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Don’t Drink the Water

buddie | T | 2.2k | first kiss, idiot4idiot, drunk eddie, jealous buck, the water/juice metaphor actually being used, alternating povs, tooth-rotting fluff, mutual pining, they’re both so silly here, so in love it makes them look stupid <3, some mild angst because they’re stupid

"There's steam coming out of your ears," Hen says drily, taking a sip out of her very vibrant cocktail, and Buck blinks, eyes dry like he hasn't blinked in a very long time.

"What?" he asks, trying to turn to look at her, but just as he's about to, Eddie throws his head back laughing and Buck feels himself sitting up straighter, ears perked up even though it's impossible for him to hear what they're talking about from all the way across the club. He should probably go check on Eddie. It's been so long and he really does need that drink.

"I'm gonna go see what's taking Eddie so long," he says, still not taking his eyes off them.

"I think we can see just fine from over here."

"I'm just gonna check on him."

"He looks perfectly fine."

"You don't know that, we can't see his face."

"We can, you've just been staring at his ass all night."

Buck's eye twitches, but he ignores her. "Yeah, let me go see what's going on."

(Or, Eddie chooses juice. Buck chooses him right back.)

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8b buddie is so funny because it's buck learning the lesson of being alone and trying to be an independent human being who can survive without clinging to others and eddie being like 'wait. no.'

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buck and eddie's unwillingness bordering on refusal to break up with significant others that they truly should not be with vs. buck and eddie's fondness and even passion for quitting the job they love

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if the 118 is going into season 9 without a captain anyway i think they should let every character be captain for one episode. it could be so great. the return of nightmare captain han. ravi spending the entire episode terrified because he feels in no way qualified only to end up having a clipboard buck-esque ego trip at the very end. buck tries his best but every time he doesn't get to run headfirst into a fire he stands there looking like a dog left out in the rain like :( i cant believe all my friends are in mortal danger rn and I DONT GET TO JOIN :(((( eddie's actually kind of good at it but buck keeps getting so flustered by eddie ordering him around for Reasons He Cant Explain that he kind of forgets to do his job and then he gets so upset about not supporting eddie or whatever they have to call it quits. at the end hen is like well. i know i turned it down initially but i dont think theres anyone the department could possibly bring in with enough experience both as a firefighter and cultivator of our beautiful perfect codependent family dynamic so i will do the noble thing and step up (the entire thing was a scheme to make her realise this). btw bobby's alive for all of this he actually escaped the government lab in episode 1 but he's too busy sipping shirley temples on the beach with athena to get involved in any of it

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get to know your moots! I was tagged by the wonderful @b0ybutch <3

favourite colour: red, I think? specifically a kind of dark & rich red. idk I feel like I'm kind of in between favourite colours rn lmao so I'm not entirely settled on it being red, but I do think I tend to pick it when offered a variety of colours, if that makes sense?

currently reading: I picked up gideon the ninth from the library two weeks ago, but I've only had time to read like 2 pages lmao

last song: the labyrinth song by asaf avidan. it's in my eddie playlist and i've been thinking about a vague, house of leaves inspired plotbunny again.

most recent series: tschugger! third season specifically because it just got to netflix :)

most recent film: john wick 4. that's three hours of my life that I'll never get back.

sweet/salty/savory: I do love sweet things, but I think if I had to pick I'd choose savory more often? but tbh that changes every time I think about it so. eh. (wait, does sweet include fruit? because if so, sweet all the way)

tea or coffee: I only really started drinking coffee regularly last autumn but I've been drinking A Lot of it since then... however I like to believe I'm still a tea person at heart. time will tell I guess, I'm rlly stressed rn and that favours coffee consumption for me lmao

working on: a lot of personal art stuff rn, I'm super mega busy until this Sunday, and then I can get back to focussing on the buddie queering the map fic :)

no pressure tags: okay gotta be real I have zero clue who's done this already and who hasn't so these tags are kind of a shot in the dark 😭 💜 @heartbreakfeelsogood @divorce-enjoyer @icebergeddie @etherealplans @guzmanstark and anyone else who feels like it!! tag me if you do it :))

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buck's defense of not being into Eddie because Eddie is straight is mostly about buck not wanting to look or feel pathetic. in my opinion. like he is in deep denial about his feelings for Eddie but also his constant harping on Eddie being straight is like. he is CLINGING to that in many ways but also "hopelessly pining for my straight best friend" is so telling to me about how buck thinks about it. he doesn't want people to feel sorry for him. he doesn't want EDDIE to feel sorry for him primarily, but he just generally does not want to be seen as a kicked dog about this. and in his mind if he has feelings for Eddie then Hopelessly Pining is the right sentiment for it. and that's what buck has been doing all his life in so many of his relationships, romantic and otherwise. and Eddie is something different to him, like a different category of person, and he cannot let their relationship fall into the same bucket.

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I know it's been said time and time again but I find it endlessly fascinating how Buck and Eddie both make everything about themselves but in entirely different ways. Buck can only interpret other people through his own feelings and Eddie can only interpret his own feelings through other people. My wonderful beautiful fucked up guys who I love so very much...

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911 | POSTERS SEASON EIGHT (part two) (pt 1)

*font used on gif 9 inspired by eddie’s writing was made by  @fiiiiiiiiiil

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Buck thinks he can’t have the thing he wants. Eddie thinks he can’t want the thing he has. Except they both want to have the same thing they both already have.

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911 gif meme: [1/1 arcs]: Eddie's Season Five Arc

I spent the last few months trying to put away a lot of things from the past and move on. What I've learned is, you can't carry someone else's weight. It'll take you under.

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so sweet knowing

buddie - explicit - 6.6k

Beneath him, Buck looks like he’s arrived on another planet, eyes glazed, mouth open and gasping for air. “Eddie,” he says. “Eddie, please, baby, oh god, please move, Eddie—” A bolt of pleasure hits Eddie brain first, then shoots down his spine. “Call me baby again,” he instructs, squeezing viciously until Buck chokes out a moan, “and I’ll move.” “Come on, baby,” Buck whispers immediately, “please please please, pretty baby, I’m going crazy, you feel so fucking good, baby, I wanna—” He hiccups out a sob as Eddie lifts up and slides back down, all the nerve endings inside him sparkling. “Good boy,” he moans, and Buck’s hands clench compulsively round Eddie’s hips. “Good fucking boy, let me, let me—” * Instead of taking the bachelor party to Chimney's hotel room, Buck and Eddie hit up a gay bar. The night goes... a little differently.

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Buck should be pressing Eddie into the mattress and I don’t mean for sexy reasons, I mean Buck should be lying completely on top of Eddie, all that mass, like a tree fallen over, like a tofu press, like a flower preserved between pages, just to keep him there when the alarm goes off or when he’s worrying about something, like a weighted blanket but one that smells like Buck, one that Eddie can dig his fingers into because for all that Buck is making sure Eddie can’t move, so too is Eddie making sure Buck doesn’t move one fucking inch. Buck always already makes it feel like his heart is compressing more than it should, why not make sure his whole body feels it?

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and just when you think you’re at your absolute lowest a blonde motherfucker comes along and makes everything so much worse

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holding his hand while I’m up in his pussy because. I get nervous

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Pondering the future and I think chimney eventually gets an air horn for when Buck and Eddie Mysteriously Disappear at parties because everyone's sick of going to look for them and finding them intensely making out around the side of the house or wherever so he can just blast it and they wander out looking disheveled

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on a scale of "ship war that rends the fandom in two" to "we invented a character for a decade-old MTV teen paranormal tv show played by ryan guzman for some reason" how deranged is the next immediate post-season finale hiatus period gonna be

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the good comphet repressed eddie diaz characterization that lives in all of our brains. the eddie diaz who doesn't even know who he is under the absentee father, the cultural machismo, the Only Son, the desperately trying to please strict parents, the catholic guilt, the forced marriage, the grew up too soon, the army training, the war zone, the running, the guilt, the abandonment. but eddie chose to be a medic and he chose to come back to his son and he chose to finally go against his parents and take chris and run, he chose to switch to a job where he can use his army skills to do good instead. eddie who somewhere underneath is a goofball and a bit of a bitch and a little prissy and loves to laugh

eddie who keeps trying to be with women he has no connection with, who can't have sex with his girlfriend, who developed panic attacks at the idea of letting one of them raise chris with him. all this being the same eddie who chose to let buck into his life and let buck help him when he's so stubborn about letting anyone help him. who chose to let buck into chris's life and chose to lean on him as a co-parent when letting other people raise chris is the thing he's most sensitive about.

eddie who prioritizes himself as a father first and a son second and a Man third and who doesn't put his own wants anywhere on the list

the way all of this is canon and somehow the writers have written one of the most intricate and compelling examples of a comphet character ever seen on television but apparently just don't want to stick the landing???