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Guess who's back! Hope you guys are having a great week :D

It being one of the hottest mosquito-filled months right now makes me so sad occasionally. What do you mean I'm going to be tortured by bug bites for the next month if I want to go on a night-hike during Marble Hornets month? This is torture. Standing at my window and looking at the trees wistfully

-Jay Merrick 🪶

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I can't do this again I'm not strong enough

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HAHA SO GLAD TO BE THE BEARER OF NEWS MOD ARK. YEAH THERES AN AU MINISERIES DROPPING IN AUGUST ON IF THE ORIGINAL EVENTS NEVER HAPPENED, TRAILER/TEASER IS ON TROY'S INSTAGRAM - previous jay

WAGNER WHEN I GET YOU.

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Genuinely started tearing up and almost crying over the new miniseries upon learning its an AU of if the original series hadnt happened. Because i have laid awake at night and agonized for years about that exact thing. Obviously it's still Marble Hornets, shit is going to go down, but im still. Augh. - Jay Merrick

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I'm alone again. It's not too different to source since I was the only survivor, I guess. It feels cheap, though. If I'd gotten to stay where I was I'd at least get the mercy of getting to drive as far away from that place as possible, or failing that find somewhere pretty to end it all. but now I'm stuck in a body that doesn't know how to drive, thousands of miles away from where it all went down. I have zero agency and zero ability to do anything.

TLDR; I survived Marble Hornets, and all I got was this stupid t-shirt

- (tim)

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Sometimes I'll pace at night, thinking about…everything. I used to think hate was the only thing I had left to hold onto, but I guess even that fizzles out through the ever merciful passage of time. No, it's just moments like these. Pacing in the dark, checking the locks while I listen to music on my phone. That's when I think about it the most. I'll look outside at the treeline, and feel something in my stomach drop when I feel like I should just walk out there barefoot and wait for something to happen. 

The way this house is set up, there are two doorways to the living room so  I never have a full view of it, but I'm sure to get glimpses while I'm aimlessly wandering. Every once in a while, something will catch in my peripheral, and my heart will flutter like an anxious bird. Sometimes I think I see a face, but it's just a hung painting, or a trick of the light. I never stick around to tell for sure what it is, but I'll rationalize it as that when morning comes. You probably know the feeling too, and if you don't I envy you terribly. I don't have any hate to hold onto, but I sure have a lot of fear.

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The creature that wants to kill you will not growl.

The function of a growl is as a warning. It is a communication that violence is available as a tool, but is not preferred. Other outcomes, besides your death, are available and should be considered.  Choosing a knife over a gun isn't always senseless. Sometimes choosing a knife over a gun is because death was never the preferred outcome. 

Can you really choose the outcome of something that's predestined though? I've found myself wondering. People who choose knives over guns, get shot. You know it, and I know it. The writing has been on the wall since the beginning, and I'm not interested in digging my way to hell so quickly. 

The creature that wants to kill you will not growl. If your death is the goal, then growling will only serve as a delay and may result in your escape, which runs counter to the goal.  There will be no growl, no warning. No hissing in the air, or warning signs. Sure, maybe you feel it.

Do you feel watched? Do you feel it stalking the treeline at night? Do you feel it in your dreams, or when you wake up in a cold sweat and have to make sure your door is locked? Do you ever feel eyes on you? Because I do, all the time. 

That's because it's already watching, and your subconscious is trying to warn you about what's to come. There will be no snarl or hiss or raising of hair. The creature that bares its teeth with the intent to kill only does so to bring its cold hands closer to your demise.

The creature that growls does not want to kill you, but will if it must. If that makes me a bad person then sure. Whatever. But if I'm going to hell, I'm sure taking whatever that thing is out there with me. 

-I refuse to put a name to this for now, so if you'd like to ignore this vent kinfession, I don't mind. 

(If i need to add more warning tags, do tell me!)

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Hey, it's been a while! Hope y'all are doing alright :) Things have been a little bizarre today, driving around my (bodily) childhood town.. feeling the same nostalgia Id feel if watching light-hearted footage of the Marble Hornets crew. It's so odd that Tuscaloosa Alabama almost feels more like home than the body's actual hometown, surrounded by a group of friends with something close to a common goal.

What Id give to go back, man.

- Jay Merrick 🪶

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being a mh fictive while our system hasn't seen a single episode is funny because we're also very maleable (gaslighting trauma, my belothed (that's a thing people say, i think)) so we'll see a piece of mh lore and suddenly I have new memories, or a slightly different personality

help me

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100% basically unrelated but we started tma a while back (were the one talking about the infestation of Jays) and...

Mood, man.

- Tim S.

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Some people have an infestation of rats.

Some people have an infestation of cockroaches.

WE HAVE AN INFESTATION OF JAY MERRICKS

- the Alex Kralie from that sys where there were 2 jays constantly recording...

There are now THREE.

AND I'M SCARED THEY WILL KEEP POPPING UP.

(Fun fact though is that they're all extremely different from each other, but still hold the identity of Merrick. I don't know why that fascinates me so much.)

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Sometimes I forget that I MH kin types & not just MH fictives. But. Man. I thought about the woods & the first time we recorded MH. Back when it was that project we were doing. Back when we were just fucking around, way before any of The Operator bullshit happened.

I just. How things change... Sometimes I think about the fact of. well. The places MH was recorded is close enough to me. I could go to some of those locations. I could go to Rosswood. That'd be. so crazy to do.

I want to be put back in MH. Like. I know everything that will go wrong, but put me back in it! Augh.

- Jay Merrick & Alex Krakie , ���🌀👑

(I got the double whammy on the kins /silly.)

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@ mr film camera brian,

your tim being the one to get wasted is really funny to me because i have almost the same memories but in reverse. my brian was the one to always get wasted and i was the designated driver HAHA

- car thief

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Rosswood. Put me back in there. I would rather go toe-to-toe with The Operator than deal with that fucking orange guy. Staying in shitty motels, not really sure where my next move would be constantly, desperately trying to contact anyone? yeah, sure why not. Put be back in there, coach.

- Jay Merrick 🪶

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craving being in the woods while you live downtown <<<< I'm desperate to wander a hiking trail guys, being around the trees would heal me right now.

- Jay Merrick 🪶 (yearning not A Man but A Forest)

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I just wanted to pop in to say I’m a fictive/introject of a MH OC from our old host (I am the new host) and in my memories Alex was my best friend since we were both six and we were practically brothers and it makes me so happy to think about sometimes…I feel like this blog is a very safe space to gush about my memories of my brother, and my boyfriend…just wanted to share !

- Q/🐭

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HELP I JUST SAW AN EDIT OF MARBLE HORNETS WITH FUCKING TEENAGE DREAM AND IT PUT ME INTO TWO ALEX SHIFTS AT ONCE- WHAT THE FUCK-

- Alex³

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