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i fear i was THE little sister. whenever my brother had friends round i would join in with whatever they're doing, invited or not. even at school i would talk and hang out with them even if my brother wasn't even there. at school events id hang out with them because all my friends would be doing something i didnt want to. if my brother was at HIS friends house i would go with my mum to pick him up and while my mum talked to his parents for an hour or so i would join in with whatever he was doing. i was bullied, almost broken many times, thrown, tickled until i cried, and for some reason i loved it. (they were nice to me i promise) hes still friends with a couple of them and whenever i see them it's just flashbacks. his best friend to this day knocked one of my front teeth out when i was like 7

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guys hear me outs will be sabrina carpenter while girls hear me outs are spongebob as toast

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the only stuffed animal i have ever named happened to be the one that has stayed with me for all these years. naming things really does increase your attachment to them huh

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i love that when i want to share my deepest darkest secrets i go to this little gay autistic app instead of a real person

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in true autistic tumblr girl fashion i have been crowned always absent when my year did the 'crowning 2025 leavers' trend

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romance is dead because why have i just heard about a 60+ person groupchat that was made because this boy i used to go to primary school with did the ice bucket challenge and my entire secondary school year thought he was hot so they have made this groupchat with LOADS of people just to talk about his love life (he is also on the groupchat). there's not even 60 people in my year, maybe 35 maximum so there's been at least 25 extras added

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i need books with short chapters that aren't a commitment, like the perks of being a wallflower (ik they're technically not chapters but you get the point).

like 3-4 page chapters. i'll read so much more if i know my next goal is not far lmao. i'm reading one last stop by casey mcquinston at the moment and i LOVE it but i hesitate to start the next chapter because of how long they are. i know it's probably normal chapter length but it feels too overwhelming lol

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NOT 👏 EVERYBODY 👏 IS 👏 ON 👏 THE 👏 SPECTRUM

the AMOUNT of people that have said this to me when i've told them im autistic is insane, my mum even said that a camhs worker said this to her which is absolutely diabolical.

once you have enough characteristics to be autistic, you are on the autistic spectrum - hence the name AUTISTIC spectrum

and the 'spectrum' isn't a sliding scale from low to high severity like it's often depicted. it's this kind of radar graph with the main categories that autistic people struggle with. two different autistic people will fall higher in certain areas and lower in others. they're both still autistic. i fall mainly in the noise sensitivity, anxiety, fixations, abnormal posture, and social difficulty. someone else might fall lower in these categories and much higher in the others but we're both still autistic. a neurotypical person might fall halfway in a couple categories and low in the rest so yes they have a couple characteristics but they're not autistic, it may slightly affect their life but not to a debilitating point.

i needed somewhere to say all this because i'm actually gonna go feral at the amount of people that don't understand this. even camhs workers.

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i'm a versatile queen

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guys where is the new avril lavigne who actually doesn't gaf and makes punk music because i fear i need to be her gf

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i was your plus one to prom because i was in the year below and now ive been on delivered since the first episode of yellowjackets when she said 'im gonna text you live updates when i watch it'. it's been nearly 3 months.

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top places to publicly overshare online:

tumblr blog

youtube comment section of a song

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that bit of party 4 u is when you go to a party after skipping the last few because your friends convince you it'll be fun but being at this party reminds you of why you hate parties and you're just sat outside watching people throw up and scream at eachother and pass out and you're not drinking because of #familyalcoholismtrauma so you just sit and watch until your brother picks you up

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no, they will never know. hannah montana mode is ON

question. do your irl friends know about your presence on this hellsite or are you in full hannah montana mode for life

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rb to tell prev they're being so brave right now and pat their head a little please

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i wish life was like primary school, every morning you put your name tag on a face that depicts how you're feeling then it's the rules for someone to ask you about it and if you're upset that you lost a loom bracelet then hey that's okay!

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me trying to decide if it was piss, discharge, or blood that just fell out of me