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if i had a nickel for every time an anthropomorphic wolf made a comic about the system term "host"...

we previously thought we were hostless because we all fronted fairly equally. we realized this was just because we, personally, were in a toxic environment/mindset that had us under constant distress. when we tried to work through this more, we found that one of us, me, does front majority of the time, now that things are better.

our old host comic is still very important to us, regardless of whether or not we are a "hostless" system. it still resonated with many and brought some attention to a lesser-known experience in systems. for that reason, we are still very glad we shared it.

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mirror traps by hera lindsay bird

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01/30/2024

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system suggestion: love yourselves and yourself for who you truly are, flaws and all ❤

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meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow mew meow meow mew meow meow . ok?

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i have no idea what's going on in my life im just in charge of the music

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DID is simultaneously the most subtle, ambiguous disorder while also being the most intense, all-encompassing, extremely-personal-because-it-affects-fundamental-perceptions-like-memory-and-identity-at-all-hours-of-the-day disorder of all time.

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whenever I have buffalo wings I always wipe my hands on my dog and he screams loud as fuckkkkk

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Ok, I feel kinda confident in sharing it officially.

So, I started working on a website a while ago that is meant to be a compartmentalised journalling service. The goal is to increase communication between alters in a system.

The main feature is how each alter gets their own space to write, and then there's a "Communal Journal" that's open to everyone in the system to use. Users can use it as a bulletin board, as a diary that everyone contributes to, whatever suits you and your system. Lighthouse also supports multiple systems for one user.

There's also pages to log about your inner world, post system rules/internal boundaries, and any wishes or goals alters may want to achieve. You can even set what terms are used in place of "alter" and "system".

At some point, there will also be interactive worksheets that are usually used for DID or C-PTSD to also use if one so chooses.

My system leaves updates on @lighthouse-app (also posted on the info section)! But feel free to send an ask either there or here if you need help or have a question!

*Lighthouse was not developed by a medical professional, and is not intended to be a substitute for professional advice, diagnosis, or treatment. Always seek the advice of your mental health professional or other qualified health provider with any questions you may have regarding your condition.

Also-- We do not want to gatekeep who can and cannot use this. If this method of journalling is effective for you, than by all means use it! There will be no public sharing of profiles, alters, or messaging between users, so everything is private.

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our headspace rooms deteriorating into the same room our host lived in during the worst mental health crisis of her life must mean *something* right? idk lol

I don't really care but it's amazing how every room we have is just "so and so room but with a bed placed here or some miscellaneous items there"

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Does anyone else not give a fuck about something but you can FEEL an alter inside you feeling strongly on something and it’s like… Girl shut up. Stop making the body feel some type of way I don’t CAREEE

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