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Love loved this leaked footage!!

I wrote a short fanfic inspired by it where Eddie gets a little attached to the cookies Buck made for him. Feelings realization, El Paso solo road trip, a bit of shenanigans, and of course a Chris and Eddie resolution. Eddie's internal dialogue is a little chaotic but I can't write him any other way! I had fun writing this, that's for sure.

Baked Goods: The one where Eddie gets emotionally attached to a bag of cookies. Rated: General, no warnings apply Words: 13,881 Genre: fluff/light/romance

https://archiveofourown.org/works/63285583

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Two New Buddie Fics!

I'm back after a mini, unintentional hiatus from writing. I have 9-1-1 to thank for sparking my inspiration and finally writing again. Buddie is my new obsession and I'm here for the long haul! Self promo time:

My angsty heart loves Eddie In Crisis (tm) and I dove into that with my multi-chapter WIP, The Last Drop Spilled Over. Mostly Eddie's POV realizing that he's in love with Buck, and challenging his lifelong expectations vs authenticity and happiness. It's a bit angsty but (I think) romantic in a deep, subtle way.

After drowning in Buddie content online I decided to fill in some gaps that were "off-screen-canon" ideas I had about Buck's coma, why Eddie wasn't in his dreamscape, and the whole lightning debacle in my short one-shot Coup de Foudre.

Head nod to MLB for giving me the inspiration for Coup de Foudre, since thunder is synonymous with our two crazy superheroes getting together in the show. I'll try to post again once my WIP is complete. It was really interesting to write and I thoroughly enjoy Eddie's endless overthinking. Why do I love the overthinkers :)

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re-reading my own fic because the author has exactly my taste in tropes, ships the same ships in the right way, and also shares my sense of humour. what a find, what a revelation. i hope they write more of this sort of thing.

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post-reveal shenanigans before Alya knows would be hilarious, I NEED it :) ashville secret santa gift for @arisu-artnfics !!!✩₊˚.⋆ this was specifically inspired by your request for misunderstandings mixed with fluff hehe

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2024

Hello! I haven't updated tumblr in a while soooo decided to make a (long) post about what I'm currently working on and what I've posted recently:

MLB Writing Updates

1. In December I posted A Holiday Wish. It's a fun little few-shot where Adrien gets a gift from Plagg and sees what life is like if Ladybug loved him back. Shenanigans ensue. I really had fun with it. It's a companion piece to my story 'A Birthday Wish', wherein Marinette gets a similar birthday gift from Tikki. I always had the idea of "hmmm what if this was Adrien and Plagg, instead?"

2. I also wrote, in December, a fic for a gift exchange where the duo visits the Shadyverse. It's holiday themed, and I reallyyyyy enjoyed writing the piece. I was able to dive into Shadybug's life and paint a picture of what that universe may be like for her. I may expand on the universe simply because it's SO unexplored and interesting to write/create. I can really do anything with it! Some minor head canons were: Marinette's parents are divorced, Marinette lives alone, her still lives in Paris but is distant, her mother lives in China (estranged), Ladybug and Adrien are together, GabeDad is kind and loving, Marinette's second home is the Gabriel Mansion, Marinette lives alone, the bakery is a chain that churns out mediocre sweets.

I LOVE LOVE writing Adrien Angst - as many of you know - and the Shadyverse lets me flip that into Marinette angst in a similarly delicious way.

3. My Antidote story is 10k words and complete in my eyes but... it's also not complete. I want to post it but it ends abruptly and I don't want to disappoint readers. I'm uninspired to write a big final battle. TBD - may post before the end of the month.

Harry Potter Writing Updates

1. I posted my first ever triad smutfic. It's raunchy and *ahem* well I like it lol! Dreomione anyone? Check it out! Rated Explicit! Title: Disobedient

2. My Veela!Draco 8th Year story is coming along. I've recently been struck with inspiration. At the moment I have 28k words written. I'm thinking it will be around 45k by the time I'm done. It's spicy, but I'm also trying to do a solid "Draco is a new man" characterization that is believable, so the love story doesn't fall flat among the smut. I hope to start posting before May (fingers crossed!!)

3. I think I'm going to finally cross-post my old, old, first ever fanfiction, 'A Tale of Cinderella' to ao3. I've edited that thing about 100 times and it's evolved into something post-able. I'll post it all at once. Maybe tomorrow. Dramione/Rated G/Fifth Year Cinderella-esque romance

Zutara Writing Update

1. I'm not sure if I ever mentioned I have a Zutara story in the works, but I do. It'll be rated PG. I wanted to post it before the Live Action came out buuuuut not all things work out. Still, I have a lot of fun writing it and hope to post it by the end of the summer. Summary: "What if Katara healed Zuko's scar in Ba Sing Se, and Aang fully unblocked his final Chakra, releasing all worldly tethers (and Katara) and allowing him to master the Avatar state? Zutara book 2/3 divergence." What do you all think? Does it sound interesting? I'm shaping it around the cartoon so some chapters include things like [watch book 2 episode 20], etc. I want it to be as canon as possible - but Zutara!

WOW THIS WAS A LONG POST. I didn't realize how much I've been doing writing-wise. I'm happy I spent the time to type this all out even if no one reads it :)

Thanks all xo

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Just finished Betrayal and Loyalty, and boy was it just the dose of angst-ridden fic moments that I needed. Well done, my friend. I can’t wait to see how you further torture our lovebirds in the future!

Oh my goodness, I just saw this message and it's been 10 months. I don't use tumblr often and when I'm on it I kind of wander around like a lost kitten - I'm sorry for the very late reply.

Thank you so much your message and I promise I plan to keep torturing these two in the future (with happy endings, of course).

I'm glad you enjoyed B&L, its one of my favorites of mine. <3

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Eventually is complete!

I have officially completed my Miraculous Ladybug Adrien!angst story, Eventually.

I just posted a few minutes ago and I feel pretty anxious. I typically reread a chapter 2 or 3 times before hitting that 'post' button, but this time I just couldn't even read it. I froze up. I didn't want to read the ending because...

Well I've been pretty open that this story has themes taken from my own life. My own experience isn't "complete". It's still ongoing. So writing this ending for my characters felt surreal and gave me a lot of mixed feelings.

I LOVE this story. It's extremely important to me. Just odd being over.

THANK YOU to those who have followed and read my long-winded posts, and my stories <3

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Eventually Update!

I finished writing the Eventually!! The day I finished I was restless and started cleaning my apartment. I basically paced around and couldn't focus on anything due to nervous excitement. I wonder if the ending is okay?

As I've shared in other posts, this story is very personal for me and does reflect (but is not identical to) my own firsthand experiences. I guess when I finished writing it was also a bit of an "ending" of my reflection on what I've gone (go) through. Although a story can be tied up nicely, real life doesn't. I think that kind of hit me, too.

While I have finished writing, I haven't finished posting. BUT I've just posted chapter 19 out of 24. This chapter includes some almost-verbatim experiences from my own life it was bizarre rereading it as a story and still getting a tinge of anxiety from it. (The threat part.)

HEY, the tags do say my story is therapy, right? Lol...

PS: THANK YOU to my new, old, and all lovely followers :)

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Okay, so I'm /actually/ about to write a porn fic to AO3, and I'm interested in knowing what the difference is between the M rating and E rating. Able to enlighten me?

Mature is ‘and then they made love.’ Explicit is 'and here’s how they did it exactly.’

To wit: mature.

He looked at the envelope, spread out before him.

God, he’d never been this hungry.

Could he be gentle enough? Slow enough? He didn’t want to damage it, didn’t want to do anything he’d regret… but no, no, it seemed the envelope wanted this as much as he did. It slipped into his hands, it folded as he asked. When it was time for more, the card was waiting, and he somehow knew exactly what to do. He moved with his correspondence in a dance as old as the mail system, and when it was over, he was smiling and the envelope was completely, thoroughly sealed.

Explicit:

The envelope waved its flap in the air slowly, gently, and he could see the faint shimmer of the adhesive traced along its fold. It was like a taunt, a dare: won’t you? And he would, oh, God, he would, lifting the envelope firmly to his lips, licking slowly at first, then faster, more firmly, tasting the envelope’s essence, the faint bitterness, the sweetness to follow–

Oh, he couldn’t help but smile at how it felt in his hands. It was so perfectly folded. Its paper was rough against his fingers, and its crossed folds shifted slightly as it opened for his eager tongue. Yes, yes…

Now the card, and his hand trembled as he lifted it, as he held the envelope, stretching it wide. Would it fit? Oh… oh, yes, it would fit, it slid in smooth and quick and filled the envelope to bursting, oh, made for each other, and he smiled in delight at how perfect it was.

He was ready. Now, now, now: with one swift movement he folded the flap over and he pressed, yes, he pressed the flap down and it stuck, God, it stuck perfectly, and he closed his eyes in bliss.

Afterwards, he stroked the envelope, and thought about addresses.

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A boy forced to get his hands dirty.

That's very sad.

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Chapter 13 of Eventually posted tonight

New chapter of my Adrien angst story that addresses how his father treats him.

I can't begin to tell you how many people said they were disappointed/shocked I would "let" my abusive ex treat me the way he did. Like I wanted him to or something. Anyways this chapter is dedicated to that.

Story summary: Adrien’s life has been dictated by rules, monitored, and controlled for years. He has learned to compartmentalize. It’s not that bad. It always gets better, eventually. Doesn’t it? Recovery can be an unexpected obstacle when you didn’t realize you were being hurt in the first place.

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they………………….. are in love 

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Chapter 11 of Eventually

Story summary: Adrien’s life has been dictated by rules, monitored, and controlled for years. He has learned to compartmentalize. It’s not that bad. It always gets better, eventually. Doesn’t it? Recovery can be an unexpected obstacle when you didn’t realize you were being hurt in the first place.

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This one is one of my favorite chapters of the story. I wrote this and the following 4 chapters in one sitting and I was deep in my feels during it. Talk about projection.

Whenever I write in Adrien's POV I refer to Adrien as Adrien, and not Chat (unless its dialogue) because the fact that he is, to his core, ADRIEN is very important to me in this story. Chat is a bit of a show/facade for this story. A lot of stories do the opposite: say 'Chat' is the real Adrien but I wanted to flip that script with this one.

Anyways. The #gabrielisaterriblefather chapter is here.

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Chapter 9 of Eventually Posted

I'm slacking so bad on posting, but I've posted chapter 9.

I get anxious about it. If you're one of the people who follow me on here and read my stories then here's a post about the inspiration for the story/personal insight.

The theme of it is based off of my own experience with an abusive relationship. A lot of Adrien's inner thoughts at the most angsty of moments are what I've been through/felt. I get held up wondering if the people who read the story will understand it or just think I'm crazy. It's ironic, because I write Marinette's POV and the whole mantra is 'your feelings matter' and her character is what I felt like I needed (what I wanted) from my partner, and based off of things my therapist has hammered into my brain. She validates Adrien's feelings, telling him he's not crazy - and yet I'm sitting here nervous about posting, feeling like a hypocrite, wondering if I'm crazy.

So this is the story behind the delays and breaks in-between posting.

I will post the next chapter in a day or two. It's one I'm pretty nervous about but I'm just going to DO IT. Thanks for reading my story and to anyone who read this post <3

Summary: Adrien’s life has been dictated by rules, monitored, and controlled for years. He has learned to compartmentalize. It’s not that bad. It always gets better, eventually. Doesn’t it? Recovery can be an unexpected obstacle when you didn’t realize you were being hurt in the first place.

OR: How Adrien lives and copes with the emotional abuse inflicted on him over the years, and how he ultimately could overcome it.

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Banana fish fanart of years ago ❤️

PLEASE DO NOT REPOST

Thanks!

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