<3
Your heart - Poe Dameron x reader, Side note im not entirely sure how squadrons work leave me be 😔
Prompts - 17 - “I almost lost you… i wouldn’t have known what to do” , 6 - “Your heart stopped… it stopped”
It was a simple mission, no one was meant to be in danger, all your team had to do was head to an outer rim planet to pick up some crates of food from your allies. Everything was fine when your squad landed and even after you had loaded everything on to your ships. The senator who greeted you though had become anxious. You didn’t need the force to sense that something was off with him. It took you a second to register that someone was speaking to you. “Are we all good to leave commander?” Blue twos voice echoed in your ear. “We’re all clear here, see you at base two” You affirmed and Two flew off the planets surface.
By the time the next few members took off it was just you, four, and six. The senator had begun sweating profusely which was weird considering it was rather chilly on this planet. “Senator are you alright do you need to go inside?” You said smiling softly at him. A look of guilt flashed across his face as he looked from you to your two squad members. “I’m quite alright dear” He said shaking his head. Out of the corner of your eye you saw something dart through the woods. “Why don’t you go back inside senator” You said calmly as you realized something wasn’t alright. General Leia’s voice came in through your comm. You stepped away from the senator.
“Yes general?” You said still scanning your surroundings. “Are you on your way back? We have all of your squad except you and four and six” She asked calmly. At the mention of your friends your eyes darted back to where you saw them last. They were both still sitting there waiting for your command. You took another step away from the senator before speaking again. “General something’s wrong with the senator. He’s acting weird and things keep moving through the woods” You said as quiet as you could so you wouldn’t alert anyone. “Do we need to send a rescue team?” She asked trying to keep the concern out of her voice.
“I’m not sure-“ Your voice was cut off by the sound of someone’s blaster hitting the wall right next to to four. “Run, Now!” You shouted at the two of them who scrambled off behind a few houses. “Yes, we need back up, quick” You said into the comm before running after the senator. Your comm had fallen out of your ear in the chase but eventually you caught him. “What the hell is wrong with you” You said pushing him against a wall. “Please you don’t understand, they took my family they said they’d only give them back in exchange for you” He said crying. You loosened your grip but still held him there. “And what about my team?! What if they died” You demanded before looking around to make sure you two were safe.
“They said they wouldn’t hurt them” He said shaking. “Oh and you believed them?” You snickered. “Get back to your house right now. I have to find my team” You said shoving him back towards his home. As you watched him head home you darted off in the last direction you saw four and six. With no comm you had zero communication. Eventually you came upon six holding four behind a wall. Four had taken a bad hit to the stomach. You quickly took off your jacket and pressed it to her abdomen. “Hey give me your comm” You said to six. Six handed over his comm and your ear was filled with the black squadrons voices.
“Hello?” Your voice echoed through Poe’s ship. “Y/n?” He said relief present in his voice. “Poe” You sighed before taking a breath. “What the hell happened?” He questioned as his team entered the planets atmosphere. “The senator did it. They took his family poe” You said quietly. “What the hell are they after all the supplies are back at base?” His voice said back. “Me. They’re after me” You said looking at six as some troopers ran past the wall. “Listen four is injured someone needs to come get her” You said cutting poe off before he could even speak. “Three is almost there but what do they want with you?” Poe said as he directed three to your location.
You were about to speak before you were cut off by a blaster sounding close to you. You nodded to six before heading out from behind the wall. A few troopers stood at the other end of the alley you were hidden in. You walked out with your hands up slowly heading towards the group. One of them shoots at you and you move to the side effectively dodging it. When you looked back you saw them arguing with each other. You couldn’t hear it al through their helmets but you heard “Them” and “Unharmed”. You pulled out your own blaster and shot the one closest to you.
They fell to the ground and another trooper shot at you. They managed to hit you in the stomach as the black squadron finally reached you all. They took out the troopers standing there and you smiled at poe as you leaned against the wall. He started walking towards you before you fell to the ground. You couldn’t hear much but you definitely heard your name as Poe cradled you before you lost consciousness. When you woke next it was to the beeping of machines in the med wing. You went to wipe the sleep out of your eyes but found that you couldn’t move your right hand. You panicked looking down before realizing that poe was laying on it.
You took in the room, noting that Leia was sat awake on your other side. “General?” You said groggily as you turned to look at her. She looked up from whatever she was reading. “Ahh, Y/n, you’re awake” She said smiling. “What’re you doing in here?” You asked quietly. “It’s nothing bad i was just checking on you and making sure he was talking care of himself, he hasn’t really slept much” She said nodding toward poe. “H-how long have i been in here?” You said looking away from poe and back to the general. “A few days. And before you ask, four is okay, the doctor said she wouldn’t be alive without you” She said squeezing your hand. You breathed out a sigh of relief.
“I’m not in trouble?” You asked quietly. “Why would you be in trouble, you handled that perfectly, get some rest commander, that’s an order” She said smiling at you before leaving you. You laid quietly watching Poe as he stirred by your side. When he squeezed you hand as he sat up you squeezed back. He quickly looked at you and practically jumped on top of you when he realized you were awake. “Hey, I’m okay” You said as he pulled you into a hug. “Your heart…it stopped” He said crying into your neck. “I know, I know but i’m here now” You said holding him as close to you as possible.
“I almost lost you… i wouldn’t know what to do” He said as he kept crying. You pulled him back slightly so you could wipe the tears off his face. “I know, but it’s okay, i’m okay, we’re okay” You said leaning your forehead against his. “Never do that again, please” He said kissing your cheeks and then your forehead and then your lips before pulling away. “I can’t guarantee that but i can definitely try” You said smiling. “Get some rest, please” He said brushing your hair away from your face. “Only if you lay next to me” you said pulling him closer. You both fell asleep tangled together on the small bed.
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littlesadsailor · 10 months
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I want to delete all the dating apps
Tinder hinge okcupid
I’m ready to come home to you every night
To talk about the mundane while I start dinner
Chopping and slicing with gentle laughter
For you to run your hands through my hair as I drift off to sleep
But I’m going on another abysmal first date
Brain, 29, from wicker park
He’s going to order the chicken, and complain about something.
He might try for a kiss
I don’t want this carousel of dates anymore
Please let me off this ride, I can’t take it anymore
My soft heart and gentle hands yearn to be loved
Not chewed up and spat on the cracked sidewalk
I hoped it would be you
To love me
Yet Kyle, 32, from Edgewater sits across from me
while I smile politely and count down the minutes till it’s over
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littlesadsailor · 11 months
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Star wars women you will always be famous. I’m in love with them.
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littlesadsailor · 11 months
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“From my heart to my throat to my lips to the air, I don't wish for much, but I wish you were here”
Pedro Pascal in pink 😌. I love him sm.
Collage from: @/Elliedjariin on twitter :)
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littlesadsailor · 1 year
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Dating Peter Parker <3
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littlesadsailor · 1 year
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I’m in love with this man too, and he needs to be talked about more, so get on it.
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littlesadsailor · 1 year
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Pre-outbreak Joel is such a softie, i just know he’d love to hold you and kiss you and just generally be around you. He’d invite you over for dinner with sarah for the first time and he’d be so nervous. Sarah would tell him to stop sweating and that everything was gonna be fine. As much as he loves you he was quick to reassure her that if she didn’t like you then he would break up with you (even though it would actually kill him) and she said she was sure she’d love you. He definitely loves physical touch. Would hold your hand and kiss your forehead. In true gentleman fashion he’d open doors for you and pull out your seat. He just makes you feel so loved in general that you can’t help but give it back tenfold <3
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littlesadsailor · 1 year
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Reunited (Part 1)
Tommy Miller x f/Reader
Just like all my other stories, this has not been proofread, but please enjoy.
Warnings: Some swearing.
WC: 3138
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Summary: f/Reader was in a relationship with Tommy before he leaves the QZ. She joins Joel, Tess & Ellie along with her twin sons to find Tommy, & when they finally see him, it doesn't go how she expected it.
YN'S POV:
When I found out Joel was going to find Tommy, I knew I had to tag along. At first, Tess wasn't happy that I was coming along.
Not because she thought I wanted Joel, but because she made a promise to Tommy, that she was going to keep me safe, and by keeping me safe, that was keeping me in the QZ.
I met Tommy when he and Joel first arrived in the Boston QZ. I was instantly drawn to them. They barely spoke to anyone when they first arrived but I was able to get to know Tommy after we ended up working on the same shifts. I learned about his life before the Outbreak.
But Tommy started to hate it in the place I have learned to call home. A place that was free from the Infected. Yeah, the people in charge were pieces of shit. He then met Marlene and became enthralled with the idea of the Fireflies and their ideas.
He was convinced that they could change the world and make it a better place for us, but they were just ideas.
When he would bring up me and Joel joining the Fireflies, I would gently turn him down as I hated seeing his face crestfallen.
Now, him bringing it up to Joel would cause a massive fight between the two of them. I would end up leaving them alone and heading to my place before curfew.
I would usually find Tommy at my door, needing a place to stay while he cooled off from his fight with Joel.
The two of us found solace in one another. We started as friends with benefits. Then I found myself falling for the charming man who was only a few years older than me.
After many months of the two of us hooking up, I told Tommy I couldn't see him anymore.
"Why not? Haven't I been good to you, YN?" He asked me. Him clearly confused.
"Yeah, Tommy, but I just can't keep doing this. I can't keep pretending that everything is fine when," I trailed off. I couldn't even continue my sentence.
"When what, YN?" He stood up from his spot on the couch in my apartment.
"Doesn't even matter Tommy."
"Come now, baby girl, tell me what is wrong." He went to put his arms around me to console me, but I just shrugged him off.
"I can't keep pretending everything is fine when I have fallen for you."
"We made a deal that we wouldn't do that YN." His voice was low as he put his arms at his side.
"I know but I just couldn't help it. I tried to fight it, I did Tommy."
He opened his mouth to say something else when he closed it, turned around and grabbed his coat, and walked out the door, slamming it behind him.
He left me standing there, stunned at what just happened.
My heart felt like it shattered into a billion pieces at that very moment, instantly regretting having this conversation.
I made myself busy and took on extra shifts to keep myself occupied. It worked during the day, but when I was alone, the thoughts came rushing back.
A few days after our conversation, I found myself re-reading Anne of Green Gables for what seemed to be the 100th time there was a knock on my door.
It was past curfew, and I knew that no one should be coming.
I got up and looked through the peephole, and to my surprise, it was Joel. I opened the door and I could by the look on his face that this wasn't a happy visit.
"What's wrong?"
"We have to go, now." He said to me.
"Joel, I am not leaving and risk getting caught unless you tell me what the hell is going on." I stood my ground for once with him.
"It's Tommy. He got into a fight, and he won't let me nor Tess fix him up. He is asking for you." That had me pushing past Joel, not caring if I got caught for being out past curfew. I had to get to Tommy.
But that night, if it wasn't for Joel, I most certainly would have been caught.
The two of us walked quietly and swiftly through the streets of Boston QZ and made it to Joel's apartment.
"I have to warn yeah, YN, he got it pretty bad." I nodded my head in understanding, waiting with bated breath as he took his time to open his door.
I could hear Tommy and Tess arguing.
The two of them quieted down when Joel and I walked in. Tess looked relieved and moved away from Tommy.
"Joel and I will just be in the other room." She said as she placed her hand on my shoulder and squeezed it.
I got to work, doing my best to clean him up as best as I could, with what little I had. The two of us didn't speak, me trying to concentrate and him, well who knows why.
"YN," He finally spoke. I stopped bandaging his hand and looked up at him, but the anger I felt towards him came rushing back at that very moment.
"YN, will you please look at me."
"Why? I have nothing to say to you, Tommy."
"That isn't true, baby girl." My head snapped up at the nickname.
"You do not get to call me that. Once I am done here, I am through with you. I poured my heart out to you, and what did you do? Walked out the door and didn't even bother to look back."
I went back to work on him, looking over each bruise and cut. Made sure that nothing was broken. "I left because you are too good for me, YN."
I snorted at that and kept working.
"It's true, at least to me, YN. When you told me how you felt, I could just see myself screwing up your life. You deserve someone better than me."
"I should be the one to decide that, not you. Can't you see it has been you since we got to know each other, Tommy?" I sighed. I could feel myself getting tired.
"I can do all I can do. Keep the cuts clean and change the bandages. Only light work for a few days."
"You would have made a great Doctor YN." I gave Tommy a forced smile. I was just in my second year of schooling when the outbreak happened. I help out now in the QZ when I can for the smaller ailments.
I was about to get up when I felt Tommy place his hand on my arm. "You know I love you too, YN. Being away from you these last few days has been horrible, but I can't stand to lose you as a friend."
"You won't, Tommy. I am not going anywhere."
That night, we had our first kiss as a couple with his older brother coming out to make fun of him. A playful side of Joel that doesn't come out that often.
But as the years went on, Tommy couldn't stand living in the QZ anymore, and that was the cause of our big fights.
And one day, he was just gone. He left in the middle of the night, knowing I would make him stay. It was after a massive fight he had with Joel I came to find out later.
My heartbroken once more. Not knowing if he was okay or not. Two days later, I found a note he wrote for me.
He told me that he loved me and that he will be back for me. To take me away from this hell hole that we have come to call home.
That was five years ago, and he hasn't returned. Joel was the one who communicated with him. I was so angry with Tommy, and he knew it.
When it was my turn to send out a message, Tommy never responded. I tried a few times but Tommy decided to cut me out his life and I had to learn to accept that as I had more important things to worry about, or should I say two little someone's.
I found out a few weeks after Tommy left that I was pregnant. When it came time to deliver, I was stunned when two boys came.
Theo and Tate Miller, I named them.
And that has brought me here to this very moment, Joel was beyond pissed when the three of us joined him, Tess and Ellie, on this adventure as I called it for the boys.
"I am not leaving them behind. Who knows what FEDRA would do to them," I could see that Joel was fighting an inner battle with himself, but he knew we would just follow behind him.
And he also knew I was right. If I stayed behind, he knew that I would be detained, along with my sons. I would have been tortured or the boys of being tortured as well.
"Fine, but the children stay in the middle. No wondering off, got it?" He said sternly to his nephews.
"Yes, Uncle Joel."
Ellie stood between them and held their hands and asked them questions as we walked toward the ruins of the old city.
Things were going smoothly until all hell broke loose. First, I saw Ellie's arm, and her head almost got blown off.
"I am not infected. I am immune. I have been like this for like three weeks." I had the boys behind me as I looked at Joel to see what the fuck he wanted to do.
So we waited it out, and Ellie was right. She showed no signs of being infected, and I was stunned.
And the next thing I knew, we were running for our lives and trying to stay quiet as the Clickers can't see shit.
Then Tess became infected and stayed behind to sacrifice herself.
The five of us who were left ran out of the building. Theo slipped from my grasp on the way out, but Ellie was able to grab him and pull him up.
We watched as the building went up in flames, my heart breaking at the thought of losing Tess, but we had to move on. We couldn't stay here any longer than we needed to.
We walked to Bill and Frank's place. I was excited to meet them as I heard so much about the from Tess. When I asked Joel about them, all he told me was, "they can be trusted," and that was good enough for me. If Joel didn't trust someone, then there is a good reason.
But as we soon learned, they died together on their terms. So we grabbed supplies and got in Bill's truck and headed on our way.
I sat up front with Joel, and the kids sat in the back. "What are you gonna do when you see him?" I asked Joel.
"Probably punch him." I couldn't tell by the look on his face if he was joking or not, but knowing Joel, it can go one of three ways.
Punch to the face.
A hug.
Or a punch to the face and then a hug right after, blood pouring out of Tommy's nose.
"You?"
"Same." I might just punch him.
"Good. After what he put you through, you can have the first punch."
"Thank you, Joel."
Joel was furious that Tommy left, and he became almost enraged when I told Joel I was pregnant. At first, Joel stayed away, not knowing how to take the news, but one day I came home, and there was a crib next to my bed.
I found Joel standing next to it, looking kind of sheepish. I was at a loss for words.
"I know the baby can't sleep in your bed all the time, so I thought, well," Joel was stuttering, trying to show some type of emotion. All I did was hug him and say thank you, and he patted my back awkwardly.
We got to the blockade and had to go around it. Ellie is sitting up front now and I am in the back with Theo and Tate, letting them sleep against me.
They woke up to the sound of their Uncle getting frustrated at us for getting lost in an unfamiliar city.
"Where the hell is everyone?" I asked.
"My thoughts exactly YN." Joel and I were on high alert, trying to see if there was anyone. Someone came stumbling out of nowhere, calling for help.
Joel didn't waste a second as he backed up and got away from the obvious trap.
"Put your heads down," I told Ellie and the boys. Ellie went to question me but the boys quickly ducked their heads.
But then people were shooting at us, and we had to get to safety. We ended up in some garage, Joel and I shooting at the small ambush.
We didn't hear the man walk through the back way. I felt something hit the back of my head, and I went down, instantly blacking out for a few moments.
I woke up to Ellie standing behind Joel and the attacker, and Ellie was shooting to protect Joel.
The man was begging for his life, but Joel quickly put an end to his pleas.
"You good YN?"
"Yeah, just a headache." I could see Theo and Tate peeking out of the wall.
"Good, we have to find somewhere to hide." We grabbed what we could from the truck and headed to unfamiliar territory.
The tears were streaming down my face as I helped Joel and Ellie bury Sam and Henry. Poor Sam became infected, and his own brother shot him.
We tried to get the gun away from Henry, but he turned it on himself before we could stop him.
Joel and I moved the bodies outside and picked the spot where we could bury them. Ellie insisted on helping us and I let her, even though Joel said no.
The boys weren't too far from us as they know not to go far. They have been quiet since they witnessed their friend get shot.
But this is just how this world is now. We either kill when we have to or become infected.
"Which way is West?" Ellie asked. Joel looked around and pointed in the direction. Ellie took her backpack and started to walk that way.
I dropped the shovel and grabbed my bag, whistling to get my son's attention. They quickly joined by side, gripping my hands as tight as they could.
Joel wasn't far behind us, and Theo let go of my hand and waited for his uncle to catch up. I turned to watch the two of them, smiling to myself as I watched Joel take Theo's outstretched hand in his and slow down his stride just a bit so his nephew could catch up.
Tommy told me about Sarah and that first night of the Outbreak. How Sarah died in her Dad's arms. That explains how Joel was and still is. That can mess someone up.
But when I see him with Theo and Tate, I can catch glimpses of what I assume is the previous Joel. These two have a hold over him, and he will never admit it, but I can see it.
The seasons changed and it is now late Autumn, early Winter I am assuming. We have finally made it to Wyoming.
We found some good people who took us and even gave us horses to ride on. Ellie had her own, and Joel and Tate were on one, as were Theo and I.
We rode for a few days, stopping when we could to give the horses and ourselves a break, and then we made it to a small community.
I made sure that I had one arm wrapped securely around my son as the people were giving us funny looks.
We got off the horses, and I saw Joel go running. I heard him call out a name, and I looked up, and it felt like everything froze.
Tommy.
The two of them embraced, and I knew they were questioning each other, and then Tommy's made eye contact with me over Joel's shoulder.
"I guess that is Tommy," Ellie said as she stood next to me.
"Yeah, it is." I had so many emotions running through me, I had no idea how to react. The two of them are now heading this way, and a woman had now joined them.
"YN." Tommy barely had my name out his mouth, and I was hugging him, telling him how much I have missed him.
He pulled back and gave me a tight-lipped smile and looked down at his sons. "These are Theo and Tate. They are very excited to meet you."
"And I am Ellie." Who stuck her hand out for Tommy and the mysterious woman to shake.
"YN, I believe you and I should talk."
"Oh, this is the YN, how nice to meet you. I am Maria."
"Hello, Maria, nice to meet you," I said to her before Tommy escorted me away from the small group. I knew the kids would be safe with Joel and Ellie.
"YN," He ran his hand across the back of his neck.
"Tommy what is it you can tell me." I took a step closer to him and he took a step back.
"I don't know how to say this, but Maria is my wife."
It was my turn to take a step back. I looked him up and down, and the next thing I knew, my fist almost connected with his nose, but he caught it.
"You are a piece of shit Tommy Miller. You have had five fucking years to tell me you found someone else. I came out here to find you with our sons."
"You could have stayed home."
"And how the hell was I supposed to know you were married? You didn't tell any of us."
I turned around and stomped away from him, but he was trying to get me to talk to him.
"YN you have to understand." I spun around and pushed him away from me.
"Understand what? You got lonely? That you needed someone to keep you company? You know what the hell I was doing? Oh, no because you ignored me. I was raising your boys, telling them how great their Dad is and how he can't wait to meet them."
"And I want to get to know them."
"Nope, not happening. As soon as Joel and I can head back to the QZ, we are leaving."
"YN, come on."
"Fuck you Miller. Have a nice life."
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“'Cause all of the small things that you do, are what remind me why I fell for you”
He’s so hug shaped and i need a hug.
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littlesadsailor · 1 year
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EVERYWHERE, EVERYTHING, I WANNA LOVE YOU TILL WE’RE FOOD FOR THE WORMS TO EAT, TILL OUR FINGERS DECOMPOSE, KEEP MY HAND IN YOURS.
- said every character from my fav shows and movies about their found family
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