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Hiatus until further Notice

|| I’ll be going on a hiatus until further notice. I’m sorry but…I’ve honestly lost my motivation to role play in the Kuroshitsuji Fandom. It has nothing with anyone but I just don’t have motivation. I’m not sure why but until I regain it back, I will be on. I apologize again for the delay.

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Artist: (x)

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~♚: "You are suppose to address me as Master Ciel, remember? We've agreed on it so you can call me by my first name. Hmm a massage actually sounds a bit. . .interesting. Please give me one so I may relax--it is your fault for tensing me up in the first place. No your punishment stands you perverted cat idiot."

Sebastian picked up his Earl and placed the boy on his lap, suppressing a smile as he pressed their foreheads together. “You’re so tense, My Lord. I do wish you’d relax for once and allow me to speak freely. Perhaps you would enjoy a nice back massage, hm? You, of all people, are well aware of the relief my hands can bring. And we’ll see about that later tonight.”

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~♚: "Y-You damn teaser of a butler. . .tch! Of course I am worried for someone else to swoop in to taking you away from me. You are my lover butler and no one else gets access to touching you unless they receive permission from me. I would never allow it and I am very protective of who belongs to me, Sebastian. Your punishment is no oral sex for a month."

“Are you really so worried about someone else swooping in and taking me, My Lord? Good heavens, your face is positively red with jealousy—please do not worry so much, Master. You and I are bound to one another, whether we like it or not. And I’ll be glad to take whatever punishment you give me.”

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~♚: "S-Sebastian. . .I hope you are preparing to behave yourself before I am forced to punish you. D-Don't ever pronounce those affairs publicly. I don't wish for others to be tempted to steal you away from me, is that clear?!"

“Hello there, My Lord.”

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|| I apologize but I am not being too productive at the moment; I’ve been hit with a terrible cold and my cough is one of those symptoms I truly hate to have to endure. It may be the second day with a cough but my stomach and chest already hurt from coughing a lot. I’m sorry but I can’t be responding too much right now. Though I will be hopefully better next week.

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~♚: ". . .Uh Sebastian. . .well I was hit with one of those grey faces and they cast a spell for me to be a girl with girl parts so. . .your master is now your mistress until Saturday night. I apologize for the eye sore."

“My Lord…?”

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~♚: "I know what to do to make Alois pay attention. . .I think I shall spend the evening with Sebastian--I'm sure he knows how to entertain a lady like myself. Alois appears to be busy with other things so. . .it's only natural. Now to find Sebastian. . ."

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cough cough (I was the anon who sent that shout out about you on the kurorp-confessions blog)

|| I don't deserve it though. . .but it's rather kind of you to do so. . .

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Malusoptimus/Tartarus-promus (I think the mun has a few other blogs that I can’t name off the top of my head) is an amazingly talented roleplayer. Her writing is great and she’s overall a phenomenal person!!

Submitted by: Anon

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" 'Ello there! my name's Luka!" the boy said with a big smile on his face. "Hey! you're Ciel Phantomhive! do you know my big brotha'? his name is Jim, but people call him Alois! he told me you were really good friends!"

~♚: "Alois is. . .well he never mentioned he had a brother to me but I did dug up some information regarding his past. I was aware of him having a little brother but. . .those records show that he died. How is it possible that you appear before me? Tell me. . .what happened during the fire that engulfed your village? I'm sure it wasn't caused by accident though yes. . .you could say Alois is my friend."

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m!a and its that special time of the month for Ciel

|| . . .Uh I might have to decline this part. I'm sorry but it's just. . .odd and no lady likes to be during this time. I doubt Ciel deserves that much torture. I think being a girl with girl parts is more than enough. Sorry dear anon. . .

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m!a ciel is a girl (with girl parts) for a week!

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~♚: ". . . .No words. . .just no words. . .I cannot believe the mistress is making me go through this. I-I don't wish for Sebastian and Alois to see!"

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|| I haven’t been fully around due to Internet problems. I’m not bothering into responding quickly since the connection kicks me off every hour or so; I always have to struggle into finding a connection signal where it’s stronger. That could take me many hours or so. But good news for today: I will be getting better Internet service and hopefully I can be fully active. I’ve been mostly in the Persona Verse since I rarely get much to do there. But I did respond to everything before I went on that semi-hiatus.

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~♚: What is this heavy feeling I receive in the most times where I realize. . .I am. . .here without anyone beside me. It's an annoying sentiment and pitiful. . .weak. . .perhaps Sebastian would get a pleasant laugh to see me in this state. I have no use nor purpose to feel this way and yet. . .it is a feeling eating up within my very soul. Is this what it could possibly mean to demons when a soul becomes unstable without control? Sebastian said my soul is as fragile and small but holds its wicked beauty like a blue butterfly. I could never comprehend those words but perhaps. . .I am starting to see how butterflies have their natures of being weak and yet hold a cold stare towards reality. Why is it other life surpasses by their wandering eyes while they strive for life and their purpose in life? Mine. . .I have acknowledged to the depth of revenge. At least. . .that is how I believed it to be in the beginning. Now. . .emotions dwell and slowly. . .I am going into the state of being in a cocoon state of a butterfly--my emotions are the chrysalis to one day sprout into wings. A soul is becoming unstable due to these feelings. . .my heart. . .it's beating. . .slowly but in a calm state. I am. . .different. This feeling is also making my eyes almost desire to shut them and cease this existence as soon as my revenge is complete--living is difficult. I only desire to die with no regrets and accomplish the covenant with Sebastian. . .but. . .why. . .I am being held back. . .in a most pleasant way as humans who seek the attachments to keep them struggling to live.

The butterfly that I am desires to leave the fate I have. . .for the end.

Alois. . .he was the first reason to turn my path differently. The more time I spend with him, the more I desire. . .to escape. I do not wish for the end and long for a life to live with him and die of old age. It sickens me to think like this and yet. . .I cannot help myself. My heart yearns for him. . .why. . .he was the target of my vengeance. . .why not? It can't be helped. . .I am a human being who longs for him. He is my reason to turn my back against the covenant I've held for three years now. As childish as he may be, Alois finds a manner into caring much for my presence--he looks after my worthless life and accepts me for what I am doing. He knows full well of my duties and even spoke. . .'we shall meet our end but. . .' I wondered how he wanted to finish it but those eyes of his, they shine much fear to lose me to this end. He is. . .the spider in my life who has entangled me into his beautiful web.

Sebastian. . .my own butler. . .he is. . .those eyes of his never appear to have a look of hunger for my soul. It appears he too is taking me away from this path though he promises to accomplish everything before the end. Yet. . .why. . .why do I feel scared when I speak of 'the end' to him each time? I do not confess to the fear nor will I say. . .hopefully he doesn't find this page in the journal of thoughts I speak. . .but. . .I am afraid, I fear him and yet. . .I am unconditionally in love with him. He is. . .my figure of affection and shall always be. If I am destined to die in the end, I wouldn't mind so long as it was done by his hands. I cannot prevent a demon's instincts of feeding on a human's soul and mine is--no. . .everything of me belongs to him. . .until the end.

That is correct. . .these two are the cause of my downfall to a perfect end. I suppose it isn't all that bad after all to be. . .

The unstable soul that I am morphing into now.