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Americans who can trace their family back to hundreds of years scare me. I have an american friend who like years ago said that they're from xyz and asked me where I'm from. And I was sitting there like bitch I'm hungarian which could mean literally fucking anything.

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Shanghai Shanghai Shanghai Shanghai

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Had my first ever MRI scan today... i have reincarnated into a hotdog

Anyway , I'm not going to have as much study sessions these days due to medical problems . It's pretty hard to keep myself accountable with all this back pain . Gonna post my logs later goodnight .

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Update : Back from the doc . My appointment was supposed to be on Friday , but I couldn't really handle the pain, so we got an earlier appointment (thanks to mama) . Finally got an x ray . I now have some painkillers , cold gel and plasters , at least something else other than the ice pack . Doc recommends I try bracing . My spine isn't so bad , it's not supposed to hurt , but it does ??

I haven't been to school for days :( . I'm going to get an MRI this friday , idk sounds scary . I don't know how to calm myself down .

My back had been getting worse and worse . My next appointment is next week friday.. and i've been waiting 2 weeks for further treatment :( How am I supposed to handle it stinging all the time ?

The more I exist , the more it hurts .

There's never been a time of no pain . And I can't do or prove anything . I'll just have to wait and wait . I guess if I can't be a heavy-duty mechanic , an advanced physics professor is ideal, too .

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100 posts!

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happy disability pride month here's a reminder that if your job makes you stand long hours and it's painful you're allowed to get a cane. 1, you don't have to be in pain. you're allowed to get mobility aids sob you don't have to be in pain. if standing long hours is painful canes are for you. 2, your job may take you more seriously if you need accommodations to sit and not be in pain or if you need more breaks. i was fresh off a surgery, my job knew this, and wouldn't let me sit. after a week of pain i bought a cane and people were tripping over themselves to bring me a chair.

literally just get a cane you don't have to tough out pain from standing too long

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Really gonna miss Pride Month . Maybe a decade or two later, I'll be at a Pride Parade ;3 . .

Anyways my top 5 homosexual ships ranking !! ↓

💜💛 Charon x Hermes 💛💜

🍄 Shijima x Majime 🍳

🤍 Ghosdeeri x Vinestaff 🩷

🧸 Heavy x Medic 🩺

🩵 Kup x Rung 🧡

HONORABLE MENTION : Hypertana , Minimegs , Kawoshin , Kyosaya .

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My Madoka Magica watchlist ꨄ︎.

🩷: Finished

💛: Watching

🤍: Unfinished

Anime/Movies

Puella Magi Madoka Magica (1-12) 🩷

Puella Magi Madoka Magica the Movie: Rebellion 🩷

Magia Record: Puella Magi Madoka Magica Side Story (1-13) 🩷

Magia Record: Puella Magi Madoka Magica Side Story Season 2 - The Eve of Awakening (1-8) 💛

Magia Record: Puella Magi Madoka Magica Side Story Final Season (1-4) 🤍

Mangas

Puella Magi Madoka Magica 🤍

Puella Magi Madoka Magica: Wraith Arc 🤍

Puella Magi Madoka Magica: The Movie - Rebellion 🤍

Mahou Shoujo Madoka Magica: The Different Story 🤍

Mahou Shoujo Oriko Magica 🤍

Puella Magi Homura Tamura: Parallel Worlds Do Not Remain Parallel Forever 🤍

Psstt.. check out my MAL...

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7/15 to 9/15

7/15 ┄ June 26

💭 6 hours 57 minutes

💭 3 hours of algebra practice . 1 hour of maths tuition on chapter 7 . 1 hour of some morning exercise . 1 hour of previewing history and maths for the next class . We're a week into this now !

8/15 ┄ June 27

💭 5 hours 54 minutes

💭 2 hours on an art project . Just drawing mechs and colour theory . 1 hour and a half on maths practice . More on slopes . 2 hours on science chapter 4 . Just planned out my study process . Might post on here .

9/15 ┄ June 28

💭 5 hours 28 minutes

💭 Started off with some planning for this week . 2 hours of science and 2 hours of maths back to back . Just finished notes of chapter 4.1 . It's pretty easy to memorise . Almost near to finished maths unit 4 .

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Being a trans guy on tumblr is like: oh I really like this one blog!

Said blog at some point: fuck trans men they aren’t oppressed

Me:

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mood rn ˎˊ˗⋆｡°✩📄

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1000 likes!

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6/15 June 24

3 hours 58 minutes

💭 2 hours of english practice . Focusing on grammar and pronunciation . I've been getting more familiar with those . Ended with nearly 2 hours of tech design homework .

💭 Next: Geo homework . Maths homework . English homework .

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My back had been getting worse and worse . My next appointment is next week friday.. and i've been waiting 2 weeks for further treatment :( How am I supposed to handle it stinging all the time ?

The more I exist , the more it hurts .

There's never been a time of no pain . And I can't do or prove anything . I'll just have to wait and wait . I guess if I can't be a heavy-duty mechanic , an advanced physics professor is ideal, too .

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I got denied for disability after waiting 2 ½ years for a response and the wording in the letter pissed me off. So I wrote a poem about it.

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Poem transcript under the cut

You are not disabled under our rules.

Your body may be in constant pain. 

Your back may bend in all the wrong ways and your muscles may feel like sunburned taffy in a press. 

You may be too dizzy to stand or sit for more than a few minutes at a time. 

You may have chronic migraines and chronic fatigue and a chronic sadness from a childhood lacking love. 

You may have a dysfunctional thyroid and dysautonomia. 

You may have to sleep more than you are awake and you may have to use a wheelchair or cane any time you are able to leave the house. 

But aren’t you aware the medications you take to make your pain more bearable can also make you sleepier? 

Aren’t you aware that everyone wants an excuse to not do the dishes and your extreme back pain is laughable? 

Aren’t you aware that your life is expendable? 

Aren’t you aware that we don’t care about you at all? 

You are able to work some; you are able to work more. 

Just adapt. 

Just push yourself more. 

Just break your body more.

Just be a good little number on a screen and stop screaming as we churn you through the system and beat you to a pulp. 

This is because you are not disabled under our rule.

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5/15 June 22 Saturday

3 hours 6 minutes

💭 We're 1/3 away from our goal now ! Started with an hour of exercise . 30 minutes of maths practice . Then, an hour and a half of English speaking .

💭 Next : Tomorrow's Science homework. English homework for Wednesday . Geo homework for next week . Maths homework for Thursday .

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4/15 ~ June 21

Saturday

4 hours 17 minutes

💭 We've just reached the weekend ! 3 hours of Maths . Just entered unit 4 of algebra . Things are going pretty well . 1 hour of English grammar . Just settled on a source . Did some tech design research for homework .

💭 Next: English speaking practice . Maths unit 4 . Science chapter 5