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your advice is appreciated!

It’s Friday, Friday the 13th of March.  I’m at the office today, watching Fox News on the Coronavirus that we all know has taken over the world.  Everyone is panicking, hoarding toilet paper and hand sanitizer.  You know what I’m doing? I’m sitting here in my office chair annoyed with the fact that when I look down and see that puffy stomach of mine, I grab it all with my hands and shake it wondering why I continue to let this thing grow?!  Like for real, it looks like I have a fanny pack built into my romper that I’m wearing today because here in Northern VA, we will hit 75 degrees.  I mean if I had a zipper, I could fit my entire purse into this thing.

I look pregnant, but I know my period is days away because as usual I stuff my face with chocolate, the addicting milk chocolate Cadbury eggs that come out during Easter, and of course I had to buy Thin Mints.  I know I do this to myself but no matter how many pep talks I give myself, I just can’t seem to get into a rhythm without something stopping me.

I was doing well going to the gym everyday but I had an ENT appointment which threw me into depression because I was convinced I had a brain tumor.  So four weeks later, CT scan clear but now I get to have my tonsils and adenoids removed. just GREAT! I’m 35 years old dealing with this. smh….. 

Anyway way off topic, does anyone have those moments of where you want to fix yourself and you know what to do, but you lose momentum? How do you get yourself out of those funks? Plesae…. give me some tips!!! 

Katie

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He keeps getting bigger! 8 months old!

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I am in love with her book and her story! I am not a reader, but this captivated me! You were a fan or was not a fan of this girl, check her book out because it spoke to me personally. ♥️

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Happy Monday Mommas!

How many are you are sitting at work or at home mapping out your week?  Well High Five and Cheers! Take a deep breath and let me tell you that You Got This!  I’m actually sitting in my office right now watching the Kobe Bryant memorial service.  My heart aches for the families and it’s waking my ass up to not stress the small stuff.  Trust me, I’m a stress magnet and it’s always easier said than done, but I think i’m going to make a promise to myself that I need to simmer down and enjoy what’s right in front of me. Stop rushing and trying to make things perfect. I’m a perfectionist so that’s a challenge within itself. 

Our busy season is upon us in our household. Baseball mom to two boys, and a crew mom to a high school daughter.  Today I have to fit in school drop off and pickup, church class, a haircut for one kid, and we hit the fields from 6:30-8:00.  I’ve sent my Fiance’ a schedule as he’s on dinner duty.  Ladies, try and get those men involved if you can.  Heck, if you have a man who does it without asking, you are one lucky momma! LOL!  You know how they can’t manage more than one thing at once unless it’s sitting on the toilet sending you memes as they take a shit. You know it’s true. Anyway, I just wanted  to pop up and wish you a Happy Monday and let me know what you have going on. <3

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Middle-Ear Tinnitus triggering more anxiety...

Does anyone have the same diagnosis?  I’m working with my ENT as they are leaning toward this diagnosis.  The crackling in my ear becomes present when exposed to certain noises, to even which using my bluetooth in my car can trigger an episode.  She pointed out twitching in my face and I had to tell her that she was bringing on a panic attack and when I mentioned I had severe anxiety, you can only imagine the fear that triggered heat throughout my entire body.  That appointment was last week and I have three more weeks to go until my appointment.

When moments like these occur I go down a rabbit hole and dwell and dwell.  It’s always easier said than done when told to “calm down” or “find an activity”. My activity is hard to focus on when my brain has taken over.  Today I felt good as I told myself outloud “you’re fine” “this is normal” “you’re not alone” and “it will be okay”.  Just one thing I deal with on a daily basis as I continue to live my crazy yet blessed life. I want to kick this anxiety and I will as work with my therapist.

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kids think they’re slick....

When you are comfortably laying in bed on your laptop and the only sound you hear is the ceiling fan.  Then all of a sudden you hear youtube coming from your childs room.  I try to walk quietly but the damn hardwood floors make that impossible with each one of of my steps making the floor squeal which then echoes throughout the entire house.  He jumps around in bed which you know they’re hiding that phone under their pillow and they close their eyes and pretend they’re asleep. Yeah it’s great watching it from the crack of the door, but you have to let them think they’re successful. I walk in and just ask “are you asleep”? Damn well knowing he’s not but he looks up at me and plays it off “huh, what? what did you say” he mumbles.  I just stare and laugh and grab the phone from underneath the pillow. He laughs “how did you know”? LOL “well dude, maybe if you turn the sound down, that would’ve helped you out!” :p kids......  

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two of my furbabies! Archer and Gus! 

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Introduction (very boring submission today)! :)

Yes, you see the name “finding me at 35″. It’s 100% accurate! To me, I am pushing forty and I still don’t have a clue who I am.  I am a mother of an eleven year old, a stepmother to two additional children ages fifteen and ten. I’m engaged, not married, but I do go by stepmom. I work full time, run the household, kids to and from sports (baseball mom here), dinner maker, house cleaning machine, and in love with a man who kills it at work, but kills me at home as he’s a video game addict and sleeps all day on the weekends. Yes, it’s a treat! 

I have three dogs and a hamster I just adopted. Gus (cavapoo), Murray (lab mix), Archer (german shepherd), and kiwi the hamster.  I love animals and if you send me into the pet store to get dog food, more than likely I’m coming out with some sort of cute fluffy thing. I live with severe anxiety and every day is a new adventure. I am in cognitive therapy because I need to change my brain as everyday I manage to diagnose myself with an illness in the middle of my chaotic mom life. 

Welcome to what I call my crazy life and I hope some of you share the same experiences I do and we can laugh about it. <3