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hi lovies…………………..

i think this might be it for now, not with shifting, and not with writing, and not with magic or manifestation or whatever term we're burning through this week. just with this version of me and with this version of the space and with this little corner of the internet where i've been both held and hunted.

i’m deactivating this blog sometime tomorrow.

i always thought i'd stay, or at least disappear for a bit and then come back in a blaze of historical revisionism like, hi guys, i had a child in a past life. her name was julie. anyway here's how the plumbing worked. but i truly don't think if i can do that now. or not yet, or not like this.

and maybe that's a betrayal or a plot twist or a necessary limb amputation before the rot hits the bone marrow, maybe all three.

truth is, i don't feel safe. in the actual, literal, legal-definition, report-it-to-the-site way. someone is stalking me and i've been harassed and impersonated and threatened and envied. picked apart like roadkill on a highway no one even wants to drive on anymore.

this place used to feel like my room. not my stage, not my arena. my room, meaning messy, safe, maybe a bit stupid, maybe a bit brilliant. i used to write posts with hope and a very real belief that i was helping people.

and you can say that's the price of being visible, of being correct, or of being incorrect, of being good at what you do. and i guess that's true, but it's also such a boring lie.

i'm like 2 weeks into being 17 in this reality, and i'm already so, so, so, so tired, and i'm crying writing this, and i feel sick that i even have to explain why.

and no, i'm not a perfect person, obviously, i've been defensive and i've been stubborn and i've made people mad and i've posted things i regret and i've left up things too long and i've trusted the wrong people and i've said too much and i've said too little. but never, not once, did i want to hurt anyone, never, not once, did i want to build an empire just to be burnt at the stake for it.

i doubt that i ever deserved to be called ridiculous when i was hurting over being mocked or reading someone saying they scripted that i get cancelled in their dr. and now i know how joan of arc felt💔💔💔💔💔

and still, and still, and still, and still, i wouldn't undo it.

this account, this little blog, this weird, overactive, overcaffeinated brain i cracked open for you all like an egg with a bibliography. it truly changed my life. you changed my life.

every ask, every affirmation, every time someone said "you made me feel like i could shift." every time someone messaged me at 3am to say "i just did it. i'm there. i'm home."

you were the ones who kept me here and you were the reason i stayed longer than i should've.

and you will be the reason i come back, maybe in a month, maybe whenever. maybe when i've built a family in god knows what ancient civilisation.

until then, please, don't give up. and if you do give up, don't punish yourself for it, it's not a sign of failure, simply a pause.

shifting is still guaranteed, always, it is a metaphysical inevitability, it is yours. it belongs to you because you decided it would. you don't need to "deserve" it and you don't need to be good and you don't need to earn it like it's a nobel peace prize for mental stability, it is yours.

that's the whole point of shifting. it's an extension of you.

so script the stupid things, script the cat that meows in french, script the dad who didn't leave, script the version of yourself who remembers every birthday and never flinches when someone says i love you. script safety and script softness and script freedom.

you don't have to perform belief, you just have to live like you're already there.

this is me saying thank you. thank you for reading and for listening and for watching me try and for making me feel like i mattered and like i was helping. like maybe something i said meant something to someone who needed it.

i really hope it did, and i really hope you don't forget me.

be safe. be free, be gone. i love you i love you i love you.

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day four of @hrrtshape manifestation challenge

”i get what i want without asking twice”

so after my exams i wanted to take a nap but i was a little hungry so i just decided to go to sleep and make something later, but i felt like i was craving a burger sm so i js decided that when i wake up my mom would offer me to get burgers or get them herself and guess what happened when i woke up my mom told me that they already ate and brought me some when i went to the kitchen i found two burgers of the ones i was craving!!!

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justmanifestit

I hear people all the time complaining about wanting a boyfriend, a house, or their dream job — like it’s the hardest thing in the world to get. And every time, I just say: JUST MANIFEST IT.

When I say that, people act like I offended them. They give me the dirtiest side eye ever. Like, no it can be that easy, I have been strugling with this for x amount of years. But honestly? It can be that easy. You can change your circumstances. You can do anything.

When you truly realize that, youwill want to manifest anything. Want cake? Just manifest it. Problems? Manifest a solution. Life isn’t about waiting for things to happen; it’s about knowing you have the power to create your reality.

We all manifest all the time just subconsciously. But you? You’re one of the few who actually knows about the Law of Assumption. That’s rare. Most people suffer, trapped by their circumstances. But you’re not one of them.

This found you for a reason: you weren’t meant to suffer. You were meant to have anything you want. Didn’t like the season finale of your favorite show? Just manifest a different one. Having a problem with your coworker? Manifest the version of them that’s easy to work with, or the version of you that handles it with ease.

You’re manifesting every single day, whether you realize it or not.

So when something bothers you, remember this: YOU CAN MANIFEST A DIFFERENT REALITY. Always.

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there is no plan B when manifesting

If you’re thinking about Plan B, then you’ve already decided Plan A might not work.

And that right there is the problem.

When you’re manifesting something there is no need for a backup. Why would there be? Plan B only exists when you don’t fully believe in Plan A. It’s a soft cushion for failure, a silent admission that "maybe this won’t happen," and the moment you entertain that thought, you’re already out of alignment.

Manifestation is not about hoping or trying or "seeing how it goes." It’s about knowing. It’s about choosing your reality and refusing to entertain anything that contradicts it.

The universe doesn’t respond to hesitation. It doesn’t respond to your fallback plans or your doubts or your inner negotiations. It responds to certainty — unwavering, grounded, undeniable knowing. The kind of knowing that says: This is mine. It’s done. There’s nothing more to figure out.

Neville Goddard said it best:

“Do not condition your desire. Just accept it as it comes to you. Give it all your faith. Do not ask how it will come about.”

You don’t need to know the how. You don’t need to prepare for what might go wrong. Your only job is to live in the end -> to mentally dwell in the state of the wish fulfilled so deeply that it becomes your only truth.

If you’re constantly checking for proof or creating alternate routes "just in case," you’re signaling that you don’t actually have it — that you’re still waiting for it, hoping for it, doubting it.

Drop the fear, drop the second-guessing, and fully commit to your desired reality as if it’s already here.

The 3D will begin to bend. Reality starts catching up. And suddenly you’re not chasing anything anymore — because it’s already yours.

Creation is finished. It was always finished. The only thing that ever needed to change was your mind.

So no, there is no Plan B. Because when you believe in Plan A with your whole being, Plan B becomes irrelevant.

— Quick reminders: ✦ You don’t need backup plans. ✦ You don’t need logic. ✦ You’re not here to play it safe. Everything is possible. ✦ Stop doubting and only have plan A

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i’d love to hear about a httyd dr!! i’m currently reworking mine and i always enjoy hearing about others especially since there’s like barley anyone going there

well tbh i haven’t scripted anything yet my main thoughts is abt my dragon I was thinking a razorwhip or a skrill cuz it feels so cool but a lightfury sounds tempting lol, samee its so sad i never see any httyd shifters its such an awesome world and it feels like an amazing experience like imagine hanging out with twins and heather or hunting with astrid, working with gobber and hiccup, and getting to meet all the other ppl we didn’t see in the movies or the series and literally flying on dragons!! ,nd tbh im dying to meet snotlout I feel like he’s soo funny in person lol

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day three of @hrrtshape manifestation challenge!!

”people like me for no reason”

so i didn’t really go out today i just went to the supermarket, and for some reason everyone seemed kinder like smiling when i glance at them and this old lady complimented my curls although i didn’t do my usual routine and i wasn’t really feeling it but she made me feel so happy,i gave our neighbours their bowls and their daughter give me a cup of ice tea!! she said that it must be hot outside when their house is literally a block away from ours lol and i got lots of likes on my ig story when tbh i wasn’t really feeling it when i posted it but the replies made me feel sooo much better about it,i call it a success it was a good day

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is anyone interested in httyd dr? its soo cool im so glad the old fandom is back after the new movie these movies and rtte has been a great part in my childhood and has always been an obsession i js love it sm and lately after the movie premiere i rewatched the old ones and it js made me want to shift there to experience flying high in the sky with my dragon or racing the others or going with hiccup to search for more dragons and explore the area i just think it would be such a freeing experience

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day two of @hrrtshape manifestation challenge!!

”i’m lucky to the point of suspicion”

i had a pretty good day like things i’ve been wanting for a while just happened!,i was able to call my long distance bsf for three hours after going two months not talking a lot cuz of time difference,my mom made one of my fav dishes that she rarely makes bcuz it takes time and the ice cream shop in my town finally launched their summer flavour that i have been waiting for a while now and i was one of the first ppl to get it, it was soooo good im totally going back tmrw for more,i had a peaceful lucky day overall a lot of cool things happened to me and im so grateful💕

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day one of @hrrtshape 14 days manifesting challenge!!!

im kinda lazy to do the entire introduction thingy but for day one you choose a word that you want to hear today so i choose the word (perfume) in my mothers language i set my intention and js forgot abt it less than 40 mins later i heard my father and brother talking abt perfumes!!!!

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notion + pinterest + spotify HATE to see me coming when im in a scripting phase

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Reblog if you say "fuck" more than 5 times a day.

I use it as a coma

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miss evan peters i wish he was real

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fan fiction isn’t enough anymore I need to inject James Potter directly into my veins

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miss him so much that i genuinely feel like my souls being torn in half

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im so in love with the knights of walpurgis but i dont see enough content of them i need itt everybody be js talking abt tom and they dont even characterise him right most of the time 🫩

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im currently watching the mentalist and omg patrick jane is soo hott like lisbon is stronger than me i would’ve jumped him or smt he’s so attractive

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me core 😔