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monsterrae1 · 5 hours
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You weren't mine to lose
There's a Gallery in New York with objects from failed relationships and people that've left, it's called the "Broken Hearts Gallery" and when they open an exhibition Buck runs into a very familiar item that brings on a lot of realizations and new light on his relationship with Eddie, who he hasn't spoken to in weeks. Eddie on the other hand is trying very hard to accept that Buck's happy with someone else and move on, when he goes back to the gallery and find and item that changes it all. Could their broken hearts be mended?
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I couldn't find my own post about this fic, but anyway, I'm watching the movie that inspired this again tonight so I thought I might as well promote this one again, it's honestly one of my favorite I've written.
So if anyone wanna give it a read you're welcome to.
Not using the tag list since this is an old fic, but if you read thank you and I love you
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monsterrae1 · 6 hours
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wip wednesday
tagged by the lovely @disasterbuckdiaz, @try-set-me-on-fire, @hoodie-buck, @honestlydarkprincess, @watchyourbuck <3 <3 <3 i do not know how many tag games i've been missing but thank you to everyone who has been tagging me <3
With a punched out groan, Eddie gathers more slick on his thumb, grinning when it draws a shuddery moan from Buck. Offering his hand to Buck, Eddie’s breath hitches in the back of his throat when pink lips part easily and wet heat envelops his thumb. He groans, tongue darting out to try and catch another taste of Buck on his lips as he watches Buck suck his thumb clean. It never fails to thrill Eddie how much of a come slut Buck is.  His hips twitch forward in a shallow thrust, his growing knot aching as he watches Buck’s devastatingly pink tongue lave over the pad of his thumb. With a grunt, he pulls his hand back, rumbling a soothing noise as Buck whines and tries to pull his hand back. But Eddie needs both of his hands. In one swift movement, he gets both hands under Buck’s thighs and lifts them up and out— leaving Buck completely exposed to him.
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monsterrae1 · 6 hours
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WIP Wednesday
More from the datenapped BTHB fic! The square for this one is "tied to a chair" >:)
Finally, Buck settles on a dark pink dress shirt that he knows will drive Eddie crazy because it will compliment his birthmark and lips. Eddie’s been annoyingly modest since they made their dinner reservations, teasing Buck with kisses to his cheek and forehead and always dodging Buck when he tries to go for Eddie’s mouth, saying that he wanted to save their first kiss for their first date. Last first date, last first kiss. It’s sickeningly romantic but Buck’s also going to start climbing the walls if he doesn’t get to make out with Eddie soon. Hence, drawing attention to his lips with his shirt choice in the hopes that Eddie will jump him as soon as they get back to Buck’s loft after dinner.
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This week’s word is…
🎶 SONG 🎶
Find the word in any WIP and share the sentence containing it. Reply, reblog, stick it in the tags, tag us in a new post, or keep it private. All fandoms, all ships, all writers welcome.
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send this to the twelve nicest people you know or who seem to have a good heart and if you get five back you must be pretty awesome 🤭🩷
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You make me happier 🖤
How is your life going? You seem happier lately.
oh?? jfhfdj probably?? if im happier its all thanks to @monsterrae1 <333
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Wip Wednesday | A.R.C.A.N.E.3
(snippet from upcoming chapter 4)
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Eddie woke up to water being thrown on his face. He gasped for air and spat out what had gone inside his mouth, then opened his eyes, moving frantically, but he couldn’t see. Blindfolded.
“Stay put, Voider,” ordered a man in a rough voice.
Eddie’s senses were heightened. He struggled against the restrains on his hands and feet, but the knots were tight. Camp of Voiders, he thought.
The man moved around the room, his steps resonating against the walls. This couldn’t be on the surface. He was underground. Somewhere underground.
Buck.
“Where is he?” Eddie asked, trying to force his wrists apart. “Where is he!”
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*i drew you flowers bc im broke and we're too far away but they still need sun and ur the obvious choice <333
You’re the love of my life, did you know that? 😍😍😍🥰🥰🥰
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wip wednesday
it's me hi. im not dead it's me. thank you to everyone who keeps tagging me i really do appreciate it <3 thanks to @disasterbuckdiaz @spotsandsocks and @eddiebabygirldiaz for the tag today 💖 here's some more from the missing presumed fic
Eddie surfaces first. The burn in his lungs is its own five-alarm fire. He inhales, a shallowing rasping sound drowned in the chaos of water furiously lapping against wooden doors and dark wallpaper. His foot slides on something that must be a stair, ankle bending enough that the pain briefly registers before it’s forgotten as he slips under the water. “Buck!”  The name rips out of him as soon as it can.  His fingers find a railing and he uses it to guide himself up where the water barely falls below his neck. The hallway is almost fully submerged and if Buck isn’t within reaching distance then Eddie knows there’s a good chance he got sucked right out of the gaping hole on the other side. “Buck!”  His voice is hoarse, cracking half-way through his partner’s name. Salt coats every part of his mouth, the water somehow colder, more piercing and he shivers violently, swaying with the flow of the current. He knows going forward means certain death, the water a dangerous pull to the ocean that won’t be so kind if it takes him, but climbing up the rest of the stairs means leaving Buck and he could never — would never — do that. “Buck.” This time it comes out like a whisper; a plea or a prayer. There’s no response, just the flickering of lights and the roaring ebb and flow as it climbs higher and higher towards the ceiling. Eddie steels himself for what he knows he’ll have to do in just a matter of seconds because one of them has to go home to Christopher. And even though Eddie knows he can’t follow, part of him will always be wherever Buck is.
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WIP WEDNESDAY
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Who knows when this will be released into the world so have a generous snippet of the only thing I’ve managed to write this week
He can’t help feeling this is a stupid idea even if it was his own in the first place. Getting Buck back out there and getting the inevitable over with had seemed like a good idea until he had to actually witness Buck in action. He’s been watching surreptitiously and how any one can resist the blue eyes and cute smile is beyond him and that’s just the outside of Buck. The inside, his true self is so much better. The man has it all going for him. Chim has no chance of being right about Buck having “lost it” in Eddie’s opinion he’s getting better looking, more attractive every year.
A grin lights up Buck’s face and his eyes flash over to where Eddie’s standing. Eddie looks away quickly, maybe Buck didn’t notice him staring. Lifting the empty bottle to his lips again for something to do he reminds himself this is his own fault and he can’t complain but maybe shouldn’t complain would be a better phrase because that’s what he’s doing, completely silently but very very fiercely.
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For some reason Eddie’s swigging from an empty bottle. If he needs a drink Buck ought to wrap things up here and get back to him. He makes his excuses to Siobhan who’s nice enough but no Eddie and escapes. He can’t say he’s not a little gratified by the flash of disappointment on her face as he leaves but he’s much more pleased by the smile that lights up Eddie’s face when he taps him on the arm to gain his attention.
“You need a beer?” Buck nods towards the empty bottle. “Or..” he tells himself the next sentence doesn’t have to mean anything “ would you like to dance for a bit?”
Eddie blinks in surprise and Buck holds his breath.
“Dancing sounds fun.”
“Yeah?”
A warm hand grabs his forearm, “yeah, let’s go, you can buy me a beer after I show you my moves.”
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wip wednesday
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Eddie leans down, but only a little because his son is already ridiculously tall, and kisses Chris’ forehead. “You know you’re my favorite, right?” 
Chris rolls his eyes but grins. “Buck can be your favorite, too. I know he is.”
“It’s different. You both are. But you are always first. He thinks so, too. You’re our son. We love you more than anything.”
The smile fades a little and then disappears as quickly as it appeared. “He’s going to stay with us, right? He’s not going to leave?” 
Why is it always Chris who can so effectively drive a knife through Eddie’s chest with the way he’s suffered and lost and been in pain? Chris never should have had to experience so much pain. “Yes, Chris. He’s going to stay with us.” 
Chris gives him that pointed, very Shannon look that twists the knife so well. He sounds fragile and so much closer to being the heartbroken six year old who missed his mom than he is to being the teenage survivor that he is. “Promise?” 
He can’t promise that. Eddie can’t even say he believes it himself all the way. Why wouldn’t he fuck up and lose the best thing that’s ever happened to them? Why wouldn’t Buck get tired or fed up and leave Eddie? 
Eddie’s not enough for him. 
“I promise Buck is never going to leave you, okay?” Eddie tells him and it has to be enough. “You’ll always have him. He’s not going to stop being your dad for any reason.” 
Chris just looks at him with unending sorrow and eyes full of tears. “What about you? You need Buck, too. I know you do. He’s also your favorite and your ‘more than anything’ and he’s both of ours and I don’t want him to leave you either. I know how sad you were, Dad. I know you were. You’re not the same without him. You need him. We both need him. I don’t want you to be sad like that ever. I don’t want to— I don’t want to lose Buck like we lost Mom. He’s my dad and you love him and I don’t want to do that again. We can’t do that again.”
Jesus Christ. Can he have a chance to not be stabbed through the heart, thanks? 
“Chris—” What the fuck does Eddie even say? “Buck will always be my friend. Even if we don’t— even if—” 
He can’t breathe. He can’t. There’s no air. 
He has to swallow and get it together. It’s fine. He’s fine. The mere thought of having to break up is not going to make him panic. The thought of Chris losing another parent cannot make him panic either. 
It’s just— it’s not great. The whole idea of losing Buck is awful and he hates it and doesn’t want to even think such a thing let alone talk about it. 
But he has to say something. He has to reassure Chris. He blinks back his own tears and he can do this. They’ll figure it out. It’ll be okay. It has to. “If dating him doesn’t work out, Buck and I will still be friends.” 
They will be. Their relationship is so much more than dating and kissing and being in love. It’s strong enough to survive anything. It would be awful and Eddie honestly doesn’t know if he’d ever stop being in love with him even if they had to face the horrible reality of a divorce. How could his heart ever stop wanting Buck? But they would find a way to be friends. 
They might not be able to have a marriage, but they have to be in each other’s lives. That is nonnegotiable. They’d figure it out. 
“And he’d still be your dad,” Eddie adds. “None of that would change.”
Chris sniffs and still frowns. But he tries to at least look like he buys it. “He wouldn’t live here with us though.”
“No, probably not. But in a few years, you won’t want to live here either. You’ll want to go to college or get some fancy job or maybe you’ll travel, but you’ll have your own life to live wherever you want and do whatever you want. You won’t be here either.” 
It was supposed to be comforting, but it only makes Chris’ tears overflow. He goes back to hugging Eddie as tightly as possible and trying to stifle the way he cries.
Eddie simply hugs him in return and wishes he could banish away all his pain and anguish. But he doesn’t know how they would make it through losing Buck either. They would. They would have to. They have each other. 
But Buck is missing pieces and filled in needs and worlds of love and support for both of them. Eddie doesn’t know how they’d keep going if all of that is ripped away. They would, but. How? 
One step forward, one more breath. That’s all you can ever do. That’s what Bobby and Athena told him before. That’s all anyone can do. 
Eddie closes his eyes tightly and has to shut it off and he just needs to comfort his son. He can do that. He just needs to protect and love his son. 
After a tiny second of quiet, there’s movement at the doorway to the kitchen. And then Buck is wrapping around them both. Until they’re holding Chris between them while also gripping each other. 
They’ve all been through so much loss, so much trauma, why wouldn’t the scariest, most horrible nightmare imaginable be the thought of losing each other and their little family? 
Buck kisses them both, Chris on the side of his head and Eddie on his cheek, and he whispers promises of infallible, irrevocable love. Because he’s nothing if not his unfailing heart. 
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monsterrae1 · 8 hours
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Wip Wednesday!
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For context Hen, Karen and Christopher are about to leave to bring Athena and Bobby to the surprise party
Hen had taken to standing while Christopher maneuvered his hands to grip onto the crutches correctly “Do you need to say bye to your Dad?”, she asked
Christopher nodded his head “Be right back”, he answered, moving into the kitchen and leaving the others behind.
Eddie was still finishing up plating the food which wasn’t much that was actually left but he and Ravi looked ready to move it very soon, he had turned his head towards Christopher who was nearing towards him “Everything okay?”, he asked
Christopher nodded his head, looking up at Eddie “I’m going to get Athena and Bobby”, he answered softly
Eddie turned his head towards Ravi for just a second who was just looking at him “Go on, I’ll finish it. Don’t worry”, Ravi assured him before Eddie’s attention was right back on Christopher, kneeling down in front of him they just hugged each other. It wasn’t a long hug but it was long enough for Christopher to just groan before he was let go
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WIP Wednesday!
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okay so i don't have any snippets to offer today, my brain is fried from posting the drunk eddie fic and the stubble fic so instead! help me choose which wip to focus on next (i know i keep doing these but last time one won the poll i actually followed through, so yay! anyway.)
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thanks for the tags loves @disasterbuckdiaz @wikiangela 🩵
—here’s more from therapist eddie, ft. the buckley siblings 🫶🏼
Buck got into the car once Maddie arrived, relived to finally be off his feet and rid of the crutches for the time being.
“So, how was it? Was the third time the charm?”
Buck grumbled out an answer. What was he supposed to say? Oh, sure Mads, he was really cute, I loved the feeling of his hands on me. Oh, and I totally freaked out on him at the end and ditched a half hour early but he was cool with it for some reason. Yea, he would not be telling her any of that, thank you very much.
When Maddie didn’t say anything for too long, Buck looked over to her, a wide smile spreading across her face.
“They were cute, weren’t they?”
Buck rolled his eyes as he turned away from her.
“Shut up.”
Maddie laughed next to him, Buck keeping his smile to himself, tucking his face into his hoodie.
Buck had no idea why, but for the first time in months, he felt like everything was going to be ok. It certainly didn’t have anything to do with his new hot physical therapist. No definitely not.
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WIP Wednesday
tagged by @tizniz @diazsdimples @paperstorm @disasterbuckdiaz @carlos-in-glasses @wikiangela @im-overstimulated-and-im-sad @exhuastedpigeon rereading my buddie bachelorette au to get remember what I wrote and I really like this bit so here it is so you can (hopefully) like it too! (also you can tell I wrote pre-7x01 with chris' reaction lmaoo)
“You remember that show Tia Pepa likes to watch? The Bachelorette?” 
Chris’ nose scrunches in disgust. “You mean that one where a girl gets a bunch of boyfriends and they all fight over her? And for some reason you pretend not to like it?”
The automatic reaction to deny his liking for the show is on the tip of his tongue before he knows it. He stops when he sees Chris’ knowing eyes. What they say about children being a blessing and curse is right. “Nevermind. What I came to ask you about is, well - How would you feel about me being on that show? To try to get a girlfriend?”
There’s a long silence as Chris studies him. Eddie holds his breath, waiting for a response. 
“You’re not going to get a girlfriend on there, Dad.” He picks up his controller and is about to go back to his game when Eddie places a hand over his.
“Now, hang on, what do you mean by that? Do you not believe I can?” He expected Chris to protest, to throw something. Akin to when he told him he was dating Ana. He expected disbelief. Who would believe their dad to go on a reality show to find love? That’s the beginning of the worst bad joke if Eddie’s ever heard one. 
Chris snorts, as if the answer is obvious. “You needed my help to ask Marisol out and then she didn’t even call you back after your date. You’re hopeless.” A second passes. “How did you get Mom to marry you?”
It’s a joke, Eddie knows that. But it’s also a genuine question. It makes Eddie’s heart melt in a way that brings tears to his eyes. “You know what? I ask myself that all the time, Superman.” He wraps his arm around Chris in a one armed hug. Something that Chris immediately protests too, yet Eddie knows he secretly loves. “So how long do you think I’m going to last, mijo?”
Chris rolls his head to the side, thinking about it. “A week.” 
Eddie whistles, taking the blow. “Hope you got a betting pool going.” Not that he wants his only child to become a gambler. However if there’s one person to win on how long he lasts the show, he’d rather it be his son.
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WIP Wednesday
i went down a rabbit hole watching pole classes and decided to skip that section for today because it's going to be longer than anticipated. Instead, I started working on what happens after the pole dancing class.
“S-so you were a stripper,” Buck took a breath and tried to take his eyes off of Eddie, but he couldn’t seem to make himself do it. He hadn’t had time to talk to Eddie about it between rushed showers and changing for dinner, but now they were back at the hotel for the night, the rest of the party already in their own rooms.  “Yeah, for about a year,” Eddie said, looking up from where he was kicking his shoes off. “Did you want another show?” “I-I -” “All you have to do is ask, Buck,” Eddie said, walking over to where Buck was sitting on the desk chair. “I didn’t usually do private dances, but I never had anyone as pretty as you to dance for either.” Buck swallowed, his mouth dry. This was a side of Eddie Buck had never seen before - somehow both goofy and sexy with all of his charm turned up to 1000. It was almost too much, especially after seeing Eddie on the pole earlier that day. But Buck had also seen the joyful way Eddie had laughed while he did a sit spin on the pole, the way Eddie had looked at Buck all soft and fond after Buck fell on his ass.  Maybe this was the natural tipping point for him and Eddie. Maybe all the times he’d stolen glances at Eddie, only to catch Eddie already looking had been a sign. Maybe the way Eddie bullied Buck into staying the night, to staying in his bed with him weekend after weekend, had been a sign too. In fact, maybe Buck was bad at reading signs.  “Or maybe I’ve been reading this wrong,” Eddie said quickly, taking a step back. Buck reached out and grabbed him by the waist, his hands fit perfectly and maybe that was a sign too.  “You’re really not,” Buck said just as quickly.  “Well in that case, no touching the dancers,” Eddie chided with a teasing smile, putting his hands on Buck’s wrists, moving them from his waist to Buck’s own thighs.
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wip wednesday
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thank you darlins! <3
why yes, i have more calls fic for yall. for context, eddie has just gotten home from therapy but can't quite manage to get out of the truck yet
Maybe he doesn’t want Chris and Buck to see him like this.
Not that it’s not anything new to them-the way that every bit of fight he built up within himself year after year has fled him, leaving him dry and loose and weary; the dark circles under his eyes and the sickly pallor of his skin, every single wretched demon within him clawing out of his mind and painting themselves over his body; and the slow and rough cadence of his voice, hoarse from words and tears he can’t admit to releasing, not yet.
But he hates that they keep having to see it, that he isn’t an easy fix, that he is something to worry about, that he is going to have to work to get better, and he is just so tired of it all.
They deserve better.
And maybe, just maybe, he does too.
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