mooodlighting

[mooodlighting]

ohhh we love a good “forced to torture your friend while undercover as a bad guy” don’t we

like. when you meet their eyes and you both know you have to do it and you have to do it well

[mooodlighting]

i wish writing the fic you want to see in the world didn't feel like being held at gunpoint

[mooodlighting]

writing isn’t hard it’s just emotionally devastating and time-consuming and requires full body possession by an idea

[mooodlighting]

Eddie should’ve closed the window. They’d opened it the night before, letting cool air sweep through the house while they slept. Now, late morning heat saturated the room. Sweat gathered at the nape of Eddie’s neck, wetting the ends of her hair. Dripping tendrils curled around her ears, clinging to her skin. Her hand was soaked, too—fingers and palm and around to the back of it. A thought occurred to her. Lifting her hand, Eddie pressed the pads of her index and middle fingers to her thumb. She rubbed them together and felt the raised ridges catch. Like sitting in bathwater too long, her fingertips were pruned from Buck’s cunt. The absurdity of the comparison made Eddie smile.

Fem!Buddie 🔸 Explicit 🔸 4.4k 🔸 Read on AO3

[mooodlighting]

[mooodlighting]

writing is hard when your brain goes ‘this sentence is mid’ and you’re like ‘ok? you wrote it???? do better then????'

[mooodlighting]

25 hours a day, 8 days a week, #gpoy.

[mooodlighting]

"just write a little every day" ok but what if i write nothing for 3 weeks and then suddenly type like i’m being hunted by god

[mooodlighting]

writing is 10% storytelling and 90% rearranging three sentences for an hour like you're trying to solve an ancient curse

[mooodlighting]

Epic Buddie Fic Rec | March 31st-May 15th 2025 (PART TWO)

Part two of my long ass rec!

(Also: HAPPY FINALE DAY EVERYONE! I won't be able to watch live because of the aforementionned trip, but prayer circle for a good one 🙏) Nevermind 🙄

Also, bad news! There's gonna be a part 3 of this 😅

@facewithoutheart @markofalover @cal-daisies-and-briars @nibblyssacrifice @letmetellyouaboutmyfeels @facewithoutheart @mooodlighting @markofalover @wildehacked @tizniz @shitouttabuck @all-or-nothing-baby @organizedstardust @nymika-arts @chronicowboy

Complete

whole package, babe, i like the way you fit (i might let you make me juno) by bibuckdiaz (PWP, A/B/O | 3K | E): “Gonna come for me, gorgeous? Bet you’ll shoot off like you always do, even more than I do. Fuck, you’ve got such a pretty cock - it’s so big you’d think you had a knot yourself.”

Opie by Buddieaya (Canon Divergent | 4K | T): Or; au where Buck finds Christopher’s cat Opie.

🔥 this house is not a home (not without you) by needmesomepie (Eddie in Texas, Post-S8E10: Voices, Pining | 24K | G): Or - Eddie starts seeing a therapist a month after moving to Texas. Buck thinks he’s started dating a guy for the first time. It goes about as well as you think.

Gay Eddie. Kiss Buck. by paleredheadinascifi (Time Travel, Crack | 1K | T): Or, Eddie needs to lock the fuck in and kiss Buck. He gets 30 seconds to convince himself to do it.

tell me what you want by weewooforever (PWP | 6K | E): “Yeah. And look, I know it sounds insane and completely out of nowhere, but I—I really need this. I’ve been pent up and I thought— That you’d do this for me.” “Eddie,” Buck says, voice smoothing out as he steps closer, a slow grin tugging at his mouth. “I’ll give you anything you want. You just have to tell me. Say the word, and I’ll make it happen. Can you do that for me?” (Part 1 of wants and needs)

I know who my first call will be to by gaynovember (S8E6: Confessions, Getting Together | 3K | M): “Well, yeah, I…” The few beers Eddie's had are catching up to him, making his head buzz, and suddenly he wonders. Would it be so bad to just… leave things open for interpretation? To maybe open the door, and see if Buck’s interested in checking what’s behind it? “It’s like I was saying. I don’t understand Tommy.” A pause, taking in the weight of what he’s about to say next. “If I were him, I’d never leave your side.”

lumiere, darling by stevesconverse (Eddie Back From LA, Getting Together | 5K |T): or the one where eddie teaches buck some salsa, but doesn't know how autoplay works.

coming right back home to you by justhockey (S8, Getting Together | 7K | T): He’s allowed this, sure. In small doses, as Eddie’s friend and as Chris’s, well - uncle doesn’t feel right, but he’s not just his friend either, is he? And this is good, it’s great, it’s more than Buck ever imagined he would find for himself. But there’s that part of him that lurks just beneath his ribcage - the selfish, greedy part - that longs for more than this. For more than just a few evenings a week, hanging out like friends do, pretending like it doesn’t break his heart to love Eddie in a way that Eddie could never love him back.

tying you to me by markofalover (Future Fic, Established Buddie | 2K | T): …or, before Eddie proposes, he goes to Bobby and Athena.

How to cheat the soulmate system by paleredheadinascifi (Canon Divergent - Soulmates, S6E10: In A Flash | 5K | T): Or, Eddie's soulmate is going to die today, and that's fine, really. He's never met her. It's just a cruel coincidence that Buck is struck by lightning on today of all days.

🔥 for all the love you've left behind by Daisies_and_Briars (Post-S8E11: Holy Mother of God, Canon Divergent, Adopted Buck | 32K | T): When a DNA test reveals a surprising connection between Buck and Bobby, both must navigate their own trauma and insecurities to move forward.

just don’t leave me alone (wondering where you are) by baffledbuck (S8E14: Sick Day Coda | 1K | T): The line rang, and rang, and rang. "You've reached Buck Buckley! I can't come to the phone right now, but—" Eddie hung up. Eddie dialed Buck. The line rang. "You've reached Buck Buckley! I can't come to the phone right—" Eddie hung up. He dialed again. "You've reached Buck Buckley! I can't—"

Exhibit B by Daisies_and_Briars (Future Fic, Established Buddie, Christopher POV | 19K | T): Seven years in the future, an adult Christopher has a chance to see his grandparents - and subsequently, his father - in a new light, on a family trip to El Paso.

No Chance (I Won’t Say I’m In Love) by scarmaddiewrites (Eddie Back from Texas, Roommates | 7K |T): The five times Eddie ignores his feelings for Buck and the one time he doesn’t

🔥 I’ll always be a bridesmaid (and I’ll never take one home) by paleredheadinascifi (Fake Relationship, Canon Divergent | 7K | T): Oh shit. It’s happening. It’s happening. The Universal Rom-Com Allocation System has finally found him and deemed him worthy. He’s going to be the best Fake Boyfriend this beautiful man has ever seen. Or, Eddie needs a fake boyfriend. Buck is about to deliver the Oscar-worthy performance of a lifetime.

You're The Closest to Heaven (That I'll Ever Be) by budsofafeather (fangirlingfeels) (Soulmates AU | 8K | M): Eddie meets Maddie, and everything seems to fall in place. Because there is a pull, even if it's one that Eddie cannot explain in words. Buck brings his sister Maddie over for a team lunch, tells them that she only recently moved from their family town of Hershey, Pennsylvania, to Los Angeles, California and Eddie thinks oh. Of course. This is why.

🔥 i want your flowers like babies want god's love by Daisies_and_Briars (Post-S8E12 Disconnected, Magical realism | 17K | E): In Texas, after a setback with Chris and his parents, Eddie is forced to confront his inner child. Literally.

The Great Wall Debacle (Or What Buck Calls Flirting) by Pyllif (crack, Getting Together | 13K | M): After Eddie saves Buck from getting crushed to death by slamming him against a wall, Buck becomes obsessed with the thought of Eddie's body pressed against his own. He then decides to do the most normal thing about it, which is throwing himself into danger in hopes that it will inspire Eddie to push him against a wall again.

Cut to the Feeling by moodlighting (Different First Meeting AU | 7K | T): We asked twenty strangers to kiss for the first time...

🔥 drive me, crazy by markofalover (Eddie in Texas, Getting Together | 5K | T): Raphael’s trying his best not to be nosy, but his eyes land on Eddie’s screen anyway, and he huffs out a quiet laugh. “My wife sends me stuff like that, too. I don’t know where she finds it.” “If she’s anything like Buck, she’s got the oddity section on AP News bookmarked.” Eddie’s card makes a soft little beep as he taps it against the machine, and Raphael smiles at him as he tears the receipt off and hands it over. “How long have y’all been together?”

pack it in, pick it up by markofalover (S8E13: Invisible | 2K | T): “You have no right to Christopher,” he says, not looking away. Not backing down. He sees Chris sick, at the chess meet. He sees his eyes, unfocused and panicked. He sees the way he looked back at his abuelo, anxiety thrumming through his body. “None. And if—if anything ever happened to me, you wouldn’t be getting a phone call. I need you to understand that.”

🔥 gaps of sunlight by markofalover (Eddie moves to Texas, Getting Together | 16K | E): “Is it possible for two people to get even closer after one of them moves away?” Chimney says, breaking the silence. Buck flushes. He locks his screen, the text thread between him and Eddie fading, but it just lights up again with a notification. ...or, Eddie moves, Buck pines, and they are both very normal about it.

put a ring on it by buckalmighty (glosstans) (PWP | 4K | E): or, buck goes to the emergency room cause he gets stuck in a cock ring and eddie ends up being the one who has to get it off. tomfoolery and smut ensues

no big deal by Wildehack (tyleet) (PWP, Roommates | 3K | E): “I haven’t jerked off since you guys moved back in.” Silence. Buck lowers his hands to see the look on Eddie’s face—whether he’s horrified, whether he’s betrayed, whether he wants Buck to move out right now—and he finds Eddie looking right at him, mouth open, cheeks red. “But,” Eddie says. “That was over a month ago.” 

on the news by Tizniz (S8E14: Sick Day Coda | 1K | G): It feels like hours or years pass before Eddie’s phone buzzes in his hand. He jumps, barely registering that it’s Buck calling as he swipes to answer. “Buck?!” “E-Eddie.” “Oh my god. Buck. Are…are you okay? I saw the news. Are you inside?!”

24 Hours on the Clock by Daisies_and_Briars (118 Firefam | 15K | M): During a painfully slow shift at the 118, everyone is in a weird mood, and nobody is acting normally. Surely the day will go fine.

all the stars align (and you are by my side) by justhockey (S8, Getting Together | 2K | G): Loving Buck feels like a hot drink on a cold day; it warms Eddie up from the inside out, spreading through his body like rays of sunlight.

a kiss doesn't mean i'm in love with you (except it does) by SimplyJustRowdy (Getting Together | 3K | G): 5+1 in which Buck and Eddie kiss each other goodbye and one time they kiss each other hello

Fever Dream by Tizniz (Sick fic | 3K | G): Buck and the no good, very bad fever dream.

i’m not going anywhere (at least not anywhere you’re not) by fleetinghearts (Getting Together | 3K | T): “Oh no, you’re not,” Eddie says. “You think I’m a bitch when I’m sick? You could put several cities worth of Real Housewives to shame.” or, it’s raining and eddie’s home and he might be a little in love with his best friend

Tu Eres Mi Nene, Nene by all-or-nothing-baby (BundleOfSoy) (PWP, Established Buddie | 5K | E): “Stupid,” Buck agrees. “So fucking stupid, Eds—I'm stupid, so stupidly fucking gone on you that I can hardly fucking breathe, fuck.”

he’s the earth and heaven to you by justhockey (S8, Getting Together | 4K | T): It’s not a new thing, probably. If Buck looked back through the last seven years he’s sure he could find a hundred moments where he was, well, less than normal about his best friend. But. But Buck can’t do that. He isn’t prepared to face the possibility that the way he feels is different than he’d always thought. Because…because if it’s different, then it means they are different. BuckandEddie. And he’s not sure if he could bear that.

need by rizcriz (Getting Together | 3K | M): Eddie’s straddling Buck’s back, hands digging into the meat of Buck’s thigh, working out the aches from one of the most exhausting shifts he’s ever been on. His thighs are bracketing Buck’s, and Buck, god, Buck can feel every shift and flex of those thighs as he leans forward and shifts his weight.

hold down my heart by inbetweenthestacks (Post-S8E13: Invisible | 1K | G): The morning after the chess tournament.

his hands on my body, your name on my mind by sterrenhemel (Post-S8E11: Holy Mother of God | 3K | M): Buck hooks up with Tommy and, in his drunkenness, confesses this to Eddie. Who reacts as normal as you'd expect him to.

Falling All In You by scarmaddiewrites (Established Buddie, PWP | 4K | E): Eddie comes back from Texas and for once in his life, everything is going his way.

let it once be me by stevesconverse (Eddie Coming Out, Fake Relationship | 6K | T): The one where Eddie Diaz accidentally slips into a gay crisis without even being aware of it, somehow. Or the one where Evan Buckley kisses Eddie in a bar, and Eddie ends up kissing Buck against a wall.

love's never lost when perspective is earned by stevesconverse (S8, Eddie goes to Texas | 9K | T): The one where Evan Buckley drives Eddie to the airport and ends up in his second gay crisis. Or the one where Eddie Diaz brings Buck a magnet in the shape of Texas.

i'd pick your thunder, i'd pick your rain by Nymika (S5E18: Starting Over, Getting Together | 3K | G): Buck wants (and wants, and wants), but he can't. He just—can't. Buck doesn't really think Eddie would have him, anyway. So he'd held that aching love he'd discovered close to his chest, felt its flickering warmth and the spark of hope that came with it, and then tucked it away. And things had been fine. He'd been managing it. Until now, when he's sitting in Hen and Karen's backyard in the fading evening light, and Eddie's wearing a stunning deep blue suit and a smile that's doing funny things to Buck's insides, and he just looks happy.

'cause my heart softens to your name by withmeornotatall (Roommates, Getting Together | 3K | M): OR: eddie wants, buck's scared to want, they slow dance about it

🔥 like a river runs by Nymika (Manifest AU | 56K | T): "You look exactly the same," Eddie says with tears in his eyes. "How is that even possible?" "I don't know," Buck says, his thumb swiping across Eddie's knuckles. "I don't understand it." He may be the same, but looking at Eddie, Buck can see the years on him. His hair is a bit different, the creases by the corners of his eyes just a bit deeper. There's a new scar on his right hand that Buck hasn't seen before.

And I Know That I'm Right 'Cause I Hear It In The Night by all-or-nothing-baby (BundleOfSoy) (Getting Together | 1K | G): Buck is dreaming. Buck is dreaming about Eddie. Buck is dreaming about Eddie making Buck feel wanted. Eddie smiles—and before realising what he's doing he's in his living room leaning over his couch, leaning over Buck, pressing a soft kiss to Buck's birthmark as if he's done it a thousand times before.

Forever by all-or-nothing-baby (BundleOfSoy) (Coming Out, Getting Together | 1K | T): Buck tries to help Eddie with the clasp on his St. Christopher chain, and Eddie promptly loses his mind.

678-999-8212 by scarmaddiewrites (Eddie in Texas, PWP, Phone Sex | 4K | E): The Eddie spills something on his shirt while FaceTime cooking with Buck and Buck can’t take it anymore fic

we are human after all by facewithoutheart (Eddie in Texas, Pre-Buddie | 3K | T): With Eddie in El Paso and Buck resting from a minor injury, Buck buys one of those robot cameras for watching pets so he and Eddie can hang out all day.

Podfic

[Podfic] The Blood Between My Teeth is My Own by Favourite_alias for letmetellyouaboutmyfeels (Werewolf AU | 3.5-4h | E): When Eddie Diaz moves to Los Angeles, he has no idea he won't be the only werewolf in town, or that he'll end up as a part of a pack. But he's determined to ride out his curse the way he sees fit, no matter how much a certain Evan "Buck" Buckley keeps trying to persuade him otherwise. Of course, life has other plans.

[mooodlighting]

editing is so funny because it's like "damn, i wrote 'before' two times within three paragraphs. they are going to stone me in the town square for this"

[mooodlighting]

in fanfiction one must sometimes ask ourselves not if he would do that but under what conditions would he would do that

[mooodlighting]

Reblog if you’re grateful for your commenters <3

[mooodlighting]

rereading what i have so far of a wip fic to get back into writing it and i am just like oh man i love this. this was written for ME. you GOTTA write for yourself and GOTTA be your own biggest fan.

[mooodlighting]

“what’s your writing process” i put a pathetic guy in a blender and blend blend blend

[mooodlighting]

Never posting my fanfiction. Call that AO2.

[mooodlighting]

the secret to writing good smut that doesn't feel like you're just repeating the same words for junk and fucking over and over is to spend your effort writing about everything happening around the sex and everything happening inside the heads of the people having sex and before you know it you have four paragraphs of introspection and two paragraphs describing the space and it's okay to use the word cock again