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Sometimes i want to kill myself and record it for everyone to see, react and laugh. I shall be the final entertainment.

Every final entertainment has to go out with a bang, a big entrance to welcome it's person. And ends with a laugh and an applause from it's crowd to shower you into that amazing, AMAZING attention. The only time that people pay attention to your struggles, to your pain, to your torture. Even if it's jusst that, you're okay with it, attention is attention, you don't care if it's bad.

Behind those masks and curtain, you felt yourself crumble under that performers touch, the way the blonde gave those soft and gentle hands combing through your hair as your eyes stay still and pupils dialated with love, the way ou'll do annything for him even if it's just dying if he ask, you're a puppet in his strings and your heart. He comfort you, he worried for you, he cared for you, he for you.

Till' you join the manor, you never felt so abandomed even if it's his friend, you felt yourself so unbalanced in this place. You cry and cry and hoping someone see the signs and yet no one does, except that embalmer.

His gentle with you like how the blonde did, so you still like how you did. It's been so long.. so so long to feel like this, you cry, you never cried before. Even with the blonde, you felt your stomach churning and turning as your throat felt stuck. Vomitting onto the nearby trash can as the food you force yourself to eat came in bits and pieces and sludge of your puke. The greenish-brown colour didn't petrify you much as you overfed ypurself so you can feel full and empty, to relief that feeling.

"Why only you notice?"

"I'm very observant to those who i, find interest in."

You wanna laugh but you felt your stomach churning over and over as the sludge inside your throat throw itself out of your body as the embalmer watched, rubbing your back as to soothe you from this stress.

I'm not okay.

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Hiya there! Hopefully tumblr doesn't eat this ask😭

So technically; Lovesick

Y/N Cookie reunites with their long-distanced childhood friend, hangs out with them more, and then it makes the other cookies they've known jealous of the amount of attention received

cookies of your choice btw :3

Your request has been passed through the fog.

Cookie writing to day is 'Knight Cookie'

Far ago, you met a cookie at your age in your humble village before anything could happen. He was courageous and kind to other even if it's slightly selfless in its own right, he have good intentions as a child would have but you couldn't help the thought theres more with how close you two gotten in a short amount of time with the cookie. Whenever you're down, he would be the first to contact you and cheer you from the feeling of sadness, when theres something off. He would be the one who notice it immediately. It felt like two children being so close and the concept of 'love' was something foreign to you and them.

It was a sweet little childhood and a distant memory you would recall everytime a bad day would occur, wishing that cookie came back and continue living beside you. Its wishfull thinking, but you couldn't help but get reminded of the cookie everytime. He was there when you're down at you're lowest, when the dragon took both of your homes in the sea of fire and seizes to exiet from earth realm. You lost some friends, some family but he also lost them. You've found comfort in the cookie and sympahtize, you wished you could turn back time for a moment and met them again.

" i'm.. going to be a knight, to Holyberry castle." Those words of departure, it was a shocking revalation. " I'll defeat the red dragon, i promise." You don't care about the creature that destroyed you're home, you just hoped he is in good health. " please.. don't cry, i'll come back. I promise." A promise yet he didn't came, you wait everyday at the village gates if he came back. Always everytime with a gift that you could hope he would come.

Waiting...

Waiting...

Waiting...

Its been how many years? He departed when you two were pre-teens. Young enough to be a disciple of the knights, you pray every night that wherever he goes that he is safe from any upcoming danger.. he should've been married now, with a wife or husband and a dog. You've talked to him if he plans to get married some day if their gotten older, he always response the same.

'I want to marry you.'

A cute one, the way he immediately says it with no hesitance and the way he brightened up at your chuckle. You wonder if he even remember it, you look at the photo beside your bed ontop of a drawer.

It's a photo of you and knight. Smiling, it was an old photo albeit abit burnt but it still usable. You wonder if he remembers you. You look at the poster you have on your hand, a poster of a parade for princess cookie happening on Holyberry kingdom. A march across the kingdom to show victory of a recent knight recruits.

You've been catching up with some news of the Holyberry kingdom for some time, it was pricey since the village you're living in isn't too well off but it does the job. Your planning to come to the parade, perhaps knight is in there too?.

You sighed with an unknown expression on your face, putting the poster aside as you fall asleep on your bed. Tomorrow would be a busy day for you.

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Today, you woke up earlier than you usually do. Brushing your teeth, took a quick shower and looking your best. You glance at the poster ontop of your drawer as you remind yourself that it's for him. You want to see him after all these years of seperation, perhaps you still have a chance?.. its only a wishful possibility as you look at yourself in the mirror before taking off to the Holyberry kingdom.

As expected of the rich fruity kingdom filled with merchants and nobles trading their supply for something even more better. Ladies and gentleman chatting and bickering before the bell chimes on signalling that the parade about to start. You overheard some of the ladies talking about the knight and a princess being best friends or even more than friends. It tugs at your heart as you try to digest the implications of the words that they said.

You walk aimlessly at the crowd before another chime rolls around, signalling the parade is beginning. The large castle doors swung open slowly as carriages and knights lined, walking as well as marching bands with trumpets, drums and plenty of entertainment lined. You can hear the music, confetti falling and the excitement of people shouting with joy.

One perticular carriage caught your eye, it embedded a sigil, specifically. The Royal Sigil, you kept your eye on it as you squish yourself through the crowd to the front as you saw him. Knight with the princess as tears swell up in your eyes, smiling as you finally saw how grown he has been. He seemed more mature now, not cute like the past childhood you have.

You waved at him, hoping he would see as you two caught eye contact. The world felt slow down as the only thing you could focus on is knight.

"... [Name]?"

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Thank you for reading, there will be a part 2 for knights P.O.V and the ending.

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what is 2 + 2 oh mysterious writer amidst the fall autumn breeze

5, totally.

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Oh! You must be new! Hi! Welcome to the cookie run x reader community! I hope you enjoy your time here! There are so many stories and stuff written and can't wait to see what you got in store. Mind if I claim the name snow anon?

Also i kinda wanted to ask...what's the difference between drabbles and one shot?

Drabbles are like hc's but more indept and detailed yet small, while oneshot is longer and leaves out unnecessary small details and let the reader think of what is next.

Alsp hi snow anon! Thanm you for this question, and it isn't my first rodeo with the cookie run x reader community.

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THE STAR ALIGENED.

° you've found a wandering writer amidst the fall autumn breeze, i welcome you with open arms as my book and quill are head. What shall you need? Theres a limit of what i can gave, please listen carefully.

▪︎ welcome to my blog, i write for both CROB and CRK, soon will be TOA (towers of adventures by devsisters.) This will be updated of course.

I wrte for any characters as long as the wiki is attached to the request/ask. Please no copy and paste requests or bot requests, i write very slowly but i do write fast when im inspired or really like the idea.

▪︎ I write the following ;

Lovesick

Yandere

Gore / heavy / light

Smut / small smut

Headcanons

Prompts

Small drabbles

Oneshots

Series (if i post one, you can request that specific series if anything is attached at the end.)

Anything.

I don't write anything problematic.

'Racists, terfs, misogyny, ect will be deleted.'

Named Anon List

L o a d i n g...

-> snow anon

Listed Series

L o a d i n g... none?