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It’s that time of year again

Next week I find out my annual bonus and raise. My boss’s boss told me in a “skip level” meeting (basically a meeting cuz they’re afraid of me leaving the company) she thinks I’ll be pleased with the results. I’ll be grateful for whatever I get but unless that raise is over 10% it’s not really gonna touch the financial changes that are about to really hit. I’m hoping my bonus is at least what it was last year cuz I’ve got bills to pay. This year I luckily don’t have a major purchase like last year when I had to replace my laptop so I can actually pay off a couple things.

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More roommate bs

As the countdown to 7/7 gets closer, as predicted, my roommate Imp is becoming more unbearable.

Early Sunday evening I prepared for my usual Sunday night bar visit. I have my bag of crochet and trying to remember what all I need from the store when I stop on my way to the bar and what I want from Taco Bell as I plan to stop there too before getting a couple of drinks. My roommate says “if you’re going out tonight you’ll need to have the car back by 2 am”. I said ok. I’m usually home by 1 but let me see something. I look at Nap and ask her if she has any plans tonight. She says no. I then ask her if I can use her car cuz Josh has to go to work super early and I don’t want to chance something happening and I’m not back on time. She’s like sure! I tell my roommate that I’ll use Nap’s car just to be safe and that way he doesn’t have to possibly walk halfway across the complex for the car. Dude gets mad mad.

Like why are you mad? I’m being courteous and making sure you don’t have to worry about if the car is here or not. He then starts in about how I park and how the wheels are never straight when I park and I should back in to make it easier for him. I’m like well it’s easier for me to back out due to how our car is shaped. He then lectures me and goes on about when he has to back out to leave he almost hits the vehicle next to ours cuz he can’t see where he’s going in the mirrors. Nap and I had one of those record scratch moments and say simultaneously “you’re supposed to be looking behind you when going in reverse!”

It was a circular argument that lasted for 30 minutes and he kept thinking he won but I��d correct him again. He kept saying how whatever his hang up with the wheels was part of drivers ed and how he guesses that Texas doesn’t cover that, which explains our driving. I’m like dude, what you’re trying to claim is law isn’t even part of German driving laws and they’re strict af. And still he argued. I finally left.

Nap said after I left she tore into him. She said she told him that if he cares about me so much and is really my friend he’d actually act like one and if he doesn’t shape up he’s definitely not gonna be missed when we part ways. She apparently brought up how his behavior towards me in regard to my social life is completely unacceptable. I’m allowed to have friends and I’m allowed to have a regular booty call. I already am as respectful as I can keeping any sex talk to a minimum around him. He can’t just demand that I not talk about my friends. She didn’t bring up his drinking but definitely hinted at it. We all know he would check out if she’d brought it up anyways. She concluded with “good day, sir” and apparently turned on her anime and he went into his room.

To add to this, today he came outta his room and I was looking at apartments and was telling Nap we may be able to consider a 3 bedroom that the two of us qualify for together and then we can find another roommate for the 3rd room. However it’ll come down to what my annual raise is on if I’d consider it. Obviously Imp hearing this got pouty. Guess he didn’t like that I’d rather live with just about anyone else but him. Just about anyone else but him won’t spend their every waking moment outside of work drinking though. The only time I see him sober is when he gets home from work. That’s the Imp I enjoy being around but after him being home 1.5-2 hours he’s drunk and becomes super annoying and then starts swaying. It’s been about a year since the last time I’ve had to do it, but I’m sick of having to attend to wounds he’s gotten falling when drunk. On one occasion a few years back I even got accused the next day for bruises on him cuz he fell and because I helped him up drunk Imp tried to say I pushed him. I was nowhere near him when he fell, was actually in another room.

I hope my annual raise is reasonable. It’ll make this whole thing a lot easier but I doubt it’ll be anywhere close to what I need.

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Went to see my hookup last night and we spent a few hours just nerdin out before anything else happened. I get home today and tellin my friend Nap about the nerdy conversation that took place but most of it just came out in a giddy “HE READ THE COMICS”. My roommate, Imp, comes outta his room to have a smoke on the patio and just glared at Nap and me as he walked past us. I whispered “I bet he’d prefer me tellin you about the s*x than the nerdy shit right about now” and we practically cackled cuz I know it’s true. Almost 6 years ago when I broke up with my last boyfriend cuz he couldn’t match me intellectually (sweet guy though, but need more than that and good s*x for a relationship to work), I told Imp then I’d rather be single living with him the rest of my life than deal with someone who can’t match that. I honestly thought I wouldn’t meet someone who matches me like that, let alone someone who can appreciate the differences between the comics and the movies and shows that they are based on without being a complete douche canoe. I tried to date periodically over the years but after a couple weeks to a month I’d get annoyed and delete the apps.

Flash forward to now and I by chance meet this dude at my favorite bar who I would flirt with hardcore cuz he’s pretty attractive and we just kinda clicked. We end up hookin up the night I overheard him having a conversation across the bar about ancient writing systems. The second time I went to his place I walk in and he’s watching Farscape, which established he’s on the nerdy side. Last night before I went over I asked if he watched anime and this lead us down the Deadpool unicorn bit. Next thing I know I’m over there and we spent at least two hours discussing comics and movies and shows and even Supernatural, agreeing on our opinions about Sam and Dean.

Imp is beyond upset and I almost feel bad but I don’t cuz I deserve to have someone who at minimum I can hookup with and add in that we actually have things in common and I may have a massive crush at this point. DB (my social media nickname for my hookup) is all the things I said I wouldn’t find and it’s killin Imp. Thing is, Imp has a long distance girlfriend. He should be happy for me but he told Nap not long ago that basically DB will end up hurting me and I’ll want Imp back living with me. I already told Imp that I will miss him as my friend. We’ve lived together for 10 years for crying out loud. Yet Imp doesn’t see it. He just thinks of himself and seeing/hearing me happy like this pisses him off and makes him jealous. Idk why with the “he read the comics” cuz I’ve picked on him for never reading any comics, though never held it against him cuz I know we all have different interests.

And it’s crazy to me how much more visceral his reaction has been to my being so giddy about DB’s nerdom compared to him overhearing about the s*x. I actually understand him not wanting to hear that, but this reaction to my connecting with someone with comics and other common interests that Imp and I don’t share is more intense. It was almost scary the look on his face earlier. That wasn’t annoyance from hearing about intimacy. That was near rage. Luckily he won’t resort to violence cuz he knows if we were to get into a physical altercation that I’d win. We may be the same height but I’ve got 30 pounds on him and a good chunk is muscle so I’m stronger than him. Doesn’t take away the fear my inner hurt child felt seeing that look on his face.

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Had taken screenshots of the Gulf of Mexico as it appears on google maps and apple maps and posted it on fb. My roommate sees the post and asked me why I was posting made up stuff. I’m like dude, I literally took those screenshots today. You can tell I took them due to the pfp in the screenshot. Like come tf on dude

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I guess I can’t talk after I get off work at 9 pm and can’t leave the house after work either cuz my roommate thinks my friend and I are too loud even when we’re literally whispering like last night when I came in from the bar. Idk wtf he wants. All I know is that he’s being a jerk cuz he doesn’t like my friend Nap. He wants it to just be the two of us and I don’t want to be alone with him anymore, since 11/30. I woke up to news that a friend of mine passed last night and if my roommate comes in from work on his bs today, I will go off.

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straight men have beauty standards for men that are completely different than the beauty standards women and gay men have for men and then they get mad when they conform to the beauty standards other podcast bros set for them and women still don’t find them attractive

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I take crochet to the bar pretty much every time I go. I started AstroKnotty’s Fairy Beary Hood pattern while there. I worked off on from 10 pm to 1 am, taking breaks to chat with people around me about what I was doing, having a smoke outside, and going up to sing karaoke. Honestly I’m pretty impressed with how much I got done with all the pauses, especially with how many times I stopped to let people look at the stitches. I don’t mind letting people look and sometimes teaching them something. I’ve also influenced a person or two to bring their own projects to the bar, though it’s very rare.

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Finished this 2/3… I think I’m gonna have a productive crochet year. Started another beanie when I finished it

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An important PSA to remember!

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Billionaires will go fascist before playing fair.

All these companies stole and stole and stole, and when the FTC comes knocking, all the CEOs sprinted to the cesspool of corruption to beg for special treatment. They went to Trump.

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do people who live in countries that don't have snow know about the snow silence? When you get a nice big dumping of fresh snow and you step outside into an infinitely harshly contrasted world and there's no sound because the snow absorbs it all? I believe it fits the traditional use of terrific both wonderful and incredible but also causing a great terror.

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Everything I made in January 2025

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I’m baaaaack… been gone so long idk if anyone I interacted with is still here lol

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