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Having experienced a lot of it in my 20s, I think some of the worst, pettiest, most straight up this-is-just-bullying-you're-passing-off-as-praxis incidences of Queer Infighting endemic to young people can be best understood as attempts to exercise power by people with very little power.

Like you're 22, you're queer, you've just become a Marxist, the scope of World Suck is overwhelming and you have $30 in your bank account. What can you do to feel like you have any power? Well, you can try to get your frenemy cancelled for cosplaying a character from a problematic show. You can write a public callout post over someone's obviously friendly use of a slur you don't think they technically have the right to reclaim. Doing this stuff can make you feel like you have power and your actions have an impact. Unfortunately the impact in question is a negative impact on other marginalized people. But that often takes some maturity and self-reflection to notice.

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'Sibyla' by Barry Windsor Smith, 1979

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A little more on the Ra/Jack topic, because I can't think of anything else today.

“He's dangerous and absolutely unbearable!“

“Well, it's not the first time I've had to ride a bomb.“

“a Bomb” in question:

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It's interesting to watch how the favourite OTP dynamic can repeat itself. Sometimes in very unexpected ways.

For example, I've never liked crossovers, but recently an idea for a crossover occurred to me that I fell in love with. And, of course, I can't expect anyone else to come up with this crossover or find any content on the net. Expecting (but still frustrating, lol).

In any case, I have a faint hope that if I share this, someone will pick up on the idea.

Recipe: Take an adult submissive (and slightly brat) guy, add a thousand-year-old non-human non-binary individual with sadistic tendencies. Wait a minute... oh, shit. :D

"There can be only one Ra…"

Let's face it: I'm completely incorrigible. However, Jay, who bears a striking resemblance to Captain Jack, is very enthusiastic about this crossover. All I can do is accept it and continue growing my hair long.

In any case, I think this is a perfect crossover. To connect two sci-fi universes—what could be more appealing and acceptable? "Captain Jack, who found the perfect disaster for himself…" I would give my soul for such a fic, but since I don’t have a soul, I’ll obviously have to write it myself.

Just… THEM:

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What if I suddenly finally post my Masquerade Valerius piece done for amazing @vesuvian-nights-zine a long time ago? 

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Vulgora from my sketchbook

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Heart hunter interactions are adorable 

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His profile is easy and nice to draw idk

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Update jff.

It's amusing to see a child in my comments. The child who does not even answer my question and obviously banned me because of the absence of arguments. Ah, what a pity. :'( Poor child. :'( How I dare? ><'

However, can someone tell me what is unclear in my first message? Before using a word, ensure that you use it correctly and avoid abusing it. I believe I have clearly stated the reason.

I would like to believe that only children write such nonsense… But alas, cruel reality proves that it is… kinda idealistic way of thinking. Therefore, let's put an end to this issue once and for all.

Well, then I will say:

Romanticization is creating an idealized image of a subject, creating unrealistic expectations about it, including concealing the subject's shortcomings and/or important nuances, usually related to the subject's problems.

Just a typical set of Valdemar/MC starting pack.🖤

Hope it helps.

If you're ready to claim as a romanticization everything that is not sterile... well, good luck with world culture, kids. Greek myths, Caravaggio's works, Aztec culture, warlike Māori… Egyptian culture, finally! Kings had officially married their blood relatives: sisters, daughters, etc. Why wasn't this done by all of Egypt? Don't you know? This isn't just romanticizing; it's actually sacralizing incest. Not in fiction but in REALITY, OMG! Let's reject the whole culture! Isn't it, my dear descendants of Puritan pilgrims?

Is it necessary to do something based on someone's behavior, a cultural phenomenon, an image, a book, or anything else? Imagine that some individuals think with their own minds. Is it impossible for you to imagine this because of your inexperienced mind? (ah, qualia problem, I guess :D) Do you know any other words besides "romanticization," which you can't even define? Metaphor? Allegory? Fiction? Mythologem? Grotesque? Allusion? Before making stupid comments to a person who had been writing fics before you were born, make sure to read—at least a dictionary at your leisure (or something useful and educational outside of fandom discussions).

P. S. And, lol, I don't do that. I don't romanticize what I write about, I don't idealize it, and I don't call for anything that seems like a call to you (are you lemmings?). Just as, say, if I were an ancient Egyptian, I would not marry my sister just because the Pharaoh is married to his sister. Get the hint, I hope?

Hot take & kinda bitter pill: The main reason for the death of fandom is censorship within fandom. "This pairing is good and it's okay, but this pairing is bad and we will attack you if you ship the Wrong Pairing™ instead of the Right Pairing™".

And I have seen this many times with my own eyes. This is what people do. But what if fandom is just a fandom and pixels are just pixels? And someone is just here to HAVE FUN instead of the Morality™ Lessons? And maybe someone is even... mature enough to decide what they're like?

It's so funny to see when my posts are faved by people with "anti-proship" in their profile, because... wow, isn't my favourite OTP someone like you has claiming as proship, lol?

But not funny when you, say, look for some favourite content by relevant hashtag and see tons... of content you dislike and NOT RELEVANT, just because authors added all the hashtags for force-feeding. Thank you. But no. When I search for my favourite content on the special hashtag, I want to see my favourite content on the special hashtag. Is that a complicated concept?

Also not funny when you find the artist who draws such good stuff with your OTP and... discover that this artist has left the fandom because someone decided to be a "ship police" and attacked this artist. Thank you for that shit.

But please, can someone answer my question: why do you think your OTP is better than mine? And why do you think you can impose your opinion on me or anyone else? Are you the shining paladin in the white robe? Who do you think you are to judge us?

What can I say? Oh, I have so much to say, really. Maybe as a person who doesn't like the evil characters in the sugar syrup. Maybe as a person who makes a very clear distinction between reality and fantasy. Or, for that matter, as a person who has an opinion about common tropes in fandom and disagrees with them, based on my experience (has anyone here heard of the concept of interesting literature and why it is usually interesting? The smallest hint: it's interesting because it has realistic, well-drawn characters, even in fantasy). And for some reasons I know: even my relevant experience does not forbid to someone to have their own fantasies. And that is not even what I want to achieve.

Again. I'm not here to forbid anything, I'm here to say: leave us alone. Don't bother the creators, don't force-feed your creations to someone who doesn't share your vision.

Spoilers: NO ONE HAS TO BE LIKE YOU. People are... different? They love different things, and who are YOU to shame them? As long as it doesn't hurt anyone (really hurt!). But before you contradict me, I'll repeat: I have some personal opinions and some real background to contradict YOU. And I really don't want to start a holy war.

But why, a few months ago, I was talking to a person about the Valdemar headcanons, and they, in between, careful expressed their opinion about intersexual human!Valdemar (not AMAB, not AFAB!), to avoid conflict with others — who had never been in our conversation. WHY?! You call yourselves "an open and friendly community" and someone even friendly attacked creators like: "you can't ship Valdemar with %charactername%, they're aroace! How dare you erase the aroaces!!?" (sorry, I have problems with socialising, is that what friendly people do? *sarcasm*) and... what do I say? People with a slightly different opinion are trying to be careful! I see the artists who did NOTHING wrong, but were forced to leave the fandom. I see the artists who have been forced to publicly apologise for their art, or even delete their art. How dare you and who you are?

Don't tell anyone what to do with their fanart. Because I have seen it so many times and it is disgusting. Where someone tries to justify their headcanons like "it's ok, aroaces can be in relationships! (but only with my MC of course)", someone was forced to leave the fandom just because another someone saw themselves as the morality police.

And there were many REALLY GOOD ARTISTS. With beautiful art styles, interesting art, unusual headcanons. But all I see now... is what I see.

And I really need to say a lot more than I have. Many of these things come from my own experience (and, my fellow children, you couldn't even handle a person with a personality disorder, I guarantee it), you judge the practices you know nothing about (like BDSM), or you tell aroace creators what aroaces have to do. And if anyone should say that, it should be me. Why does the person with no empathy have more empathy than you? Why my only goal is not to forbid someone to create their M.C., even if I don't like the whole concept, but... idk. Maybe make someone think about it. Don't even defend another creators, because it's too late.

Fandom is dead because people are acting as moral police. But let's guess, what happens when I try to tell you something? What if I said: "Yes, aroaces can have a relationship with someone, but they will most likely behave differently than you imagine"? Who will be the first to accuse me of "YOU'RE FORBIDDING US TO DO WHAT WE WANT! IT'S JUST A FANTASY!"? Even if I tell you only from my own experience. Even if I repeat ten thousand times: "I can't forbid anything, my opinion is my opinion", someone will be mad about it. But it's me, the person who doesn't have the content of amazing artists because they LEAVE the fandom. Me, but not you. Because people take it too seriously or something. And why do you think it's a funny joke to leave comments like "oh, how dare you, Valdemar is mine!" or "Julian is mine, bitch, stay out!!1"? Should I bombard you with the same comments like "what a bitch with Valdemar, I don't like it, stay out!1!1"? Should it be funny? Will you laugh at it? And why don't I want to do it, even if something happens to me? Should I give a person a dose of their own medicine? Or will someone cry and not find such joke funny when it turn around? Oh, why?

Because it was your sweet self-inserted MC and any outside attacks on your perfect version of yourself will hurt your pathetic heart, so this will be a wrong act on my part? :} Oh, poor child. The rest doesn't really matter, does it? You have to stand up for the purity of the pixels. You're so right. And your character is so perfect. Like any flat character in any flat plot.

So many questions and no answers. And for several years now I see it in the fandom. I'm tired. And I know why many people have left the fandom, and most of the time I see no content I like. But what do I see? People who don't like the content of Dorian. People who want something different and who have fucking standards that don't include attacking people who don't share their vision! People who have standards of writing quality, who want to improve their art, just to make favourite content for themselves! I see people who just want something interesting. But I see NOTHING but the original NixHydra routes, especially the first three. Or something rare, some pieces that miraculously survived. And I am not even talking about the attacks on the NH members. There's nothing special for their burnout. So, enjoy the Dorian.

Because if the fandom is sterile — this fandom is dead. Dixi.

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The Martyred St. Sebastian (1869) by Gustave Moreau

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About those artists Julian said once "they never get my nose right", definitely about them. :D

(sorry for the quality, but I'm so tired to lurk something better in the depths of my gallery)

the only downside about being in a fandom where characters have curly hair and hooked noses is that half the fandom just does not draw them

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Lucio's habit of screaming for his mom when hes in trouble is something that lives in my brain. like. shes hurt him. but he still relies on her. he still knows that, during his childhood, he could rely on her for protection, even if she'd call him weak for it. Morga loves Lucio, she just has trouble expressing it. and Lucio knows Morga cares about him to some degree i think, I just dont think he always realizes

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My love

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And for the second round of CG redraws, Portia swapping with Asra <33

And hapoy pride!

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The Chasm (1910) - Kay Nielsen

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Nikolai Ladizinsky Concept Art

My personal favorite concept artist for The Arcana, I love their art style and their interpretations of the M6.. If I’m honest, I might even like them a bit more than the finalized designs! Espesially Portia, I love the dark curly hair on her

all art belongs to Nikolai Ladizinsky

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istg i'll see ppl say shit like "im fine with media depicting abuse/rape/whatever as long as it isnt glorifying/romanticizing it" then turn around and say cannibalism is a metaphor for love and that murder conveys devotion. i hate to inform you but youre romanticizing violence