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My #currentread I'm having to do it in mini binge sessions as I'm having moments of disgust, and fear! I started off quite liking Didier, now I've realised he's toxic. Read this. I'm not finished yet, I only brought it because I saw the lines "For fans of Handmaid's Tale and The Power" and just yes. The world (well, the US) could go this way!! #feministbooks #readthis #bookstagram #books #feminist #feminism #kindle #redclocks #feminismo #growingupagirl

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OU study materials have arrived. I wasn't expecting them yet. Anxiety and self doubt levels are critical. I can do this. I deserve the confidence to do this. Fuck

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I can't bring myself to write on here properly yet. My anxiety has thought of so many reasons not to, it's ridiculous. So, tonight I have set up an instagram account to use for me. The kind where I do share things that I just can't do on social media because it is full of people I try so hard to not offend (by showing emotions) I have linked my new IG to Tumblr. I doubt it will help me write more, if I don't find a place/person to talk to soon I'm not sure I can cope.

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Talking to a male friend today and the subject of a mutual person came up.

I said that I can’t talk to that person because he scares me. My friend laughed, I blushed (luckily I was on the phone so he didn’t see) I felt a flicker inside me and actually said something like “you don’t see how intimidating he is do you? He really scares me!”

Later this afternoon I thought I saw him. I felt sick, I felt my anxiety levels rise, my eyes scanned my route home for an alternative, itturned out to be some school kid finishing his cig.

His friends have called him the baby faced assassin for as long as I can remember, I liken him to Baelish.

Hearing my friend laugh at my fear of real life Baelish made me realise that men don’t see other men as threats to us unless they are also a threat to them.

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There is something familiar about him. The way his soul pours out from his eyes and the corners of his mouth he smiles. The way he tastes his words before they spill from his lips. Constantly becoming. Always nourishing. He was a flower in male form. He was kind. He was kind.

Lina A. (via wnq-writers)

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“Who, in the age of Trump, is teaching boys why not to grope..?" 

 Feminists are. When we aren’t being mocked for creating a culture of consent, feminists are doing this work.”

- Tressie Mc‏

More posts on teaching consent

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Years from now, can you promise me something?“ She said, fiddling with her fingers. “Anything babe.” He responded, looking up at her. “I know that we can’t make this work right now. You’re getting your life together while I have no idea what I’m doing with mine. We both have growing up to do and it’ll just be better if we don’t complicate anything. But just promise me one thing. Promise me that when we get older and we’re finally ready, it will be you and me. No matter how far, we’ll find each other…. promise?” She nervously gulped as he approached her. “Baby, I’ll never stop looking.” He whispered, holding her like he could lose her at any second.

It might not be the right timing now, but it will be later on. (via latenightrendevouz)

The feels. I'd love to be able to say this...

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Talking to a male friend today and the subject of a mutual person came up.

I said that I can't talk to that person because he scares me. My friend laughed, I blushed (luckily I was on the phone so he didn't see) I felt a flicker inside me and actually said something like "you don't see how intimidating he is do you? He really scares me!"

Later this afternoon I thought I saw him. I felt sick, I felt my anxiety levels rise, my eyes scanned my route home for an alternative, itturned out to be some school kid finishing his cig.

His friends have called him the baby faced assassin for as long as I can remember, I liken him to Baelish.

Hearing my friend laugh at my fear of real life Baelish made me realise that men don't see other men as threats to us unless they are also a threat to them.

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Can y'all believe AHS killed charles manson for promotion. What heroes

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So much love for the finale!

“You were wrong”

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I finally worked up the courage to kiss the man that I have fancied for a long long time; well he kissed me first now that I think of it.

Anyhow, after a short while he said "I don't think I can do this" and I said "OK" and sat back.

He apologised for leading me up the garden path and then saying no at the last minute. I looked him in the eyes and said that saying no is his right at any point. He nudged me and chuckled about consent being important (it had been a 'thing' in the messages in the build up to this) then we went and had a smoke and he went home.

24 hours later I feel sad because I will probably never have this man. Then I re-see the shame (?) which was in his eyes as he apologised for saying No, and how he wished he was more alpha, and I feel sad that society has made him feel this.

He said no. I respected that. And I hope that even if he never talks to me again that he knows that I respect him for having the courage to say No.

A man took the power of No away from me a long long time ago. Yesterday a man made me realise that I have the ability to be in a position of power, and use it for good.

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VIA: https://twitter.com/legal_feminista 

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Ofsted inspectors to quiz schoolgirls in hijabs... This has got me raging. Surely they can’t do this?! They better also take my kids aside and ask if they feel pressured or obligated to be Christians…

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48 Things Women Hear In A Lifetime (That Men Just Don’t)

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Ohhh I need to do this if I see an oppertunity!

“Even though I’m giving the store employees extra work cause the shirts will probably be back in their original place by the next day, I gotta get my obligatory retweets and likes for doing the absolute least~~”

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just a reminder:

as an adult woman, you have a cultural impact. When you decide not to wear makeup, you help show little girls who see you that wearing makeup is not an inevitable task in their future. When you spend time with your girlfriend or wife publicly, you let little girls know that that is normal, too. All this is to say that your choices in society can let young women know that they also have those choices. I haven’t worn makeup in quite some time, and when I babysat little girls, many of them just thought that makeup was just something that “old girls” have to do, and were somewhat relieved to discover that they don’t have to in order to grow up and be a real girl.