meander-star-nomad

[meander-star-nomad]

((haha nevermind fuck this shit bye))

[meander-star-nomad]

You're just going to start bitching again when no one wants to RP with you so please just don't bother.

((noted, thanks.))

[meander-star-nomad]

no gross go away

((this helps my decision quite a bit, thanks.))

[meander-star-nomad]

((i am temporarily-I REPEAT, TEMPORARILY-bringing this blog back. but i will NOT be RPing.))

((not until i know how many people would actually RP with me.))

((if it's not very many, or if i still don't feel right about it, i will be closing this blog down again.))

((i think i'll give it until the end of the evening/before i go to bed.))

[meander-star-nomad]

I am the one who was harassing these tumblr users:

drearydrifter/liremarin and f-l-o-a-f

I am calling myself out for it right now.

I am taking 100% full responsibility for what happened between me and them, and will willingly accept any hate or condemnation I may recieve for it.

I don’t...

[meander-star-nomad]

[this blog is officially dead. go home.]

[meander-star-nomad]

At Dusk... ((Drabble))

Read More

[meander-star-nomad]

At Dusk... ((Drabble))

Meander sat on the edge of her favorite cliff that overlooked the lake, as she stared out at the red sunset sky with an empty, yet wistful expression.

It'd been about five or six months. She did this nearly every night. She hadn't gone out or socialized in forever. Most of her friends, save for her companion, Roxanne...had forgotten she ever existed.

She wouldn't meditate. She wouldn't go out for nature walks. All she did was stay inside, sleep, and make tea.

For quite some time over the course of those months, Roxanne had tried to ask Meander if she could say what was bothering her. Meander remained silent every time. Eventually, Roxanne realized that all she could do is try to be there for her friend. Every night, as Meander looked out at the sunset, all Roxanne could do is watch from the tent-flap...concerned.

...

The words still rang fresh in Meander's mind.

"I've HAD it with you! You're clingy, annoying, and selfish! I could put up with it for a while, but you've pushed me to my limit!"

"B...But...P-please..."

"Just...STAY AWAY FROM ME. I HATE you! I don't ever want to see you again, got it? I'm done with you!"

...

The memory of her friend's soft-furred silhouette storming off into the sunset...that was Meander's final memory of her. Still as clear as a film, playing over and over again in her mind.

She tucked her head into her knees and cried, just as she had that very evening.

She knew she was clingy. She knew she was annoying. And, okay...Maybe she was selfish.

But...she just wanted to be close to her again. That's all she ever wanted. Sure, she'd screw up and let her emotions get the better of her. But she never wanted to hurt anyone. It just...happened. And as much as she begged and pleaded, her "frenemy" would never cut her any slack.

But then...why SHOULD she cut me any slack?, Meander thought. All I ever was to her was a bother...I'm such an idiot...

Meander continued to sob. Memories of times when she and the soft-furred nomad hung out together...times when she even seemed to be fond of Meander...they kept coming on and on, like scenes in a movie.

Meander's sobbing became out of control, and she could hardly breathe. Of course, this was just routine for her by now. She clenched her eyes shut and wrapped her arms tighter around her knees until her hyperventilation finally passed.

She was..."calm" now. But only in the loosest sense of the word. Actually, she more or less just felt empty and tired. Emotionally drained.

As the red sky finally faded to the near-black of dusk, Meander slowly rose up and walked back to the tent.

As she approached, Roxanne swallowed her pride and tried once again.

"M...Meander?...P-please talk to me, okay?...D-do you wanna talk about wh-what's bothering you?"

Meander was silent, not even looking up into Roxanne's eyes.

Tears began to well up again. Meander fell to her knees and wrapped her arms around her zbornak friend.

Roxanne returned the embrace, which seemed to last an entire minute or two.

"...C-come on..." Roxanne said softly, realizing Meander still didn't want to talk. "I'll...make us some tea...o-okay?"

Meander nodded silently and followed her friend inside.

[meander-star-nomad]

i’m the one who was harassing drearydrifter/liremarin.

i’m owning up to it.

if you want, you can send me hatemail.

because i absolutely deserve it. i mean that. 100% honest.

i am a piece of shit and i deserve to feel that way. not her.

i won’t block. i won’t delete. i won’t report anyone for harassment. i will post everything without hesitation, no matter what.

seriously…don’t hold back.

do it.

[meander-star-nomad]

private-ops submitted:

~28 Days of Meander~

Day 27: Meander Encouragement

Have some encouragement from your muse to smile in your day~ ^u^

((Awww bby~~~~ <3))

[meander-star-nomad]

private-ops submitted:

~28 Days of Meander~

Day 26: True Friends

I've said it before and I'll say it many times: I will always be here for you, no matter what. Hang in there. <3

((Thank you...))

[meander-star-nomad]

((of course i guess it's my fault that i feel alienated since i pretty much brought it upon myself by being a literal shitstain of a person))

[meander-star-nomad]

((yeah sorry i don't rp here anymore it's just that i feel totally alienated and isolated here which is p sad because this used to be my main getaway from the rest of this shitty world haha what))

[meander-star-nomad]

private-ops submitted:

~28 Days of Meander~

Day 25: Genderbend

Guy!Meander~

((Awwwww <3))

[meander-star-nomad]

private-ops submitted:

~28 Days of Meander~

Day 24: Meander The Grass-Type Trainer!

I dunno, I wanted to try black and white. :3 And I played some pokemon yellow today. ^u^ Thus, this.

((Yay~~ >w<))

[meander-star-nomad]

private-ops submitted:

~28 Days of Meander~

Day 23: Muse Draws Muse

So I let Optie draw today. ^u^ He wanted to cheer mun up this time~

((CUTIES~))

[meander-star-nomad]

((relevant on here too))

i’d give anything if life on here could go back to how it was