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tonight i did a show where a bunch of men kept telling me to quiet down and made it a joke to yell about my microphone being too loud. of course their bits and nonsense was dragging out the entire show which was annoying for a lot of the rest of us.  no one would call them out on it. by the end of the show they were just ignoring the script and beckoned me on to do my last line and i was like “oh sorry, didn’t know it was my line because its been a lot of long bits. don’t worry i know i sound different now because my friends told me how to adjust my audio settings after a room full of men yelled at me.” to which one guy kept saying “its not always about gender, its not always about gender” i mean.. i’m pretty sure i just stated a fact but whatever. then i flipped them off with a smile and got off camera. but wow. i am riled. the. fuck. up. 

telling women to be quiet as a “joke” isn’t funny. it is about gender. it is harder for one women to stand up against a group of 6 men all ragging on her to quiet down. and after the show ended multiple women reached out to say they had my back and were really glad i called out their nonsense. 

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its really hard to know if i’m being passed over because i’m not talented, or if i’m being passed over because i’m being put in a tiny boxy. its hard to know if anything i think about myself is real, or if its just bullshit in my head. 

i’ve put so much into this silly sketch team for a year and a half and i’m not sure i’ve gotten anything out of it. my soul feels sucked dry and i’m so sad and disappointed. 

i’ve been told you shouldn’t be on teams or hang out with people who make you feel like you’re not funny. how do you do that when you’re on a “house team” and that holds more status and you have no say over anything. 

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G L O W U P

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IS THE NEW ALBUM CALLED “CALM”??

CALM? CALM? IS IT CALM? I am not calm. Help. 

JE SUIS CALME!

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YES! <3

I’m writing this post about the upcoming midterm elections on November 6th, in which I’ll be voting in the state of Tennessee. In the past I’ve been reluctant to publicly voice my political opinions, but due to several events in my life and in the world in the past two years, I feel very differently about that now.  I always have and always will cast my vote based on which candidate will protect and fight for the human rights I believe we all deserve in this country. I believe in the fight for LGBTQ rights, and that any form of discrimination based on sexual orientation or gender is WRONG. I believe that the systemic racism we still see in this country towards people of color is terrifying, sickening and prevalent.

I cannot vote for someone who will not be willing to fight for dignity for ALL Americans, no matter their skin color, gender or who they love.  Running for Senate in the state of Tennessee is a woman named Marsha Blackburn. As much as I have in the past and would like to continue voting for women in office, I cannot support Marsha Blackburn. Her voting record in Congress appalls and terrifies me. She voted against equal pay for women. She voted against the Reauthorization of the Violence Against Women Act, which attempts to protect women from domestic violence, stalking, and date rape. She believes businesses have a right to refuse service to gay couples. She also believes they should not have the right to marry. These are not MY Tennessee values. I will be voting for Phil Bredesen for Senate and Jim Cooper for House of Representatives.  Please, please educate yourself on the candidates running in your state and vote based on who most closely represents your values. For a lot of us, we may never find a candidate or party with whom we agree 100% on every issue, but we have to vote anyway.

So many intelligent, thoughtful, self-possessed people have turned 18 in the past two years and now have the right and privilege to make their vote count. But first you need to register, which is quick and easy to do. October 9th is the LAST DAY to register to vote in the state of TN. Go to vote.org and you can find all the info. Happy Voting! 🗳😃🌈

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catch up 3.0

Day 23- Something you crave for a lot

feedback. 

Day 24- A letter to your parents

love you!

Day 25- What I would find in your bag

many pens. 

Day 26- What you think about your friends

that i like them. 

Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge

because i thought it would be fun to revisit. 

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WOAH CATCH UP 2.0

Day 12- How you found out about Tumblr and why you made one

I think I found it on a random fashion blog and I decided it would be fun to have one myself. 

Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

Dear ******

I wish you wouldn’t crush every thing I say. Sometimes it feels like you’re setting me up to tear me down and I don’t understand. I feel embarrassed, annoyed - to the point where I question even hanging around you because the upset doesn’t feel worth it. I’m trying to rid my life of toxicity, and I feel like the way I feel is from your negativity, which isn’t a cute look. 

That is all. 

Day 14- A picture of you and your family

Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play

LOL IPOD.

Day 16- Another picture of yourself

Really? 

Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why

Taylor Swift because she’s so amazing and truly cares about people and is an amazing performer. Wow, it would be SO cool to be her for one day. 

Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have

I have goals that I’m not brace enough to share to the internet. 

Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them

Ummm. 

Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future

LOL MARRIAGE. 

Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy

SHOT4SHOT is the most fun. Note the GLEE I am in. 

Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else

I’m an Aquarius. Duh. 

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Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends

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CATCH UP

Day 06- Favorite super hero and why

I don’t care tbh. 

Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you.

Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why

Write more. I want to take it more seriously and do it. 

Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days

Performing out of state for my first comedy festival. 

Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

Happy - Cut to the feeling - CJR

Sad - All Too Well - Taylor

Hype - Boogie - Brockhampton 

Mad - uhhhh

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Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to

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Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have

I am so lazy. I wish I was more productive. 

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Day 03- A picture of you and your friends

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Day 02- The meaning behind your Tumblr name

My friend gave me this nickname because I gave one to her that was similar. Now I use it for everything. Neat. 

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Day 01- A recent picture of you and 10 interesting facts about yourself

1. I am freakishly stronger then I look. 

2. I never really go for the “natural look” which is why I bleach my hair. 

3. I am self aware to a fault. 

4. I love my multi-step skincare routine. 

5. Unless I’m intoxicated and I let it go out the window. 

6. I love my cat like a person would love a child. 

7. I recently learned squaring off my nails look nicer then rounding them. 

8. I don’t know how to stand correctly and it’s a constant struggle. 

9. I am very lazy. 

10. I know none of these are interesting facts. 

11**. This is a recent photo of me performing. I caught the game winning catch and was so pleased. 

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I did this 7 years ago and I’m doing it again because why not!

Get to know me via my tumblr for 30 days.

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 10 interesting facts about yourself

Day 02- The meaning behind your Tumblr name

Day 03- A picture of you and your friends

Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have

Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to

Day 06- Favorite super hero and why

Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why

Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days

Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends

Day 12- How you found out about Tumblr and why you made one

Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

Day 14- A picture of you and your family

Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play

Day 16- Another picture of yourself

Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why

Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have

Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them

Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future

Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy

Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else

Day 23- Something you crave for a lot

Day 24- A letter to your parents

Day 25- What I would find in your bag

Day 26- What you think about your friends

Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge

Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?

Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned

Day 30- Who are you?

(I will update if needed) 

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i spend a lot of time wishing i was someone else and not enough time being happy that i’m me.