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oh by the way, these pieces are now up in my redbubble ✨​ !

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Ramil only 🖤​

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Drarry for hailey_lorraine_reads as part of a Fan Fiction Binding Exchange, broadway themed ✨

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Brief explanation for the symbolism 🤓

(please excuse me as I used google translation hehe)

Apple: The forbidden fruit. Neither Ramil nor Paytai is offering the apple to the other. They approach each other consciously and accept the consequences of a relationship that is outside the norm.

The bouquet held by Paytai (pink geranium and fennel): With the discretion that prevents them from openly expressing their feelings toward each other, the language of flowers conveys a message from Ramil to Paytai: ~Your kindness and beauty are my strength~

Brooch with a heather branch: The snake and the rose are Ramil's lineage, from which he cannot detach himself. Tied to it is a heather branch turned upside down, a message from Paytai to Ramil: ~You are not alone~

Emeralds: A promise and a declaration; feelings are mutual.

Devotion~

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Devotion~

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unbreakable bond~

thank you @soulless-baka :'D✨​

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unbreakable bond~

thank you @soulless-baka :'D✨​

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If you follow me, I will follow you to the unknown~

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us at the end~

continuation from my previous post :'D commission inspired by Skylar102 (on AO3) Pacific Rim AU fic series ~Meet Me In The Drift~✨️

Last week I was watching Pacific Rim and connected it with these commissions I've been guarding, it was finally the time to share this AU :'D

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On the edge between life and death, I choose you~

malec commission I did a while (a while ><) ago for Skylar102's Pacific Rim AU fic series ~Meet Me In The Drift~

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I received my commissioned artwork of Li Lun and Zhuo Yichen from @mariemarion today, and I'm in love! The perfect balance of intensity and intimacy. The look in their eyes. The beautiful lines of their hair and clothes. The sparkle! I couldn't be happier

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A soft, private moment between Daphne and Alastor <3 for a future scene in my fic can you believe Daphne is smiling? :') and the smug look on Al's face haha. I am absolutely obsessed with all the tiny details (Al's claws! the red water!) and the moonflowers ;-;

by the immensely talented and lovely @mariemarion, I cannot recommend her enough

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two malec comms from kofi :'D 🍃​✨​

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it me again :p

hi, how are you ?

not me posting under the keep reading line everytime i feel down xD

If I don't express a little of what I have inside I might explode, right? hehe.

Artistically talking, I'm still the same as last year, im very demotivated... My artstyle is tiring me, I've been noticing it for a while, the more details I put in, the more strange it looks to me, I cant find a way to do simplified works anymore, im obsessed with achiving "perfection", perfect lines, perfect shading, perfect shapes, perfect blending etc, but instead im overdoing everything, and my art looks like a big mess, that's how it is to my eyes and my low self-esteem might be doing its havoc by making it all look a lot worse.

As I have said, art is not a hobbie anymore, it's my income, the way I bring help to home. I'm traumatized from my former job, I was exploited with pretty promises and a miserable pay (that at the time I thought it was fair, cause I'm a conformist), the toxic environtment damaged my mental health and the work itself exhasuted my body to the point to having the worst Burn-out I have ever gone through, I'm affraid of working with real people again, to be abused again with smiles, cause I'm quite, I'm shy and I will hardly say "No" if they talk nice to me. That's why it's hard for me to even thinking of finding a job outside.

It seems unfair to complain about my current situation, because in comparison with said job, I'm doing pretty well (monetarily), I have recurring clients, I can help out at home with expenses, I can give my pets a good life. It's just the stress of feeling like it's still not enough that weighs me down, the stress of not being able to take a break, because that would mean that the income would stop as well. I think that every job has its difficulties, and being a freelancer it stick to this.

Anyway, I can still find distraction and content in other activities like baking, reading manga or watching some series and movies, but I don't find joy in joining fandoms, in drawing for fandoms, I feel very isolated and at the same time I don't feel like sharing anything. I'm this emoji 🧍x'D, ​I feel like I'm just there.

Things I want to do to don't feel stuck with my art: *Take some online courses about composition, theory of color, anatomy and perspective, these are subjects I have never really studied, it's never too late. *Resume drawing traditional, hold a pen and eraser again, fill those sketchbooks x'D.*Go outside more!

that all, thank you for reading ;)

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Hey hi ;D! Commissions for March/April are open ;)🍃​ ! 5 slots available ;)✨️

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I will appreciate all reblogs :_D! Thank you so much once again!

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let this be our song~

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