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HELLO HELOO i am. alive. ermm. ok so long story short i am very very tired and unable to do like. anything. :P oof.

here's a toby drawing i completely forgot??? that i did??? like months ago??? found it in my files while looking for any drawings I've actually finished recently and im pretty happy with it so I'm posting it here :''3

honestly i just haven't been happy with anything i've been drawing so only stuff i've done are studies because i want to improve but idk. i feel really self critical. yk how it is being an artist, never feeling happy with your skill level :p i'm working on it though, got pretty into traditional painting for a change? idk i'm trying new stuff to find inspiration. hopefully more art SOON (for sure this time) (idk if i can promise that)

okok health update:

been very very stressed out, basically. got bad again, getting better again?¿? got more help though, so i should be getting therapy maaaybe and help getting back into school, not sure, trying to make something work out. not looking at my phone has been helping

in other news; fall is awesome, love halloween !! birthday is coming up aswell, which is pretty cool 👍👍👍 been hanging out with friends again, which is very nice too. uuuhhhhh the silent hill 2 remake finally came out!!! and it's actually good!!! like really good!!! life has meaning again!!!!

TLDR: I am so very tired. but it will get better, for sure !! just need more time? maybe? in any case, i will be back to post more whenever i am able to. thank you for enjoying my art, it does mean the world to me.

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Hello guys

I had to take a pretty lengthy break from pretty much all social media, super sorry for just disappearing like that.

bunch of stuff happened, I moved back to my parents’ house, tried to focus on school, got kicked out of school lol, went through a pretty rough patch over all :´D

I’ve been trying to work on just pretty much getting my basic needs met every day (eat enough, sleep enough, drink enough water, shower, etc.) and even though it’s a bit of a struggle i think I’m starting to feel pretty stable and happy again. yahoo :3 !!! so yeah i feel well enough to be perceived on the internet again 👍

Since i’m currently a jobless dropout, I should have time to post more stuff i think (this is genuinely something i love, and all I rlly want is to make stuff that makes others happy so thank you all for supporting my goofy and dubiously cringy creepypasta posting)

List of things and stuff I want to do/post/focus on:

- commissions. nbr. 1 priority (unfortunately i become a bit of a perfectionist when i get paid to draw something T_T)

-reply more to asks. It’s fun and I want to interact more with people (just need to beat up the anxiety demons)

-literally just draw more.

-maybe perhaps even post about the eyeless jack AU story thing i have been brewing in my mind…….. maybe.

-also i’m trying to do artfight again this year. bit dubious how much i’ll actually get done but oh well.

Anyway, thanks for reading lol.

here's a couple of little sketches for you o7

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alright guys come get your food

zoned out and finished an old sketch in one sitting cuz i missed drawing him :(((( also felt bad for not posting anything lol :']

anyway i'mmm alive!!!! and my life is back to being prettty stable!!!!!! yippee!!!!!

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oughhhh life just beat my ass for like a month straight jfc. had a lot of very not good thingsss happen in my personal life and i haven't been able to do anything productive, so uhh sorry about disappearing </3 i'm on summer break now tho so i hope everything will get better (???) apologies.

anyway uhh have a sketch of jack i did months ago but never posted bc it's kindof lame but i also haven't drawn anything new in weeks (、._. )、

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I've been on a nostalgia trip again (as i often do) and feel the need to share art i made of my very cool and epic oc when i was 10-11 years old. enjoy <3

i don't know how i had the absolute audacity to make her so unironically edgy. it's beautiful really. beyond parody. i love her. (my pfp was actually inspired by the design)

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lol super quick and low effort 'classic' eyeless jack bc oughhhgh im tired today (* -_･)oO○

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another peek to my sick and twisted mind

pretty sure i haven't posted any slasher art?? which is sort of wacky considering i love slasher films probably as much as creepypastas?? (fyi my top 3 movies are black christmas, texas chainsaw massacre and halloween. + my favourite overall franchise is scream. v generic but ay man theyre good lol)

anyway im pretty busy working on commissions rn solike I'll mostly just post whatever silly warm-ups i do lol

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commission info !!

hi so some people have been asking if i did commissions, so here's all the info things lol

super grateful to anyone that decides to commission me, i promise to try my best to make it worth it <3

terms and stuff:

- i'll start working after receiving half of the payment, and the rest will be paid after the work is finished :]

- you can request any specific poses, colors, etc. if you'd like

- you can also ask me to change or tweak anything !!

- payment via paypal

- feel free to ask any questions lol !!

(btw the headshot example is just a sketch, it would be obviously fully rendered lol)

anyway, you can help a silly art student pay his silly rent !!! and get a neat little picture !!! a great deal if you ask me.

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ej commission !!

CW// blood

had alot of fun with this :] ♡

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in celebration of it finally being warm enough for me to wear my "omg it's just like tim from marble hornets :O !!!" jacket, i did a silly sketch of us hanging out (incredibly self-indulgent 4 sure, but i would argue; what's even the point of being an artist if you cant draw silly self-indulgent picturs of whatever 🤨 i rest my case.)

bonus epic never seen before breathtaking unbelievable groundbreaking face reveal 🤯 [REAL] (NOT CLICKBATE❗❗)

o yea and btw since surprisingly many people have been asking about commissions I'll post a info thingy sooooonn :3 (been meaning to do it for a while but uhhh I've been procrastinating oopsi)

also sort of obligatory psa; i do not condone smoking, it's seriously very bad for you (ik it gets said like. all the time but like,, take it from the guy whose physical health is already deteriorating in part bc of it) also !!! please don't shame anyone that does, it's not going to help them and might even make things worse. The best way to help someone with (most) addictions is (usually) to offer support to them and not judge them. Also good to remember that you can't help someone if they don't want it, so forcing it will often cause more harm :] (idk ig this is like talked about all the time, but since it also affects me and alot of my friends i thought id mention it) (also im in no way a professional !!!! just talking from personal experience :P)

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i think about him alot

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what if i gave him a new backstory and name hahahha wouldn't that be funny

found out that the original slavic mythos on vampires is pretty rad and uhh i kinda based him on that lol (basically from what i understand, it was believed that anyone who dies a certain way can change into a sortof undead monster thing that eats human flesh and blood.) idk i think it has some cool potential for the character :] it was also mentioned that the 'vampires' skin can also chainge which also fits with the character lol (though it said the skin would turn more red than anything + im not 100% certain if it's actually a part of the "canonical" lore but uh. still cool)

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life update ig ??:

hi hi hi hi hi hi hi !!!

ok so

1. i mentioned about having medical issues and some people got concerned so i just want to quickly explain the thing yk; in short it turns out having anxiety can cause heart arrhythmia ????? which can be like kinda dangerous;; but like in most cases it's fairly harmless so i should be alright :] !! still have to go check it out at the hospital (which i have been sorta putting off for a while bc yk. anxiety,, lol) but like other than it stressing me out a bit, everything is relatively fine :]

2. school is kicking my ass rn 💀 have a lot of unfinished work and missed a ton of classes bc my mental health kinda sucks,, so yk it's not exactly going great lol. but uhhhhhhhhhh im sure I'll figure it out ? ig ?? ye.

3. got a small art block. well it's more like "i have so much work to do, how dare i draw at a time like this" (and then just go to sleep bc im soo stressed and overwhelmed about everything 💀) but like. I'll probably get over it soon 🤷

idk i also just feel super obligated to always post super high effort paintings if i have many followers yk? like alot of the time i just feel like my drawings aren't good enough and everyone will like despise me for it;; and idk ig i just need constant approval for everything i do for some reason sjdhjshd. ik it's like. a really inaccurate and terrible way to look at it but i just can't rlly help it;;

uhhh all that to say, i hope it's alright if i post more sketches and unfinished drawings ? ;;

4. i would like to formally apologize for barely responding to literally anything. like. im so sorry dudes;;;;;;; unfortunately i have. very intense social anxiety and literally do not respond to anyone ever. (/srs it's like. a genuine issue in my life. whoops) but like i feel super bad about it bc i don't want to seem like i don't care T_T cuz lik e. i literally read every comment, message, tag, etc. and they always make me so so so happy ;;;;; like i routinely show screencaps of random comment to my friends gush about how nice they are 💀 idk point being; im a loser, i love all of you and it blows my mind that anyone cares about my silly drawings for a p much dead fandom lol.

extra: also i uh made a creepypasta oc 🧍‍♂️might post about him maybe idk im scared it'll be cringe sjhsjsgdhgdhd epic

TLDR; pretty stressed, small art block, school suckz, might die but probably not lol.

(sorry this came off super negative and sort of venty 💀 its all good i swear, im just silly)

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I'm constantly conflicted between drawing characters as close to canon as possible vs. changing the design to fit my headcanons better,,,

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omg look it's everyones favourite pasta man !!!!

you can see how little time i spent on this by how awful the glass looks in addition to the fact that he has three fingers. whoops

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happy ben sketch warm-up thing yippee !!!

btw apologies for lack of art. have had some medical issues w my heart orwhatever. dw about it lol

anyway thank you all again for the support, honestly it means alot :] i hope i can post more art soonnn <33

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Your artstyle is so HOT ONG

I love all of your art, literally every of your art

I love the ben Drowned art, AAAAA!!! HE IS SO PRETTY I CAN'T

And I love u sm, cause on valentine day, I was lonely, af, and I saw your EJ valentine art? Omg, you are sending me to heavennnn!!!!!!! *Straight to heavennnn*

And I saw u said that its okay to put it as lock screen so can I pleaseeeeeeee, use your benny boy art as lock screen, if yes then THANK YOU SO MUCH

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hsgshgsjfshdg thank you somuch 🫶

and yes !! u can use my art as your lock screen :] <3