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[makimaakiyama]

ただいま

久しぶりだね。僕の自分は何も変わっていないのに、僕の人生は大きく変わった。どちらかといえば、1年前に僕が作った面構えを維持することはもはやできない

[makimaakiyama]

English translation of Blank and Summer, by nuyuri (translation by me)

It is impossible to deny the progression that flows in the blink of an eye I faintly cursed the vanity that flew over my head I wanted to be my true self, not somebody else But I think we’ve reached the point of no turning back Let’s resonate, let’s oppose each other

I write with a dizzy mind I’ve lost and lost, now lamenting the loss of my pride If I keep going like this, I’m going to lose my meaning (意味) Losing and losing like this becoming poison

Oh, how talent is a dying art It’s the summer that me, myself and I lived, please don’t go This sentiment now becomes sound I so badly wanted to write that I could have screamed

Even the pain has passed and is now dying out Longing for the voice that kept me, myself and I alive I don’t care how hard it is, I’m simply searching for a resonating word Forever.

My insecurities, curses and suspicions are still undeniable The seasons pass, and irrelevant conventions step in to assert themselves Living surrounded in the midst of the residue of dreams that were never realised Living to string together endless proofs There exists an unusual me.

How many paths have we blocked Although showing many solutions, words are still futile Passing, passing by to become mere sounds. Living solely by my own principles, Poisoned by the summer lived by me, myself and I. Even sentiments can grow distant. I wanted to write even if I wouldn’t be acknowledged, that’s all.

Oh, how talent is a dying art It’s the summer that me, myself and I lived, please don’t go This sentiment now becomes sound I so badly wanted to write that I could have screamed

Even the pain has passed and is now dying out Longing for the voice that kept me, myself and I alive I don’t care how hard it is, I’m simply searching for a resonating word Forever.

I tried to post this on Fandom, was told I had to submit to translation check? Didn't know that, yikes, but then someone submitted it for me, what????? Don't do that?? I didn't give permission for that, if you had just removed it for me and left it at that I would have been fine, but no. I'm boycotting Fandom now anyway because the whole site is ass.

[makimaakiyama]

Hello it has been a while.

The release of the new album is very good.

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giving you courage, forever and always

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俺せめて酔っ払ってる時は死にたくな わら

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This song is comfort but in the most melancholy possible way

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I really wonder what it feels like to actually be happy and feel like I have something to live for.

I don't think I will ever feel that way, it feels impossible.

Perhaps people such as myself are destined to not get very far.

[makimaakiyama]

lol

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Good morning

I did not sleep last night, but it's okay because I'm not tired. I watched some anime and drew a picture.

How are you?

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English Translated of my First post

Hello everyone.

This is my first post! Nice to meet you~

I know that probably no one will see this.

But it's okay!! I don't actually care.

This blog is a place where you can express your true feelings without anyone knowing. That way, no one will have to worry about me.

I'm not a role player. I'm not Mizuki Akiyama! I'm a human being, and I want to be loved.

For now, I don't know if anyone will care if I'm gone.

How I feel now:

Christmas is coming. I ordered a chainsaw man figurine. Power-chan and Makima-san, of course. He's the best character!!

Not exciting at all.

I don't feel anything.

“Help me!!” I said. That was two years ago. . .

No one came. LOL, it's like Undertale!! Random, sorry~

(I know this is off topic, but Mettaton is the best character!!!)

School is really difficult. My teachers think I'm stupid (or they hate me lol)

I can't die, but I want to disappear.

Aaaaaaaaaaaaa! What should I do? ? ? Will God help me? ?

Of course not.

I think my brain is broken lol

How much can I say here without being banned?

Well, then.

Mizuki-chan

[makimaakiyama]

Wowww

Chainsaw Man (チェンソーマン) street poster

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今日

何も食べてない、ペコペコじゃない

でも、

今日も死ねないです。なぜ？1人あります。僕の猫ちゃんも、もちろん！！可愛いな~

感じ：

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I wonder if I post English, will people will interact or see my blog?

Currently song feeling :

I want to disappear but I think there is single person who make it so I can't just now

[makimaakiyama]

僕は曲の歌詞を書いて

問題: 作曲ができないww

[makimaakiyama]

こんにちは、皆さん。

これは僕の最初の投稿! よろしくね~

たぶん誰もこれを見ないだろうことはわかっている

でも大丈夫だ!! 僕は実際には気にしません。

このブロッグは誰にも知られずに本当の気持ちを言える場所。そうすれば、誰も僕のことを心配する必要がなくなります。

僕はロールプレイヤじゃない。僕は暁山瑞希じゃない! 僕は人間、愛されたいこと。

今のところ、僕がいなくなっても誰も気にしないかどうかはわかりません。

僕の感じ今:

クリスマスは来臨。 僕はチェンソーマンの置物を頼みました。パワーちゃんとマキマさん、もちろん。最高のキャラクターですよね!!

全然ワクワクしません。

何も感じない。

「助けて!!」と言いました。それは二年前。。。

誰も来なかった。笑笑、それはUndertaleのようなものです!! ランダム、ごめん~

(話が逸れましたが、でも、メッタトンは最高のキャラクターですよ!!!)

学校は本当に難しい。先生は私は愚かだと思う(あるいは彼らは僕を憎んでいるww)

死ねない、でも消えたい。

ああああああ! 僕どする？？？神様は僕を助けるか？？

もちろんじゃない。

脳みそが壊れてるんじゃないかなww

禁止されることなく、ここでどれだけ言うことができますか?

じゃあ、

みずきちゃん