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last night was really difficult for us. none of our coping skills worked, but we somehow managed to escape thwt unscathed. i wanted to start a new project; the dragonfly project. we like dragonflies better than butterflies is the reason behind the name change.

i hope this school year will be better, for us and for anyone who's struggling

im kinda interested in writing armin/aot stuff. it would be a good outlet.

💗 love, ocean

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oh boy first day of school 🤢🤢 lowkey anxious as all hell thats fun

so close to college

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if you would be so kind as to reblog this if you feel insecure about your writing skills.

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DAMN sorry for not posting so long

lot of hospitalizations lmao

lil updates:

we are currently in the process of getting our first job 😌💅

we have a volleyball camp coming up in july

we have three fantastic significant others who we love very much (we call them starlight , pumpkin , and lollipop)

we had a few med changes , namely additions of antidepressants and anxiety meds and upped the sleeping meds

we've got a screening in school for intellectual disorders (our awesome adjustment counselor ordered it , we can't deny it , because she worried that our emotional states are really affecting our schooling)

we are learning the ukulele , writing poetry , doing a paper mache project of ODM gear , and making a few roleplay books on wattpad

things with our mom are incredibly complicated in the way that we don't feel safe with her at all anymore

we are vaccinated !! 🎉🎉

we're going to have our driver's permit soon

so , that's about it (that i can remember at least lol)

hope you guys are doing okay ! (all , like , 2 of you that will see this)

- kaminari ⚡

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kaminari's tics are getting bad just like my hallucinations

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cw: nightmares, violence

levi (and trustworthy)

i've met one of the alters that has kept themself secret for a little while. their name is trustworthy. they're not bad. (i don't know trustworthy's pronouns but i'm gonna refer to them with neutral pronouns until i know for sure.) - continued to be sick and suffering from some form of hypersomnolence, especially when trustworthy is fronting (which happened this morning). we kept falling asleep during class. every time trustworthy fell asleep it was a nightmare, vivid ones even if the longest was four minutes (or about). the one we can remember best is one where a very gorgeous-looking woman manipulated the people around her, from her family to strangers on the street, and then devoured them. then we can presume the cycle started again. funny how trustworthy's own dream jump-scared them at the end. it was like watching a movie about the woman more than it was a dream.

sorry if this post has no point. we haven't had nightmares in a long time, so to have so many in just a few hours is stressing us out. probably just that our meds wore off during the night.

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a vent

levi

since we're seriously emotionally messed up right now for reasons we don't even know i just wanna say... something, ig.

we had a really good friend that we met over wattpad (we only use it for rping/publishing characters) and we talked for months, almost a year. ocean mystic considered us best friends. then they just disappeared off of all social media, including discord, blocking us, and we didn't know why. they didn't say a thing about it, no reason why, nothing. mystic thought they were good friends but now mune's doubting that. we don't have another friend that we can text at any time, we barely get a response, and especially now we miss their support. ocean doesn't know if they're okay, if miu could've helped, and it's eating mune up inside. ocean mystic has been looking into inpatient wards. i'm gonna draw with kaminari. maybe continue making characters. it feels like our only coping skills anymore.

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spite is the strongest thing a human could have.

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spite is the strongest thing a human could have.

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really caught between starting a youtube channel, making music, and writing a book

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really caught between starting a youtube channel, making music, and writing a book

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Fake Service Dogs?

You’re sitting at a cafe with your friend when suddenly a woman walks in with a toy poodle in her purse. The manager at the counter informs her “I’m sorry, but we do not allow dogs”. She replies with a heavy sigh and a “She’s a service dog. She can come with me”. Not knowing much about service dog law, and worrying about getting sued for asking further questions, he sits this woman down at a booth. There, she promptly unzips her purse and places the dog on the booth seat next to her. When the woman’s food comes out, the little dog begs and she feeds her bits off her plate. This dog is not public access trained, and proceeds to bark at those who walk by. This dog is a nuisance and causes many in the restaurant to complain. The manager cannot do anything but inform the unhappy customers that this is a service dog, so he can’t ask her to leave. In the end, it’s the customers who end up leaving.

Now I walk in with my highly trained service dog pressed against my leg in a perfect heel position, and I’m quickly bombarded by the manager telling me “No dogs! No dogs! We ALL know what happened last time”. Confused, I tell him “This is my medical alert and medical response service dog. Her right to accompany me is protected under federal law.” With a sigh, he seats me at a table far away from others where my dog promptly tucks under my feet, out of sight. When my food arrives my dog is still tucked tightly under the table because she knows she’s not supposed to eat when she’s on duty. She stays there ignoring those who walk past for the remainder of my meal. When we leave, a woman by the door exclaims “Woah, I didn’t know there was a dog here!”

See the difference?

Scenario number two occurs at a local grocery store when a man decides to bring his certified emotional support animal into the store with him. Upon entering he flashes a fancy ID card and certification papers. This dog is not as unruly as the first, but he still forges ahead of his handler, sniffs the food on display, and may seek attention from those who walk past. You find this dog adorable, and when he and his owner walk past you ask to pet him. The owner says yes and explains how all he had to do was go online, register his dog, and a few weeks later they sent him a vest, ID card, and certification papers.

Now I pull into the same grocery store. I’m in a rush to get an ingredient for a dish I’m making so I hurry into the store with my service dog next to me. I’m quickly stopped by a manager who demands to see my service dog’s certification card. Remember, this is NOT required by law, and most real service dog teams don’t have them. After 15 minutes of trying to educate, pulling up the ADA website on my phone, back and forth bickering, and drawing more of a crowd than I want to describe… I’m finally allowed in. I grab my ingredient, stand in line (where my service dog obediently moves between my legs to make space for those around me), and I get bombarded by people asking to pet my dog. I explain that she’s working, she has a very important job to do, and she’s not allowed to be pet while on duty. People walk away grumbling and complaining about how rude I was when other handlers like the man they met earlier allow their dog to be pet.

Moral of the story? Fake service dogs create real problems. The ones who are impacted the most are the true service dog handlers who rely on their dogs every day to help mitigate their disability. How would you feel if everywhere you went, you couldn’t make it 10 feet in the door because people were asking you questions? Imagine how much time that would take out of your already hectic day. Businesses lose customers because word gets out that there are unruly dogs in their store, customers become misinformed and start thinking some of these behaviors are okay, some people even start to believe the lies that anyone can just register their dog online and make him a service dog. The result? MORE fake service dogs. MORE real problems.

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armin wants to eat raw meat and commit a katya zamolodchikova by drinking blood how do we explain to him just how bad an idea that is

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levi wants long acrylic nails how do i tell them no

- ocean

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april 1st - ocean mystic (previously arwin)

we’re finally recovering from... whatever ailment we were suffering with over the past week. as of right now, we’re still tired, nauseated, and get headaches when we stand up, but we haven’t thrown up and we’re gaining color in our face. physically, things are calming down, and that we’re incredibly grateful for. however, our mental state is steadily deteriorating. after being released from a previous psych ward (~4 weeks ago) prematurely, we’ve barely gone seven days without something triggering another split, and our continued lack of motivation and self-esteem makes me want to check back into a ward. however, i’m not sure if a psychiatric ward could really help us, considering that some of our problems are things only we can fix. or, at least, that’s what it feels like.

sensing a few new presences that we didn’t have before. miso has also mentioned a twin brother. aside from our previous sickness, few things have really caused us stress, so i’m hoping that we’ll finally be able to calm down and figure more things out. i’m hoping we won’t have to go to another ward this year but i feel like that hope is misplaced.

been listening to Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger a lot. dope song.

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love that kaminari has been trying to get into kpop for a week and hasn't just because he keeps forgetting and leaving our spotify page open on 'this is bts'

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tempted to publish some of our characters on here idk