It has been 5 years since I decided to walk away from you. You were so high that time that I can't keep up. You demanded things from me that I cannot provide. I was so focused in building up my career that I forgot you. And eventually, I lost you in the process. I lost both my bestfriend and my love. For that, I am very sorry.
We had an incredible run from being friends to lovers to strangers to lovers again to strangers again to being bestfriends to friends and being lovers again for real. I was the one who always leave and you don't deserve that. So I promised myself that if I leave you again, I won't be coming back because you deserve more, more than I can ever give. And later on, I realized that the biggest regret in my life is leaving you. I guess timing is really a bad bitch.
There is no time these past years that I have not thought of you with all the what ifs in my mind. But I know you are happy now with your husband and your son. And I want you to know that I am really happy for you. Honestly, I miss you. I missed my bestfriend, the one who I can go to in the middle of the night talking about my fucked up life. But I guess, I can only wish for that in another life or in the next life or if there is a parallel universe, we are genuinely happy together.
It took me 5 years to vent out my thoughts about us. I guess you are the one in my past that I cannot let go but now I will have to let you go. I will let go all of the feelings, and the thoughts I have of you. You will always be in my heart together with our wonderful memories.
Thank you for everything, my love. I wish you all the happiness in the world.