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Maybe you’ve met the right person, but you’re just not ready to fall in love.

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Cry

Have you ever had that feeling of jealousy out of place but you are trying to keep your composure then you ended up crying?

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I am hurt

I am hurt again

Is this always gonna happen?

I am hurt again

This is not what I’ve chosen.

I only wanted to love

And also to be loved

But then I ended up

Getting my heart beaten up

I am hurt again

Will I be able to regain?

I am hurt again

But hopefully, this is the last time.

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“I hope that someday, somebody wants to hold you for twenty minutes straight, and that’s all they do. They don’t pull away. They don’t look at your face. They don’t try to kiss you. All they do is wrap you up in their arms, without an ounce of selfishness in it.”

— Jenna

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“It was a privilege to love you, and it was a privilege to let you go. Both helped shape me into the person I have become.”

— Beau Taplin

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Random 3AM Thoughts ——

We live in a world where only a few things are constant, as most of the time, the things, events, and even people are uncertain. Some days you have, and some days, you don’t.

Today you woke up with the thought in mind that you gotta get up and fix yourself for work. Same routine happens for the next couple of weeks. But without you knowing, a pandemic strikes the whole world, it kills, not only the people but also the economy. The government ordered lockdown, offices were forced to be closed, and jobs were all done from home. Some companies even had to shut down since most of their marketing is in person and lockdown would mean no one could do so. It ended up with people losing their jobs.

Two years ago, on this date you were still single, but after a year you were not anymore. But this year on the same date, you are in a relationship again. And this time, you think it is gonna last a lifetime. But you know at the back of your mind, the truth is, you are still not sure. Well, you can say that your feelings are probably true, but you are not sure whether it would really last that long. So you could be waking up today next to someone you love but after a month or a year, you could just be watching him or her, from afar, with someone new. 

Some people find the situation of others funny. Some even don’t care. Some say it is good to help others in need but some would also say we should teach others how to not need help and just do things on their own. You ended up getting confused and so you just walked away and didn't do anything, to be safe — from judgement or from getting in trouble. But tucking yourself into bed, you’ve thought of what happened and asked yourself, “what should I have done?” I believe there is no right or wrong answer to that question, but you have to do what you really want to do, after assessing things to yourself and not letting others meddle with what you really want.

Yes, there are limitations to what we can do and to what we may do. You even have a limitation to when you should be doing things by yourself and when you need the help of others. There are days I find my life easy, and there are also days I think that it is complicated. The ways we see things help us understand the value of the situation as well as the people who are connected to you during that event. But by the end of the day, you have to realize that it is always up to you whether you should look at life negatively or positively.

Shoutout to Mr Julian Kuan for marking up.

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Love in the time of Corona

(In a different perspective.)

Did the effect of the Covid-19 really hit you so hard?

For others it may have been very bad. For people who have lost their loved ones because of that stupid virus and not being able to see them until their last breath, I bet it is a lot more painful. But what about the people who have been able to spend more time with people they cherish? For those who finally had the time to do things they have been wanting to do over the past months or years but cannot be done because they are so busy with office work and stuff.

I don’t want to be insensitive, but I think this pandemic thing has helped me realize the value of family time and being able to have conversations with my parents, play with my nephew and being able to teach my sisters what I know that they also want to learn. For me, the home quarantine isn’t that bad if you get to spend it with people who are important to you, and in my case, it is my family.

I cannot imagine how it would be if I was spending this whole quarantine period in my apartment. Just staying inside my room, laptop all day. Probably during weekdays I work in the morning, and movie marathoning in the evening then sleep all day during weekends. That must’ve killed my sanity slowly knowing myself as a social butterfly, I think I’d rather do baby talk with my nephew than just lying in my bed the whole day during weekends. I know, I know.. You’d probably tell me that why not do video calls or what not, we have the internet? But trust me, virtual interaction can NEVER replace physical interaction where you can really see and feel the other person you are talking to.

When will this virus stop? No one really knows.

When will this virus end? No one really knows.

When will we get back to work in the office? No one really knows.

Nothing is constant in the world, especially in this trying time that everyone is facing. Learn to be resourceful and treasure what you have. Not everyone in the world has the same stuff you have while on quarantine. Some might be dying fighting the virus in their system and some might be dying because of hunger because of their government system. If you are still breathing and are living with family, value it as not everyone has it. Credits to Julian Kuan for doing the mark up.

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Patience is a Virtue.

Patience is a virtue. But sometimes, it works to let loose.

Have you ever been in a situation where you feel like you wanna rage and just punch anyone who bothers you in the face? Or have you been in a moment where you see someone who didn’t do anything to you but your blood just boils whenever you see their faces? Times when you have been clearly explaining something to someone but still doesn’t get it after a million times of explanation?

These are moments where we certainly need our patience to be extended, not because you want to, but because you need to. In order to keep your peace of mind and life, you have to stand still and take a deep breath before you say or do something, so you continue with your daily routine without regrets.

For me, patience is an underrated word. People sometimes forget to have this and that often leads to trouble, which can be physical, emotional or mental. They say “all we need is love”. But for me, what the world needs is patience. Because that is what will truly help you understand and will help you grow as a person.

This time of pandemic is really testing people’s patience. Stay at home, social distancing, no more mass gathering which means no party or other events. It is a complete turn of what people have been used to. We will have a new normal in the next couple of months, and what do we need to have to understand that - PATIENCE.

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I wanted to keep you, forever next to me.

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Crush to crushed

You brighten up my day

I feel sad when you’re away

I like to think that I’m okay

But it never goes that way

Your smile removes my stress

after seeing you makes it feel less

Never a day that is sad with you

I always dream of waking up next to you

Never knew that this would happen to me

Meeting you the first time was just ordinary

Then I get to know you more every day

Which just makes me fall for you the harder way

I know these feelings are useless

But let me keep it for I’m not heartless

I don’t know if you know

But my feelings for you will never show

Because I never intend to ask for more

But just let me admire you a little longer

I am happy to see you smile

even if the reason isn’t I.