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Can you make a list of top ryan fics...? 😈🙏

oh nooo i only read bottom ryan fic gah but i do know this livejournal account writes a lot of top ryan so yes read the fic in their masterlist bc the writing is good but i just Cannot read top ryan 😭😭 for the life of me!!! sorry i cldnt help more :( xx

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If you haven’t answered this question already, do you know where ryan’s guitars were from during the afycso phase?

I definitely remember a lot of fans debating the exact models of the band's various instruments, but my brain usually just zoned that out as boring and moved on UNLESS the guitars were especially cute. Soooo let me present guitars that I deemed pretty?

I heard these were both a G6118(T?) Anniversary Gretsch but obvs you could tell me literally anything about guitars and I'd be like ok cool:

I think this was the same Firebird... I liked the shape. It's cool:

ummm I have this page saved from a magazine. So.... there's that:

my memory of Ryan's guitars is mostly like "blah, blah, brown, blah, ugly, blah" and then THIS BEAUTIFUL FENDER STRATOCASTER APPEARED IN ITS PASTEL GLORY (I know I'm jumping way past the Fever era to 2008 here but I just want to include this guitar plz):

And I thought the Rickenbacker was funny once people explained it to me, but that's about it for my guitar knowledge.

Idk if I remember like exactly where the band got their guitars if that's what you meant... in which case sorry for going off on a whole other tangent ha.

I'll make this public so people who are interested in instrument specifics can hopefully help answer!

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the "Ryho" mindset is still happening

I didn’t like how part of the fandom treated Ryan during the pre-split years. This might end up being a lengthy explanation but bear with me because it’s relevant to the modern fandom.

So it was a well-known fact in 2006 that Ryan was straightedge/sober (Spencer was too, but he got less attention from the media). Being straightedge kind of became part of Ryan’s image (here’s a random example) and a lot of fans really connected with that. Then Ryan got drunk for the first time at the end of 2006, and we started seeing pictures of him partying with friends in early 2007 before the band even went to the cabin. 

By summer 2007 Ryan was like a completely different person. I get that the drugs & alcohol probably helped him become more outgoing, but I also think he was just becoming way more confident & comfortable as he grew up. And SO many fans seriously hated the change. Fans still randomly criticized the other 3 guys, but that stuff seemed more like the regular small complaints that happen just for the sake of complaining when people are bored (ex: Jon’s beard existing or vanishing). The stuff about Ryan was very different in tone and there were some consistent themes throughout the last half of 2007: Ryan was too in love with Keltie, he dressed like a hippie now, and he partied a lot. Basically, he was changing. He was no longer the same person that he was during the Fever era.

It honestly seemed like many fans were angry at this new version of Ryan for taking the old version away from them, as though they had some sort of ownership. There was tons of drama over the fact that we were seeing lots of pictures of Ryan partying with various friends (some of whom posted detailed stories about their nights or how drunk everyone was). Some fans said Ryan was a hypocrite or a liar and tried to make him out to be an alcoholic, as though he’d personally betrayed them by destroying who he was "supposed" to be.

However, I think most of the complaints were actually rooted in something bigger: Ryan looked happy.

I felt like a lot of the younger fans had latched onto the idea of a shy, wounded guitarist who needed to be saved or *understood* or whatever… you know the cliche I mean??  That was the vibe that the media sometimes tried to give him during the Fever era, so even they knew it would sell! But now Ryan was partying a lot with a wide range of friends, was dating Keltie, had completely abandoned his Fever-era aesthetic, and seemed to be closest with Jon in 2007 instead of Brendon. He was “destroying” the static image of Ryan that fangirls had taped onto their bedroom walls.

I remember a decent amount of fans actually admitting that they wished Ryan would go back to being depressed. Like they literally wanted him to be unhappy & unsure of himself because they liked him better that way. Others accepted that Ryan was changing and were happy for him, but still thought his bitter lyrics were better. And then even if other people wouldn’t admit that they were clinging onto an old version of Ryan, their main criticism still seemed to revolve around the fact that Ryan was living his life, having fun, and being different than he was the previous year.

I saved one fan’s post because it summed up some of the complaints this year:

The nickname “Ryho” really took off in late 2007.

Obviously a ton of fans loved Ryan (and the kids who were bashing him still claimed to love him too). The petty criticism just became annoying to me. People slammed his new clothes, his new hairstyles, the way he carried himself or talked, his weight/body, his “creepy” fingers, and the “girly” things he told Kerrang he liked (pumpkin spice candles, vanilla milkshakes, his puppy, and Titanic). Even the kids who used to love Ryan’s mild arrogance were now holding it against him. A lot of the fans who were criticizing Ryan in the last half of 2007 jumped right back to being his “fans” once the Pretty. Odd. era got going and things were interesting again, but I guess it shouldn’t have been surprising that so many fans were able to easily switch to bashing Ryan once again in spring 2009 when he was changing yet again. It’s like they were so focused on what Ryan wasn’t doing that spring (ex: recording the third Panic album) that they couldn’t see or accept what he was doing: building a whole new life for himself in a completely different music scene with the new crew of friends he’d been hanging out with for a while (Alex Greenwald’s scene).

One of the things that stuck out to me in late spring & summer 2009 was how many fans felt rejected by Ryan (and Jon). Those fans had basically idolized prior versions of Ryan and were hurt to slowly watch him destroy all of that as they realized he didn’t want to be part of the machine of the music scene that the fandom still loved. That hurt translated to them lashing out in anger.

So you know how I mentioned that in 2006 part of the fandom liked the idea of a shy, wounded guitarist who wrote bitter lyrics and needed to be *understood * and saved? And they resented Ryan for destroying that concept in 2007 and taking away the Ryan that they loved? They wanted to view him as a static character and couldn’t accept that he’s a constantly-evolving human. This is still happening today. Some fans are still upset that the version of Ryan that they want was taken away (ex: Ryan left the Fever era behind, left Panic behind). Except now instead of resenting Ryan for the choices that he made, some modern fans have rewritten the past to blame external forces like Brendon instead. I've been trying so hard to wrap my mind around this for a while, so here's my take on it... keep in mind that this is just my own observation/guess. Ryan isn't very visible now, so people are free to project a lot onto him. I think that by blaming Brendon (who is the visible one left), people can still happily view Ryan as a helpless victim who needs saving, and never feel rejected or betrayed by his choices... it's like Ryan didn’t actually want to leave them, and could still be the person that they need him to be. Idk I'm still trying to comprehend what happened to the recent fandom tbh.

I'm absolutely not saying that all of Ryan's current fans are like this!! It's just that some little bits I've seen are concerning because they essentially take away Ryan’s agency & erase him. Even on a smaller scale, I've still noticed how some modern fans focus heavily on stories that dramatize Ryan's pain & portray him as a passive victim, regardless of whether those stories conflict with reality. Like why exactly is that angle a priority? Some examples:

Camisado is for dancing

the "funeral picture" isn't real

Lollapalooza was a fun show

June and July are different months

Ryan participated in the stage gay

some of the Ryden stuff could probably qualify too

Keep in mind that I'm saying this as a fan of Ryan. I am genuinely happy to see that he has so many newer fans! But sometimes I'm a little concerned that patterns might be repeating and maybe some people are more focused on their own creation of a character/image than an actual musician who has had many many phases.

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I was talking to a friend yesterday about how fun it used to be to walk into stores like Delia's at the mall and see a wall of colorful graphic tees. Then we started lamenting the later years when there was a shift towards minimalist, bland design. Like I loved so many of my band t-shirts in hs & college, but now I'm not that excited about the merch tables even when I go to shows I love. The merch is mostly boring. Buuuuut I also understand that graphic design usually fits the modern ~look becaus that's what will sell (like I remember some graphic designers in 2008 saying that P!ATD's label requested hand drawn content for submissions).

I just want this kind of stuff to be popular again:

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i lovelovelove ur ficz smmmmmmm :3 literally my fav ily

AWWW THANKS SO MUCH!!!! this really really means a lot to me hehehehhe!! >_< ilyt for loving my fics! us rn:

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Panic! at the Disco, Bandom Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Ryan Ross/Brendon Urie Characters: Ryan Ross, Brendon Urie, Spencer Smith, Jon Walker (Musician) Additional Tags: Bottom Ryan Ross, Top Brendon Urie, Semi-Public Sex, Cabin Era, Rain Sex Summary:

Ryan and Brendon get caught in a sudden downpour.

RAIN SEX RAIN SEX!!!!!

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Panic! at the Disco, Bandom Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Spencer Smith/Jon Walker, Ryan Ross/Brendon Urie, Ryan Ross/Spencer Smith/Brendon Urie/Jon Walker Characters: Spencer Smith, Jon Walker (Musician), Brendon Urie, Ryan Ross Additional Tags: Omega Ryan Ross, Alpha Brendon Urie, Alpha Jon Walker, Beta Spencer Smith, Foursome - M/M/M/M, Alpha/Beta/Omega Dynamics Series: Part 3 of omega! verse Summary:

Spencer's the only beta in the band.

wanted to write joncer, so i did! this fic beat me up and left me bloody and bruised in a dingy alleyway next to puddles of vomit and piles of trash but i got it done like a true soldier… 

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: The Academy Is..., Gym Class Heroes, Bandom Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: William Beckett/Travis McCoy Characters: Travis McCoy, William Beckett Additional Tags: Smoking, Semi-Public Sex Summary:

Travis shows William off for the whole city to see.

treckett window sex, if you care!!!!

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Local God doesn't fit Ryan Ross

I'm still getting a couple questions about this, so let's go through each line in the beginning of the song...

In 1998, you bought a B.C. Rich: Here's how Ryan described his actual first guitar that his dad bought as a present around 1999 (the year was generally ballparked in interviews): "I kept begging my dad for a guitar. I picked out an off-brand, a Harmony, I think, out of the Sears Christmas catalog. It came with a battery-powered amp. It was $100 for everything." That is such a far cry from a B.C. Rich.

You were a master shredder from the jump: Just no. Ryan told Ultimate Guitar that "In the beginning, probably about the first year, I just tried to do it on my own. It was really, really frustrating. So I took lessons for a little while." And the songs he was trying to play in the early years were easy. Spencer told Drum Magazine in 2007 that “blink-182 was a great band for Ryan to play to because the guitar parts were all three-chord songs. But Travis Barker’s drum parts were so far musically beyond that – it was just frustrating.”

Blew them all away with the Ritalin kids while I was shedding through my sophomore slump: None of this applies. Ryan & Spencer were basically just messing around in a garage for years. Here's Spencer reminiscing: “I set up my drum kit in my parent’s garage. Ryan would then come over and he’d bring his first little 25 watt amp with him and we’d go from there. We’d cover songs, try and write our own; it was great fun. A couple neighbors came over and complained about the noise... As long as we didn’t play too late, most people were really cool about it." Spencer talked about how they came up with original material that was "20 or 25 songs that were just horrific sounding, just horrible.” Ryan said that “they were some pretty terrible songs!" In late 2003 their band was trying to get into a small local battle of the bands, but meanwhile some of their peers like Kyle Lobeck were in solid bands that were playing actual shows (ex: Brown Eyed Deception). The Summer League wasn't in that scene.

You had so many chances to become a star, But you never really cared about that: Yeah he didn't seek fame itself, but he absolutely cared about the big chances that were presented to P!ATD because being bigger & more famous would allow the band to do what they wanted. So this one is iffy idk.

And all of this is just taking Local God at surface value without looking at the context of where it falls in the album. Viva Las Vengeance was brilliantly done in my opinion. The songs are deliberately arranged to tell a story, and Maggie symbolizes so much. It doesn't make sense to me for Local God to be about Ryan. I mentioned more in this post about how song lyrics are up for interpretation, though, so that's just my opinion.

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hi lol can u write a trans ry fic??

hi!! ive never written a trans character before, so is it possible for you to give me a coupleee more ideas of what exactly you want in the fic? i dont wanna do it wrong =(… thanks!

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if this was 2006 i would be TEAM JWALK no hesitation… i mean look at him… so swagged….

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no but seriously imagine it

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Mcr and fob fans please stop fighting. Can we all kiss instead. I drew patrick and gerard kissing can we PLEASE stop the hate...

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pure spencer and ryan smut !!! <3 im okay with anything

harlequin boys HI!! i finally finished it!!!!! sorry its been a month since ur request 😓 i was swept up with stuff but hopefully this fic is okay.. >_< its ryan in lingerie! with a plot twist kinda… yes, read to find out ^_^!!! thanks