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Hmmmm

Hmmm, I’m looking at this and want to start up writing again.. I miss writing  I’m just wondering if I should reboot, start from scratch and go back to trying to create a website on the mobile version of WordPress. Which is tricksy. But dealing with anything purely mobile is always tricksy!

If I had the energy to just sut at a pc and make it, things might be easier. But the mobile is what I have.…

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Tentatively back

My seizures have calmed down, so I am actualy remembering things I did 1 hour ago. I'm still hurting a lot, but I'm having a dip in pain right now as I got a tattoo recently (seems random, but they help my pain a lot!)

I missed this place. And I wanted to come back and bumps around a bit.

So, a tentative hi from me.

Fingers cross I don't have a seizure and forget I've come back.

Also, I'm 30 now. Woooooo

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Asgard is the reign of the Æsir, the principal race of Norse gods. Is difficult to access due to its huge walls, though after the war with the Vanir, they were destroyed, being vulnerable to attack of the giants. To rebuild the defensive wall, the Æsir hired the services of a giant who agreed to repair the walls in a very short time, and the Gods accepted, influenced by Loki. He cheated them, saying that he would give back the walls toAsgard in exchange for the Sun, the Moon, and the goddess Freyja. Asgard is connected to Midgard (the realm of men) by Bifrost (also called Asbru), the rainbow bridge, guarded by the god Heimdall. Each god has a different home in Asgard. The best known is Valhalla, the abode of Odin. Heroes killed in action are brought to Valhalla by the Valkyries. Mythologhy says a faster way to go to Valhalla is die hanged, as Odin did. [Let’s not do that.]

Vanaheim is the world of the Vanir, the other race of Norse dieties, who usually were the responsible of the fertility functions. The Vanes (Vanir) were faced with the Aces (Aesir), but eventually reconciled, they came to live in a relative peace. It can suppose that Vanaheim, like the Vanir themselves, is somewhat more wild or “natural,” and less “cultural,” than the world of the Vanir’s Aesir counterparts, or even than the humanity. It’s a sort of nature world, free of technology or modern influences. *Alfheim is the world of elves, governed by the god Freyr. The elves have not an important relevance in the Norse legends, although the ancient sagas identify two types of elves that live in Alfheim: ljósálfar (or light elves) and svartálfar (or dark elves that live inside the mountains)

Midgard ( Miðgarðr in old Norse ) is the world of men created by the gods Odin and his brothers, Vili and Ve after battle with the primeval giant Ymir . After the battle, Odin and his brothers Vili and Ve took the body of the giant Ymir and took him to the great abyss to begin creating an habitable world. Thus, with his skin, they created the lands, with his blood and sweat, the oceans, with his bones the rocks and mountains, with his hair the vegetation and with his teeth the cliffs, where also placed the giant’s eyebrows to make the borders of the sea. To complete the work, the Gods thought to close this world with the cranial vault of the defeated, ordering to four dwarves to hold it. These were called Nordri , Sudri, Austri and Vestri and symbolized the four cardinal points. By placing the vault of heaven with the skull of the vanquished giant, his brains were scattered through the air, giving life to the clouds. However, this new territory was still dark, so the gods decided to go Muspelheim to steal the shining sparks of a sword called Surtr . With the two largest they created the sun and the moon and the other stars. Once the gods finished his work, they just added the winter and summer ,being ready to receive the first humans.

Svartálfaheim ( connected with Nidavellir -dark - fields ) This underground world is placed between the lowest sphere of  Midgard and the highest sphere of Helheim,. There lived the dark elves, (referring black to the hair and not the skin) called svartálfar,  and the Norse dwarves or dvergar, being the counterpart of the light elves . They’re associated with stones, the underground, death, luck, magic and technology, especially forging. The dark elves reside in the underground and are ancestral spirits that protect people, but they can also be threatening, especially when they are treated rudely . The Svartalfar try to avoid the light, though they can go outside without problems. They’re great architects , intelligent and industrious, and among other wonders, created the Mjolnir hammer of Thor, Odin ’s spear Gungnir, the magic ring Draupnir, and the ship Skíðblaðnir, the Brisingamen necklace of Freyja and Freyr’s golden boar .

Jotunheim is the land of the frozen giants. The giants are usually enemies of the gods, but they had also children with them. It is ruled by Thrym, the king of the frost giants. In Jotunheim, where also live rock giants, it’s placed the strength of Utgard. From there, they threaten Midgard’s humans and the gods of Asgard, of which they are separated by the river Iving.

Niflheim is the world of the dead. I'ts a gloomy kingdom where go the men who have not had a glorious death. There inhabits the dragon Níðhöggr, constantly gnawing the roots of perennial ash Yggdrasil. After Ragnarök, the dragon will be devoted to torment the souls left in the world. In one of the creation myths, Niflheim is the cold matter, the opposite of Muspelheim or hot matter. This world was born of the clash of these in the magical space called Ginnungagap. One of the most dark and gloomy parts of the vast and icy Niflheim is Helheim, where lives  the giant queen or goddess Hela, in company of her dog Garm. The belief that when Ragnarok comes, the doomsday battle, Loki and the giants will come in a boat built with the nails of the dead from Hel, creating with this the habit of clipping the nails of the dead to delay these events.

Muspelheim is the world of the fire giants, enemies of the gods. It’s a kingdom full of flames located in the southern hemisphere. It’s governed by Surt, the king and the most powerful of the fire giants. In Norse mythology, the creation starts cof the contact between fire and ice in the huge initial vacuum known as Ginnungagap, creating then the water. The brightest objects in the night sky such as planets, comets and stars, emerged from Muspelheim sparks. In Ragnarok, the heavens will open and Surt will leave Muspelheim, followed  by all giants, marching  to Asgard and destroying the Bifrost bridge at their passing.

Hel or Helheim, is known as the kingdom of death and is in the deepest, dark and dreary part of Niflheim, one of the nine worlds of Yggdrasil. In the nordic mythology, it was ruled by Hela, the daughter of Loki, and the entrance was guarded by a huge dog known as Garm. Helheim and Niflheim are often associated as the same world, but this is not so: Niflheim is the realm of cold, ice and darkness mainly, and, although there it’s also common the death and destruction, Helheim is specifically the “Capital of Death”. In this world will end those who died by disease or old age, and once they entered there , not even gods could get out  because of the endless, inexhaustible and impassable presence of the river Gjöll around this dark reign.

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Buses are hell

Had a hospital appointment yesterday, which wasn't fun as I really wasn't having a good day in the first place as my gut is playing hell with me. It wasn't to bad. The first bus I couldn't get on because someone couldn't be arsed to fold down their pram and move it out of the disabled spot. The next bus was fine. The hospital was fine. The bus home..... Was pure hell. He was driving like a bat out of hell down a street filled with pot holes the bus felt like it was going to come apart at the seems... Every break jarred my spine... When I got off.. I actually felt like I'd been vibrated numb. I'm still sore today and I'm going to try and have a nice relaxing bath. Here's to hoping my allergies don't play up!! Between the fenofexadine and the water softeners I should be able to have a bath without an allergic reaction.

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Tentatively Returning

There is something wrong with my spine and lumbar nerves that, when it boils down to it: I can sit long enough to eat dinner. It takes hours to recover from. In the special chair in my wheelchair can lost longer but at the expense of severe pain and days recovery. So I only go outside for doctors and hospital appointments. I stretch myself and go into the garden occasionally and it takes a long time to recover from it. I'm tired and drained from the effort just to move to the bathroom and sat each day... My pain levels have been high for so long I'm once again reassessing my pain scale. At this date my exploding appendix will be a 2...(its currently a 5,I'm living live at a base line 7 with many spikes) So yes... I'm basically having a fun time! Ha. I'm going kind of crazy and I liked venting on here before I just had to flee. I'm trying to return without being bombarded by people saying awful stuff. I just... Can't. I know asking nor to be slammed in messages is probably asking for it... But seriously. Please. I can't take it. The constant pain has been on edge. I just need a break. I know tumblr can't give me a real break, but I figure if I have somewhere to unload every so often, I might cope more. So yis. Hi.

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i dont get offended at white people jokes even though im white because: 

i can recognize white people as a whole have systemically oppressed POC in america, which is where i live 

most people when they make white people jokes only mean the shitty white people and i am not a shitty white person 

im not a pissbaby

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The move + life

Moving house and increasing pain has made my vicarious life of fun on tumblr virtually non existant. Sorry I've not been around for the few people who liked my random stuff. I've been writing a few articles for The Mighty so I'm not completely off the grid. My pain has just been a lot higher and what tiny bits of energy I have is been spending with my partners. I'm hoping to speak to doctors on Monday about the sacrum pain that's causing lots of problems with my legs and has now completely made it impossible to sit up without servere pain (which is why going to the doctors is so hard, I can't even sit in the wheelchair). The pain has now started coming in when I'm lying down so I am going to have to be more forceful with the doctors because I really can't cope with it. I'm going to pitch the idea of scans to see if something is wrong and nerve ablations. No more of this accepting painkillers and sitting quietly. It isn't making me better, I'm getting worse, and if something isn't done soon I honestly don't know how I'm going to survive it.

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5 Fibro-Mite Resolutions 

​1) Accept Sensory Overload is a real thing. Maybe make cards to explain it to other people! Sometimes our brains take in so much information, and Fibromyalgia turns us into this huge open nerve. All the information batters us, over and over until we feel frazzled and our brain torn open… When this happens… pushing through it isn’t the answer as it will just hurt more. You need to find a quiet…

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A made a post.... The Mighty posted it I've been so ill lately I'm surprised and happy, yay https://themighty.com/2016/12/what-chronic-pain-feels-like/

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Moving house... Pain 

Moving house… Pain 

So we’re coming up on a month since the move.  The new house, whilst has some problems (STAIRS) But I can adapt to that. The best part is, the flat I spent the last year is, had a constant humidity of 85% to 90%. It had 1 window that I couldn’t even open (it was above the bins for multiple houses with loads of files). This place, is amazing, it has windows and air. I can breathe without my lungs…

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Pain is like Sand

​Pain is like sand. When you go to the beach, sand gets everywhere. Between your toes, in your socks, in a shoe that was at the bottom of a bag that you didn’t even open. Several days later, after you’ve gone home and cleaned all your stuff. You pick something up.. And out falls the sand. Chronic pain is like sand. And everything it finds I’d way into its your life. If your back hurts it doesn’t…

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Ahhh I thought I read 2011 on it which threw me a bit! Good luck!

Is the toe finished... I saw the post and I really want to see the finished article!!

No I only made that post a few days ago

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Shit Abled People Say #269

“you had to go to the ER for a migraine? You must have a low pain tolerance, when I get a migraine I just push through it and go about my day.”

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Sorry

Sorry I've been awol everyone. My pain has been so awful I'm hardly existing. I'm having to fight my benefits to a freaking tribunal because our system is so fucked up being in a wheelchair that I can't even be in for over an hour withiut servere pain. I'm do tired, and I'm just in too much pain. Oh and I'm moving house and I can't even change my goddamn address with the PIP and ESA as they only do stuff by phone even though I'm on record as being unable to make phone calls. I'm not sure how much left there is of me for this.

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Just wondering, what's your gender?

I'm Female :)

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Post Bath! Not bad realy. A tricky nail that split this morning came off in the exfoliating gloves after already washing my hair and being in a hit bath for over an hour! Easily fixed. Considering I used a peel of basecoat.... I'm impressed! #nailart #nailpolish #nailstagram #nails #chronicillness #chronicpain #spoonie #migraines #hemiplegicMigraines #fibromyalgia #hypermobility #NEAD #pain #anxiety #anxietydisorder #invisibleillness #depression #myofacialpainsyndrome #myofascialrelease #paindistraction #sleep

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Hand 2 Been so ill lately I've hardly been able to do anything. I was trying to work out a new sealing method for nails with a peel of basecoat not to come out in the bath. Which is normally tricky but I have a pretty harsh c curve on some fingers, my bath ducky informs me via red flashing light my bath is too hot at between 40/43 degrees and I tends to soak upwards from an hour. Any less and it tends to result in increased muscle pain, but if I keep things in a certain manner it reduces my pain and usually gives me a goodish sleep. I was just planning on doing g the purple shiny essie with fun Lacquer holo on, can't remember the name but I just want to but their whole website.... I put a think top coat on and welding or around the edges with a top B of acetone, but it looked boring.... So I grabbed the #gamesworkshop transfer sheets and decide just to put a wolf on my pointy fingers...... And then half an hour later I had multiple transfers on each finger... Then I sealed them up because my bath was in like 10 minutes. Now I REALLY hope all 10 survive an hour+ scalding bath, scrubbing which I use exfoliating gloves, and washing my hair which I have to shampoo twice, then 2 different conditioners... With nails only finished 10 minutes ago.... With a peel of base coat..... Eep? #nailart #nailpolish #nailstagram #nails #nailexperiments #nail #chronicillness #chronicpain #spoonie #migraines #hemiplegicMigraines #fibromyalgia #hypermobility #NEAD #pain #anxiety #anxietydisorder #invisibleillness #depression #myofacialpainsyndrome #myofascialrelease #paindistraction #sleep #painsomnia