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[monarchsurvivor]

From a very young age, my life took a path that I would come to believe was deeply entangled with something far more insidious than mere medical protocol. At just four years old, a doctor suggested to my father that I undergo immunotherapy—an early and seemingly routine recommendation intended to treat my bee allergy. But even then, something felt off. Looking back now, I believe this was the inception point—the moment that marked the beginning of Project Monarch’s involvement in my life.

The process that followed was not simple desensitization. I was subjected to testing to identify the specific species of bee I was allergic to. On the surface, it was medical. Underneath, I felt it was something much darker. I now believe these tests were a front—an entry point for early exposure to mind control techniques, psychological manipulation, and trauma-based conditioning. What should have been a healing process became, in my eyes, a mechanism of control. It was during this time that I first experienced what I now recognize as mental and emotional torment—what I now call torture. The clinical setting masked something far more sinister.

What others saw as routine medical treatment or childhood struggles, I experienced as a carefully orchestrated campaign of manipulation and suppression. My sense of identity, my ability to trust, even my memories—all were compromised in those formative years. And now, as I reclaim my truth, I carry the burden of what I believe to be a life shaped by forces that most would dismiss as conspiracy. But for me, it's lived reality. And telling this story is the first step toward reclaiming the self they tried to erase.

The years that followed—the next eight years of my life—were marked by confusion, manipulation, and emotional isolation. I believe I was systematically subjected to state-sanctioned mind control experimentation. The patterns of conditioning, the emotional fragmentation, and the psychological programming I endured were not accidents. I now understand them as methods of programming—methods designed to fracture, to suppress, and to control.

I’ve come to believe that the government, or at least factions within it, became aware of me or my family at just the right moment to intervene—not to help, but to exploit. I was, in their eyes, an opportunity: vulnerable, young, and ripe for molding. They didn’t just monitor me—they intervened, embedding themselves within the very fabric of my early development.

[monarchsurvivor]

It is my belief that I am a survivor of MK ULTRA. I believe I am one of many individuals victimized by modern day efforts in mind control. It wouldn't surprise me one bit to find out fifty years from now, if it were to go public, that projects like this never in fact actually ended.

Psychiatric centers, hospitals and prisons were alongside religious conversion therapy camps, as well as the troubled teen industry, in utilizing isolated settings and restricting access to basic needs in order to "reprogram" individuals before allowing them to rejoin society.

It wouldn't surprise me at all to discover that institutions such as these are already heavily influenced by government mind control tactics and to be honest they probably run rampant given some of my own personal experiences. It's theoretically possible that if these projects did still happen today, that a greater portion of these institutions would be under the government's influence and control by said projects such as MK ULTRA.

Some types of programming I can remember during my medicated torture includes "Emotion Programming" under the guise of different therapeutic worksheets and discussions about emotional concepts which would be used as tools in the "treatment" of allegedly "sick" individuals.

The entirety of these therapy task worksheets contain different instructions that could potentially reprogram or program the minds of susceptible targets. For instance teaching the individual to associate a particular memory with a trigger word or emotional feeling, or vice versa, to associate a trigger word or emotion to a specific memory.

Techniques such as this only scratch the surface of what I theorize any potential government organization might actually possibly be doing today. Other things such as strict hourly schedules or any identification protocols could also potentially be used to reprogram susceptible targets or those already programmed.

A repetitive, ritualistic behavior such as being asked to sign ones name after each document is an example of conditioning and potentially programming, which teaches the individual to comply or develop a programmed response—depending on if the individual has been tortured or if they are already a DID system or a system with programming.

A trigger in some institutions is to be given medication, in which the individual would be deeply programmed to ingest any medication given without a second thought either willingly or by force from nurses or doctors, or potentially by handlers or programmers themselves, depending on the institution and how deep the mind control runs throughout a given facility.

Medicated torture would probably be very common and in my experience is theoretically completely common already. I was once forced to drink lithium until my mind became so warped and infantile that I forgot my own name and my mother's name. I could barely speak, and sounded so slurred I was unintelligible.

This blog is a safe space for any and every single victim of modern day mind control or organized abuse (RAMCOA) to come to find safety and comfort.

[monarchsurvivor]

We're hardwired to remember fear best

[monarchsurvivor]

Being a programmed system especially sucks. Because either your trauma is too much and they don't wanna hear about it even if you keep it vague or they'll say it's not real at all and not possible or they will have no idea about it then you have to essentially explain what all this shit is/means. Like I just wanna open up. But it's just so exhausting.

[monarchsurvivor]

my partner system needs help deprogramming/reprogramming, but doesn't trust any medical professionals due to their trauma. is there anything i'm able to do to help them without the help of a professional? or is there a way to convince them that there is professionals out there who won't take advantage of them?

(TW: this ask talks about how to deprogram. If you're not in a place where reading this would be safe, do not continue)

I want to make it clear that this is not meant to be taken as medical advice, and that this advice should be read as "a friend who has been through this and is giving their two cents" sort of advice. Taking this advice is upon OP's discretion and any problems that arise due to taking this advice is not something I am responsible for.

That being said, I would tread pretty carefully in terms of trying to deprogram by yourself. However, the main parts of deprogramming are something that can actually be done at home, so long as this person has a good support system that can keep an eye on them in case things go wrong. Poking at programming when you're not well-versed in it can go very sideways, as some parts in a programmed system may not react well to this and cause things like self-harm programming or suicide programming to be triggered, which can obviously be dangerous. If you live with this person, make sure you lock away any access to sharp objects or objects that can be used to harm oneself (cleaning supplies, pills, etc) during this, especially in the beginning when you don't know what poking at this will do to their system.

If you do not live with them, I wouldn't even begin trying to deprogram with them because you won't be able to keep an eye on them and keep them safe. Instead, I would continue working on convincing them that not all medical professionals are bad, and that the ones they experienced in the past were a small batch of bad apples in a sea of much better apples. Not every therapist is equipped to handle deprogramming, though, so finding them a DID specialist, especially one who has worked with ritual abuse survivors or even helped systems deprogram will be necessary, as a therapist trying to do this with absolutely no experience in it whatsoever will only make it worse.

Now that I've got that out of the way, the main parts of deprogramming are these things here:

Convincing parts that they don't have to do their jobs anymore and that nothing bad will happen to them if they do not do their job.

Reminding them that their abusers are not omniscient and will not know that they are not doing their jobs and will not know that the system is talking about the fact they are programmed and that they are safe.

Convincing the system to build "safe spaces" in the inner world for alters who have defected from their programming so they do not get punished in the inner world for not doing their programming.

Reminding alters that they are not bad, there is no such thing as bad parts, and no matter what "bad" things they have done in the past, both internally or externally, you will care about them regardless.

Empathy and understanding goes a long way. Listening to parts goes a long way. Convincing parts to be willing to talk about their emotions relating to the trauma goes a long way. Parts often believe that nobody will ever believe what happened to them, so having someone in their corner that believes them and doesn't think they are faking or doesn't think they are a bad person goes a long way.

You're gonna need to get really good at reminding that system to ground. Reminding them that they are an adult, they are safe. Reminding them that it is [insert current year here] and they are safe, etc. Having cold drinks, hand warmers, strong smelling candles (that don't have triggering scents) and other grounding materials nearby at all times is essential.

Making sure they're not in contact with people that perpetrated the abuse is important so they don't try to go back to them to "get fixed" (reprogrammed) is so important for their safety.

Always reminding the system that you care about them genuinely and you can be trusted is a must. Programmed systems are often programmed to never trust anyone outside of the group and have a shit ton of betrayal traumas, so trusting others not to hurt them is incredibly difficult and can seem almost insurmountable. They may sometimes say things that are painful or hurtful to you or make assumptions about you that aren't true. ("You're just trying to be nice to me so you can SA me later" and things like that.) Please try not to take this personally, they have been abused to such a degree that they likely believe that anyone that they trust will eventually betray them and hurt them. You will have to continuously prove that this is not the case.

Kind of less important than the rest but can also be helpful--making sure they have friends other than you. Programmed systems are often very isolated people because they fear the world. Introducing them to safe people (even if those people don't know they're a system) can help prove to them that not all people are bad and will hurt them, and will help with their mental wellbeing outside of deprogramming.

And of course, on top of all of this, it will be important for them to eventually see a professional. All of these suggestions are for people in which seeing a professional is literally or nearly impossible in their circumstances or for folks who haven't processed medical traumas and need a short-term solution for deprogramming until they can overcome these fears and eventually see a specialist.

Last thing and again a reminder, these are not suggestions made by a medical professional, my advice should not be taken as medical advice, and any actions taken by anyone following this advice is not my responsibility. It is your own responsibility to keep yourself safe, not mine.

I hope this ask helps you and others. Take care, anon.

-Many

[monarchsurvivor]

One of our progs got triggered, and as a result our system is entirely different from the way it normally is. It’s terrifying and change is horrible.

[monarchsurvivor]

i hate being programmed and i hate that building and i wish they would've killed me instead.

[monarchsurvivor]

one thing that is really devastating about being programmed is the self blame and self hatred that it can accompany. I feel like a freak for some of my thoughts and some of my desires, they're disturbing to the degree that the dissociation is there to push it as far away as humanely possible, to convince myself I don't have any such desires. for example, a huge part of me doesn't want to separate from my handlers, or live a normal life. but that can't be right. the things being done to me aren't okay. why am I attracted to them? to pain, abuse? why does it make me feel safe? well I know why, but it's still devastating.

[monarchsurvivor]

[monarchsurvivor]

A Basic Guide to Heal from Mind Control

Let’s understand first that mind control has only one unmovable pillar - fear. Fear is consciously created by creating fragments which are frozen in an extremely painful state, this is done mostly through torture.

The way a program works is manipulating the perception of certain fragments to think that if the instruction is not executed, they will feel worse pain. Programs are created under torture for three main reasons.

1.- To get into a programmable dissociative state, “access the system” in order to install programs and shape the system.

2.- To associate which stimuli is going to activate it.

3.- To create self states in pain or operative alters.

The relationship of each fragment with the rest of the system is manipulated so each fragment thinks executing its program is literally saving your life and is in YOUR best interest to do so.

Programming successfully finishes when even a thought that’s against the given instructions causes sorrow, so your psyche decides that the least painful way is to offer no resistance and just execute the orders and programs. It could be abstractly said that the personal consciousness is shut down temporarily, but organically speaking the psyche is designed to be whole, thus, its natural tendency will always be towards its own integration, hence, the existence of triggers. Without this integrative mechanism, mental control doesn’t exist (the trauma would be simply forgotten). This is also the reason why resets and reprogramming are required even after the victim is considered a complete success. 

Pain in simple terms is going against a being’s integrity. It’s an organisms reaction towards self-preservation so it’s a core motivation.

We as humans are capable of abstraction, which is a complex series of relationships taught through and though diverse stimuli, this is why humans can be programmed beyond classical/operative conditioning. Abstraction is a mental not necessarily need but organic approach to make sense of our environment. This is what has made our species adaptable. This is how our beliefs shape the inner abstraction of the outer world, so, it could be said that lies are the most primitive and first mind control technique.

There isn’t just physical pain. Emotional pain for humans is the manipulation of 6 core universal emotional needs (I won’t mention them). These needs when not met cause extreme distress in the system. The difference between physical pain and emotional pain is that physical pain is stored in self-states, while emotional needs are an organic process, just like hunger. i.e. we can’t say thirst is stored in a self-state.

The way every programmed system works, no matter how fragmented it is, is simple. Programs are executed by self/ego-states who fear experiencing the pain stored in other self-states organized all to trigger themselves given certain stimuli, both internal or external. Each fragment is told certain lies to relate to each other in a certain given way, including the host system.

Emotional needs are an ongoing source of pain which is used to create more trauma and attachment to the organization.

So far, we can say there are three levels of mind control, which in order of complexity while healing go as follows.

1.- Beliefs

2.- Fear and pain (through torture)

3.- Emotional needs

These three levels are intermingled with each other. A single traumatic experience involves usually or “best for programming” all of them. 

Beliefs are healed researching about the project and about common human behavior, though it’s tempting to try to find the truth behind the lies only to find more lies behind the masks. Don’t fall for this trick, your power of truth lies in deciding who you want to become and what you want to do despite the given instruction. Even if you are forced to execute a task you don’t want to do, like programming another person, think it’s your decision to do it because you decide to do it instead of receiving the punishment, everyone would do like this, but no one can take away your freedom to think.

Emotional needs are mostly met through human connection and intimacy; if you don’t have anyone available yet, you can promise yourself to heal in the honor of liberating the friends you lost because they live in you and in honor of the friends you haven’t met. Also, a truth I used in myself was deciding my true identity is “I am a person on the path of healing and on the path of finding out the truth”.

You can deactivate each and every single program without the need of codes with just one simple process. The process of emotionally processing your self’ states frozen in pain.

For this step it’s important to comprehend that each program  your system executes is executed being sure it will help you in order to avoid worse pain. So, you need to eliminate the pain from your system. You do this with the innovative yet old practice of staying unconditionally with your pain. You need to feel it in order to heal it, after a truly compassionate while, just with your focused loving presence, it will be transformed.

If you’ll take only one thing from everything I said, let it be this one - feel your pain to process it.

This is your axis of power, because the processed pain will get to a point where it ceases to exist, and when this pain ceases to exist, there won’t be any triggers left in your system, which will allow your fragments to disobey the programs ‘cause the fear is not anymore present. This is also your axis of power because no one can take away the decision to feel from you. That’s impossible. This method dissolves the amnesic barriers and you become able to use the information and abilities of the rest of your system for your personal advantage. Each and every trigger is an opportunity to apply this process. Also, you don’t need mapping nor codes, because this process is organic. Relief from pain is executing the programmed action, relief is also addiction (distraction of the pain), but there’s no need for relief if there is no pain anymore.

Pain for this process should be understood as any negative emotion, from hallucinations and panic attacks, to sadness, shock, despair, hopelessness, numbness and sorrow. Just feel it, sink deeper into it.

If you want to master this practice, I’d recommend you reading “the Completion Process” by Teal Swan.

If you want to better understand how to deactivate various specific programs, I’d recommend you reading “Ritual Abuse and Mind Control: The Manipulation of Attachment Needs” edited by Joseph Schwartz, Orit Badouk-Epstein, Rachel Wingfield Schwartz.

Indeed, both perspectives can be merged.

[monarchsurvivor]

if any of my lovely moots or followers see a post floating around about how RAMCOA (Ritual Abuse, Mind Control, Organized Abuse) is supposedly an antisemitic conspiracy theory asserting that there’s a global underground cult network doing occult sacrifices please know that person has an extremely incorrect idea of what RAMCOA is.

RAMCOA doesn’t mean global cult doing sacrifices. it’s an umbrella term about a few specific types of abuse. “organized abuse” doesn’t mean global cult. it can be as small as a single family. “ritual abuse” doesn’t mean occult sacrifices. rituals can be literally anything. “mind control” doesn’t mean a secret memory wiping machine, it means programming (and other things).

and no, the RAMCOA community doesn’t have a secret dark agenda to convince all trauma survivors that their missing memories must be because of some memory wiping machine belonging to a secret underground sacrificial cult. most of us seek out every possible alternative explanation before looking at RAMCOA, and we encourage others to do the same.

i can see how they got there from the perspective of someone who knows a lot about antisemitism and nothing about RAMCOA but to assert the entire thing is fake is extremely disrespectful and dangerous. i won’t go into specifics of what RAMCOA is exactly because that would be too triggering for us, but please don’t form your opinion off a post from someone who is not a RAMCOA survivor and has a fundamental misconception of what it means. thanks.

also please don’t seek out and send hate to the OP. and please don’t send this post their way, we have no interest in discoursing about this. this is just a PSA for our followers.

[monarchsurvivor]

shout out to programmed / ramcoa systems who...

- can never fully mentally mature

- were made to mature too young

- know and remember nothing or just snippets

- know and remember everything or most things

- can't currently access therapy for safety or personal reasons

- are currently in therapy

[monarchsurvivor]

MK Ultra Greek Programing in DIDMCSRA Systems

There are a wide variety of people who use trauma based mind control and programming to meet their desired purposes, from lone wolf predators to cults to governments to the world-wide geopolitical network of Controllers, often called the Illuminati.  Each of these have different specialty needs, but they also have overlapping needs.  So they have found that the best way to have a customizable system for all of them is to have a basic set of foundational agreements between them.  This is where the Greek programming system comes into play.

It works much the same way the public education system works: children start with the basics, and then as they age and develop, they settle into their specialities/skills/talents/advanced training.  But there are also different outcomes for different people.  Everything from dropping out, to barely graduating, to going to vocational school, to going all the way through graduate school.  Because of this, not all intentionally designed systems will have all of the same number of types of programing, nor the same distribution of how many of each type.  Some groups of abusers/programmers add in other programming types that are not listed below, but usually these custom-designed groups are directly linked to or started the same way as one of these basic groups.  Think of it as a cookbook, and these are the most common basic ingredients (like flour, eggs, milk, sugar, etc).  They can be combined in many unique ways to make countless dishes.

Programmed alters are usually given a backstory (a basic personal history and identity, for example “I am a Princess who lives in the Castle”) which includes basic drives/objectives (for example “I must learn how to become a Queen and I must obtain the love of a King/Prince”) and basic skills and beliefs about those skills based on their core programming (for example “To be a good Princess, I must obey those who have Authority over me [My King/My Queen/The Court], I must learn how to be sexually desirable/good, and I must be able to have children to continue The Kingdom.” - which would be based upon Beta programming).

The most common programming categories are Alpha, Gamma, Beta, Delta, Omega, and Theta. These basic categories will be found in almost every trauma based mind control system if their abusers/programmers had enough time (and early enough access in terms of age of the body) to begin basic training.  Some survivors are lucky enough to be removed from their abusers before this can be completed, but sadly most are not removed in time because one or more of their immediate family is involved in their abuse/training.  These categories are both core/base programming (meaning there will be at least one alter of each type present in the system), and can be a specialty skill (meaning a system was designed to have a high population of this type of alter).  Many alters will even have programming from more than one of these categories at the same time (such as a Beta Delta).

ALPHA:  Base/Foundation programming, general dissociation skills, blank slates with amnesia barriers, and information attainment, storage, and recall.

GAMMA:  Misinformation, obfuscation, denial, confusion, and deflection of outsiders, along with maintenance of internal communication systems, information and asset protection.

BETA:  Sexual task performance, sexual and emotional bonding to influence or serve others, performance of drug administration or compromising situations in order to blackmail targets.

DELTA:  Weapon skills used for physically protecting assets, targets, or information, including the use of lethal force (either as assassination, self-defense, or body guard type situations). Interrogation tolerance and administration, fugue/automatic task performance (i.e., don’t think, don’t feel, just do this one scripted task until complete or dead), and other soldier-like training (“To Serve and Protect at any Cost”)

OMEGA:  Training and preparation to be able to commit suicide on demand, to be a willing sacrifice for a ritual or religious demand, or to suicide due to failing an assignment (seen as a form of protecting the secrets or information contained inside, and protecting or servicing the Family/Cult/Organization which owns them). They have a strong need to honor Family/Religious Bonds (“Death Before Dishonor”) and fear being killed and disgraced if they are seen as traitors (i.e., losing status, losing immortality, losing the protection/membership of the Family/Cult/Organization, and losing the rewards they have been promised in Heaven/Eternal Life/Afterlife).

THETA:  Training in religious, esoteric, occult, magic, Dark Arts, and energy work. These alters have very complex belief systems, may have psychic abilities, and often have special powers inside the internal world (such as to program, heal, or remove memories from other alters). Their religious beliefs are often at complete odds with others inside the body who tend to be more traditional/organized religion based such as Christian or Catholic and who may attend regular church services in the outside world.

There are two components of Theta, one of which would be part of the core/base programming, the other is more like Beta or Delta where it is a specific job assignment/skill. The core part of Theta is the system components/structures that maintain the whole internal system, controlling such things as which memories alters are allowed to keep and which ones are put into storage, what data that is allowed to be “known” or must be “hidden” and by what people, if damaged/“killed” alters are to be healed or sent to storage, when new programming scripts are to be triggered inside, and even what outsiders are allowed to access which inside alters (called “access”).  Alpha is like the operating system installed on a computer (like Windows or Mac), but Theta is the actual machinery that responds to the operating system and executes it’s commands (the actual computer equipment).  Beta, Delta, and Theta are also specific programs/skills, like specific computer applications, which can be added to the operating system (such as Word and Excel).  Theta alters are often put in positions of power over others, either as leaders or in a skilled professions that have the ability to interact with the Theta core programming of other alters and the Theta system itself.

Trees, Healers, Programmers, Doctors, Court/Council members, and Undertakers are all common types of alters who are trained to work as Thetas. They fix/repair, control/program, manipulate/enforce/punish, and keep other alters working in line with their own jobs/demands/programming. And they will often tell you that they connect or communicate to others like them “through Theta.” This may appear like a psychic ability, telepathy, long-distance non-verbal communication, or other non-tangible connections between alters (like invisible threads that keep them connected, like Wi-Fi enabled devices being able to communicate on the same network). These Thetas may have also been trained or experimented on to try to develop psychic abilities outside their inner world, such as ESP, Remote Viewing, and Psychic Manipulation.

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[monarchsurvivor]

do you ever just. read even the tiniest bit about MK Ultra and every other word is fodder for a photoset about not just Terry but Henry and El

I woke up from my coma, only to find myself placed in the care of a doctor the very doctor I had hoped to escape...

After the attack, you fell into a coma... But when you awoke, something had been lost. Your memories, along with whatever else you'd found within yourself that day....

Wait! Wait! I can put her in a coma. A medically induced coma. We have the drugs. We can do it right here...

tape loops and NINA... well well.. I've mentally hit the photo limit already.

(anterograde = inability to form new memories after onset / retrograde = losing memories from before the onset)

limited speech, amnesia, brainwashed memory of their bio parent, calls their captor by a parental name... okay.

long been troubled by the "El making Troy pee" thing because nothing on this show is ever as simple as hehe funny. why is that the humiliation that came to mind for her?

could not have worded that better myself...

[monarchsurvivor]

Something I wish the RAMCOA/TBMC community understand is there is a difference between Monarch Programming and Monarch-Like Programming.

A cult who uses the ideologies of government based propaganda to program people is not Monarch Programming it's Monarch-Like

Actual Monarch Programming is the government itself programming via CIA's MK Ultra or the North Korea Regime

Just because your handlers may be of a government figure or had an obsession with yahteez far right propaganda does not mean they are "monarch" and very few organizations would be considered "Monarch Programming"

[monarchsurvivor]

How every program works in our system and how to deactivate them

A comprehensive guide to heal from Mind Control.

Hi! I created an over simplified general explanation of my understanding of MK so it’s easier to heal from it. It’s a further in-depth consideration of the many factors and organic processes of the human psyche involved and I wrote it mindfully for those who want an exact explanation of the system, so you can control it and deprogram yourself.

Any further insight on the topic is well appreciated.

TW

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Every living organism on Earth has a communication system with its environment and within itself to guarantee survival. Every environment is a system and we could understand each organism is a complex system in and of itself. I.e. a human system is composed by a system of organs which are communicated between them, each sub system, like the blood system is dependent on other systems, like the respiratory system or the digestive system, so on and so forth, until we understand that our survival is dependent on the communication of the systems within the systems from a single cell and its relationship to others cells to the human being as a whole and then with the environment this human is placed at. It could be said that effective communication is the key to survival, this communication system is also known as homeostasis.

A highly Mind Control - fragmented individual is no different from the previously described physiological system. Each system installed within the psyche has a planned function and the communication between these fragments of consciousness is composed by “programs”. Thus, it can be said that Mind Control programming is the deliberate and conscious intention to cause a fake homeostasis in the psychological system.

A human psychological system is composed of two main components: beliefs and emotions. This system is consciously mirrored in MK with programs and pain self states, respectively.

Programs are composed of two main vibrations: thoughts and fragments of memories. Thought in essence is the abstraction of outer reality to create an inner reality so the psychological system can have a better communication with its environment and then guarantee survival this way. Keep in mind thoughts can both be installed and also be the result of the interpretative abstraction of experiences such as traumatic experiences. This abstraction phase tends to be the weakest point in MK, that’s the evident reason why the focus on creating the exact outer interpretable reality is the most well thought and carefully applied part of the programming process.

Dissociation

The role of the psyche is to be the bridge between internal and external stimuli, this homeostatic process is called behaviour. But in order to give an appropriate communication to the environment, the psyche first needs to abstract such reality.

To abstract reality, the psyche needs to correlate a given emotion with a given coherent thought. We call this an experience. Each experience a human faces becomes part of the belief and emotional system of (fragments within a) person.

The human being, as any other organism is hard wired for its more instinctive core motivation: survival. Pain is the absence of integrity (pain self state) or the perceived absence of integrity (belief). There are different levels of pain, each level provides a different communication from the organism. Simplified, in MK, mild states of pain are inflicted to create and reinforce conscious abstractions of reality; meanwhile deep states of torture are inflicted in order to activate unique responses, all of them related with perception, some of them are: acute awareness of the external stimuli, slowing of the perception of time and the acting on all the different strategies the being can conceive of in order to assure its survival, all of them resourced in MK for different purposes, given the physical communication is understood as a life/death scenario, the psyche ranks as highest any proper homeostasis sacrificing the rest of the existing integrative self preservation mechanisms, i.g. an individual is unlikely to mutilate his own arm or severely hurt others in a normal state, but under extreme torture he is likely to do it if he perceives this behaviour as the appropriate communication with the environment to guarantee self preservation. Given this information is stored during dissociative (torture-induced) states, and dissociative states are kept in the subconscious, the beliefs and self states achieved during programming sessions are recorded in the subconscious mind. This is the why when it comes about memory loss.

Triggers

Let’s remember that abstraction is the main communication tool of the psyche, given abstraction guarantees survival, one of our psyche’s core compulsions is to abstract information from every lived experience, but in order to get this abstraction it needs to process both the emotions and the thoughts, the self states and beliefs, to the overall psychical system.

The organism, when experiencing trauma, dissociates the experience into fragments as an emergency self preservation mechanism. The purpose of fragmentation is to be able to give an effective immediate communication that ensures survival and then, when the system detects itself in a safe enough environment, the psyche integrates that experience to have a better accurate response in the future.

This is why memory loss or the amnesia organically starts to fade after some time, faster when the system finds itself in a rather prosperous environment. Given a situation where there are no immediate perceived threats to survival, the psyche’s integrative mechanism organically gets activated and starts trying to integrate the dissociated experiences. This means that if you get organically triggered it’s because your psyche detects you are safe enough to process it.

MK simplified is to play with the relationships linked between the perceived survival threat and the encoded beliefs about how to reach homeostasis.

It does this by purposefully implementing triggers to create a pathway to certain self states and implementing beliefs along this pathway to manipulate the way these self states relate to each other, so, given a certain trigger the organism executes a behaviour that otherwise would be organically impossible to show, this because in MK both the beliefs and the pain self states are impaired and some self states are made believe executing a program/behaviour is the best communication for homeostasis immersed in experimentally controlled designed environments that self-state is created or activated at, along the intended belief system that’s tied in its experience, always impulsed by the core motivation of self-preservation. MK dissects the psyche’s natural integrative mechanism both to generate forgetfulness and activate complex trigger pathways for controlled behaviour.

Mind Control programmed triggers are activated because yet again, given the psyche’s role to ensure survival, when it detects itself in a similar environment it triggers the dissociated self/ego-state active while (or deliberately trigger-pathway-led to when) it was formed. This happens because the psyche decides to replicate the same behaviour that previously managed to ensure the system’s survival or the behavior which got the system some relief, always looking for the optimal least painful option. This is the cause of addiction in common behaviour.

Because of this important role in the homeostatic process for survival, one of the main organic characteristics of the psyche is to look for the integration of these fragments. This is the reason why triggers exist, without this organic integrative psychological mechanism MK would be impossible to exist, indeed, some of the compulsions trauma gives rise to are the unconscious attempts of the psyche of reaching integration by re-creating the situations that would help it trigger itself or by giving to the pain self state an immediate coherent belief for its explanation (self destructive behavior). This self destructive behavior happens when the information is not processed correctly, being integration a subconscious order.

Integration - how to process a self state

The beliefs are commonly integrated in an organic way once the pain self states are integrated, but general research about psychology and MK is advised, as well as sharing your experiences with a qualified mental health practitioner and in self-help communities.

In order to integrate a pain self state you need to re experience it. You need to be unconditionally present with it. You need to feel the emotion and if anything sink deeper into it. You need to have an attitude of compassion.

The more traumatic the experience is, the more the information that is required to be integrated is, so the longer the time the unconditional presence is required. But the psyche, in order to avoid overwhelm, segments this emotional integrative process, so there are different emotional experiences or emotional layers or stages during this natural integrative mechanism, which generally come linear from fear to powerlessness and then anger, sadness, hope, all the way to reach well being. Beware that the emotional, mental and physical reactions during the emotional experiencing process might be extreme.

In pragmatic terms, you may feel you may die if you don’t execute the program, which is felt as a strong compulsion, but I’m here to remind you this happens because your system was wired so you associate the execution of the program with relief from the strongest human core motivation: self preservation. In other words, that program is simply linked to a dissociated (not-integrated) pain self state usually “best for programming purposes” backed up with the fear of death.

There are two main stances to heal from Mind Control.

1.- Rewire yourself to a close enough organic response, so the behaviour you exhibit goes according to the real stimuli. This could be done with parts work and abstract visualisation.

This is a round-about way. The main disadvantage is that you might need to know your mapping in order to understand the relationship which links your self states between them. Some programmed implementations might be deceitful in order to hide these links and prevent you from doing this rewiring process, specially when you don’t know the associated triggers (codes). Also, given the organic integration mechanism, you will have to follow the second path either way.

At best, with this path you’ll be able to have control over your triggers so you don’t get self states activated according to the original program and mapping but to one of your choosing. It’s important to mention you must deactivate the programs if you find them.

2.- Process the pain self states. Knowing all the programs are backed up with pain self states, each time you get triggered to execute a program you just need to deny yourself from the relief of executing it and rather feel the negative emotion tied to it. This also works with any addictive or self destructive behaviour.

One of the greatest advantages of this process is that each time you integrate a pain self state you are destroying the real foundational structure of the programmed system stablished through MK. Usually more than one program is linked to a single pain self state, so integrating just one pain self state deactivates more than one program. Next time another program tied to that (now) integrated self-state gets triggered, you won’t feel any negative emotion if you don’t execute it.

Given emotion (pain self states) tends to be the closest to the conscious mind, this is also the process which enables memory retrieval, thus giving you access to the information and abilities of the rest of your system. This is the organic process your psyche will follow even if you don’t know how it works and even if you ignore its existence, yet it’s my personal recommendation to apply this process in a conscious manner. The fastest optimal state is getting to the point of purposefully triggering yourself to deliberately integrate pain self states.

Both stances can indeed be merged and used at the same time.

My personal experience

Now, if you allow me, I want to share my personal experience in this matter. Life has been hell for me. For years all day long I thought about all the different ways I could kill myself just because thinking it would be over felt as relief, starting my first attempt at 11 years old.

It’s at that age that unknown to me, the psyche’s integrative mechanism of emotional experiencing process activated itself, my symptoms were crying while suffocating and throwing up at the same time, the pain was so intense I prayed God to please kill me, also hallucinations in dissociative state, hitting myself over and over against the wall and screaming without being able to hear me.

13 years have gone by since then, I have had other symptoms, like extreme diarrhea, nosebleeds, headaches, demonic nightmares and panic attacks.

I still have a long road before me, I’m just starting to remember.

But each time the overall pain is less and I even got to experience emotions like joy and enthusiasm. Each time the symptoms are less intense as well.

13 years have passed since I tried to kill myself at eleven yo, and now life is not that hell it used to be. Now I have hope. Even, let me tell you a personal secret, some months ago, I fell in love with another guy and it was magical, our relationship didn’t last long, but it was more than what I could ever imagine I could have. Falling in love was the dream of my life, and I made it.

Summary

In essence, just as I previously mentioned, the key process to heal from MK is to feel your emotions with compassionate presence.

When the pain self states and the beliefs are integrated to the psyche, the system successfully reaches a state of organic homeostasis.

In other words, when you process the emotions and thoughts of your traumatic experiences, you reach a state of psychological peace and well being.

To further master the practice of the emotional experiencing process I recommend you watching “Follow the feeling process” by Teal Swan - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lVShM00qQ80

And then watching “How to do the emotional healing process” by Teal Swan - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IQYlpIPdirs

For further information I recommend you reading - “Ritual Abuse and Mind Control: The Manipulation of Attachment Needs” edited by Joseph Schwartz, Orit Badouk-Epstein, Rachel Wingfield Schwartz.

Written with love for you.