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I’m sorry that my only use in this world is for everyone to have sex with me.

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I’m sorry for being alive.

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People always let me down always.

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I don’t wanna be alone with my thoughts...

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Feeling suicidal but there's no one i can talk to about that

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“If you’re anorexic, why have i seen you eat? You’re a normal weight too.”  Reblog if this made you cringe.

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I wish my pain was'nt a joke.

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It's bad when i start cutting again and chew & spit.

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This is a runon sentence.

You can spend so much time and energy tying to be someones friend and actually truely caring about them but in the end, people have proven to me to be selfish which is why i am not the nicest at first and may even come off as a little abrasive sometimes. Only people who earn it can get me to warm up to them.

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Everything in me wants to not eat.

Everything in me wants to be normal.

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I burned 500 calories yesterday and today. Purged what I ate. Still not good enough. Will burn 500 more after work.

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Tbh I involuntarily vomit everything I eat now because of all the forced vomiting.

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Reblog if you started worrying about your weight before you were fourteen.

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Things I’ve noticed after losing 10lbs

🌹Chest and collar bones are so prominent

🌹My stomach goes in rather than sticking out

🌹I fit so well into size small and 0

🌹My clothes hang of my body daintily

🌹Gained more of a thigh gap

🌹Wrists have gotten so much smaller

🌹More defined cheekbones, looks like I’m always wearing contour

🌹Gained so much self control

🌹Am generally smiling a lot more

So try and tell me it’s not worth it

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Mentality Switch:

When it comes to food we have to stop saying “I want it, but I can’t have it” and start saying “I can have it, but I don’t want it”

This will change your relationship with food.

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This is a reminder not to binge today. You can be a day closer to your goal tomorrow if you're strong today.

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slightly unconventional thinspo

Because I’m a lil tired of the typical “I want a guy to notice me”… I just want something real 

When you’re thin:

~you will feel your shoulder blades trying to slice through your back like bony little wings

~your under eye circles will become magnificent, like watercolour pools showing your dedication to this skinny hell

~your waist will be so tiny, everyone will have to wrap their arms around up to the elbows to hug you

~your bony knees knock together when you sit in your seat in the classroom, it’s a little uncomfortable but your thighs are so far apart it’s like they’re estranged sisters at thanksgiving dinner 

~you’re so lightheaded, that you see stars all the time- your world has turned into a fucked up planetarium 

~those collar bones don’t just “hold water”- they cut glass. They are clavicles some people would die for 

~the boniness of your fingers feel so good clasped in the hand of another, like a string of pearls wrapped in silk

~you stay home instead of eating out with your friends- it’s bittersweet. You draw pictures of food instead, you work out, or drink tea. 

~people will be a little scared or worried around you. You won’t mean to- but your body is too fluttery for them not to feel a little unnerved