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I feel this on a deep level... you know how some people get depressed in the middle of winter? Well, I think summer does the same thing to me... autumn, hurry up!

It’s June, yet I find myself longing so deeply for chilly October days. I have such an autumnal soul. 🍂☕️

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Hubris

I wish people would stop complimenting me so much for being a wise, sweet, mature Christian; it makes me seem like an even more foolish child in the face of all their perceptions. Don’t they realize their kind words make being a wise, sweet, mature Christian twice as hard? Oh, how I have fooled everyone!

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…I almost killed myself

I put on my sunglasses, to hide my swollen eyes, over my tears. I cried all my makeup off. Went inside to have a milkshake. I don’t know why. I wanted something to drink as I figured out what I would do. I got a soda and a milkshake. Medium. The cashier looked at me and with a line around the corner of the counter he rushed away from the counter “Hold on “ he yelled to a coworker.

I filled my soda and went back and saw him looking all over. I go up and he gets close and says “I made it a large”.

That was seriously enough for me not to do it. His kindness. Someone went out of their way and as I went back in my car to cry I realized I could muster through a few other days. A few more weeks. Then I came down from that panicky high of anxiety, depression, and pain. I finished my shake. And it was enough time to let me feel better. I… I’m alive. I’ll make it through.

Try and be nice today. Tomorrow. Something as much as a smile. It helped so much.

Thank you man at McDonalds.

The milkshake saved my life

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today’s library views | upper reading room, bodleian library, oxford

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By John Piper. © Desiring God Foundation. Source: desiringGod.org

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Dear God, keep working on me.

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Bare

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Kirkjubøur, Faroe Islands

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“It’s a numbers game, folks. The more you try, the more you succeed. The less you try, the less you succeed. This is true for everything. If you write more, you will write better. If you think about line length more, you will think about line length better. If you submit more, you will publish more. If you submit better, you will publish better.”

—Camille T. Dungy, in “Say Yes to Yourself: A Poet’s Guide to Living and Writing” in the May/June issue of Poets & Writers Magazine (2019)

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nothing can get better than this!! cafe reading + annotating (plus a huge mug of hot chocolate <3)

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Charles Dickens, Great Expectations