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Festival of Love

It’s finally here! I’m so nervous it feels as though my heart is going to explode! There’s no turning back, no excuses. I have to follow through and finally tell Maiko that I love her. Wish me luck!

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For Maiko

The sun is liquid gold pouring through the sky

Each drop of dew glistens with the morning star's early gift,

And I shift, warm in my nest until my eyes cannot stay closed any longer.

Peridot rings stare back at me, and for a moment I forget who I am,

Where I am

And all else that I'm told matters.

In that moment I have all I need,

And the universe hums-

Content.

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I’ve got it! I’ve been writing poetry for a while now, and I have a few about Maiko that I think will convey how I feel. I’ve also been working endlessly to perfect the songs I wrote for Maiko. I think I’ll have them ready by the time the Festival is here! My plan is to bring her to her favorite meadow and play them for her while she reads the poems. I can’t decide if flowers will be too much though… I want to show her how much she means to me, even if it makes me look cheesy. I just don’t know if it’ll be too overwhelming. I’m going to Daikitsu’s temple tonight to ask for her blessing, and see if she can help me. 

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Doubts

Lately I’ve been having doubts about whether or not I should do this. The Festival is only a few days away and the fear is creeping in. What if she rejects me, or worse- stops being my friend? Then I’ll truly be alone. Sure, I’ve got Mizuki, but what happens when she comes of age and inevitably finds her mate and can’t spend as much time with me? What if Maiko ends up falling for another? I want her to be happy, but I don’t know what I would do without my friend. It’s too late to turn back now though, I’ve already made most of the preparations, and the constant threat of my brothers telling her before I do is too much to bear. 

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I’ve Been Convinced

Mizuki has been trying to convince me to tell Maiko how I feel for a while now, and I’m starting to give in. The Festival of Love is just around the corner, and I know it’s cheesy but I think that’s going to be the perfect time to tell her. I have the when, but I’m struggling with the how. I just want it to be perfect. She deserves nothing less.

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Brothers

Tsutomu and Kuroshi dedicated their day off from hunting today to making my life miserable. I don’t know how, but they found out about my affections for Maiko and they’ve been teasing me nonstop. Tsutomu has been particularly vicious and keeps saying that even if I confess to her, he’ll sweep her off her feet. The logical part of me knows that she cannot stand him, but there’s a part of me that can’t help but be concerned. What if she falls for him?