meltedbri

[meltedbri]

“you should be at the club” Brother I should literally be sent to the seaside for my health

[meltedbri]

I’ve been trying on labels my whole life and none of them seem to fit or sometimes the ones that do fit aren’t the ones I want and so now I just lay on my bedroom floor and stare at the ceiling and try not to fit into a box that would never hold me

[meltedbri]

saying that I want to find a blonde who can be my Barbie for halloween while I can be her as equally as important brunette counterpart and my friend tells me that I can be Midge because she's quirky and weird and standalone but I don't want to be Midge I don't want to be quirky and weird and standalone and discontinued and not accepted I want to be Barbie's brunette counterpart I want to be fun and normal and a partner and in stock and accepted

[meltedbri]

that thing where light years away i’m still a child but instead it’s me in your bed lying on your chest falling asleep and it is the safest i’ve felt in months

[meltedbri]

on-going thread of texts between us from beginning to end

he is blue, i am green

reading plato, hopefully looking mysterious

don't look but there's this mysterious girl reading there idk if you've seen her but watch out

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you are not throwing yourself off a bridge

yes i'm aware i just wanted to see you

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don't drown that would be very sad

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come HOME NOW or i will love you to death

when you come to me i will love youuuuu

you're the best person in my life and frankly i don't know how my life would be without you

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i keep wanting to text you but idk if i'm supposed to

dawg you do you?? whatever you feel like

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hey, when can i come over and get my stuff

[meltedbri]

4.62 GB

our text conversation takes up 4.62 GB of space on my phone. we spent 19 months together and now you take up 4.62 GB of space on my phone. my pictures no longer load because there isn't enough storage due to how much space you take up. if my brain was categorized into GB you would take up 25 of them. you and your family and friends and california and granite and pebbles and xterra and PCH and studio apartment and skateboard and you. i've tried to delete our messages, but i can never get myself to follow through. what if we work out eventually? what if we come back to each other? what if we reconcile and get enagaged and get married and i want the texts from our first relationship to share at our wedding? what if i want to show everyone how much space you take up inside of me? you are doing well and sometimes it makes me nauseous. you should be screaming and crying and wallowing and wailing. i should be doing the same. but we both seem to be doing well and sometimes it makes me nauseous. neither of us seems to want to fight. i think this is why it didn't work out; if no one wants to battle for something, there is clearly a lack of passion.

but then again, you take up 4.62 GB of space on my phone.