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youtube wellness channels: a masterlist

workout channels

akshaya agnes - pilates, yoga, strength training

april han - bodyweight strength training

bailey brown - pilates

boho beautiful yoga - yoga

cami sophia - pilates

caroline girvan - weight & strength training

celamarr - weight & strength training

charlie follows - yoga

daisy keech - strength training

dansique fitness - pilates & ballet style workouts

dayana wang - short workouts you can do in bed

dn.beauty natural - short slimming workouts

eleni fit - cardio, pilates, hiit

emi wong - bodyweight strength training

eylem abaci - strength training, pilates

feel good with olya - bodyweight strength training, stretching

fightmaster yoga - yoga

fit by lys - pilates, low impact workouts

fitness__kaykay - weight & strength training, mobility

flow with mira - pilates

gayatri yoga - yoga, pilates, yogalates

gloria song - bodyweight strength training

growingannanas - weight & strength training

growwithjo - walking workouts, strength training, pilates

hailey c. - bodyweight strength training

heather robertson - weight & strength training

hinafit - kpop inspired bodyweight strength training

isawelly - pilates

jessica richburg - yoga

julia.reppel - mobility, strength training

kaila wen - pilates

kpop fitness - kpop inspired strength training and stretches

lena snow - bodyweight strength training

lilly sabri - pilates

madeleine abeid - pilates

madfit - weight & strength training

mady morrison - yoga, stretching

mary braun - bodyweight strength training

mizi - strength training, cardio

move with nicole - pilates

moving mango pilates - pilates

nathalie shanti - pilates, yoga

nobadaddiction - weight & strength training, cardio, hiit

oppserve - bodyweight strength training, stretching

pamela reif - strength training, stretching

pilatesbodyraven - pilates

rachel gulotta fitness - strength training, cardio, fun themed workouts and stretches

rachel’s fit pilates - pilates, strength training, cardio

raminara - pilates

rovena - walking workouts

shirlyn kim - pilates, bodyweight strength training, cardio

sydney cummings houdyshell - weight & strength training

teagan dixon - fun cardio, bodyweight strength training

the glow method - yoga, pilates

the yoga ranger studio - yoga

yoga with adriene - yoga

yoga with bird - yoga

yoga with kassandra - yoga

yoga with kate amber - yoga

yuuka sagawa - bodyweight strength training

somifit - strength training

other channels

diana conforti - fitness, meals, workouts

gainsbybrains - fitness, body recomp/fat loss

janet ndomahina - health, productivity, general wellness

keltie o’connor - fitness, general wellness, nutrition

kyla beland - fitness, health, general wellness

leanbeefpatty - nutrition, talks, motivation

lenalifts - vlogs, fitness, habits

linda sun - nutrition, realistic eating

llexliftz - fitness, healing relationships with food

michael sealey - sleep meditation and hypnosis

mina rome - cooking and recipes

nairee kiana - fitness, health, general wellness

natacha océane - fitness, health, general wellness

rachel wrigley - nutrition, healing relationship with food

samantha clarke - pilates and strength training, vlogs

sanne vloet - pilates, vlogs, nutrition

vicky justiz - bodyweight strength training, fitness tips

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accidentally caused myself to get a stomach ache by vividly imagining myself eating the burger i was planning on having for dinner tomorrow

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netting ~1k on days where I work out. Cycling + circuit training

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Trying to net 1k on days I lift any weight. Will go back to lifting heavy soon as I figure out what the best times to go to the gym are, and I will definitely try to net 1k then

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Having a tumblr is cool bc I can in fact just whine about my divorce into the void and no one has to know. That it’s me, that I’m whining… whatever

The reasons are sound. They’re good reasons. There is no way that right now we’d be able to fix what we need to fix while holding each other up bc the ways that we hold each other up are 1. Sometimes toxic and 2. Sunken into our flesh as part of our support. Like trees that ate a fence.

Like trees that ate each other. Lol

And I need so much self fixing. It’s like the drinking where like as long as drinking’s the problem you don’t have to look at you. And as long as they’re mentally ill (spoiler, it’s for forever) I don’t have to look at me.

I haven’t been having as much trouble staying sober the last few weeks. And I’ve felt more crazy but that doesn’t feel bad. And I’ve seen more things more clearly because of how bad I’ve felt. And that works too.

I don’t want anyone in my life that I don’t want to be family. And I want to be able to work through shit early. And I want people who make me feel brave.

Us together didn’t feel brave. Not because leavings hard. It is. But it didn’t feel brave because I was compromising my bravery to make them feel safe. And the walls kept closing in because that is… impossible.

We’re both going to have to face ourselves in different ways on this side. I am going to have to become someone I actually like and trust and give time and attention to. Which doesn’t sound like much but feels impossible. I’m going to have to become the person I rely on instead of the person someone else relies on, that feels unhinged. Like who would do that for me? Who would care unconditionally?

It’ll have to be me. And pre divorce I guess that sounded like pouring from an empty cup. Like it was so insulting, I was furious at the thought. Now it just sounds impossible. And THAT my friends is progress

The grief comes both at random and every night at like 9:36 PM. And there’s something so sweet about that because the consistent thing that I hated and that kept me so much healthier is that they had to go to bed so fucking early. And so that would have been like wind down time. And I think that was their time to just be, and so I got to just be next to them. Which didn’t happen much. And I hadn’t thought about it til now but I think my body knows. I miss that. I mean it has to have been regulating. Especially since I was the only one who slept.

When we got back from the break and we’re living together again I would sleep. Right away.

That’s probably the first thing I should try to give myself. The gift of not working late. Even though so much of me so badly wants to all the time. But that’s not a person I can trust, right. That voice. That voice is a teenager. A 16 year old.

It’s so hard because the thing that drove me, initially, was that I had a sudden loss of trust in them and a sudden sense they didn’t care. And then the breakup and the fallout. But after that, living with them, was like getting to see the other side of attachment. And it had been since before Covid, but I remember that side coming out the year after phoenix and the revelations etc. I had forgotten what that felt like. But it was in there, it’s not like it was a lie.

I don’t like to think about it too long because I don’t want to regret. But like if we take the pandemic as a particularly cruel test and look at our trajectory before that it was so promising. But I also kind of lost that person the moment the pandemic hit and that was too long.

The bad shit… I don’t know if it’s too much to get over. Now that I’ve had more time I do feel like the first few years could have been forgiven by now if there weren’t so much new shit to deal with. But I haven’t had time, mostly accumulation.

But it’s not about how well I can forgive, it’s about me becoming everything I have to be. Exhausting

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I’ll be your muscle mommy and your daddy😜

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Bless vegan food and the large portions it allows me to eat

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Mealspo

Mealspo for when i get back on tract tomorrow and for those who need it :)

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Made Coffee Jelly for the first time and I LOVE IT

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Pumpkin breakfast cake - 383 calories (F:14.5g/C:16g/P:42g)

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If you’re 18+ thinspo account, please reblog this♡🌸

No offense to the small fries on here, it’s just hard to find adults in this community and I still need accounts to follow! I made a similar post on an old account that had a really good response so let’s try to get that going again so we can find each other!!

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Ketogenic salad 🥗 for weight transformation

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Reasonable splits for not having done bill repeats in awhile

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I literally lost 8 pounds in a week, feels so fucking good