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❤︎𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕓𝕠𝕪 𝕚𝕤 𝕞𝕚𝕟𝕖❤︎

Part 1 part 2

Toxic Shoto Todoroki x femreader x Kirishima

Warnings: Angst, smut, jealousy, revenge, purposely jealousy, toxic Shoto, toxic relationship, not good smut, non consensual smut, angry sex, fake dating?, mistakes, depression, dougebag Shoto, charming Eijiro.(not proofread)

Notes: I told you shit would get real, make sure you've check out part one before you continue, hope you like kirishima! This part is a bit shorter then the other one soz, hopefully the next part is longer😅

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"𝒘𝒉𝒆𝒏 𝒕𝒓𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒊𝒔 𝒃𝒓𝒐𝒌𝒆𝒏, 𝒔𝒐𝒓𝒓𝒚 𝒎𝒆𝒂𝒏𝒔 𝒏𝒐𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈"

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Next day - Monday ~

I walked with Kirishima to class who wasn't the best chocie as I was avoiding Sero and Denki because I don't think I could talk to them after yesterday. Kiri was calm though, very thoughtful and kind, not to mention funny. I all ways loved spending time with Eijiro, it was a lot different then how other boys treat me, he reminded me of my best friend when I was younger. When we got to class Mina eyes lit up and she dragged me over to where Jiro was in the back of the class room, leaving Kirishima confused ase he walked over to Bakugo.

"I. Have. A. Great. Idea!" Mina squiled. "It's to early for this Mina..." Jiro tridly looked up at use. "Let's just get this over with.." I had to agree with Jiro, it was to early for one of Mina's 'master plans'. "You guys are such demmy downers, Anyways I know how to get Todoroki to stop ignoring you!" "Shoto hasn't been ignoring me" "you've been complaining about him ignoring you for 3 days, you even had a mentle break down about it when I tried to show you a new album I found" Jiro face could only be described as pissed. "OK so maybe I've been a bit down in the dumps lately" I said sheepishly. "A Bit! You had a mental break down in the common area because you heard Sero and Denki tell Todoroki to break up with you!" "How do you know about that!" "Denki couldn't keep his mouth shut"

Jiro was about to put her headphones back on when she asked "Why do you need me for your plan anyways?" "for moral support and if we need a back up plan, something like that" "ugh fine I'll listen" "Great! Now the plan:make Todoroki Jealous!" I could only give her a puzzled look. "it'll be easy just act all lovey dovey with Kirishima and then BAM a jealous Todoroki!" "Why Kirishima!?" "because you guys have the most chemistry~" Mina looked at me with a smug face as she wiggled her eyebrows, I hate when she wiggles her eyebrows. I couldn't help the blush that spread across my cheeks so I turned around to hide my face from the two girls.

"umm I heard my name?" I looked up to see Kirishima I front of me, a hand behind his head and a smirk that could make any girl blush. "Eijiro great! We need you for a plan" Mina informed him about the plan as I stared into his ruby eyes. "so all I have to do is act like I'm dating y/n like flirting and hand holding and shit" "uhum" Mina nodded "well I should always help someone in need, it's is the manly thing to do but that only if its OK with you y/n" he turned to look at me which caught me off guard "huh-Oh yeah I'm..fine...with it" Jiro gave me nudge, she must have noticed I was distracted but from that little performance who wouldn't. "well if you will Princess~" he offered his hand for me to take which I did, a small blush spreading across me cheek. We walked over to Bakugo hand in hand which he definitely noticed. "I- you know what I'm not gonna ask" "come on Bakubro, we were talking about a gaming tornument tonight in my room and I was just wondering if I could invite my Princess!" my bluch spread further "yeah invite who you want I don't care! God" Kirishima laughed at his freidns reaction and I smiled until I heard the classroom door open.

I looked over and noticed Shoto had just walked in with Sero shortly being him. It took him a while to notice Kirishima and I holding hands but when he did his reaction was priceless. He stiffened and stop in his traces, his eyes where noticble focused on our hands and his fist clenched. Sero had stop aswell, silencing himself due to confusion so he followed Shoto's eyes to mine and Kirishima had s interlocked. I could feel the smirk on Mina face and Jiro's little smile pleasently surprised at Mina successful plan. Kirishima tightened his grip on my hand making me look up at him, he himself had a soft smirk due to the success which caused me to smile widley enjoying this feeling of my friends joy.

In a matter of seconds the bell went off telling us to take our seats as school had started for the day. For the whole first period I could feel Shoto's stare daggers at me. Then we had training, I uaslly do it with Shoto but today Kirishima was my partner. Lunch came around fairly quick and I sat with Mina, Kiri and Bakugo which wasn't necessarily new as I usually sit with them or Shoto. Last lesson of the day and Shoto was glaring at me and then I was walking to the dorms with Kirishima in hand.

"You know today was pretty fun, I would doing it again if that alright with you Princess~" I had only slight gotten use to the nickname but I still had a soft blush on my face. "I would like that" I slowly snuggled up to his arm, something I only did with Shoto on cold days. Kirishima stop walking and turned to look at me, he lifted a hand under my chime making me face him, "I want you to know that if you don't get Todoroki to stop ignoring you then we and keep going until he does, ok?" a small smile spread across my face "thanks" "anything for you, Now to the dorms, I'm getting hungry" just on cue Kiri's stomach grumbled which made me giggle.

Two days later - Thursday ~

Me and Kirishima have been acting all lovey dovey and not one new reaction out of Shoto, I was beyond pissed. I flopped down on the couch next to Eijiro due to frustrate, "what's wrong Princess?". "Your little act not working on your Boyfriend" Bakugo interrupted, "yeah...." as much as I hated his tone he was right. "well guess we'll just have to amp up our act, there party tonight at 1-B's dorm and Sero said he was tacking Todoroki there to 'cool off', it might be the final push we need to get him to stop Pebble~" I looked up to him, eyes filled with the same determination as his. "well Bakubro want to come with us" we both steared at Bakugo who was sitting on another couch, he look conflicted but then settled on an answer "fine, but Only because I want to see icyhot explode".

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We all meet ate the front door, Bakugo and Kirishima both had similar outfits, jeans, t-shirt and trainers. I on the other hand had a skirt, trainer with fish nets and a cropped graphic tee(or whatever you want idc). "wow you are killing it y/n, umm where are you guys going anyways" Mina has found us near the door. "we where going to the party at 1-B!" Kiri look proud as he new Mina would catch on, which she did and gave us an knowing smirk "well you guys enjoy~" and with that we left.

I walked in with Kiri, hand in hand and Bakugo trialling behind. The loud music, bright lights and the amount of people chatting consumed my senses which made Kirishima's grip on my hand tieten as to not lose me. We spend most our time chatting with people from 1-B (mostly Tetsutetsu) and drinking until some mentioned Seven Minutes In Heaven. Bakugo had retreat to the kitchen upon hearing this while I slowly tugged Kirishima toward the small group that had former in the middle of the common area.

Kirishima and I had both added a small trinket into a beanie that was being based around along with everyone else. After a couple rounds later it was my turn to pick something from the beanie, I searched around for a while till I felt something cold and I grabbed it. On closer inspection it was a metal shark key chain, "that's mine.." I look up to see Kirishima take the key chain out my hand and lead me to a near by closet. "What are the chances" I added which made Kiri chuckle as he ooend the closest door and let me through.

Before I could take a step in a cold hand grabbed my wrist, "we need to talk". I didn't need to turn around to know who that was but I did anyways. Behind me was Shoto Todoroki and he was pissed. "I need to talk to you" he repeated, much more stern. Kirishima lean back against the door and nodded slightly as if he was allowing Shoto to drag me away, which he did. He dragged me all the ways to his room in the 1-A dorms ignoring my reluctant wines, pushing me in and locking the door.

"What. The. Fuck. Do You Think Your Doing?!" his voice raised due to anger. "Nothing, I was just playing seven minutes in heaven with my friend, it not like we were gonna do anything" I put on my best innocent voice, to give him a taste of his own medicine. I could see the anger bubble in his eyes as I sat down on the edge of his bed. "Fuck You!" I tired to put on a shocked face but it just looked really fake. "You've been acting like a bitch this whole week! whoring you self out to any man, wearing those skimpy outfits and... Worst of all... You've practical been throwing yourself onto Kirishima like you're some little slut" I'll admit, this shocked me, actually shocked me. Never before has Shoto been this vulgar when describing someone, let alone me! Shoto had approached me, both hands on either side of my body, face right next to mine, lips grazing over my ear "it's like you asking for a punishment~".

He started to kiss down my neck, sucking and leaving his marks in the process. "You never wore those outfits when you where out with me" I could barely make out what he was saying as he had murmured it against my neck. "You never asked-" "And Kirishima Did!" he moved to look me straight in the eyes "No! I was-" "Then What The Fuck!" he started pushing me down onto the bed and slowly climbed on top. "You just wanted other men's attention, didn't you?" a small fire lit inside me, a need to fight back, "it's not like you gave me any" it sounded more pathetic then I indedent. "You know I gave you the option more then once in the last week, but no just because we where having a argument you didn't want to" his hands started to remove my clothes as he trailed more kisses down my body. "only cause you weren't-uhhm-weren't taking it seriously" trying to conceal my moans came to a fail as one escaped mid sentence.

Shoto's smirk spread wide across his face, his finger only grazed across my pussy for a second. As much as I want to just talk to Shoto about the argument my body betrayed me as moans escaped and cunt trembled "such a slut~, I bet Kirishima enjoyed this" "we didnt-" a moan escaped as Shoto's long finger entered me. "I bet he loved your moans, the way you squished him, the way your cunt drippled down onto him" "Shoto please!" I just really wanted him to shut up, all these lies where making me feel uncomfortable. He removed his finger but quickly replaced them with his cock "I bet he loved the taste of you" Shoto licked his finger before he began to thrust in and out.

"Talking about people who would enjoy this-" tears started to form due to pleasure "-I bet Harumi would love to be in your  place~" I wasn't expecting that, my facial expression went from pleasure to shock in a matter of seconds however Shoto hadn't noticed. He continued to thrust without mercy. "Shot-o... S-top!" my tears of pleasure where replaced with tears of sadness as my mind spiraled into a state of despair. "I can just imagine her pretty pussy clench around me~" "plea-se Shoto sto-p!" "we've only just be-gan though baby~" either he couldn't tell I wasn't enjoying this or he didn't care, either way made my tears double.

When we both caught our realise the room went silent, no moans, no bed creackes, no skin-on-skin, just the sound of our breathless pants. Shoto had gone to get a wash cloth to clean up whilst I tried to regain composer. Whilst he was cleaning up I think he noticed how my tears hadn't stopped, a tinged of regret flashed over his eyes but before he could say anything I regained enough strength to leave. I sat up and grabbed the nearest shirt which happen to be Shoto's, it was big enough to act like a dress on me. When I was done buttoning it up enough I started to leave his room, wabbling and bumping into things as I left.

Luckly for me no one was in the halls as I made my way down to my room. When I got close enough to my bed my whole body crashed on me and i flopped onto my mattress and cozy blankets. My dreams where filled with 'what if' senarious which I could have only considered as a nightmare.

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[lizzzzzsimp]

❤︎𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕓𝕠𝕪 𝕚𝕤 𝕞𝕚𝕟𝕖❤︎

Part 1 part 2

Toxic!Shoto Todoroki x femReader

Warning: Angst, jealousy, toxic relationship, toxic Shoto, kinda toxic reader, arguments, party, depression episodes, idgaf-ish reader(tried to make her like Jade West), shit gets real later next part

Notes: reader was made in the image of me who is British so for anyone confused by her then hopefully that explains it, ignore any mistakes plz, I'll hopefully make a playlist later on so I'll link it, definitely will have multiple parts and enjoy!

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"𝒐𝒏𝒄𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒄𝒂𝒓𝒆, 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒇𝒖𝒄𝒌𝒆𝒅"

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A plethora of texts swrom my phone, ding after ding causing my blood to boil more. It's barley 8am and all ready people are up and texting each other, couldn't be me. Regardless of my thought's I put down my masscera wand and pick  my phone being greated by my lock screen, a picture of Shoto. I clicked on the notification noticeing that it was from Mina and Denki in our group chat. Having to re-read the messages due to not paying full attention I came to the conclusion that they were telling me about some new girl, or atleast someone new to them. Not adding to the conversation (like always) I put my phone down and finish my make up.

Time skip ~

The walk from my dorm room to the kitchen was short as it was on the second floor near the stair, pretty handy if you ask me. Izuku and Uraraka greater me with bright smiles on their faces and hot chocolate in their hands due to the decrease in the temperature, I wave back to them with a tired smile. My breakfast was short as I wasn't necessarily hungry and I had no one really to talk to, Mina was in her room, Denki was attempting to flirt with Jiro, Bakugo was in a one sided argument with Kirishima, Sero was outside having a fag (I'm British chill) and Shoto has been avoiding me.

My plans for today where short as I just need to get a couple essential thing like a new perfume and concealer from a drug store and it was Saturday so we didn't have any lessons so I just head straight back to my room to get my shoes, coat and bag after washing my dishes. I pick up my toat bag with my perse, lip balm and headphone already in it, pick some white and sage green sneakers and grabbed my phone from my desk, placing it in my bag. Leaving my dorm room I grabbed my black coat and grey hoodie to put on as it was freezing tits outside and locked up.

Walking down the hall I grabbed my Bluetooth headphone and connected them to my phone, avoiding obstacles in the way. I got to the front door and waved Denki and Jiro off as they were nearest, Jiro asked where I was going and I explain to her my schedule for the day. The walk out of campus was cold but refreshing, calm and soothing like I wasn't a student who attend the top hero school in the country where villains have attempted and succeed attack multiple times, just chilling with the clear cold sky and some good music.

Time skip~

'Leaving a shop after tackling social anxiety is a feeling ill never get use to' is a thoguth I often think about after a couple minutes of walking home. I have obtained the perfume, concealer and a couple more, I just couldn't help my self. The sky have dimmed a bit now but the air still felt fresh and new, music still bring joy into my life like no one ever could however a one song had got me thinking which is never good. 'maybe I over reacted' 'maybe hes was right' 'maybe I should trust him' 'maybe I was wrong'. I quickly whipped those thought from my head, 'I'm not in the wrong, I know how untrustful people can be, even if he's my boyfriend it's not just him I don't trust, it everyone else too'.

Without realising it I had made my way back to campus where I waved at people I knew as I passed them. Feeling a slightly tired due to the time of day (9:43) I knew when I got to the dorms I would have a nice long nap however that dream was cut short. As soon as I stepped into the dorms Sero came up to me: "how have you been y/n?" he had a cheery smile one his face and I knew. "What do you know that I don't?" the question startled him, but that was expected. "What do you mean-Oh wait you mean him-" "no I mean the cure for Cancer- Of Course I Mean Him!"

Sero took a couple steeps back giving me more room, hands raising above his head in defence "all I know is that he's mad at you, well he looked irritated but you could tell he was mad-" before Sero could finished I had already started my asent to Shoto's room. Loud stomps could be heard all over the dorm leaving people looking at me and then to Sero, who just gave a srug.

The stomps abruptly stop as I stared at my 'BeLOveD bOYfrIEnd' door. Closing my eyes and taking a couple breaths, I lifted my fist to the wood and let it linger. 4 seconds later my eyes abruptly open and my fist banged against the poor door, 'gosh this door has seen things'. From behind the door I could hear a rather loud sight and reluctant steps approach. The door screached open revealing the beautiful duo eyes that I had been craving to stear at again for the longest time. However my mind was swiftly snapped out of it haze over my boyfriend feature and directed back to what Sero had said.

"In what world do YOU have the right to be MAD!?" "Y/N I'm not doing this now-" "IF Not Now Then When?! Another 2 weeks? How about a month?" "listen you need to calm down-" "YOU HAVE NO RIGHT SAYING THAT TO ME!! or have you forgotten the way you SCREAMED at me for pointing out the obvious, for protecting you-" "You and I both know you weren't 'protecting' me, you where trying to control me" "I was NOT, to control someone they need to know how other people feel and most importantly ACT around them, YOU ARE TO OBLIVIOUS AND EMOTIONLESS TO KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT THAT!!!"...

"You take that back" "what the truth" "You and I bother know I AM NOT emotionless, oblivious yes most of the time, but 𝒚𝒐𝒖 know that I am not emotionless" by now Shoto had gotten really close, his lips mear center meter away from my ear. I keeped a straight face and a confidence stance to show that he had not gotten to me, something that was regular in our arguments. Shoto on the other hand all ways seem cool and relax whenever we argued, unless I had gotten under his skin of course. But now was one of those times, he was so clam and relaxed, his hand moved up my arms, gently pressing into them to keep me statesinary. His head move downwards toward my neck, lips almost pressing against it, "𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒊 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖, 𝒐𝒓 𝒅𝒐 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒏𝒆𝒆𝒅 𝒎𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒔𝒉𝒐𝒘 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒂𝒈𝒂𝒊𝒏?"

FlashBack~

We had been invited to a house party, curtasy of some other rich kid at UA. I had dressed In a black silk dress with black heels, my make up was some winged smoked out liner and plan lips, my hair done in a classy half up half down bun. Shoto had some ripped jeans, unbottened shirt and a leather jacket. Together I would say we looked like a mafia couple, well that was what I hope atleast.

"dahm handsome, you gonna get arrested cause your gonna be killing all the lady's" I walk into Shoto's room, a cheerful smirk plastered onto my face. He was looking at himself in his full length mirror fixing his collar, I had approached behind staring at him through the reflection. Once i got next to him I placed my hand on his shoulder still staring at him. After a while I had noticed he was staring at me "What?". "nothing you-" He took a deep breaths and smirk "You just look great- Amazing even... beautiful..." he whispered the last bit, however I heard and a small smirk tugged at my features.

The party it self was nothing to point out instead of the end. Someone had decided to play seven minutes in heaven and my boyfriend was dragged in against his will. I was looking for Shoto as I wanted to go back to the dorms, the party was getting boring untilI found a group of people in a circle with a timer going off. I thought nothing of it until my boyfriend and some random girl were leaving a near by closet. I stopped abruptly staring blancley towards the closets even after they had left, not believeing my eyes.

It took a while for Shoto to realise my presence as he was talking to some of the girl's friends, well more like he was being harassed with questions. He got away from them and approach me who now staring at the floor near the closet. "hey hun, I was wondering if you wanted to go, it's getting pretty boring anyways". I couldn't replie, not after what i just saw so I grabbed his hand and led him out the house.

"wow babe what's wrong?" Shoto had stopped just as we got outside. I didn't want to start an argument right outside of the party so I tired to tug him forwards but he wouldn't budge. "Baby what wrong, tell me?" his tone was cold, asurtive but still concerned. "Not Here" I warned quickly but he didn't care, he never did. "Tell me what's wrong." I had been silent for a couple seconds, letting the anger boil longer until it exploded. "Why Where You In A Closet With That Girl!?" "Why does that matter?" "she could have done things to you and I wasn't there to protect you!" "One: what was she gonna do to me? And two: can I not protect my self?!" "OF COURSE YOU CAN PROTECT YOURSELF! it just.. you where playing seven minutes in heaven with another girl, why?" "I was draged into it-" "By Who?" "that... girl-" "SEE! This is what I was on about, you need protecting from other people, if I was there you wouldn't be dragged into shit like that!? And this-" I motionded with my hands"-wouldn't be happening!". "I can take perfectly good care of myself." "No You Can't! You literally just proved my point and now your defending yourself!!" by now a couple people had picked up on the fight and we're watching. "I only defend my self because you don't trust me!" "YA I CANT TRUST AND I DONT TRUST BECAUSE YOU GO OFF DOING SEVEN MINUTES IN HAVEN WITH SOME OTHER GIRL!!!" "WE WEREN'T DOING ANYTHING, WE JUST- we just talked" "About what? How badly you want to fuck her!? How you want to leave me to live A PERFECTLY HAPPY LIFE WITH HER!!?" "YOUR BEING RIDICULOUS!!" "HOW AM I BEING RIDICULOUS WHEN YOU'RE THE ONE TRYING TO DEFEND YOURSELF WHEN YOU'RE CLEARLY IN THE WRONG!!!!" and with that I stormed off, leaving Shoto breathing heavily.

End FlashBack~

"Sho, you can't just make me forget all this with slurred words and kisses" Shoto's hands had wandered down to my waist, slowly placing soft pecks on my neck "we seriously need to talk about it". "don't wanna.." was the only response I heard as my mind was blank. His hands started dragging me into his room as I came back to my sense and stopped myself. "Sho please we need to talk, I need to talk... please-" "can't you just stay with me today?" he started kissing up to my lips, slowly grazing over them. "I want to but not like this". "please baby..." his grip had softend allowing me to leave however he still begged, lips staying exactly where they where.

I closed my eyes and moved my head away slightly to give him a peck on the cheek "I can't". I started to walk away letting my hand softly graze his whilst trying to fight back my tears, too many thought and insecurity bubbled to the surface. Once i got to my room I put my things away and changed into some joggers and an oversized t-shirt. I curled up in my bed and whipped any stray tears away with the shirt, 𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒔𝒉𝒊𝒓𝒕. It didn't smell of him anymore, in a sense I guess I felt like I lost him as the rest of the day and night was spent remanising on the past and crying.

Next day - Sunday ~

I was on the couch in the common area when it happened. I had the samething on from last night with the exception of a baggy hoodie, hair in a messy bun and phone in hand. A couple hours ago I had informed Mina in on everything that happened 'just so she knows the tea' where her words when she asked which cracked a small smile from me and now she out with Hagakure. I was scrolling through Pinterest when I heard someone, or two?, enter the room behind me. "seriously dude how can you still be dating her, all you guys do is argue?" "yeah and you guys don't even have sex anymore!" "a relationship isn't just about sex Kaminari" "I know that but your guy's 'relationship' is more like a constant scream fest" "chill Denki their relationship isn't 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 bad...well-" a fit of laughter left Denki's mouth whilst I just backed up into my hoodie "Dude honestly though you should just break up with her, your not getting anywhere" tears started flooding my eyes. "yeah and maybe you could get with someone else, oohhh what about Harumi, she's so nice and preetttyyyy♫︎~" and now tears where escaping. "hey isn't she the girl you said you met at that house party you went to?" I couldn't help the hiccup escaping my lips gaining the attention of the three men.

"Y/N" Shoto soft voice sounded panicked, I could hear he was approaching the couch I was sat on. "h-ey they were just joking I wouldn't leave you-" he was crouching in front of me, hand grasped softly around arm "I couldn't leave you..." i softly stared at him, tears pouring from my eyes like a waterfall. I couldn't respond, not with Sero and Denki there. Shoto picked this up and gentle glared at the two who began to move up stairs leaving me and Shoto alone in the common area, not the best place for this situation. "don't leave..." "huh?" I think Shoto was expecting me to be mad but I wasn't, I was just tired. "don't leave me, I can't take you giving me the cold shoulder so please don't leave me alone!" my voice raised due to the increase in tears. "baby i-" "Don't Leave Me Please!! I know I'm annoying and possessive and controlling but can't lose you, I Can't Lose You And I Can't  Lose You To Someone Else So Please!!!" Shoto wrapped me in a tight hug, softly brushing my hair to comfort me "shh baby i'm not gonna leave you I promise..." he whispered softly. I rested my head on Shoto shoulder and closed my eyes losing myself to sleep while soft breaths left my mouth "let's get you to bed" Shoto picked me up bridle style and carried me to my room.

He gentle place me on my bed and tucked me in. He kissed me cheek as he was about to leave but I grabbed his wrist in time "Shoto please..". He needed nothing more as he started to climb in behind me, spooning me as he softly kissed the back of my neck "no ones gonna take me from you, ever and I'm never gonna leave you, I promise".

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I woke up due to a shift behind me. Waking up a bit more I turned to see his side of the bed empty and a figure that must have been Shoto leave my room. Turning around to face the wall I snuggled further into my blankets to try and keep myself warm, what he said to me last night started to ring in my head almost mocking me for believing him. If no one's gonna take you from me then where are you going? If your never going to leave me then why do you always leave me? "Shoto please..."

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[lizzzzzsimp]

Once upon a December

Angst/no comfort

Warning:Abuse, sexual abuse, love?, mistakes (a lot), I change my mind in the middle of writing, it's weird.

Song you can listen:

Once upon a December

Jobless monday

Favourite crime

As soon as you join the fatui you were given the position of Dottore assistant. You know the 'inasne' doctor everyone was scared of, yeah him. Although with age he seems to have gained more sanity his experiments are still questionable.

You never truly know what to expect when you open the door to Dottore lab everyday, but December will always hold the day that truly changed your life forever.

Nervous as always, you push the large oak door open just enough to let yourself in then quickly slamming it closed to try and keep as much heat in as possible. You were greeted with absolute silence. Strange as you always hear chemicals bubble or metal clang due to another one of Dottore experiments. However when you turned the corner fully into the lab you are meet with the image of the famous doctor leaning onto his desk, head hung and breath unsteady.

"D-ottore?" being careful and cautious is the best way to communicate with him, atleast for you it is. Fully aware of your presence his head is quickly lifted yet his breath increase rapidly. Looking around you notice the copious amount of burnt files and papers that scatter the flour, burn marks on the walls and broken glass on the counter. You look back to Dottore who is now fully looking back at you, breath still heavy yet dull eyes bore into yours.

"Y/N, why don't you look lovely today" his comment left you shocked, something is obviously wrong. "Are you alright sir?".

"No not really, an experiment failed this morning so I'm a bit pissed off about that although it definitely has another effect on me".

Slowly he steps forwards towards you making you move backwards.

"Do you wish for me to clean it up?" Your eyes avoiding his as best you can.

"That won't be necessary right now".

All of your years working for him and you have never seen him act like this. He would never get near you, never complement you, never truly acknowledged you. Yet you always felt a attached to him, atractive to him, like you needed him.

Now he's standing over you, complementing you endlessly, finally acknowledgeing you.

The way he kisses you as your pushed against the wall, the way his finger travel around you body, the way he whispers sweet nothing into you ear.

The way your heart beats, the way your head spins, the way you accept it.

The way it's painful yet blissful, the ways it's torture yet pleasure, the way it's wrong yet so so right.

You are left alone in the freezing laboratory, cheeks flush even though your body is left vulnerable to the cold air. He had left you yet you forgave him, you always forgave him. You were left with your thoughts, the thoughts of him. How you needed him, how you wanted him, how you loved him.

Of course he needed you, I mean who would keep him company all those nights. Of course he wanted you, I mean who else would he ask for when he needed help. Of course he loves you, I mean who else would he please if not you.

Every night he loves you, and every morning he's nowhere to be seen.

Every evening he's on top of you, and every dawn he's away from you.

Every lunch he looking for to help test an experiment, yet as the clock strikes midnight you are left alone and cold in your bed as the weight on the mattress decrease.

He loves you, he's not using you.

You love him, because this has to be love.

The way he breaths on your ear as he whispers to you, that love.

The way he takes you and leaves you cry, that love right.

The way he injects who know what into you for an experiment, your just being a good lover.

The way he punches you and kicks you to make sure your body's ready for the next experiment, it's all for love.

It because he loves you,

Right.

He loves you.

He loves you.

He loves you.

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"I love you" sweat dripped from your brow as your breath tries to steady its self. Another night with the man you love. The white bedsheets stick to your skin and the candle flame still alive.

"What?" a bitter voice interrupts the blissful aftermath. "What did you just say?" your warm eyes meet with cold ones. "I- umm..."

"Well?"

"I said I love you"

"And you wanted me to reply with..?" your breaths got caught in your throat. Dottore sat up and began dressing himself.

"you seriously thought I'd love a assistant like you, an assistant who willing gives themselves to me whenever I please, you really think I'd love a whore."

He was fully dressed and making his way out the door. "I never even cared for you and you thought I loved you, Ha!"

As door slammed shut the candles light was extinguished and you were left alone, in the dark, cold.

Cold and alone.

He had left you alone again.

You wanted to forgive him again like always,

But you couldn't find it in your broken heart to do so.

Cold and alone.

Once upon a December.