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[melawth]

July 7th 2020 12:38am

Its really sad looking at how sad and lost I was when I was writing most of these posts. It really sucks that to grow I had to go through all of those terrible emotions and situations. Also im not even where I want to be yet which is also interesting, like... theres gonna be more of that. But also look where I am now. I have a clearer image in my mind of where I want to go and what I want to do. It just keeps getting better and better. Yes it does take a while but I have to accept that. It really only gets better from here I just have to keep on trying. Im glad I grew and am going to keep on growing. Also give it ur 100% always try harder and actaully do the stuff okkk. btw in quaraintine ugh so weird. anyways

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SOOOO PESSIMISTIC omfg.... jeez

hmmm the depth of my hope today could also be the depth of the wound tomorrow…

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THIS IS SO SAD... I WAS JUST SOOOOOO LOST!!!! Im glad im figuring stuff out now but wow.. 

I really just drift around aimlessly just sad my whole life?

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A lot of it resulted from not having a stable schedule and nothing to do all day... staying up all night and doing nothing but laying in bed all day.. The pattern

Also its like October 23 2019 10:16pm dentist app+volunteering tmr

5am

can’t sleep…:/

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Wow I was really stuck in a whole ahh endless cycle of having no idea what to do huh... Im glad I learned a lot about myself and figured out what to do with stuff this year <3 New mindset fr... It will only get better! I was sooooo pessimistic and lost I feel bad for Him.

is there ever anything to look forward to? once its gone its over and most of the time it doesnt work out?

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unforch porn bots follow any blog that has certain words listed anywhere on it including "porn" so like saying "porn bots dont follow" actually helps bots find you :/

that’s so infuriating wow

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just DO IT

just grow out ur hair..OBVS if it keeps looking weird with it being short..do somethig else/ just grow out the top loser... THANKS

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EW THIS THE HOE THAT REBLOGGED MT THING LSNDKD look at where she reblogged it from omg

Bored? join me here.

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wow i really do just exaggerate my place in some peoples lives sometimes o_O then im just like... wow i did that and i dont really mean THAT much to them so..why even bother? i mean its not THEIR fault but ok o_____o weird!

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i just need to find out what motivates me and build off from there!

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hmmm the depth of my hope today could also be the depth of the wound tomorrow...

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i took her to the crib and then i freaked it ;)

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Something I learned today...

You’re not going to study if you don’t want to... Go to the library! It’s better that way :)

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inchwesting

you have to get yourself out of bad places. you need to resist the temptation to let everything slip and become apathetic & cynical toward yourself and your life. you need to accept that it takes time to change and it’s ok to fall over as long as u get back up. every morning is a new start and things don’t have to be this way forever. you can heal and you can change.

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there is just no motivation here...

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got an interview tomorrow