“What’s the matter? Too old and tired to keep up with me? People don’t age in a limbo reality. That’s what you tried to condemn me to. Forever alive, yet nothing to live for. But you opened the door once again. You poked holes in the fabric of existence. I was able to gather myself up again, after those wretched phantoms used me to fix your other mistake. So many mistakes, Mythical Sausage. They do add up, don’t they? Was I your first mistake? Who knows. I could just let you keep on making them, but then again, now that I have Xornoth’s soul in this world, I don’t think I’m going to let you go off and reset things again…”
Little request for my friend @lunarsands from the new chapter of xer fanfic The Future Foretold 😁
weirdest part about being an artist (and, to an extent, a writer too) is feeling like. shameful that you aren't creating massive pieces of art. how dare i not line and color and shade every drawing. how dare i only draw two poses. how dare i only write 1k words. how dare i not write an entire book. how dare i
Message to the mutuals who have been @-ing me for reblogs: sorry, I've been too out of spoons to check my notifs. Just trying to get through each day, here. I didn't intend to ignore you.
Hi, sorry, I just need to do some cathartic yelling
I AM TIRED!!! OF BEING AFRAID!!!! TO MOVE FORWARD WITH MY OWN LIFE!!!!!!
I want to quit my job. I want to recover from my ongoing physical health issues. I want to get more help for my mental health. I want to go back to school to improve the skills I have and learn new ones. I want to be able to breathe without feeling anxiety over whether I made a mistake on big decisions. I want to be braver about talking to people. I want to create more art. I WANT TO HAVE MY OWN LIFE, not constantly be under my parents' and my sibling's shadows. I want to move away and be able to start over without being afraid. I want!!! to be able to provide for my partner and get married!!! and have a life together !!!!!!
Probably going to be late to work today but I've been waiting over a month and a half for a back brace they said they would order for me, and I will continue to be waiting because it didn't come in the supplies that had to wait until the March budget was available (on the 9th, not even the 1st) so I guess it got pushed to the April budget, and meanwhile the company transferred one of the department managers who was willing to help me with heavy lifting and the person they sent us as replacement is doing everything the opposite of what would help me, so. Like. What incentive do I have to give them my best anymore?
Just realized that the reason I love making friends on tumblr is because it’s exactly how you make friends on the playground as a six year old. No, I don’t know their name but they love mermaids too and built this awesome sand castle. No, I don’t know their age but their imaginary cheetah is friends with mine. You like this show? You like this character?? You can sing the theme song really loud??? Here is a flower crown. Here is a juice box. You can share my time and I might never see you again but part of you stays in my soul forever. In my mind we’re still on the swing set and the sky is blue and nothing will ever be wrong again.
Honestly? Shoutout to those of you who are completely fucking lost in life. Those who don’t know what they want to do with life. Those who are stuck in a certain part of life and can’t get out. Those who are reaching for dreams they feel are impossible to reach. Those who feel like they’re accomplishments are being overlooked. Those who feel like their enough just isn’t enough. It is. You can make it. You will make it. There is an opening at the end of the tunnel.