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about me :p

I am an OSDD system and I experience structural dissociation in a manner that causes the functions of my mind and body to be incoherantly detached and noncommunicative to eachother. I have always been pathologically obsessd with identity, but I do not think I experience "alters" as much as I experience "states", "parts" and "personas"- this causes me to have a difficult time with consistent rhetoric and language around my selfhood, because I will ascribe identity where there is not a distictive person or self to hold the identity, and in fluctuating ways wherein words names etc change meaning consistently. The changes between all of these parts is fluid and does not cause memory blackouts, although I do experience types of memory loss. As a result, I do not think of myself as multiple people in one body. I think of myself as one thing that is in constant movement and is composed of indistinguishable liquid- as I think all minds are ever moving and changing, I think mine is just sped up in that way.

I frequently use political communication, film/media theory, movement, water, space, identity, cybercommunications, violence etc (I will be forgetting other things) as motifs but I think I am using them in different ways each time, so it is hard to describe.

Sometimes I will use the term "alter" or make types of communication that lean towards DID as a framework, sometimes I will refer more to schizophrenia as a framework, sometimes I will be rejective of either.

I do not care enough about my actualised identity to identify as transgender or nonbinary, I have always been called "he" and so I will continue to be as I always have been. I find it difficult to identify in ways that are not contradictory, because my sexual and romantic urges are structurally dissociated (as the rest of me is), and range dramatically and simultaniously.

I do not have any triggers in particular, and I am aware that the way I am is responsive to both a genetic predisposition to schizophrenia and personality disorders and to childhood torture. I do not use warnings for my posts.

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Title/Name: This always happens on the internet Wojak Series: Soyjak (Variant) Image by: Unknown Main Tag: Soyjak Wojak

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Title/Name: The Seventh Seal Film Esoteric Wojak Known As: The Seventh Seal (Swedish: Det sjunde inseglet) is a 1957 Swedish historical fantasy film written and directed by Ingmar Bergman. Set in Sweden during the Black Death, it tells of the journey of a medieval knight (Max von Sydow) and a game of chess he plays with the personification of Death (Bengt Ekerot), who has come to take his life. Bergman developed the film from his own play Wood Painting. The title refers to a passage from the Book of Revelation, used both at the very start of the film and again towards the end, beginning with the words "And when the Lamb had opened the seventh seal, there was silence in heaven about the space of half an hour." Here, the motif of silence refers to the "silence of God," which is a major theme of the film. The Seventh Seal is considered a classic in the history of cinema, as well as one of the greatest films of all time. It established Bergman as a director, containing scenes which have become iconic through homages, critical analysis, and parodies. Wojak Series:  Feels Guy (Variant). Image by: Unknown Main Tag: The Seventh Seal Film Esoteric Wojak

Bonus image 'The Dance of Death' aka 'Danse Macabre' from the film The Seventh Seal, depicted in the wojak:

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Title/Name: Before The Law - Esoteric Wojak Known As: "Before the Law" (German: "Vor dem Gesetz") is a short story by Czech writer Franz Kafka. It was printed twice during Kafka's life, but is best known as an embedded narrative in the posthumously published novel The Trial (German: Der Prozess). "Before the Law" is described as a deliberately obscure parable or allegory on legal bureaucracy and the seeking of justice, reflecting the absurdist views on the subject expressed by Kafka in The Trial. Wojak Series:  Skeleton Wojak (Variant) Image by: Wojak Gallery Admin Main Tag: Skeleton Wojak

BONUS for context on the wojak (video with audio - 2:51 minutes):

Description: Kafka’s Parable “Before the Law” Narrated by Orson Welles. Opening sequence of Orson Welles's 1962 adaptation of the short story fragment by Franz Kafka, as featured in the film 'The Trial':

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the haters understand me far better than they could ever imagine

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ok so like. No I'm not gonna make the Goebbels animation. I'm filled with hatred and I am deadass tired so like, 20/80 chance 😢.

Yea but like happy death anniversary Goebbels 🔥🔥 (ignore sound)

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system intro post: THE EMCEE

(he/she), ageless (nondiegetic), bisexual/bigendered

(((I am *your* host!)))

sys colors: black/white/red

if you ever see (us) using nazi dogwhistles ITS MEEEEE!

source- cabaret (1993/98)

sourcemates- FRAULEIN SALLY BOWLESSSSS (not in this subsystem tho (Auf wiedersehen sweetheart...)))

doubles- fine as long as we esex upon meeting (/hsrs (/plausible deniability (/this alter does not use tone tags reliably)))

role- entertainer/rhetorical device/cohost/sex-haver (vers) (not a persecutor- body is not jewish (((i checked :D)))

likes- going to the club and doing uppers (/srs)

co-host of the kitkat club polisci/policomms subsystem

subsystem headmates (the kitkat boyssss): SHITHEAD, "he's going postal!", AM, stupidfucker/stupidfuckee, The Communist, "I love my fellow man!", Harry Du Bois, the christian girl-child/god's special boy, "hell is not real", mr cuckold, the tranvestite avenger/"death to all mankind".

(OSDD <<<< system. NOT DID do not get it twisted son we name shit DIALOGICALLY in this lobe of the brain.)

Herzl'ian zionist (read Arendt for this absolute knee slapper ladies... (and gentleman.))

(yes we know this is a problem, working with T. we are not sorry, because of the situation in palestine rn, I think given the global political situation we need more transvestite nazis ong.)- The Apologist