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I’ve moved!

Well, my blog that is. I’m over at nathan-esor now, and will try to follow most of my mutuals back. See you there!

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I’ve moved!

Well, my blog that is. I’m over at nathan-esor now, and will try to follow most of my mutuals back. See you there!

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people don’t really get that in japanese culture, respecting your elders is an astronomically bigger deal. like, hanzo was literally pressured from birth to fit into this role for him, and the entire perspective is so drastically different than western standpoint allows that i don’t even know if it’s even POSSIBLE for non asian people to understand. 

here’s the fact: hanzo has PTSD, he was psychologically scarred from what happened, and his stifled, fluctuating anger comes from the fact that in japanese culture, there just isn’t a way that you’re meant to express that. the weight of his emotions is something that he is not emotionally or psychologically equipped to handle in the context of his culture. until you understand this, no, you cannot judge him.

hanzo gets so much unnecessary shit from the fandom when he and genji were both complete victims of circumstance. there’s no other way to frame it. people just don’t get that psychological tangles and concepts of that nature are just, viewed so differently in japan. hanzo didn’t get to feel conflict, that’s not how it fucking works. he doesn’t get to yell at the elders and rebel like some happy fairy tale, when you have a position, you’re supposed to do it, and if you’re conflicted, you keep it inside. this is a culture where suicide is often favorable to allowing yourself to have a full on breakdown. there is little to no argument that hanzo absolutely contemplated (and may still be contemplating) killing himself. in some cases, SUICIDE IS SEEN AS MORE RESPONSIBLE. 

hanzo literally couldn’t bear the weight of what he did and abandoned everything trying to redeem himself instead of just killing himself to stop the pain (this is, again, the much more common option). this is combined with the stigma against mental illness (especially those like depression, anxiety, and ptsd) and the pressure to just keep it underneath, and the fact that suicide is also a common response to something that you are deeply ashamed of (sound familiar??). YOU CANNOT UNDERSTAND THE GRAVITY OF HIS CHARACTER UNLESS YOU UNDERSTAND THE MOTHERFUCKING CULTURE. hanzo is so much more complex and tragic than the fandom has ever portrayed him to be and i’m so sick of his portrayal. 

edit: this isn’t saying you can’t dislike the character, there’s plenty of reasons why, and hell, you don’t even need a reason to dislike certain characters. this is telling people that he’s exponentially more complex than the fandom gives him credit for (and very important to me as a mentally ill japanese person), and making or seeing him as a flat asshole/stereotype is really ignorant at best, fucking hurtful at worst.

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Thinking about doing a renewal of things, maybe including this blog... more to come later, possibly.

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me, a small town resident: *visits a city*

me: 

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skin swap requests from twittar!

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hello everyone good morning. I thought I’d share my babie cat enjoying nature along with his very tiny paws to start off the day!

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Wax seals being sealed is a fascinating experience

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YALL I CHECKED MY LOCAL SHELTER’S SITE FOR CAT ADOPTIONS AND

THEY’RE REAL

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friendly reminder that keeping plants in your house without their permission is slavery and kidnapping :)

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what a pretty face

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the entire personal story from the battle of claw island to the end is just series of trahearne saying gay things that make me blush and die and blush and die and also in addition the things he say strip what little remains i have of heterosexuality in my body

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“Sometimes I go back and replay living story episodes just so I can hear trahearne praise me and nerd out about his studies. I wish he were still around. I wish you could just chill with him when you do the reforged caladbolg…”

submitted by anon.

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the best validation

when a random player ingame stops for a bit to silently look at the outfit u put together on your character before going back to what they were doing

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The demise of Vine is drawing closer. I couldn’t stand the thought of all those cat videos out there being lost to the abyss, so I gathered a few (i.e. nearly 50) of my favourites.

I hope you enjoy this compilation of cats and kittens being funny, silly, or just plain adorable.

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Omg I could imagine Mel just up front saying this to Melandru lmao

My main asking the important questions.

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what if i straight up email this to matt mercer right now