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The Flowers |PT. 2|

ellie x fem reader

Info: a continuation of The Flowers Part 1 :)

Warnings: none

Ellie’s POV

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Sunday morning, typically slow and quiet here at Jackson. Everyone was either resting for upcoming patrol or was prepping for the long week ahead.

I spent Sunday’s like this; Drawing and dinner at Joel’s. Ever since I started receiving these random letters, I find myself almost waiting around for this person, hopefully catching her in the act, but I failed.

Today, I cleaned up, it helped ease the stress. I walked out onto my porch that clearly needed sweeping. A letter was on the ground this time held down by a rock and a nearly dead rose with it.

I sighed deeply and looked around again. She was good. So I took the letter and went inside, placing the broom against the wall.

The letter this time wasn’t a letter, more so a message.

Hey. Let’s meet. If you want to, I’ll be at the stables this afternoon working alone. Could use the company. Come hangout. - Y/N.

So she works at the stable. I’ve probably spoken to her at least once.

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The thought of going out to the stables right now alone with this person was a little nerve wracking. I thought about who I could’ve upset to prank me like this. Still, I got dressed and walked on over.

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There were two guards guarding the stables today which I waved to.

“Ellie?” I hear my name and turn around quickly to see Joel.

“Joel.”

“What are you doing here? You don’t work here on weekends.” I didn’t know what to tell him. I didn’t want to sound like this desperate woman that would do anything for another woman’s touch or that was just how I looked at it.

“Yeah. Just here to check on Shimmer.”

“Maria’s got him. He’s fine.”

I stood there nodding my head. “I’m actually here to get something I left behind.”

Joel nodded and finally stopped interrogating me. I kept my slightly head down trying to avoid any future conversation.

I didn’t even notice myself walking past the stables which i realized when I heard my name once again.

“Ellie..” A soft voice says calmly. I lift my head up and turn around.

She was someone I had never spoken to. She wore a grey shirt with dirt on it, blue jeans and huge gardening gloves. She looked like she had been working for a while at this point. I blush. Embarrassing.

“Y/N?” She nods and we walk over to a vacant bench. One leg over the other, she rests her hands under her thighs.

It was kind of awkward.

“….The letters. Why? Why not just say something?”

“I was going to, the other day but I saw-”

“Dina?” I cut her off. Why was Dina such a threat to her?

“We’ve never even dated. She’s really into Jesse and I love them both. That’s all.” I could see on her face, she was insecure and scared. I was too but I just a bit better at going about my day to day life without letting my insecurities interfere.

I grab her wrist and hold her onto hand tight as I slid down the bench and got a little closer.

“Okay. I guess I don’t have to send you anymore letters, huh?” She let’s out a soft laugh.

“I guess not….Why don’t we walk into the pub Friday night together. It’s Karaoke night and I want you to have the night you thought Dina and I were having.”

“Yeah….I’d love that. Was it not as romantic as I thought ?”

“Dina and I danced but the whole night was chasing after her while she chased after Jesse. But..I have to get going. I have a long nap ahead of me. I’ll see you Friday Night?.”

“Yea. I’ll see you then. I can’t wait.”

She had the biggest smile on her face. We both did. Now I’m excited for Karaoke night ?

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Friday Night

Karaoke night was a way Jackson sent us off to relax for the weekend and a message of ‘YOU MADE IT THROUGH ANOTHER WEEK OF PATROL’. We always went to kind of celebrate that opportunity and it was a nice time where families who have been separated for the longest because of work, whether it was on patrol or in town work, to get together and catch up.

Joel and I used this time that way. We talked about anything.

Tonight, Joel and I sat at a table and waited for our food. They tried to give us the restaurant experience, supposedly this is how it was before the outbreak. Tommy and Maria also sat with us, the chair beside me stayed empty as I waited for Y/N.

Just a few minutes after eating sautéed pickles, the loud noise of terrible singing went throughout the whole building, but I see Y/N walking through the front door. My heart drops and I immediately feel like hiding and throwing up.

Joel notices, “What’s Up?” He asked. I couldn’t answer him in time because Y/N ends up tapping my shoulder.

“Ellie, Hi.” I look up to her and smile. We both lean in for a hug. I quickly look over to Joel who is right across from us and see his eyes widening.

“Come on.” I stand up and grab her hand. I wasn’t going to endure the embarrassment that Joel puts me through when I like someone.

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An old folk song plays, this time a woman who can actually sing has the floor.

I don’t know how to do this. To my surprise, Y/N grabs my waist and pulls me in. The look in her eyes makes me melt. I hold her too.

“You don’t how long i’ve been wanting to do this….” She says.

“Tell me. How long has it been?”

“Um…..since you got here. Well since i’ve gotten here. So like 5 years.”

I was shocked. I never knew someone would like me let alone for five years.

“So why did you start sending me letters only now?”

“I guess I got jealous and that was my way of getting your attention….but look it worked.”

It did. I press my nose onto hers and give her a quick kiss. I pulled away and saw her rubbing lips. She looked as though she was about to die.

She doesn’t say anything but kisses me back, this time a little longer. Coming up for air, she asks, “can we go to your place and watch a movie?”

“Yeah.. Yes we can.”

Ever since then, Y/N and I have been together almost everyday and night. We patrol together and help each other with our own personal jobs. She’s incredible. And I already know she thinks the same of me.

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A/n: so this took kinda long to post apologies! Anyways hope u liked it thx for reading <33333

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i have a hate/love relationship with writing a two part story i feel like i’m being rushed :( but i’m almost done !

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here again …..😞 </3

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It's a shame we never got to see her braid her hair.

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The Flowers part. 1

Ellie x fem reader

warnings: small mention of violence i guess?

info: Ellie’s been receiving flowers with letters attached to them every day on her porch.

Ellie’s POV•

It was another afternoon, the hot spring air was in full force and all I wanted to do was get back and read a new comic I picked up on the way.

It was an old comic with the photos nearly smeared away but the bold letters still clear. I wiped away the sweat off my forehead and walk up to the porch of my small yet cozy little home. On the porch I noticed a bouquet of flowers. Some were sunflowers, some were tulips and one of them was a rose, all tied up with a piece of yarn and a folded paper inside.

The look on my face was confused, flattered and scared at the same time.

I unfold the letter and it reads:

Ellie, I wanted to hand this to you personally but then that would reveal who I am and honestly that’s the last thing I want. Sort of. Anyways, when you left for patrol yesterday, you left your boots out on the porch and one of our dogs started running through town with it. I caught him and smelled the inside of your boot. Yes. The inside. How else would I know who to return it to? So I recognized that familiar smell. Remember Karaoke night? Everyone in town was there and it was really fun. Well, I was there too and I was getting some beer when I noticed you walking in with Joel. You were wearing a blue flannel and you hardly looked my way. I got my beer (tasted amazing by the way!) and walked past you. I actually walked past you a few times that night, still you were focused on the beautiful Dina. Anyways, you smelled really good and unique. A minty and woody smell I suppose. It’s unique to me because how could you smell that great when soap bars are only collected, if you’re lucky, on patrol? Anyways, I hope you love the flowers, I picked them out myself because I can’t get you out of my head. I hope you don’t think I’m weird or a stalker, I’m completely harmless. Well, I gotta get back now to the farm, hope we talk soon.

Kisses, Someone you could know.

I feel a chill on my shoulder. Was someone watching me? I glance all around me like i’m in a horror movie and rush inside. I wasn’t paranoid, but then again I was…The flowers were beautiful though. I set up a tall rusted cup on the counter and filled it with water, placing the flowers inside and the note beside it.

I laid on the bed and pondered about who this could be? There was plenty of women in town, plenty my age so it was tricky. Hopefully it wasn’t a man. God please don’t let it be a man.

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The next morning, I woke up, a random silhouette of a woman on a my mind still wondering who she could be. I showered and got dressed for in-town work.

As I opened my door, I see Dina attempting to knock on my door.

“Good morning!” She says

I look at her suspiciously…can’t be Dina. Her handwriting is much messier than that.

“Good morning. Quick question, are you fuckin with me?”

Dina slightly tilts her head. I walk inside and grab the note, showing it to her.

“Aweee you have a secret admirer.” She says in singsong voice.

“It’s driving me crazy. It was on my porch. Whoever this is thinks we’re together..by the way.”

“Oh…..well you should write a note back. Tape it to your door. Or wherever they leave their notes. And I’m hungry, I was here to invite you to brunch with Jesse and I. You in?”

“I’ve got some work to do with Maria and Joel. So…maybe tomorrow?”

Dina nodded and I walked her out of the house. As I step outside, my boot steps on a paper. This person just left a note on my porch and is probably watching me right now. Probably saw me walk Dina out of the house.

Don’t get me wrong, it’s not like I’m trying to make this person know that Dina and I weren’t together but we weren’t. She loved Jesse. Did I have a small crush on her, yes. But it subsided in a few weeks.

This time, only a single flower was attached to the letter. I grabbed it and walked back inside.

The letter this time said:

Ellie, I saw you yesterday afternoon. You looked stressed and hot. Like the temperature not hot like you’re gorgeous- even though you are gorgeous, I wouldn’t call you hot, you’re way too beautiful for that simple description. Okay so, while I was watching you- not in a stalker kind of way, just in a I happened to be there kind of way, I was knitting with Maria and she told me about the first time you two met. She doesn’t know I have a crush on you but she knows I would like to get to know you. She keeps telling me to just go and talk to you but it’s hard!!!!! I feel so insecure every time I see you with Dina, I feel like I could never live up to that. I wish you knew who I was and I wish we talked. I have a question for you to think about: How would you want me to reveal myself? Do you want me to reveal myself?

Kisses, Someone you could know.

I rushed to my art desk and grabbed a pen and a separate sheet of paper. I wrote a letter back to this person. My letter said:

Yes! Please reveal yourself, but be smart, I won’t hesitate to blow your head off. But if you’re sweet, we can talk for sure. SPEAK NOW OR FOREVER HOLD YOUR PEACE!

Sincerely, Ellie!

I didn’t bother folding the paper and instead taped it to the same spot I found this person’s letter on my porch.

I finally walked in silence to Maria’s place and got to work. I wanted to ask Maria about it but I was sort of into her revealing herself to me. Plus, a name meant nothing, I didn’t know many people in town so this was new to me. Guess we would just have to wait & see.

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A/n: Hehe ^_^ i love this idea! Anywayys part two coming soon i love itttttt btw story hits different when you listen to The flowers by regina spektor <3

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The Flowers part. 1

Ellie x fem reader

warnings: small mention of violence i guess?

info: Ellie’s been receiving flowers with letters attached to them every day on her porch.

Ellie’s POV•

It was another afternoon, the hot spring air was in full force and all I wanted to do was get back and read a new comic I picked up on the way.

It was an old comic with the photos nearly smeared away but the bold letters still clear. I wiped away the sweat off my forehead and walk up to the porch of my small yet cozy little home. On the porch I noticed a bouquet of flowers. Some were sunflowers, some were tulips and one of them was a rose, all tied up with a piece of yarn and a folded paper inside.

The look on my face was confused, flattered and scared at the same time.

I unfold the letter and it reads:

Ellie, I wanted to hand this to you personally but then that would reveal who I am and honestly that’s the last thing I want. Sort of. Anyways, when you left for patrol yesterday, you left your boots out on the porch and one of our dogs started running through town with it. I caught him and smelled the inside of your boot. Yes. The inside. How else would I know who to return it to? So I recognized that familiar smell. Remember Karaoke night? Everyone in town was there and it was really fun. Well, I was there too and I was getting some beer when I noticed you walking in with Joel. You were wearing a blue flannel and you hardly looked my way. I got my beer (tasted amazing by the way!) and walked past you. I actually walked past you a few times that night, still you were focused on the beautiful Dina. Anyways, you smelled really good and unique. A minty and woody smell I suppose. It’s unique to me because how could you smell that great when soap bars are only collected, if you’re lucky, on patrol? Anyways, I hope you love the flowers, I picked them out myself because I can’t get you out of my head. I hope you don’t think I’m weird or a stalker, I’m completely harmless. Well, I gotta get back now to the farm, hope we talk soon.

Kisses, Someone you could know.

I feel a chill on my shoulder. Was someone watching me? I glance all around me like i’m in a horror movie and rush inside. I wasn’t paranoid, but then again I was…The flowers were beautiful though. I set up a tall rusted cup on the counter and filled it with water, placing the flowers inside and the note beside it.

I laid on the bed and pondered about who this could be? There was plenty of women in town, plenty my age so it was tricky. Hopefully it wasn’t a man. God please don’t let it be a man.

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The next morning, I woke up, a random silhouette of a woman on a my mind still wondering who she could be. I showered and got dressed for in-town work.

As I opened my door, I see Dina attempting to knock on my door.

“Good morning!” She says

I look at her suspiciously…can’t be Dina. Her handwriting is much messier than that.

“Good morning. Quick question, are you fuckin with me?”

Dina slightly tilts her head. I walk inside and grab the note, showing it to her.

“Aweee you have a secret admirer.” She says in singsong voice.

“It’s driving me crazy. It was on my porch. Whoever this is thinks we’re together..by the way.”

“Oh…..well you should write a note back. Tape it to your door. Or wherever they leave their notes. And I’m hungry, I was here to invite you to brunch with Jesse and I. You in?”

“I’ve got some work to do with Maria and Joel. So…maybe tomorrow?”

Dina nodded and I walked her out of the house. As I step outside, my boot steps on a paper. This person just left a note on my porch and is probably watching me right now. Probably saw me walk Dina out of the house.

Don’t get me wrong, it’s not like I’m trying to make this person know that Dina and I weren’t together but we weren’t. She loved Jesse. Did I have a small crush on her, yes. But it subsided in a few weeks.

This time, only a single flower was attached to the letter. I grabbed it and walked back inside.

The letter this time said:

Ellie, I saw you yesterday afternoon. You looked stressed and hot. Like the temperature not hot like you’re gorgeous- even though you are gorgeous, I wouldn’t call you hot, you’re way too beautiful for that simple description. Okay so, while I was watching you- not in a stalker kind of way, just in a I happened to be there kind of way, I was knitting with Maria and she told me about the first time you two met. She doesn’t know I have a crush on you but she knows I would like to get to know you. She keeps telling me to just go and talk to you but it’s hard!!!!! I feel so insecure every time I see you with Dina, I feel like I could never live up to that. I wish you knew who I was and I wish we talked. I have a question for you to think about: How would you want me to reveal myself? Do you want me to reveal myself?

Kisses, Someone you could know.

I rushed to my art desk and grabbed a pen and a separate sheet of paper. I wrote a letter back to this person. My letter said:

Yes! Please reveal yourself, but be smart, I won’t hesitate to blow your head off. But if you’re sweet, we can talk for sure. SPEAK NOW OR FOREVER HOLD YOUR PEACE!

Sincerely, Ellie!

I didn’t bother folding the paper and instead taped it to the same spot I found this person’s letter on my porch.

I finally walked in silence to Maria’s place and got to work. I wanted to ask Maria about it but I was sort of into her revealing herself to me. Plus, a name meant nothing, I didn’t know many people in town so this was new to me. Guess we would just have to wait & see.

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A/n: Hehe ^_^ i love this idea! Anywayys part two coming soon i love itttttt btw story hits different when you listen to The flowers by regina spektor <3

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my stories kinda fell off 😭 i have no inspiration & i don’t wanna keep writing the same old stuff….

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i am so lost in this life without degrassi what do i do? do i restart it ? :((((

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i loooooveeee the texas chainsaw massacre game

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gonna get back on my ellie writing just busy with my everyday life + feeling uninspired 😁

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omg heyyyyyyyyyy

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I wanna stream on twitch but if i stream tlou2 i might randomly just cut the stream bc i’m a quitter

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AHSJDHDKDJFKF??????

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albums i’ll take a bullet for :3

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idk why i was up late at night listening to lana del rey at 11 years old