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For some reason, I just can't maintain being active on blogging. So here I am, writing only after almost a year has passed since my last post. Haha!

So to catch up...

I passed the PLE! I'm now a licensed MD :) Praise God!!

It's been around 6 months. Since then, I've just been doing online mental health consults and joining medical missions. I haven't taken posts on hospitals, although I'm thinking of doing so next year before I go into residency maybe.

I still dread going to residency because it means having to live far away by myself again. But I'm leaning on to pursuing Psychiatry. I feel like it is really where my heart is pointing to. I can't see myself doing anything else but Psych.

I do hope and pray I get into a psychiatry program next year. For now I'm just here chilling, trying to build my courage and stability before I hop onto the next part of my career.

In terms of lovelife, I feel like I have finally lost my interest in dating (even just talking). I've gotten myself too comfortable of being alone, along with the peace that comes with it. I like how I don't yearn for emotional intimacy anymore, which I used to be addicted to in the past. I like it better this way.

For now, I am occupied with the preparations for our upcoming church anniversary. Praise God I get to do these things for Him this year.

Also, it's been a month since I finished watching The Untamed 陳情令 and I still have an hangover. I listen to the OST everyday, watch clips and behind the scenes (because apparently it has made its way to my social media algorithm), and even try to dress up inspired by their costumes. I'm also busy admiring Xiao Zhan, Wang Yi Bo, and Song Ji Yang. I still can't get over at how beautiful this masterpiece is. I ordered a chinese bamboo flute and it has yet to arrive, so the next time I post an update here, it has to include my experience on playing the flute - if I was able to play well or not haha! I am excited! So for the mean time, I just make vocal covers of their osts. Ahhh I love chinese traditional music, so beautiful.

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Just a random post

Today I'm studying Surgery for the boards. I'm really praying I make it. I'll look back on this post when I pass hehe

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WISH YOU WERE THE ONE ~

Okay, so for the very reason why I'm in tumblr again.......

I just watched another Bella Padilla-JC Santos movie called Wish You Were the One (or something like that)

I think I'd give it a 7/10? I did enjoy the movie, and felt so much feels, but it just got a bit weird towards the end (at least for me). Suddenly it became a series of "huh?" "Ay?" "Ha? Ano ba talaga" :((

[SPOILER ALERT] And I'm not happy with the ending. I just thought maybe it would have been nice if it just ended there when Astrud and Jordan ended up together, and that we can end it with the conclusion that you don't necessarily end up with your soulmate :))

Astrud and Ellis meeting again a year later and revealing that Astrud's marriage with Jordan didn't work just felt so.. forced :< Not gonna lie, I'm so disappointed with that ending haha!

Nonetheless, I enjoyed the movie! As always, Bella Padilla never disappoints with her acting. The way she throws her punchlines is just organic and graceful. And her tandem with JC Santos is fire, not in a kilig way but more of a "mapanakit" kind of chemistry. Hahahaha!

Bella usually creates her movies but I'm not sure if this is hers as well, but I'd say: Over-all, it was great. The way the stories were sewed in was so smooth. Also, Astrud's lines were witty and I'd say, very post-pandemic-coded. XD

As for the story, Idk. I already knew what to write as I was in the middle of the movie but the whole narrative changed after that plot twist by the ending so it's all messed up in my mind now and I'm already too tired to think haha!

And I'm sleepy now too so I'll wrap it up with a.... fine 8/10 na nga lang. Hahaha

Do I recommend it? Hmm yeah I guess, if you want to feel something or if you want to cry some tears (I did huhu)

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It's been 4 years and I thank You, Lord

It's been a while since I posted something here on my tumblr. It was back in 2020 when the pandemic just began and my dad was diagnosed with lung cancer.

Tonight, I logged in on tumblr and saw my profile photo. It's a photo of me wearing a laboratory gown because, back then, I was only a second year medical student. Now I have my doctor's coat. 4 years have passed and a lot of things happened since.

To fill in the gaps, the first major thing I would say is my dad passed away that same year. But just as how I trusted God that He'll make a way through all the challenges I listed then, He really never failed to make a way - Travel possible in the midst of pandemic. All hospital bills paid. No delays in medical school. Financial providence. Everything.

I remember how desperate I was - for answers, for solutions, for miracles. It was and still is the darkest year of my life. And I'm very thankful that my Light didn't leave me and that He continued to shine for me.

I graduated medical school, survived medical internship, and lived alone in a city and province that is foreign to me. Faced a lot of challenges physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually.

Now I am preparing for the boards which is in 2 months. And I don't know how I can make myself driven to study hard. I do feel pressure, but for some reason I've been so chill. I don't spend a lot of time studying. I'm distracted, stressed, and tired. I really don't know how I'll be able to survive this.

Again, I'll be relying on Your grace to empower and sustain me. I am very weak, limited, and imperfect. And i trust that Your power is made perfect in my weakness. Your grace is sufficient.

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Oceans will part.

In my almost 24 years of existence, this one is the most difficult situation I’ve ever been in. And I think, no matter the outcome, this will change me. This will mold my character. And God will be glorified. So no matter how pressing this gets, I have to endure for His glory. I have to persevere.

2020. COVID-19. At a time of pandemic. In the midst of community quarantine, closed businesses, online class struggles, and anxiety of contracting the disease.... my dad was diagnosed with Stage 4 Lung Cancer (NSCLC). 

The pandemic made things worse. 

1. My family is only relying on my sister for income because our family business, our main source of income falls under the tourism industry. And we all know that at this time, tourism is sleeping. How are we then going to afford treatment without income?

2.  Community quarantine. Today, we found out that my dad has to go to La Union for radiotherapy. Radiotherapy is an everyday thing, except for weekends. And it usually goes for 28 sessions. It appears we have to stay there the whole time because of the community quarantine. This is because going back home on weekends would mean we would have to be quarantined for 14 days in a quarantine facility. Our dogs became our concern too because we don’t know how we’ll be able to leave them for that long or if we can bring them with us.

3. I won’t be able to apply for a scholarship in med school for the next school year because the government won’t be accepting new applicants due to the pandemic. And just when I thought I could just finish this term, stop for a year, and then go back as a 3rd year student when everything is done, I got the news that we can only complete this term on the next school year, and that we only have that school year to do so. It means if I miss school next year, I’d be dropping all my 2nd year subjects, and so I’ll have to repeat 2nd year if I come back.

For every obstacle, we’re being told that there’s no way out except through HIM. He will make a way. He works in mysterious ways. He is the way. He is the only way.

I know that these questions will eventually be answered as God’s will unfolds. We will get answers. I’m excited at how God will show his faithfulness to us through this situation. I’m posting this for myself - to serve as a reminder that I only have to be still and allow God to fight this battle for us. I will definitely go back to this post one day, bringing with me stories of how God parted the sea for us. He will be glorified. He will be exalted. 

The man’s chief end is to glorify God and enjoy Him forever. So even in suffering, I will raise a hallelujah. All glory to You, Lord!

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Which one of us is more pitiful ?

Me who can't forget my memories for the rest of my life ? Or she who had to forget her memories to live ?

(Lee JeongHoon)

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Find me in your memory

What is more pitiful? Living without being able to forget any of your memories including the bad ones, or forgetting part of your memories so you can live?

I think the former is worse? Because you have no choice. You will keep remembering, and you will keep reliving the bad memories. They will haunt you forever. And it will be hard to live. 

On the other hand, forgetting good memories is indeed sad. But if you’re the person who has forgotten the memories, it won’t affect you at all because what you don’t know won’t hurt you, ayt?

Idk if i’m just being biased. I really want to forget some memories right now :))))) Doesn’t matter if it costs the good ones. I can just create new good ones!

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Memories of the Alhambra - My New Fav Kdrama!!

Okay, I’m so into this kdrama - so much that I’m blogging this despite having to go to school in the next hour!!

So why do I love Memories of the Alhambra this much???

1. The story revolves on an AR game and that’s enough to catch my attention!! It wasn’t that catchy during the 1st ep but I swear that it gets better!! Again, IT GETS BETTER. So don’t stop!

2. Unpredictable story plot. Every time I end an episode, I just couldn’t help but formulate my theories about the stuff that’s happening in the series. And when the revelation comes, none of my theories are correct! Man!

3. The love story is just so pure No cringe moments [for me!!]. Usually, kdramas show how guys express their love for their girls which makes us, girls, fall in love with them and have them as our ideal guys! Right??? But in this kdrama, no! It’s more on the guy finding love when he thought he wouldn’t be able to do so anymore.

4. Hyun Bin and Park Shin Hye = great chemistry <3

5. Park Hoon (Dr. Cha) is sooooo good at this art, I swear.

6. Not a horror story but sometimes it gives me the creeps. The way they designed this kdrama is just so unique and amazing.

7. Great cast!! Everyone was doing a great joooob. Perfection <3

8. Awesome computer effects!! And sounds!

9. How can I ever forget about PARK CHANYEOL??? He really did an amazing job as Jung Se Ju.

10. SPAIN looks good. Imma want to visit there someday, esp in Granada!!

11. Everything is just a perfect to the point that there are times I feel like I’m already living inside the drama. So perfect!!

Go watch it guys!! There won’t be any regrets, I tell you!!

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Never Not Love You

Because someone posted a full video of this movie on facebook, I watched it last night. I remember seeing the trailer for this movie some time last March, when I was in Baguio for my internship, but I had already forgotten what it’s all about. So last night, I started watching it without knowing anything about how the story goes. 

Apparently, it’s about a young couple who had to choose between pursuing each of their own dreams which meant they had to be apart for a long time because the guy (Gio) needs to go to London to work while the girl (Joan) needs to stay in the Philippines for her dream position, OR one of them has to sacrifice just so they can be together.

So at first, Joan sacrificed her dream and went with Gio to London. Because Gio insists that he’s not going if Joan is not going. So she went with him. But she wasn’t happy (kasi naman from assistant brand manager to coffee shop assistant??) Plus, she’s the breadwinner of their family. So, ayun, basta they fought about it and then she came back to the Philippines to pursue her dream ulit while Gio was still in London. They were still in a relationship parin naman. Tapos ayun, happy ending naman. Toinks. 

Okay, thoughts?

1. Wait sobrang immature nito, but back when I was in my freshman year in college, I had a boyfriend who was a high school senior palang back then [high school lovers eh?]. Then, of course, application period na for universities ng mga seniors diba. And he was aiming to go to UST. And then there’s me na nagpapa-anawa (ano ba translation nito in tagalog or english? basta somewhat like nagpapabebe hahahaha). I even cried. I was begging him not to go to UST and na dito nalang siya magcollege with me. Laughtrip. Jeje times, sobrang immature. i’M sO sOrRRRRRry i’M oNly seBEntEen yEAAArS oLD HAHAHA

2. Reminded me of someone rin. He’s a pastor (well studying palang to be a pastor). He’s from Mindanao, and He just came here with some of his classmates for a mission in our church (VBS ministry exposure, I guess). We became close and ended up falling for each other (?) Tapos ayun, he wasn’t pursuing me naman pero he was, I guess, considering me as a potential lifetime partner. He said mag-graduate muna daw siya sa bible school which will take around 4 years pa (bcos 5 year-program eh.) So he asked if I was willing to work in Mindanao and I said nope. I guess dude forgot I'm entering medical school pa lol so ayun, guess what happened? Wala, we went our separate ways. Strangers again XD (If I have time, I’ll write a separate post about this haha)

3. Aral muna. Career muna. Ministry muna. Love can wait. There’s a season for everything. 

4. But then again, God will decide for the time kung kailan niya ibibigay yung taong para sa akin. Pero I’m praying na sana not anytime soon. XD Sana after med school hahahaha

5. Who knows? Malay natin, siya parin pala ang ending ko. Awow. 

6. De, ito na. I’m not really a fan of JaDine, pero ayan I watched another jadine film lol over-all, it’s good! Di siya yung pabebe lang. Although nakakacringe parin minsan. Hahahaha 

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How do I do my devotion/quiet time with the Lord?

So I was asked with this question and I figured it would be nice to share some tips on how to do devotions, especially for those who are wanting to try but do not know where and how to start :)

But before anything, I just want to emphasize that the method or format for doing devotions do not really matter for as long as our motive for doing devotions is pleasing to God. Although it is true that we can know God's will through our devotions, we must remember that the main essence of devotions is having the heart to seek God Himself and to fall in love with Him deeper as we grow in His love.

Okay, I usually start by playing my “devotion playlist” on my computer, which contains christian music that really speaks what my heart speaks in terms of seeking and desiring God. As I meditate on the songs, I ask God to speak to me in a personal manner and I pray that I will be able to interpret His words the way He wants me to understand them and apply them in my life.

Next, I open my journal and write the date for the day. My devotion journal consists of many parts:

1. My thoughts and feelings for that day or as of that moment. I would usually write important things that happened that day or sometimes I’d write anything that bothers me. I just write whatever comes to mind, but it’s also from the heart.

2. God’s Word. Some people would read the bible from the beginning; reading one chapter per day. Other people would buy devotional books or download devotional apps that will give a bible verse to reflect on each day. As for me, I go to this website called ibelieve.com wherein devotionals from Proverbs 21 Ministries are posted. Each devotional consists of a verse, a story that makes us better understand what God is saying, a daily-life application, and a prayer. I believe that the method for getting the verse doesn’t really matter that much because when God wants to reveal something to us, He really has His ways of speaking to us. There's no such thing as accident. You were also meant to see each biblical post on facebook. God is speaking through other people too.

3. Reflect. After knowing what God wants to say to me, I would reflect on how His message is connected to my present season or situation. It answers the question "Why is God telling me this right now?" and "How do I apply this in every aspect of my life?". However, there will be times when you would think that God's message for you is somehow off-topic, or you just can't understand how the message applies to your present situation. Nevertheless, don't ignore the message. You still have to learn it and you have to plant it in your heart. Because, chances are, you will be needing it anytime soon. Devotion is not just about knowing what God wants you to do in your present situation. It is also knowing God's will to prepare you for future things to come. And as mentioned earlier, the main essence of devotion is seeking God Himself  -- to get to know God and His attributes so we can love Him deeper.

4. Prayer. I always thank God for speaking to me and for revealing to me things that will help me grow as a Christian. It also helps when we humble ourselves down before Him and acknowledge that apart from Him, we can do nothing. I'd pray that He will put in my heart the things that He had just revealed to me so that I will be able to act according to His will. In short, this prayer is more like a response to His revelation or message to me. By the end, I also put a "thank-you-list" for the things that happened that day that I am thankful for, "sorry-list" for the wrong I did that day, and my "short-term-prayer-list" for the things I want to ask God for which will be answered with a yes/no/wait really soon (usually for the next day).

So after writing my prayer and actually praying it, I go to the next part of my devotion which is my prayer list. This prayer list is for long-term prayers. I continually pray for these things every day, such as my personal health, my spiritual growth, my lifetime partner, church ministries, my schooling, my daily needs, people who I want to reach out to, family and friends, etc. Because my prayer list has been growing and it was already taking me 2 hours to finish my devotion, I made a schedule for my prayer items:

Monday  - My personal matters (health, spiritual growth, family, etc) Tuesday  - School & Career (board exam, med school, etc) Wednesday - Church (ministries, pastors) Thursday - People to Reach Out + Prayer Requests of other People Friday - Lovelife and lifetime partner (not just mine, but also my friends')

Then after praying, I meditate on one or two more songs. Then it's done. :)

Writing a journal is optional, but I highly recommend having one because it serves as a reminder of God's faithfulness in our lives and we can really see how God works in the lives of those who steadfastly seek Him. It is also helpful when you want to look back on the times you trusted God and realized later on that it was worth it. Very helpful when you want to testify of how God worked in your life. :)

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My Crazy NMAT Experience!! [+tips!!]

Hello! I know this is just one of the many blogs about NMAT but I’m still going to share my crazy experience last October 2017 NMAT! If you’re not interested, then just move on to the tips part below!

Although I haven’t registered, I started reviewing (reviewing kuno) August. But it wasn’t a serious review. I just brought out my high school chemistry books and refreshed some concepts like electron configuration and covalent bonding and such. I really took time because I couldn’t remember anything from high school at all! But because of the lazy person that I am, I ended up finishing only 2 chapters. (Good riddance, sobra, you’ll find out later sa tips part!)

First semester of the school year came in 2nd week of August and it got me so busy with my thesis that I absolutely had no time to review!! Of course, it is also the same case with my other classmates, so we registered within the last week of registration period. I swear this is not a good idea and I’ll tell you later why!!

After registration, you’d think we’d start reviewing for real but when you’re working alone on a thesis and cramming to meet deadlines in school, you’ll have no time to review talaga. But the good thing is, we had 1 week break from thesis after we submitted our data to our statistician for statistical treatment. And it so happened that, that 1 week break was the week prior NMAT. YAAAAAAY! But sadly, that was also the week my family and I were going to be in Manila and won’t be home until Wednesday night. PSHHHH.  That left me with only 2 days to review (Thurs and Fri) because we traveled to Baguio Saturday morning (IT TOOK US 7 HOURS FROM VIGAN WOW) and NMAT day was Sunday.

And NMAT day came! As soon as I woke up, bad news. It’s the first day of my monthly period. And it means… painful menstrual cramps. I also got allergies from the cold too. During part 1 (morning session), the cramps weren’t painful yet but it was distracting. My runny nose was distracting too. It was making me feel lazy. There’s even a reading comprehension part, and I had to re-read every passage because I couldn’t focus! Re-reading like there’s no time limit huhuhuhuhu but I’m really glad I was able to answer all questions just in time!

Lunch time came, the cramps were getting worse. I took meds and put my all-time favorite white flower. It was still bad during the afternoon session, but thankfully, it got better and better.

What is my NMAT score? Secret. :((( It’s not high but I passed the cut off for the medical school I’m going to (which is not a top med school so don’t expect a high rating haha). But yeah, it should be okay because of my crazy experience lolololol

And the most awaited part… the NMAT tips! But before anything else, I’d like to notify you guys that some of these are tips I got from other blogs which I found really helpful during my NMAT experience pero can’t remember na kung saan ko nabasa huhu. I’m not taking credit for anything though unless otherwise stated XD

NMAT Tips

Tips for when you don’t know how to start reviewing for the NMAT:

Register early. After registration, the CEM will send you a practice set for the NMAT (in pdf format). The earlier you register, the earlier you get your practice tests, which would mean more time to review.

Your primary review material should be the NMAT Practice Set, and not your high school textbooks. I trusted the blogger who said this and it didn’t fail me. This is important to follow because the NMAT practice set has the same exact format as the actual NMAT test booklet. During the actual exam, it will cost you less time trying to find out what the exam is like because the practice set has already made you familiar with the format. In short, you already know what to expect. You already know your way around.

Answer the NMAT Practice Set and Rationalize your answers. You can start reviewing by answering the practice set yourself. Check your answers using the answer key included in the set. From there, you’ll know which topics you need to improve on.

Google the question verbatimly to get solutions and answers. This is really helpful especially to physics, math, and chemistry problems. If you don’t know how to solve a problem from the practice set, type the question in the google search bar verbatimly (as it is). There are people who asked the question in yahoo answers or in quora where netizens replied with complete solutions. From there, you’ll know the formulas you will need to memorize. As you can see, the practice set and the actual NMAT test booklet mostly share the same concepts, only having different questions.

Spend greater time reviewing subjects you are weak at, and lesser time for subjects you are good at. If you’re a psychology major like me, you can skip reviewing for social sciences. Or if you’re a physics major, then physics will be a piece of cake for you.

Practice Inductive Reasoning. There are a lot of practice sets for inductive reasoning (the one with figures) on the net (but I didn’t practice huhu). The ones on the NMAT practice set seemed easy to me so I thought I was already okay with that. But when NMAT came, it confused me a lot.

Do not review the day before the NMAT.

Tips during the NMAT:

Be in the venue early. My friends and I arrived in University of Baguio really early and the line going inside the university was already long. There’s a long line because our personal bags will be left at the gate and we had to be body checked by the officials. Idk if the same thing happens in UST and other testing centers.

Obey the rules. Gadgets are not allowed inside the building, including your personal mobile phones. One examinee was caught bringing her phone in and got banned from taking the NMAT for a period of time. CEM website has the rules, and they email it to you too, I think. Make sure to read them and obey!

Bring candies. I had candies with me during the test and I ate all of them. For me, it was relaxing. When I ate my candy, it felt less formal inside the room HAHAHA

First things first. The proctor may not tell you that you can choose which subject you want to do first, but yes, you can do that. The morning session is the aptitude test which consists of 4 parts: Verbal, Quantitative, Inductive Reasoning, and Perceptual Acuity. You don’t have to answer them in the correct order. It is best to take on first the subject you’re most confident at because there is a higher probability that you’ll get the answers right. On the other hand, leave the subject you’re weak at on the last part, so just in case you lack time, i will be okay because you’d probably be guessing anyway XD As for me, perceptual acuity is the easiest, so that was the first thing I answered. You can do the same thing in the afternoon session (Special Area) which consists of Biology, Physics, Chemistry, and Social Sciences. I placed Chemistry at the last part because I’m not good at it. XD

For the reading comprehension part (under verbal), read the questions first before reading the passage. This is helpful because you already know what you’re looking for while reading the passages. Unlike if you don’t know the questions prior to reading, you’ll have to read the entire passage again to look for the answers.

For the number and letter series (under inductive reasoning), answer this part by using a scratch paper and write the entire alphabet in a horizontal manner and write a number below each letter (1-26 in chronological order). In this way, it is easier to see patterns. (Scratch page is provided!!)

For the identical information (under perceptual acuity), don’t compare each choice to the given information. Instead, compare the choices with each other.

Bring your baon for lunch. You can actually just go out and buy lunch from nearby restaurants and carinderias, but you should expect that these “kainans” will be packed because of the huge number of test takers. You’ll only have less than 1 hour to have lunch because you have to go back to the gate immediately because there will be another long line before entering the building. So it is better to bring your own baon. (Idk how it works in other testing centers, but if you plan on taking it in Baguio, bring an umbrella because it can be really hot waiting outside the building after lunch, plus a cellphone game or a k-drama or a movie to keep you entertained while waiting). I was watching an episode of While You Were Sleeping when we were in line so I was kilig before the afternoon exam HAHAHAHAHA (I love you jung hae innnnnnn <3)

Tips After the NMAT

If the testing center is far away from your place and you have to take the bus home (e.g. I’m from Vigan, the closest testing center is in Baguio which is 5 hours away), go straight to the bus terminal after the test, catch the earliest trip if you want to travel home on that same day. Test-takers come from different provinces, and they are also going to ride the bus home. If you want to make sure you can get home that night, get the earliest trip. Most of the test-takers will take a later trip because they will tend to explore the place first before going home.

Pat yourself on the back. You were brave enough to take the NMAT. Regardless of how you think you performed, treat yourself for doing your best.

Don’t torture yourself. The NMAT results won’t be out until 2 weeks (or more!!). So relax, and don’t keep wondering if you achieved your goal or not. Go back to your normal daily routine or start doing something new. Don’t think about it XD

If you think it’s time to get the results but you haven’t received anything, check on twitter. Just type on the search bar “nmat result” or simply “nmat”, and all those people who are also wondering why their result is not out yet will be there assuring you that they also haven’t received their email from CEM.

When results are out, check yours immediately. If you passed the cut-off you want to achieve, celebrate! If you got a not-so-high rating but passed the cut-off for your prospect med school anyway (like me), cheer up! What matters here is you passed the cut-off and you can get into med school. If you didn’t pass the cut off, or if you got a low rating, it’s okay. It’s not yet the end. Don’t give up. You can take it again. It doesn’t mean you are not capable of being a medical student. Remember, a successful medical doctor is a medical student who never gave up.

Hey, we have to remember that NMAT doesn’t measure how much we deserve to become doctors, neither does it predict how good we will be as medical doctors in the future. As they say, there are a number of successful doctors today who didn’t have high NMAT scores before. And there are also those doctors who did have high NMAT scores. So regardless of scores, every doctor we have right now worked really hard to get to where he/she is now. So don’t be discouraged!! :)

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How I ended up getting a degree in Psychology

Don’t get me wrong, I’m loving Psychology! But I’d like to share how my first years in college seem to have messed up my entire college life and how it turned out to be God’s way of redirecting me to a better path.

The only choice my parents had for me was to study college in this St. Paul school here in our province. It is also where I had my secondary education. During high school, it was all about barkada and crushes. I wasn’t serious with my studies. I didn’t have any dream at all. I graduated without any idea what to take up for college, until enrollment for college came. The school announced that they will be offering BS Pharmacy. My mom suggested that I’ll take BS Pharmacy instead, to which I agreed to easily as soon as I found out that my high school bestfriend will be taking it up as well (Oo, grabe, ganun ako ka-immature noon huhu).

First year. BS Pharmacy. Our subjects were general chemistry, anatomy and physiology, biochemistry, intro to pharmacy, botany… HOY! SHOOKT AKO! I was never good in sciences back in high school (not that I was good in anything though HAHA) but I studied really hard this time. I studied and learned a lot, got good grades, and got into the dean’s list. This is also the stage in my life where I realized, “I think I want to go to medical school”. My dad and sister supported my dream, but my mom didn’t believe in me. For her, “Phase lang ‘yan. Tignan mo after some time, ayaw mo nanaman.” But hey, I can’t blame her. Even I, myself, was SHOOOOKT after realizing that because I didn’t come from a family of doctors. Everyone in my family is in the corporate world. (Late lang rin namin narealize though, na both sides in mama, may mga doctors. So yeah, I probably got the dominant gene, if you know what I mean. CHOS!) But I was determined. My dad’s plan for me that time was: I graduate pharma, get my RPh license, and he will set me up my own pharmacy, while I go to med school at the same time. It was our perfect plan. But I guess it wasn’t God’s plan for me. To cut the story short, the school year ended with an announcement that the school will not continue to offer the program anymore (I KNOW. SOBRANG ABSURD HUHU and no, we didn’t get any compensation!!) So the choice left for us was to shift to another course or transfer to another school.

Second year.  My mom was really adamant to make me stay in SPC because of the prestige and the religious education (although I’m not catholic). I shifted to BSEd major in biology, and I didn’t like it. I knew I could still pursue medical school after I finish with this non-premed degree, but I’d find myself crying in the middle of each semester because I wasn’t happy. I don’t know how it works for some, but I was in misery when I was majoring in secondary education when I never even wanted to be a high school teacher. I knew I could still go to med school, but I couldn’t get myself the motivation to learn all those educ things. So the whole year, I encouraged my mom to allow me to transfer to the state university.

Second year again. Yay! My mom allowed me to transfer and major in another course! My choices were: BS Medical Laboratory Science, BS Psychology, and BS Biology. My sister helped me choose for me. The questions were, “In case, you can’t proceed to medical school, which among the 3 will most likely give you a career that you’d want?”, Which of the 3 do you find the most interesting?”, “Which among the 3 do you think will give you more job opportunities?”. All my answers were Psychology. I had to be delayed for a year though, but it’s okay!

And ever since I made that choice, I haven’t had any regrets. I got my Bachelor’s degree in Psychology last month, and I can say that my college life wasn’t messed up at all. I really enjoyed Psychology. God’s plan is always the best. :)

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Actually...

I can no longer count how many blogs I have already started. My lazy and forgetful self just really can’t get myself to maintain one!!

Okay, as for the last blog that I made, I forgot the password for it. So I’m once again, starting anew. I will probably copy-paste my posts from my previous blog in this blog. So yeah.