madityy

[madityy]

Day1

So, First time I’ve ever blogged. I Don't know what to do but i think it's like a online diary? right? Hopefully or i'm going to look Sooo stupid- Haha. Well, Im Maddy. I’ve been through a lot today actually, at a young age as well. So Today has been A stress. No Surprise. The Typical woke up, got fress, done everything i needed to do. Then i chilled out and relaxed for a bit. Then i was like: “mY gOd, tHE netHeR upDatE!” Finally it was out on my XBOX which was exciting, but i never got to see it as my dad dragged me to Primark. Well not Dragged, i dragged HIM more like after hearing us two was going.  I deserve an award for not getting side tracked, Primark is like my second home. We went there to get me new tops as i was growing out my own. I’m hitting that age now that i grow out of most things- fun. I Ended up getting: 2 XL Tops- Might i add that are hella comfy!, 3 pairs of Leggings, Some Cute Joggers with a Matching top which shook me when i looked through them again, And Another Stylish top. Sooo, Not really what i needed But way better than the random shabobble i nearly bought. On The way back though we saw this really cute toddler as she took her little Dolly around. A True ‘Aww’ moment. So were back at the house and i start to feel sick. I think nothing of it and say Bye to my mum, and my 2 younger siblings (Fayth & Kyle.) So It was just Me and Ray- AKA my mums fiancè. It all went well after a while, then the pain grew so quick and so fast. I thought my appendix Exploded. I couldn't help but cry, i guess to loud as Ray told me to shut up in a grumpy mood. So i go outside and cry outside, trying to give him peace, but he tells me to go back inside. To add on the pain, the dad i've never met in my life comes along saying he's not my dad. HOW FUN!!  We have a Man hating my guts upstairs, and a Dad who don't want to be my dad. For a 12 year old- your head is going to be everywhere and anywhere. Tears was one way to describe these 5 hours. I Took a bath and just Relaxed, 10/10 recommend (candles, classical music is bonus as well) and My ‘dad’ said he tried to do a DNA test 3 times but my mum never brought me. Such lies. Cause Child maintenance would of stopped paying her ages ago. So after a hour or so, i came to a conclusion i wanted to save up for a DNA test. I think you would too if you have never met your day in 13 years of your lifetime, wondering who,where, or what he is. Now he's trying to act like the Victim. I found it funny when he put ‘x’ at the end of his messages. Like he knew me my whole life? more like none! I had told my form tutor and my Head of Year Group about this, cause they’re like my mini therapists. I trust them both so much! My HoYG (Head of Year Group) Then Just turned up at my door! I changed quickly into some of my new clothes, and headed outside. She helped me figure out with a clear mind what was going on- with the argument with Ray as well. She’s a gifted teacher, i swear! We ended up laughing and so on, before she had a word with my mum. Nothing much happened after that, i tried to befriend Ray again, took a while but we did it! I got given a Task to focus on my new hide away- the shed. So you’ll be hearing about that now! Im going to start tomorrow, with hosing it down. But yeah, we got McDonalds and just relaxed while watching AHS (American Horror Story) Hope to talk sooner or Later! -Maddy