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[memory-of-my-mother]

Thursday, January 26, 2023

Day: 7

I messaged mum and asked how the scans went. Again she told me not good, and there’s just more pills to take.

I wish I could change this, mum. Always and forever.

[memory-of-my-mother]

Wednesday, January 25 2023 (Part 2)

Day: 6

Mum went to the hospital for more scans today. I forgot to ask how it went, but I will tomorrow.

I wish I could change this more than you know, mum.

[memory-of-my-mother]

Wednesday, January 25, 2023 (Part 1)

Day: 6

Last night I built my new shelf to house all my classics and I sent mum a photo, knowing full well she had gone to bed. I woke up this morning at 7:30 after going to bed at 1. She said it looked awesome and I told her I love it.

Thank you for finally supporting what I love. It means everything.

[memory-of-my-mother]

Tuesday, January 24, 2023

Day: 5

I went to her house and saw her today. We sat and talked for a while. I asked her how the hospital was. She laughed and said it was boring. I wanted her to tell me, without prying too hard. She told me they’ve given her chemo pills to reduce the cancer in her brain. I said it’s pretty bad then and she said yeah it’s not good. I didn’t think we would be having this conversation any time soon. It’s good though. It means I officially know and I can tell her anything now. She took me to her room to show me my belated birthday present. She bought me a bookshelf and it’s the best thing she’s ever gotten for me. It breaks my heart to see her barely able to walk. She told me about the pain and fatigue she feels. I feel so lost for her. I stayed for over an hour with my girlfriend. I cried on the way home, you just never know when seeing her will be the last time. I couldn’t help but text her later and I’m glad I did.

I love you mum, you have to know that.

[memory-of-my-mother]

Sunday, January 22, 2023

Day: 3

I receive a call from my father of my younger brothers. Bad news he says. Very bad. It’s stage 4. Nothing the docs can do they say. No timeframe. She’s still in hospital, but relatives have flown from overseas are meeting at her place to discuss the situation. It’s bad. It’s in her brain. She can’t know I know. She feels like a burden. As if her mental health hasn’t been an uphill battle of its own and now this.

Love your forever, mum.

[memory-of-my-mother]

Thursday, January 19, 2023

Day: 0

I celebrated my 26th birthday today. I was due to visit my mum until I received a phone call from her. She’s in hospital she tells me. Melanoma, buts it’s okay.

A birthday to remember. Love you always.

[memory-of-my-mother]

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